Scars
Author: Sammy Neko...yep I'm back...
Disclaimer: I do not own GW or anything associated with it...except for the creations from my warped little mind... Yui: Us in other words (points to self, Niku, & Trio)
nods so no sue, nothing to give.
Warnings: what first...major angst, suicidal things, some sap, and you may need tissues...depends on your tolerance. 2x5, 1x6, 3x4, 9xC, 11xS...think that's it...and there's lots of things were the G-boys are hurt in some way, and not to mention the really sad thoughts...I suck at summaries...sorry... Oh and the POV changes every chapter, starts off with Wufei's though, just to help...
Notes: yes, yes, one of those angst fics that makes you want to either hug the hell out of the person whose angst filled, or kill the author for writing it...I swear if I get any more death threats...
Niku: don't worry, they say they want to kill you but then are begging for more later...
Speaking of which, sorry about Notes. I don't know if I'll finish it or even try to, it just kinda died in the middle there...maybe if I get enough feedback...shrug you never know. But anyway! Go read the fic and tell me what you think! Comments of any kind are deeply craved...so please read and enjoy!
Scars
Chapter 1
I walked down the hallway toward the room at the end, anticipation making my stomach queasy. I stood in the doorway and leaned my shoulder against the frame, staring at the longhaired figure that sat cross-legged on the bed with his back to me. I swallowed the lump in my throat and took a breath.
"You said you'd stop." The figure didn't move, save for a shuddering breath that made their shoulders shake. "Duo." A pale hand ran through his bangs and he turned to me, his violet eyes red and puffy. He smiled at me faintly, his cheeks splotchy from being rubbed.
"Duo?" he turned completely towards me, his hands falling into his lap. He tugged at them nervously. I moved over to stand in from of him, my thighs pressing against the edge of the bed. He snatched at my hands and began fidgeting with my fingers, his pale, icy hands contrasting greatly to my warm bronze ones.
"It's hard though 'Fei. You know that." I nodded.
"I know. But I've seen you grin through the worst of battles and come out strong in the end." I tucked a stray bang back behind his ear. His braid had come undone.
"That's why I'm confused about why this should affect my like it has." He rubbed his eyes. He was getting emotional again.
I held his hand against my chest, "Because it hits closer to home, this is understandable. Duo he's our friend, your best friend. I'd worry if you didn't burst into tears, but this." I tapped his wrist, which was bandaged tightly. "Has to stop. I know you feel you can't handle this, and I know that you even did this during the war. But the war is over, this isn't your fault." He rubbed his eyes with the hand I wasn't holding. "How'd you know about this during the war?" I smiled at him.
"Come on Duo we all wanted to die at some point or another, and Iobserved a lot more than the others that and Quatre all but jumped on you about it. Your lucky Trowa was there most of the time or Quatre was gone. But he did talk to me about it one day."
"Oh." He nodded. "That would explain why he would follow me around for days on end in between missions. I figured he was lonely." We both started laughing, and I studied his hand for a moment.
"'Fei?" I looked up at him, he was smiling again but I could see the tears welling up into his eyes again and his bottom lip began to tremble.
"Duo please don't. Oh, Duo." I pulled him to me and held him tightly, shushing him gently. He just sobbed into my chest, his hands clutching at the back of my shirt. I kept my arms wrapped around his shoulders and just comforted him the best I could.
After a few moments I pulled back from him, gently prying his hands from my shirt."
"Duo. Duo." He looked up at me and wiped his eyes. "We have to leave now. We need to meet Trowa at The Shop, alright?" he nodded. "Are you sure?" he nodded again.
"Yeah, where'd you put my boots?" he jumped down off the bed and went into the bathroom.
"They're beside the door where your coats hanging too." I walked into the kitchen and put my jacket on, patting my pockets to make sure I hand the keys. I spun around still patting my pockets, then went and searched in the living room as Duo came in puling his hair up into a ponytail.
"Something wrong?" I looked around again.
"Where's my cell phone?" he started laughing and reached up into my left breast pocket, puling out the little silver flip phone. "oh." I slipped it into my right side pocket. He took my hand.
"Looks like your affected too." I nodded and kissed him.
"Each unto ones own as you would say. Come on we need to hurry so that we're not too horribly late." Duo nodded and slipped on his long sleeved black sweater before stepping into his boots, lacing them up quickly.
"No coat?" He shook his head and pulled his cell phone out of his coat hanging b the door, putting it into his back jeans pocket before snapping his back pack strap across his chest.
"Its not that chilly out. Only matter of time until you guys are begging me to stop walking around in my boxers." I just laughed and closed and locked the door to the apartment.
"You boys going out?" I looked up and saw our middle aged neighbor sitting outside his door, which stood open with a radio blaring some Skynard song in the background.
"Just going to meet some friends Mr. Connolei." He nodded at me.
"That's good, that's good. You guys have a good time."
"Sure thing Mr. C, hey we still up for poker night?"
"As long as your ready to lose our money Duo."
"My money? Who said anything about using my money?" They both started laughing, I just looked at them.
"Well we got to go, bye Mr. Connolei." He waved us good-bye as I herded Duo down the stairs to the truck.
"'My money'" I snorted and started up the truck, Duo just laughed as I pulled out and made my way for town.
The atmosphere was completely opposite of the happy mood we had been in when I turned off the engine. Even the ever present rambling of the radio in the background was gone, after Duo had flipped through the stations really fast for ten minutes before finally turning it off and staring out the window.
I put the keys in my pocket and looked over at him. He was sitting with one hand on his la and the other was propped up against the window with his chin in his hand.
"You ready to do this?" he looked at me and nodded opening his door. I opened my door too and started to step out.
"Wufei?" I looked over at him, he was still sitting in the seat with one leg dangling down.
"Yeah?" he looked at me.
"I'm scared."
"I know. I am too, but we have to do this. You ready to go in now?" he nodded and got out. We shut our doors and walked up to the door. I felt Duo grasping my hand, and I squeezed it reassuringly.
The jingle of the bells attached to the door brought a black haired Arabian woman out from behind a counter.
"Hi Amy." She wiped her hands on her apron slowly.
"Hey Wufei. Duo?" he looked up at her a little stunned, his mind had wandered. "Don't I get a hug?" she smiled at him. He kind of smiled back at her and walked into her open arms hugging just as fiercely as she did him.
"He'll come out of this good okay?" he nodded and pulled away. "Alright hon, you go on back there. They're all waiting." He nodded again and headed back towards the back room. I walked up towards her.
"You really think that?" she looked at me,
"Would you tell him otherwise? Would you tell him that he could be losing his best friend at any minute?"
"You know I wouldn't. But I wouldn't lie to him either." I patted her arm and went in the same direction as Duo had.
I leaned in the doorway of the room where everyone had gathered. Quatre and the girls were all sitting quietly with tears in their eyes, save for Une. Sally was at the hospital with Zechs. Trowa was talking quietly with Cathy and Noin. Duo was sitting a little away from everyone in a chair with his legs drawn up against his chest, his bag resting beside him.
"Did I come too late and miss the main discussion?" They all looked at me and most of them kind of smiled. Duo just looked down at his knees and pulled them closer.
"You guys just got here not five minutes after us, so the conversations haven't even started." Trowa stood up and walked over to get a cup of coffee, handing it to me. I nodded thanks to him and pulled a chair out next to Duo and sat down.
"So what are we doing?" I nudged Duo's arm and gave him the coffee, he took it and took a sip, then made a face and handed it back. I smiled. "How are we getting up there?"
"Well, we're going to take the Preventer's van to one of Quatre's private shuttles. Then we plan to go from there to the hospital. How's that sound to you?" I shrugged and stood up and walked to the coffee counter.
"Doesn't sound so bad, but what are we doing when we get there?" I started pouring cream and sugar into the coffee, the way Duo liked it. I sat back down and handed it to him.
"Well I have a house there so we could stay in it."
"Quatre you have a house everywhere."
He smiled, "Yeah, and Relena's offered transportation straight to the hospital, then to the house. Then whatever goes from there." I nodded.
"Is she going to be there?" Duo took a gulp of his coffee.
"She couldn't make it, she said she'd come as soon as the meeting is over. She'd cancel it but it's one of those big ones with colony officials." Noin ran a hand through her hair.
"When do we leave?" I took the cup from Duo before he started tearing it apart. Trowa shrugged.
"When the van gets here. 'Till then we just wait around and enjoy Amy's good cooking.'
Everyone murmured agreement and started filing out. I stayed behind with Duo and kissed him before sending him after food.
Trowa came up to me. "How is he? I'd ask Quatre but I can't get anything out of him right now." I shrugged and threw away the cup.
"How do you think he is Trowa?"
"The same way you were when he was severely injured during a mission." I smiled at him.
"You always bring it back to that don't you?
"It was the only thing I knew." I nodded
"He's worse. Remember when he had to do that mission on L2?" he nodded. "He's worse than he was after that." Trowa just looked at me. "But like before I'll go through hell and back with him to make sure he comes through."
"You always have."
I only nodded.
Author: Sammy Neko...yep I'm back...
Disclaimer: I do not own GW or anything associated with it...except for the creations from my warped little mind... Yui: Us in other words (points to self, Niku, & Trio)
nods so no sue, nothing to give.
Warnings: what first...major angst, suicidal things, some sap, and you may need tissues...depends on your tolerance. 2x5, 1x6, 3x4, 9xC, 11xS...think that's it...and there's lots of things were the G-boys are hurt in some way, and not to mention the really sad thoughts...I suck at summaries...sorry... Oh and the POV changes every chapter, starts off with Wufei's though, just to help...
Notes: yes, yes, one of those angst fics that makes you want to either hug the hell out of the person whose angst filled, or kill the author for writing it...I swear if I get any more death threats...
Niku: don't worry, they say they want to kill you but then are begging for more later...
Speaking of which, sorry about Notes. I don't know if I'll finish it or even try to, it just kinda died in the middle there...maybe if I get enough feedback...shrug you never know. But anyway! Go read the fic and tell me what you think! Comments of any kind are deeply craved...so please read and enjoy!
Scars
Chapter 1
I walked down the hallway toward the room at the end, anticipation making my stomach queasy. I stood in the doorway and leaned my shoulder against the frame, staring at the longhaired figure that sat cross-legged on the bed with his back to me. I swallowed the lump in my throat and took a breath.
"You said you'd stop." The figure didn't move, save for a shuddering breath that made their shoulders shake. "Duo." A pale hand ran through his bangs and he turned to me, his violet eyes red and puffy. He smiled at me faintly, his cheeks splotchy from being rubbed.
"Duo?" he turned completely towards me, his hands falling into his lap. He tugged at them nervously. I moved over to stand in from of him, my thighs pressing against the edge of the bed. He snatched at my hands and began fidgeting with my fingers, his pale, icy hands contrasting greatly to my warm bronze ones.
"It's hard though 'Fei. You know that." I nodded.
"I know. But I've seen you grin through the worst of battles and come out strong in the end." I tucked a stray bang back behind his ear. His braid had come undone.
"That's why I'm confused about why this should affect my like it has." He rubbed his eyes. He was getting emotional again.
I held his hand against my chest, "Because it hits closer to home, this is understandable. Duo he's our friend, your best friend. I'd worry if you didn't burst into tears, but this." I tapped his wrist, which was bandaged tightly. "Has to stop. I know you feel you can't handle this, and I know that you even did this during the war. But the war is over, this isn't your fault." He rubbed his eyes with the hand I wasn't holding. "How'd you know about this during the war?" I smiled at him.
"Come on Duo we all wanted to die at some point or another, and Iobserved a lot more than the others that and Quatre all but jumped on you about it. Your lucky Trowa was there most of the time or Quatre was gone. But he did talk to me about it one day."
"Oh." He nodded. "That would explain why he would follow me around for days on end in between missions. I figured he was lonely." We both started laughing, and I studied his hand for a moment.
"'Fei?" I looked up at him, he was smiling again but I could see the tears welling up into his eyes again and his bottom lip began to tremble.
"Duo please don't. Oh, Duo." I pulled him to me and held him tightly, shushing him gently. He just sobbed into my chest, his hands clutching at the back of my shirt. I kept my arms wrapped around his shoulders and just comforted him the best I could.
After a few moments I pulled back from him, gently prying his hands from my shirt."
"Duo. Duo." He looked up at me and wiped his eyes. "We have to leave now. We need to meet Trowa at The Shop, alright?" he nodded. "Are you sure?" he nodded again.
"Yeah, where'd you put my boots?" he jumped down off the bed and went into the bathroom.
"They're beside the door where your coats hanging too." I walked into the kitchen and put my jacket on, patting my pockets to make sure I hand the keys. I spun around still patting my pockets, then went and searched in the living room as Duo came in puling his hair up into a ponytail.
"Something wrong?" I looked around again.
"Where's my cell phone?" he started laughing and reached up into my left breast pocket, puling out the little silver flip phone. "oh." I slipped it into my right side pocket. He took my hand.
"Looks like your affected too." I nodded and kissed him.
"Each unto ones own as you would say. Come on we need to hurry so that we're not too horribly late." Duo nodded and slipped on his long sleeved black sweater before stepping into his boots, lacing them up quickly.
"No coat?" He shook his head and pulled his cell phone out of his coat hanging b the door, putting it into his back jeans pocket before snapping his back pack strap across his chest.
"Its not that chilly out. Only matter of time until you guys are begging me to stop walking around in my boxers." I just laughed and closed and locked the door to the apartment.
"You boys going out?" I looked up and saw our middle aged neighbor sitting outside his door, which stood open with a radio blaring some Skynard song in the background.
"Just going to meet some friends Mr. Connolei." He nodded at me.
"That's good, that's good. You guys have a good time."
"Sure thing Mr. C, hey we still up for poker night?"
"As long as your ready to lose our money Duo."
"My money? Who said anything about using my money?" They both started laughing, I just looked at them.
"Well we got to go, bye Mr. Connolei." He waved us good-bye as I herded Duo down the stairs to the truck.
"'My money'" I snorted and started up the truck, Duo just laughed as I pulled out and made my way for town.
The atmosphere was completely opposite of the happy mood we had been in when I turned off the engine. Even the ever present rambling of the radio in the background was gone, after Duo had flipped through the stations really fast for ten minutes before finally turning it off and staring out the window.
I put the keys in my pocket and looked over at him. He was sitting with one hand on his la and the other was propped up against the window with his chin in his hand.
"You ready to do this?" he looked at me and nodded opening his door. I opened my door too and started to step out.
"Wufei?" I looked over at him, he was still sitting in the seat with one leg dangling down.
"Yeah?" he looked at me.
"I'm scared."
"I know. I am too, but we have to do this. You ready to go in now?" he nodded and got out. We shut our doors and walked up to the door. I felt Duo grasping my hand, and I squeezed it reassuringly.
The jingle of the bells attached to the door brought a black haired Arabian woman out from behind a counter.
"Hi Amy." She wiped her hands on her apron slowly.
"Hey Wufei. Duo?" he looked up at her a little stunned, his mind had wandered. "Don't I get a hug?" she smiled at him. He kind of smiled back at her and walked into her open arms hugging just as fiercely as she did him.
"He'll come out of this good okay?" he nodded and pulled away. "Alright hon, you go on back there. They're all waiting." He nodded again and headed back towards the back room. I walked up towards her.
"You really think that?" she looked at me,
"Would you tell him otherwise? Would you tell him that he could be losing his best friend at any minute?"
"You know I wouldn't. But I wouldn't lie to him either." I patted her arm and went in the same direction as Duo had.
I leaned in the doorway of the room where everyone had gathered. Quatre and the girls were all sitting quietly with tears in their eyes, save for Une. Sally was at the hospital with Zechs. Trowa was talking quietly with Cathy and Noin. Duo was sitting a little away from everyone in a chair with his legs drawn up against his chest, his bag resting beside him.
"Did I come too late and miss the main discussion?" They all looked at me and most of them kind of smiled. Duo just looked down at his knees and pulled them closer.
"You guys just got here not five minutes after us, so the conversations haven't even started." Trowa stood up and walked over to get a cup of coffee, handing it to me. I nodded thanks to him and pulled a chair out next to Duo and sat down.
"So what are we doing?" I nudged Duo's arm and gave him the coffee, he took it and took a sip, then made a face and handed it back. I smiled. "How are we getting up there?"
"Well, we're going to take the Preventer's van to one of Quatre's private shuttles. Then we plan to go from there to the hospital. How's that sound to you?" I shrugged and stood up and walked to the coffee counter.
"Doesn't sound so bad, but what are we doing when we get there?" I started pouring cream and sugar into the coffee, the way Duo liked it. I sat back down and handed it to him.
"Well I have a house there so we could stay in it."
"Quatre you have a house everywhere."
He smiled, "Yeah, and Relena's offered transportation straight to the hospital, then to the house. Then whatever goes from there." I nodded.
"Is she going to be there?" Duo took a gulp of his coffee.
"She couldn't make it, she said she'd come as soon as the meeting is over. She'd cancel it but it's one of those big ones with colony officials." Noin ran a hand through her hair.
"When do we leave?" I took the cup from Duo before he started tearing it apart. Trowa shrugged.
"When the van gets here. 'Till then we just wait around and enjoy Amy's good cooking.'
Everyone murmured agreement and started filing out. I stayed behind with Duo and kissed him before sending him after food.
Trowa came up to me. "How is he? I'd ask Quatre but I can't get anything out of him right now." I shrugged and threw away the cup.
"How do you think he is Trowa?"
"The same way you were when he was severely injured during a mission." I smiled at him.
"You always bring it back to that don't you?
"It was the only thing I knew." I nodded
"He's worse. Remember when he had to do that mission on L2?" he nodded. "He's worse than he was after that." Trowa just looked at me. "But like before I'll go through hell and back with him to make sure he comes through."
"You always have."
I only nodded.