Title: Life's a Bitch
Chapter 12: Gay?
Over the next few weeks James and Lily hung out more together and were always seen around each other. But they still hung out with their friends, just not as much.
One day James, Lily and the gang were in the library studying when James looked over to Lily. He admired her for a minute and then tapped her on her shoulder. "Yes James?" Lily asked kind of annoyed that she was pulled out of her studies.
"Sorry, can we go outside for a minute I have to ask you something." James whispered.
"Why can't you just ask me here?"
"I can't ask you here because I don't want other people to hear."
Lily sighed and gave in, "Fine, but we have to come back in soon."
"This will only take a minute."
James got up and pulled Lily to her feet and ran out the door. Lily rolled her eyes and followed.
Fettie, Sirius and Remus smiled. They knew exactly what James was going to do. "About time! God, they have been flirting with each other for the past year." Sirius exaggerated.
"Sirius, Lily has only been out of the Hospital Wing a couple of weeks." Remus corrected.
"Shut up Remus, you're ruining my moment."
"You have a moment?" Remus asked.
Fettie just couldn't hold it in anymore and cracked up. "Right...Sir..Sirius..have..a...mo...mo.moment?"
"Not anymore, you two just ruined it." Sirius said disappointedly.
The librarian glared at the three of them but let them slide because they were her favorite students now. Even though she won't admit it. ~Lily and James outside~
"So what did you want to ask me about James?" Lily asked getting straight to the point.
"Uh well-I uh-"
"James please don't stutter with me. Just tell me what you want to ask. Is it advice about a girl?"
"Yeah sort of; you see. I like this girl."
"Well James I know that, unless if you liked guys then that means you gay but I don't think you are gay. Unless there's something you haven't told me Mr. Potter."
James laughed, "No I'm not gay Lily; back to my problem."
"Oh right your girl problem." Lily mocked.
"Yeah well you see I like this girl and I really want to ask her out, but I'm too scared."
"And you want me to do what exactly?" Lily teased which earned her a light punch on the shoulder. "Ok, ok. So who's the lucky girl? Is it someone I-"
"Oh Jamsie!"
Just then James ex-girlfriend, Kristen Preston, came in. James broke up with her in his 3rd year. She still has gotten it through her brain that she and James had broken up three years ago.
"Damn!" James smacked his forehead. Damn you Kristen, you fucked up my moment, James thought.
"Uh James, why don't we continue this talk later ok? I have homework to finish anyways. See ya."
Lily turned and walked back to the library. "No Lily stay." James whispered.
"What was she going here?" Kristen asked wrinkling her nose in disgust.
James turned around to her and shouted "What the Fuck do you want from me woman? We broke up in 3rd year! Get over it, move on."
Kristen gasped and her eyes started to water, "You don't love me anymore James?"
James threw his hands up in frustration, "ERRRRRRRRR! I never loved you! Go away!"
James ran back to the common room leaving a very depressed and broken hearted Kristen crying.
~Back with Lily in the library~
Lily entered the library disappointed. I thought they broke up. Oh well maybe she's the girl he was talking about. I was stupid to think that it was me. Lily thought negatively.
Lily walked back over to the table where Sirius, Remus and Fettie were sitting at. Fettie looked at Lily perplexed, "What's up Lil?"
"Nothing much," Lily said quietly, "Look, I'm going to go back to the room and train. We might have a battle next week and I haven't trained in over 2 weeks. See ya."
Lily gathered up her stuff and left. Fettie looked over to the guys and they shrugged. "I'm going to go and help my depressed girl out. Bye." Fettie picked up her belongings and left.
"Come on Remus lets go and ask James what happened." Sirius said as he gathered his possessions. Remus raised his right eye brow, "You just want to get out of this work."
"So?"
Remus laughed, "You're so impossible."
~In the common room with James and the other two Marauders~
Sirius and Remus enter the common room to find James sitting in front of the fireplace with his head in his hands groaning. Sirius and Remus put their belongings on a nearby table and walked over to James.
Sirius put his hand on James back, "What's the matter James?"
"Shupid Kristhen shaeard Willy way" mumbled James.
"Stupid Kristen scared Lily away?" Sirius asked. Remus looked at the two of them and sighed, Man, those two are so close they can even understand each other when their not even speaking English. I really feel like I'm not needed but I'm still going to stay. Remus thought.
Remus put his hand on James shoulder and said, "Tell us what happened from when you took Lily outside. And please speak clearly."
James lifted his head from his hands and told the guys what happened when he and Lily went outside.
When he was done Sirius slapped James back, "Well we can't get them all. Just try again next time."
"Shut Sirius, look James I'm positive that Lily most like, likes you back." {Remus}
"Yeah, I mean you two are never seen apart or never seen not flirting with each other." Commented Sirius, earning him a punch on the shoulder from James.
"Come on you guys I'm hungry lets go to the kitchens and grab a bite to eat." Said Remus.
~Lily and Fettie~
Fettie went straight up to Lily's training room once she got all her stuff packed up from the library. She didn't even stop to comfort James as she passed him in the common room. She just sighed, Lily you're really killing him.
Fettie entered Lily's training room to find Lily already dressed in full sparing gear, punching the punching bag. As Lily punched the bad, she grunted.
Fettie grabbed Lily's shoulder and pulled Lily away from the punching bag and sat her down on a chest that was full of swords. "Lily, I need you to relax." Lily took a deep breath and asked "Please Fettie can we just train and not talk about what happened outside until we're done?"
Fettie sighed, "No Lily, we need to talk about it now." Lily groaned, "Come on Fettie, please."
"No Lily. I know you took a really big step when you told James about your personal life, but you're really hurting James."
Lily stood up, "He'll thank me for that later on."
"What do you mean he'll thank you later on? You want him to thank you for all the pain that you're putting him through?"
"No, he'll thank me for not getting into a serious relationship with him once he finds someone he loves that's normal."
"Normal? What's normal Lils?"
"Normal is someone who isn't an underground fighter, someone who will be able to be there if something is wrong. I'm not that. And I never will be."
"Lily I think that's only half of the reason why you're hurting him. I think you're scared. Scared that he'll hurt you, just like what your father did to your mother."
Lily didn't say anything for a while, they remained silent until Lily spoke up, "You're right Fettie. I don't want to get hurt like my mom."
"But James isn't your father Lils. He's a different person. Someone who likes you a lot, maybe even loves you."
"How do you know Fettie?"
"I can see it in his eyes."
"I don't care Fettie. I don't want to be loved. You and my mom are the only people that I love I can't-"
"You can't what Lily? Love someone else? Lily, open you beautiful green eyes and look around. You have people here who love you even if you don't know it. You're just too blind to see it. Stop hiding your emotions from everyone and let them out. Stop pretending to be all tough. You don't need to do that."
"Take your own advice Fettie. You and I are the same! We can't show emotion."
"GOD DAMN LILY! You and I aren't the "same" as you think anymore. You're not chosen to do something beyond anything you've imagined. You aren't chosen to go on a path you don't want to, just because of who your relatives were."
Lily looked at Fettie perplexed.
"What do you mean?"
"Lily there's something I have to tell you."
Lily looked at Fettie horrified.
"I'm sorry Lily, but.."
~@~!~!~!~! I'm so evil. Sorry. Anyways Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all my readers, even the people who doesn't like it. Hope you guys like this. I'm really sorry about the rush ending before. I was in a hurry to finish it because I have this other that I really like and I want to work on that one more. I told some of my other readers that I'm going to be fixing my mistakes and adding some more chapter and drama into this story so please keep reading and reviewing. Peace out.
~AtwistedAngel13~
Chapter 12: Gay?
Over the next few weeks James and Lily hung out more together and were always seen around each other. But they still hung out with their friends, just not as much.
One day James, Lily and the gang were in the library studying when James looked over to Lily. He admired her for a minute and then tapped her on her shoulder. "Yes James?" Lily asked kind of annoyed that she was pulled out of her studies.
"Sorry, can we go outside for a minute I have to ask you something." James whispered.
"Why can't you just ask me here?"
"I can't ask you here because I don't want other people to hear."
Lily sighed and gave in, "Fine, but we have to come back in soon."
"This will only take a minute."
James got up and pulled Lily to her feet and ran out the door. Lily rolled her eyes and followed.
Fettie, Sirius and Remus smiled. They knew exactly what James was going to do. "About time! God, they have been flirting with each other for the past year." Sirius exaggerated.
"Sirius, Lily has only been out of the Hospital Wing a couple of weeks." Remus corrected.
"Shut up Remus, you're ruining my moment."
"You have a moment?" Remus asked.
Fettie just couldn't hold it in anymore and cracked up. "Right...Sir..Sirius..have..a...mo...mo.moment?"
"Not anymore, you two just ruined it." Sirius said disappointedly.
The librarian glared at the three of them but let them slide because they were her favorite students now. Even though she won't admit it. ~Lily and James outside~
"So what did you want to ask me about James?" Lily asked getting straight to the point.
"Uh well-I uh-"
"James please don't stutter with me. Just tell me what you want to ask. Is it advice about a girl?"
"Yeah sort of; you see. I like this girl."
"Well James I know that, unless if you liked guys then that means you gay but I don't think you are gay. Unless there's something you haven't told me Mr. Potter."
James laughed, "No I'm not gay Lily; back to my problem."
"Oh right your girl problem." Lily mocked.
"Yeah well you see I like this girl and I really want to ask her out, but I'm too scared."
"And you want me to do what exactly?" Lily teased which earned her a light punch on the shoulder. "Ok, ok. So who's the lucky girl? Is it someone I-"
"Oh Jamsie!"
Just then James ex-girlfriend, Kristen Preston, came in. James broke up with her in his 3rd year. She still has gotten it through her brain that she and James had broken up three years ago.
"Damn!" James smacked his forehead. Damn you Kristen, you fucked up my moment, James thought.
"Uh James, why don't we continue this talk later ok? I have homework to finish anyways. See ya."
Lily turned and walked back to the library. "No Lily stay." James whispered.
"What was she going here?" Kristen asked wrinkling her nose in disgust.
James turned around to her and shouted "What the Fuck do you want from me woman? We broke up in 3rd year! Get over it, move on."
Kristen gasped and her eyes started to water, "You don't love me anymore James?"
James threw his hands up in frustration, "ERRRRRRRRR! I never loved you! Go away!"
James ran back to the common room leaving a very depressed and broken hearted Kristen crying.
~Back with Lily in the library~
Lily entered the library disappointed. I thought they broke up. Oh well maybe she's the girl he was talking about. I was stupid to think that it was me. Lily thought negatively.
Lily walked back over to the table where Sirius, Remus and Fettie were sitting at. Fettie looked at Lily perplexed, "What's up Lil?"
"Nothing much," Lily said quietly, "Look, I'm going to go back to the room and train. We might have a battle next week and I haven't trained in over 2 weeks. See ya."
Lily gathered up her stuff and left. Fettie looked over to the guys and they shrugged. "I'm going to go and help my depressed girl out. Bye." Fettie picked up her belongings and left.
"Come on Remus lets go and ask James what happened." Sirius said as he gathered his possessions. Remus raised his right eye brow, "You just want to get out of this work."
"So?"
Remus laughed, "You're so impossible."
~In the common room with James and the other two Marauders~
Sirius and Remus enter the common room to find James sitting in front of the fireplace with his head in his hands groaning. Sirius and Remus put their belongings on a nearby table and walked over to James.
Sirius put his hand on James back, "What's the matter James?"
"Shupid Kristhen shaeard Willy way" mumbled James.
"Stupid Kristen scared Lily away?" Sirius asked. Remus looked at the two of them and sighed, Man, those two are so close they can even understand each other when their not even speaking English. I really feel like I'm not needed but I'm still going to stay. Remus thought.
Remus put his hand on James shoulder and said, "Tell us what happened from when you took Lily outside. And please speak clearly."
James lifted his head from his hands and told the guys what happened when he and Lily went outside.
When he was done Sirius slapped James back, "Well we can't get them all. Just try again next time."
"Shut Sirius, look James I'm positive that Lily most like, likes you back." {Remus}
"Yeah, I mean you two are never seen apart or never seen not flirting with each other." Commented Sirius, earning him a punch on the shoulder from James.
"Come on you guys I'm hungry lets go to the kitchens and grab a bite to eat." Said Remus.
~Lily and Fettie~
Fettie went straight up to Lily's training room once she got all her stuff packed up from the library. She didn't even stop to comfort James as she passed him in the common room. She just sighed, Lily you're really killing him.
Fettie entered Lily's training room to find Lily already dressed in full sparing gear, punching the punching bag. As Lily punched the bad, she grunted.
Fettie grabbed Lily's shoulder and pulled Lily away from the punching bag and sat her down on a chest that was full of swords. "Lily, I need you to relax." Lily took a deep breath and asked "Please Fettie can we just train and not talk about what happened outside until we're done?"
Fettie sighed, "No Lily, we need to talk about it now." Lily groaned, "Come on Fettie, please."
"No Lily. I know you took a really big step when you told James about your personal life, but you're really hurting James."
Lily stood up, "He'll thank me for that later on."
"What do you mean he'll thank you later on? You want him to thank you for all the pain that you're putting him through?"
"No, he'll thank me for not getting into a serious relationship with him once he finds someone he loves that's normal."
"Normal? What's normal Lils?"
"Normal is someone who isn't an underground fighter, someone who will be able to be there if something is wrong. I'm not that. And I never will be."
"Lily I think that's only half of the reason why you're hurting him. I think you're scared. Scared that he'll hurt you, just like what your father did to your mother."
Lily didn't say anything for a while, they remained silent until Lily spoke up, "You're right Fettie. I don't want to get hurt like my mom."
"But James isn't your father Lils. He's a different person. Someone who likes you a lot, maybe even loves you."
"How do you know Fettie?"
"I can see it in his eyes."
"I don't care Fettie. I don't want to be loved. You and my mom are the only people that I love I can't-"
"You can't what Lily? Love someone else? Lily, open you beautiful green eyes and look around. You have people here who love you even if you don't know it. You're just too blind to see it. Stop hiding your emotions from everyone and let them out. Stop pretending to be all tough. You don't need to do that."
"Take your own advice Fettie. You and I are the same! We can't show emotion."
"GOD DAMN LILY! You and I aren't the "same" as you think anymore. You're not chosen to do something beyond anything you've imagined. You aren't chosen to go on a path you don't want to, just because of who your relatives were."
Lily looked at Fettie perplexed.
"What do you mean?"
"Lily there's something I have to tell you."
Lily looked at Fettie horrified.
"I'm sorry Lily, but.."
~@~!~!~!~! I'm so evil. Sorry. Anyways Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all my readers, even the people who doesn't like it. Hope you guys like this. I'm really sorry about the rush ending before. I was in a hurry to finish it because I have this other that I really like and I want to work on that one more. I told some of my other readers that I'm going to be fixing my mistakes and adding some more chapter and drama into this story so please keep reading and reviewing. Peace out.
~AtwistedAngel13~