Scars
Author: Sammy Neko...(slow smile)...
Disclaimer: I do not own GW or anything associated with it...except for the creations from my warped little mind... Yui: Us in other words (points to self, Niku, & Trio)
nods so no sue, nothing to give.
Warnings: what first...major angst, lots of suicidal wishes, thoughts, & memories... some sap, and you may need tissues...depends on your tolerance. 2x5, 1x6, 3x4, 9xC, 11xS...think that's it... and there's lots of things were the G-boys are hurt in some way, and not to mention the really sad thoughts...I suck at summaries...sorry...
This chapter manages to have a lot of humor in it though, so no fear!
But just to give you another warning, this entire story has a lot of dark issues, some are important and have hit home with me on more than one occasion...but if you can't stand to see blood, and self mutilation then I suggest you make sure and keep an eye on these warnings, I'll warn you ahead of time. Have actually...
Yui: but this is such a good story...I still don't know how it came to her and I'm her muse...
Sad thing is I don't remember either...don't worry about it Niku was sleeping when it came to me.
Niku: I WAS NOT!!!
(whispers) was too (whispers)
Notes: ...I updated! Yaaaay! (dances kind of half-heartedly)...alright look, just so you know, this fic is far from over and It's gonna get worse...but then I hope it gets better...you'll have to wait and see. And feel lucky for all you people who don't have to put up with my torturously slow cliff hanger-ish ass at school...for those of you that do, STOP TAKING MY NOTEBOOK!! Sheesh! In the middle of writing a really good part and you tackle me...though it is so much fun making you suffer...(grin) But anyway! Go read the fic and tell me what you think! Comments of any kind are deeply craved...so please read and enjoy!
(Duo's POV, because I suck at warning people of the little details)
Scars
Chapter 2
I wrapped my arms around my chest and shivered while waiting in line to the buffet. Amy kept it freezing in The Shop, even when it was 56 degrees outside. Woman has high blood pressure or something. I smiled at Une when she handed me a plate and started piling food onto my plate. Some eggs, ooh bacon!, homemade waffles?
I poked at them, Eggo. Sausage, more sausage, a blueberry muffin, chocolate chocolate chip muffin...ooh! Chocolate chip pancakes!!
I walked over to the condiments counter, and now the syrup...s. Yum.
"Sure you have enough syrup there Duo?" I looked over at Cathy, who was studying my plate. I looked down at it and ticked off on my fingers.
"Blueberry, blackberry, raspberry, maple...I think that's it." 'Fei walked over and set down a syrup jug in front of me.
"You forgot strawberry." He smiled and walked back over to the table he was sitting at. I waved my fist at him.
"Strawberry syrup stealer!" I then proceeded to douse my food (save the eggs) with syrup, while Cathy just stared in silent horror.
"Good to go! You should try some there Cath! You'd like it." I laughed at the look on her face and went and sat down opposite of 'Fei. Amy set a glass of chocolate milk in front of me.
"Looks like your gonna be on a sugar high for a while there Duo."
"He'll burn it all off by munch time." She looked at 'Fei as I dug into my food. Oh the sweet, sweet goodness.
"Munch time?" he nodded.
"About an hour after lunch when he gets hungry again. Depends on what he's doing though. Either he eats," I stirred my chocolate milk and washed down the sausage and bacon. "or he crashes, then I have to wake him up for dinner and it's a few hours before he goes back to bed."
I swallowed some of my pancakes and smiled at him.
"Depending on what I'm doing." Amy just chuckled and walked away. 'Fei smiled at me with a weird glint in his eye. "What?"
"Nothing. Just a though..." he drank some of his orange juice. "You need to slow down on eating though, remember what happened last time you ate this much this fast?" I nodded and set my fork down taking a sip of my milk.
"Sorry I guess I'm just nervous or something."
"That's understandable, but don't choke yourself and end up in the bed next to him. You might miss all the fun their having in the kids ward." I stared at him.
"Do you think he'll be alright?"
"I can't say. I'm not a doctor, but I have patched him plenty of times before and knowing Heero...you never know what could happen." I nodded and started taking my muffin out of its little paper cup thing.
"I hope he wakes up. Do you think he'll be different when he does?" 'If he does anyway.' I took a bite of my muffin, ooh the chips are warm and gooey.
"Probably. Of all the times he's self destructed this might be the closest he's been to death, or at least losing everything he's letting himself love."
I nodded, "Yeah..." I started taking the paper thing off my blueberry muffin. "Do you think he'll remember us?"
"Duo you're asking questions with no answers. I wish I could answer them but I can't. And neither can you." I set my muffin down untouched. "Do you understand that?" he reached across the table for my hand, which lay in my lap. I set my hand in his and stared at our clasped hands for a long moment.
"I understand. I don't want to, but I understand." He nodded at me and got up to take our plates to the kitchen. I sat there for a minute before standing up and walking over to sit with Quatre and Trowa.
"You done eating Duo?" Trowa took a bite of his fruit.
"Yep. It was pretty good too..." I plucked a grape out of Quatre's plate and smiled at him as I ate it.
"The van should be here any minute," he looked at his watch. Quatre pushed his plate toward me and smiled. I smiled back and started eating the grapes and strawberries he hadn't eaten.
"What are you and Wufei going to do after you get to the hospital?" Quatre took a sip of his apple juice.
"Well after we visit Heero and get the general layout of things, 'Fei said he'd take me down to the pediatric ward and visit the kids." They nodded at me. Trowa smiled,
"Sounds like you've got it all planned out. You gonna come down to the house after that?"
I nodded. "Yeah, I want to go swimming."
"Have you heard from Trio?" I shook my head.
"No, but Yui called and said that they'd b down there as soon as they could. It was funny though I could hear Niku yelling at Trio in the background." I pushed the plate over. "Then there was a loud crash and Yui had to go." Trowa and Quatre started laughing.
"Was there a joke I missed Master Quatre?" I whirled around to the big tanned Arabian man that stood behind us with his fists on his hips. I jumped up and gave him a hug.
"RASHID! Long time no see big man!" he laughed and looked at me, holding me out by the shoulders.
"By Allah boy if you haven't grown taller? Your hair is shorter too!" he shook the end of my ponytail at my nose, making me scrunch it up. "You aren't going and changing on me now are you, Master Duo?"
"Not if I can help it." I turned to 'Fei and started laughing, giving him a noisy kiss. Rashid always lifted my spirits no matter how low they had gone.
"Is the van here Rashid?" Trowa handed the dirty plates to Amy and stood up to put on his jacket.
"Well yes and no." Quatre raised an eyebrow.
"What do you mean? What happened?"
"Easy Master Quatre, all that happened was that you got us instead. The Preventer's couldn't um...spare another van for personal reasons." Rashid moved me in front of him between Quatre as a shield. Quatre just whirled around at Une, who put her hands up in defense. Rashid sighed with relief.
"I have no control over the transportation committee. They gave me no guarantees." She backed up as Quatre advanced. "And besides who would you trust more driving? Me? Or the Maganacs?"
Quatre stopped and thought it over, then nodded and turned back around to Rashid.
"We leaving then?" he walked out the door to the van with the bells jingling after him. I looked around at everyone. Trowa sighed.
"I shouldn't have given him that cup of coffee this morning." Everyone kind of laughed and started getting their things together and filing out the door. I just clung to 'Fei's hand and slid into the seat next to him, at the back of the van.
"How long 'till we get to the shuttle Tro?" he turned and looked at me.
"About an hour and a half to the shuttle and four to the colony. Depending on how things go though." I nodded at him and laid my head onto 'Fei's shoulder, humming to myself. I felt myself get tired and soon was sleeping, my dreams fuzzy and warm.
It was a drifting dream through no colors in particular just dark and warm. The dream was
taking shape, figures forming, colors not blurring so much.
Then I saw Wing Zero, clear as if I was standing in front of him. He was glowing, and I knew he was in self destruct mode.
I was running, then I was in Deathscythe again and the controls were flashing. Old buddy?...Suddenly Heero's face appeared on the screen, his face was hidden by his hair and he was shaking.
Heero? What? His face lifted up and my dream self gasped. His eyes were red and tears streamed down his face, which was covered in blood, deep gashing lining his jaw and cheekbone.
"Du...o..." And then I was screaming, everything had gone dark.
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(grin) nice cliff hanger huh? Review and tell me what you thought! waves bye
Author: Sammy Neko...(slow smile)...
Disclaimer: I do not own GW or anything associated with it...except for the creations from my warped little mind... Yui: Us in other words (points to self, Niku, & Trio)
nods so no sue, nothing to give.
Warnings: what first...major angst, lots of suicidal wishes, thoughts, & memories... some sap, and you may need tissues...depends on your tolerance. 2x5, 1x6, 3x4, 9xC, 11xS...think that's it... and there's lots of things were the G-boys are hurt in some way, and not to mention the really sad thoughts...I suck at summaries...sorry...
This chapter manages to have a lot of humor in it though, so no fear!
But just to give you another warning, this entire story has a lot of dark issues, some are important and have hit home with me on more than one occasion...but if you can't stand to see blood, and self mutilation then I suggest you make sure and keep an eye on these warnings, I'll warn you ahead of time. Have actually...
Yui: but this is such a good story...I still don't know how it came to her and I'm her muse...
Sad thing is I don't remember either...don't worry about it Niku was sleeping when it came to me.
Niku: I WAS NOT!!!
(whispers) was too (whispers)
Notes: ...I updated! Yaaaay! (dances kind of half-heartedly)...alright look, just so you know, this fic is far from over and It's gonna get worse...but then I hope it gets better...you'll have to wait and see. And feel lucky for all you people who don't have to put up with my torturously slow cliff hanger-ish ass at school...for those of you that do, STOP TAKING MY NOTEBOOK!! Sheesh! In the middle of writing a really good part and you tackle me...though it is so much fun making you suffer...(grin) But anyway! Go read the fic and tell me what you think! Comments of any kind are deeply craved...so please read and enjoy!
(Duo's POV, because I suck at warning people of the little details)
Scars
Chapter 2
I wrapped my arms around my chest and shivered while waiting in line to the buffet. Amy kept it freezing in The Shop, even when it was 56 degrees outside. Woman has high blood pressure or something. I smiled at Une when she handed me a plate and started piling food onto my plate. Some eggs, ooh bacon!, homemade waffles?
I poked at them, Eggo. Sausage, more sausage, a blueberry muffin, chocolate chocolate chip muffin...ooh! Chocolate chip pancakes!!
I walked over to the condiments counter, and now the syrup...s. Yum.
"Sure you have enough syrup there Duo?" I looked over at Cathy, who was studying my plate. I looked down at it and ticked off on my fingers.
"Blueberry, blackberry, raspberry, maple...I think that's it." 'Fei walked over and set down a syrup jug in front of me.
"You forgot strawberry." He smiled and walked back over to the table he was sitting at. I waved my fist at him.
"Strawberry syrup stealer!" I then proceeded to douse my food (save the eggs) with syrup, while Cathy just stared in silent horror.
"Good to go! You should try some there Cath! You'd like it." I laughed at the look on her face and went and sat down opposite of 'Fei. Amy set a glass of chocolate milk in front of me.
"Looks like your gonna be on a sugar high for a while there Duo."
"He'll burn it all off by munch time." She looked at 'Fei as I dug into my food. Oh the sweet, sweet goodness.
"Munch time?" he nodded.
"About an hour after lunch when he gets hungry again. Depends on what he's doing though. Either he eats," I stirred my chocolate milk and washed down the sausage and bacon. "or he crashes, then I have to wake him up for dinner and it's a few hours before he goes back to bed."
I swallowed some of my pancakes and smiled at him.
"Depending on what I'm doing." Amy just chuckled and walked away. 'Fei smiled at me with a weird glint in his eye. "What?"
"Nothing. Just a though..." he drank some of his orange juice. "You need to slow down on eating though, remember what happened last time you ate this much this fast?" I nodded and set my fork down taking a sip of my milk.
"Sorry I guess I'm just nervous or something."
"That's understandable, but don't choke yourself and end up in the bed next to him. You might miss all the fun their having in the kids ward." I stared at him.
"Do you think he'll be alright?"
"I can't say. I'm not a doctor, but I have patched him plenty of times before and knowing Heero...you never know what could happen." I nodded and started taking my muffin out of its little paper cup thing.
"I hope he wakes up. Do you think he'll be different when he does?" 'If he does anyway.' I took a bite of my muffin, ooh the chips are warm and gooey.
"Probably. Of all the times he's self destructed this might be the closest he's been to death, or at least losing everything he's letting himself love."
I nodded, "Yeah..." I started taking the paper thing off my blueberry muffin. "Do you think he'll remember us?"
"Duo you're asking questions with no answers. I wish I could answer them but I can't. And neither can you." I set my muffin down untouched. "Do you understand that?" he reached across the table for my hand, which lay in my lap. I set my hand in his and stared at our clasped hands for a long moment.
"I understand. I don't want to, but I understand." He nodded at me and got up to take our plates to the kitchen. I sat there for a minute before standing up and walking over to sit with Quatre and Trowa.
"You done eating Duo?" Trowa took a bite of his fruit.
"Yep. It was pretty good too..." I plucked a grape out of Quatre's plate and smiled at him as I ate it.
"The van should be here any minute," he looked at his watch. Quatre pushed his plate toward me and smiled. I smiled back and started eating the grapes and strawberries he hadn't eaten.
"What are you and Wufei going to do after you get to the hospital?" Quatre took a sip of his apple juice.
"Well after we visit Heero and get the general layout of things, 'Fei said he'd take me down to the pediatric ward and visit the kids." They nodded at me. Trowa smiled,
"Sounds like you've got it all planned out. You gonna come down to the house after that?"
I nodded. "Yeah, I want to go swimming."
"Have you heard from Trio?" I shook my head.
"No, but Yui called and said that they'd b down there as soon as they could. It was funny though I could hear Niku yelling at Trio in the background." I pushed the plate over. "Then there was a loud crash and Yui had to go." Trowa and Quatre started laughing.
"Was there a joke I missed Master Quatre?" I whirled around to the big tanned Arabian man that stood behind us with his fists on his hips. I jumped up and gave him a hug.
"RASHID! Long time no see big man!" he laughed and looked at me, holding me out by the shoulders.
"By Allah boy if you haven't grown taller? Your hair is shorter too!" he shook the end of my ponytail at my nose, making me scrunch it up. "You aren't going and changing on me now are you, Master Duo?"
"Not if I can help it." I turned to 'Fei and started laughing, giving him a noisy kiss. Rashid always lifted my spirits no matter how low they had gone.
"Is the van here Rashid?" Trowa handed the dirty plates to Amy and stood up to put on his jacket.
"Well yes and no." Quatre raised an eyebrow.
"What do you mean? What happened?"
"Easy Master Quatre, all that happened was that you got us instead. The Preventer's couldn't um...spare another van for personal reasons." Rashid moved me in front of him between Quatre as a shield. Quatre just whirled around at Une, who put her hands up in defense. Rashid sighed with relief.
"I have no control over the transportation committee. They gave me no guarantees." She backed up as Quatre advanced. "And besides who would you trust more driving? Me? Or the Maganacs?"
Quatre stopped and thought it over, then nodded and turned back around to Rashid.
"We leaving then?" he walked out the door to the van with the bells jingling after him. I looked around at everyone. Trowa sighed.
"I shouldn't have given him that cup of coffee this morning." Everyone kind of laughed and started getting their things together and filing out the door. I just clung to 'Fei's hand and slid into the seat next to him, at the back of the van.
"How long 'till we get to the shuttle Tro?" he turned and looked at me.
"About an hour and a half to the shuttle and four to the colony. Depending on how things go though." I nodded at him and laid my head onto 'Fei's shoulder, humming to myself. I felt myself get tired and soon was sleeping, my dreams fuzzy and warm.
It was a drifting dream through no colors in particular just dark and warm. The dream was
taking shape, figures forming, colors not blurring so much.
Then I saw Wing Zero, clear as if I was standing in front of him. He was glowing, and I knew he was in self destruct mode.
I was running, then I was in Deathscythe again and the controls were flashing. Old buddy?...Suddenly Heero's face appeared on the screen, his face was hidden by his hair and he was shaking.
Heero? What? His face lifted up and my dream self gasped. His eyes were red and tears streamed down his face, which was covered in blood, deep gashing lining his jaw and cheekbone.
"Du...o..." And then I was screaming, everything had gone dark.
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(grin) nice cliff hanger huh? Review and tell me what you thought! waves bye