Scars
Author: Sammy Neko...::squints at you:: your still reading this?
Disclaimer: I do not own GW or anything associated with it...except for the creations from my warped little mind... Yui: Us in other words ::points to self, Niku, & Trio:: ::nods:: so no sue, nothing to give.
Warnings: what first...major angst, lots of suicidal wishes, thoughts, memories, so on and so forth, some sap, and you may need tissues...depends on your tolerance. 2x5, 1x6, 3x4, 9xC, 11xS...think that's it... and there's lots of things were the G-boys are hurt in some way, and not to mention the really sad thoughts...I suck at summaries...sorry...
Another sad chapter, but it's sad all the way through on this one...You finally find out what happened to Heero that's got everybody so freaked out...And I'll have you know I was nearly strangled for this chapter...but it's worth it. Their getting closer, and then the real shit will hit the fan...I'm going to so be killed for this...
Just to give you another warning, this entire story has a lot of dark
issues, some are important and have hit home with me on more than one
occasion...but if you can't stand to see blood and self mutilation then I
suggest you make sure and keep an eye on these warnings, I'll warn you
ahead of time. Have actually...
Notes: What is there to say besides keep the tissues near for the next few chapters...if not the rest.
Niku: all set! ::is seen with a ton of freaking tissue boxes surrounding him::
Yui: you sure you need that many?
Yui don't provoke him...don't you know that if you threaten a very emotional creature inside his territory he just might burst into tears...shh! He's looking at us...
::Yui & Sammy both freeze::
Niku: ha ha very funny...
He's talking to us!! No sudden movements.
Niku: ::glares at them:: Stop. It's not funny!
Yui: ::blinks but stays frozen with Sammy, whose trying not to laugh::
Niku: I'm Serious!
::still no movement, but continue to stare::
Niku: ::gets super pissed and storms off::
Yui: wait! NIKU!! Dammit!! ::runs after him::
::finally just busts up laughing::
Yui: Sammy It's Not Funny Anymore!!!
Your right, your right...well it's still funny to me but that's only because I don't have to worry about sleeping on the couch do I?
::a pillow flies across the room and hits Sammy in the face:: HEY! ::looks at you:: You may just want to go read the fic before things get worse...and tell me what you think! Comments of any kind are deeply craved...so please read and enjoy!
Scars
Chapter 4
I snapped the new battery into my cd player and closed the cover. Not on the road again for ten minutes and my batteries go dead. I need a break from NIN for a minute anyway.
I reached into my bag and pulled out my cd case, flipping through 'till I'd found the Dir en Gray. I put it into the player and replaced the empty slot. I glanced over at 'Fei before putting my headphones back on. He was reading a book he had snuck into my bag when I'd been shoving my clothes into it. 'Fei kept extra clothes at all of Quatre's "houses". Mansions more like.
I laid my head back against the seat and pushed play I sighed and closed my eyes, Heero had given me this CD for Christmas last year, had said he'd figured that I'd like the more hard stuff of the band. Trust Heero to find some hard classic J-rock band for me.
And here I am listening to the slowest, most depressing song on this. Guess that's how things go. My mind started to wander and I remembered what I had been doing the day I'd found out about the accident.
I had just gotten done jumping up and down on the mini trampoline that I'd finally convinced 'Fei to buy. I was laying in the middle of the living room floor, breathing hard but overall happy at the exhilaration the jumping had given me. I told him it'd be good for me, having to stay at home all day when I wasn't working. It was near lunchtime and he was coming home early today, only working the morning shift, and then coming home.
Lunch came and went and I'd already ate two bowls of my ramen noodles. I wasn't worried, knowing 'Fei he'd probably gotten stuck with a report that he had to finish. He could have brought it home, I would, but again I also ended up losing half the papers. Thank god for copies.
I knew he'd call when he refilled his coffee cup...around 2:30. It was nearly 4 and he still hadn't called, I started to get worried. I called his cell and got his voicemail. Probably turned it off. I called his office phone. No answer. I called it again and someone picked up.
"Chang's office. Who's calling?"
"April! Turn on the screen!" There was a click and April's face came into view. She was new at the Preventers, a part timer who generally just filed and answered the phones. Une didn't trust her with much yet. She was young, only 17 and had short black hair that was streaked with blue, she had it pinned up today. And she was wearing her green-rimmed glasses today.
"Oh, hey Duo. What do you need?" I stared at her.
"What do I--never mind. Why are you answering Wufei's phone?" She pushed her glasses back up her nose.
"In case you called."
"Why what happened?"
"Wufei was called up to Lady Une's office and was told that she needed him to go as backup for a sweep that Heero was doing." She pushed her glasses up again. "He was going to call you, but Heero had called in and said he needed the backup right then. So Wufei had to leave in a hurry. We don't have much information yet, we're not sure where their position is. But we do know that they've been injured." I nearly leaped through the screen at those words.
"What!? April how long ago did you receive this information?" I suddenly felt the urge to strangle the life out the little ditz, but no that wasn't my style...I'd let Quatre have her, he enjoyed strangling employees at Winner Corp. for some odd reason...maybe he'd grant me a favor...
"A half hour ago." No, I'll do it myself.
"A half hour and you didn't contact me!?!" she shrunk back.
"I don't have the number, and the Lady and everyone else is still trying to get a hold and find out where they are and the severity of their wounds. I'm sorry Duo I really would have called-"
"I'm on my way." I hung up the phone and grabbed my keys off the hook, putting on my boots and shoving the laces into the sides. I ran out to my black custom 60cc cycle, and peeled out to get to the headquarters.
I opened my eyes and looked over at 'Fei, who was still reading, a Dorito sitting in the air half way to his mouth. I smiled, he must have gotten to a good part. I had lived up to my nickname during the war when I'd peeled out of there like a bat out of hell. Deathscythe's spirit must have possessed my bike then, given that the bike was made out of the parts I'd managed to salvage from Deathscythe before we'd destroyed the gundams. It's a good bike.
When I'd shown up at the headquarters it took all I could to not go completely Shinigami on all of them. Une had managed to calm me down after saying that Wufei had called and told them that he didn't know where they were, only that it was an old warehouse, and that his injuries were mild. But Heero's were severe.
We'd grouped up into 3 different search parties, though I'd refused to search other than by myself. Une had agreed, though not willingly, and had given me a com. unit to contact her if I found anything.
I'd found something that'd been for sure. There are a lot of warehouses on the colony and I new most of them. One good thing about living on L2 for most of my life is that you know the layout of everything. It felt like going down memory lane into hell again, and I wasn't necessarily looking forward to it.
Une had said that the last spot they'd known where Heero had been was an isolated part of the slums. Sadly I knew that part like the back of my hand.
I'd rode around for about ten minutes when I started walking through them, keeping as silent as I could, my old instincts kicking in as though they had never been out of use. Nothing had changed overly much, just dustier and more rotten.
I had gone into one of the warehouses that I'd hidden out in with Trio for a few years after Solo had died and before we had found the church, it was dark and I cursed myself for leaving my flashlight back with my bike. It was near the back when I heard what sounded like labored breathing.
"'Fei?" the breathing grew raspy, and I could hear the pain of movement, the shuffling sound of crawling noting me to where it was coming from.
"Duo?" the voice was 'Fei's but it was constricted and low, I could hear the earnestness in it too.
"It's me. Do you have a light?" I heard him cough and a flashlight was turned on. I ran over to where the light had illuminated crouching down to check his wounds. Trying my best to hold back from just latching onto him.
"Easy. I broke my rib..." I nodded, too stunned to speak, my hands clenched to keep them from shaking. "I'm alright Duo. Don't worry about me." he touched my cheek and I kissed him on the lips gently, just grateful that nothing worse had happened to him. I took a breath.
"Where's Heero?" 'Fei stilled and I could see his jaw clench in the dim light of the flashlight. "How bad are his injuries? Wufei?" he took my hands and gave me the flashlight, gripping onto them for a moment.
"Don't break when you see him. I'm just giving you a vague description of what his condition is...but he's unconscious. It's a miracle he's even alive..." I flashed the light around and could see Heero's still slim form lying on the floor nearby. He had a jacket over him, and it looked like 'Fei had bandaged his head up with the first aid kit. I could see the dark stain of blood on them.
I just swallowed the lump in my throat and scooted over to where he was laying. The sight made me nearly cry out and gag, my hand covering my mouth. What had happened...
I brought the com to my mouth and turned it on.
"Lady? This is agent Maxwell, can you hear me?"
"Duo? I can hear you, have you found them?" I hesitated then cleared my throat,
"I've found them. Heero's injuries are too severe to move him. I need an emergency chopper down here immediately. Wufei's injuries are mild and I can just bandage him up when we go home. Sally is going to have to give Heero all her attention."
It was silent a moment.
"Tell me where you are." I relayed our position to her and turned off the unit.
I had sat there for a long time, trying my hardest not to cry. My whole 'ready to kick some ass' exterior had been disintegrated. Of course it hadn't been much better when 'Fei had moved over to me and took me into his arms, ignoring his injuries.
I had broken down then, unable to keep the tears from falling, couldn't help it really. I had seen Heero self destruct right before my eyes and hadn't even really flinched. (Even though after the 4th time I'd nearly jumped him.) I'd seen 'Fei be knocked unconscious, and Quatre beaten when we had been captured. With Trowa too, and I'd seen him when he'd lost his memory. (I'd also seen him destroy Deathscythe but we won't go there...)
I've seen all of us go through hell and back, often being there myself. Never had I felt the presence of death as closely as I had when I'd seen Heero lying there. It makes me shudder to recall the feeling I'd had for a moment, as though Death himself was standing over my shoulder, breathing down my neck.
I took the Dir en Gray and put in my Korn CD. I looked back over at 'Fei and saw that the chip was still in his hand, it hadn't progressed much towards his mouth. I just chuckled and pushed his hand up.
He kind of jumped, then just smiled sheepishly and ate the chip. Wiping the cheese off his fingers with a napkin that I'd stuffed into the plastic bag, he then went back to reading his book.
I stared at him for a moment, noting the scratch above his eyebrow was pretty much all the way healed. He had told me pretty much the gist of what had happened while I had bandaged his ribs and ankle. He had sprained it, but claimed to have already "walked it off." When actually I'd rubbed and massaged the hell out of it. Then watched him squirm when he'd had to stick his whole foot and ankle into a bowl of ice water. That had been hilarious to watch.
He had left out the details, keeping me from having to endure anymore emotional pain...I could have taken more, I think, but him and the other protected me nearly as much as they did Quatre. I drew the line on most things, but emotional protection I guess I couldn't avoid. Hell, Quatre even protected me...I never did get that.
(Back to the topic before I get too sidetracked...)
But Wufei had said that when Heero had been going through a routine sweep he'd came in onto a drug deal going with some of the big guys. Heero had apparently spooked them, and caused them to start firing on him. That's when he'd called in. Wufei had been there in a matter of five minutes, and when he'd gotten there Heero had already been fairly beaten up. He had told him that the drug lord wasn't taking any chances and wanted them dead.
'Fei and Heero had battled with them for nearly 3 hours until they had to move to safety, (much as he was reluctant to admit, they couldn't take them all.) and when they'd moved to get out of sight and to safety Heero had been hit. 'Fei had had to carry him to safety, by then he was suffering his own battle wounds.
He hadn't told me anymore so I pretty much filled it in on my own. Heero had been shot in the right side of his head, but I wasn't sure of the severity. I'd seen numerous other spots all over his body covered in blood but hadn't been able to check them before the other Preventers had shown up.
That was why we were going to the best hospital in the colony. All the way on the other side, but the best. I looked at my watch and turned my CD player off, putting everything back into my bag.
'Fei came out of his trance like state and handed his book to me to put into the bag. The van pulled to a stop and Rashid shut off the engine.
"Well, we're here."
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On to chapter 5!......::drinks as much caffeine as possible::
Author: Sammy Neko...::squints at you:: your still reading this?
Disclaimer: I do not own GW or anything associated with it...except for the creations from my warped little mind... Yui: Us in other words ::points to self, Niku, & Trio:: ::nods:: so no sue, nothing to give.
Warnings: what first...major angst, lots of suicidal wishes, thoughts, memories, so on and so forth, some sap, and you may need tissues...depends on your tolerance. 2x5, 1x6, 3x4, 9xC, 11xS...think that's it... and there's lots of things were the G-boys are hurt in some way, and not to mention the really sad thoughts...I suck at summaries...sorry...
Another sad chapter, but it's sad all the way through on this one...You finally find out what happened to Heero that's got everybody so freaked out...And I'll have you know I was nearly strangled for this chapter...but it's worth it. Their getting closer, and then the real shit will hit the fan...I'm going to so be killed for this...
Just to give you another warning, this entire story has a lot of dark
issues, some are important and have hit home with me on more than one
occasion...but if you can't stand to see blood and self mutilation then I
suggest you make sure and keep an eye on these warnings, I'll warn you
ahead of time. Have actually...
Notes: What is there to say besides keep the tissues near for the next few chapters...if not the rest.
Niku: all set! ::is seen with a ton of freaking tissue boxes surrounding him::
Yui: you sure you need that many?
Yui don't provoke him...don't you know that if you threaten a very emotional creature inside his territory he just might burst into tears...shh! He's looking at us...
::Yui & Sammy both freeze::
Niku: ha ha very funny...
He's talking to us!! No sudden movements.
Niku: ::glares at them:: Stop. It's not funny!
Yui: ::blinks but stays frozen with Sammy, whose trying not to laugh::
Niku: I'm Serious!
::still no movement, but continue to stare::
Niku: ::gets super pissed and storms off::
Yui: wait! NIKU!! Dammit!! ::runs after him::
::finally just busts up laughing::
Yui: Sammy It's Not Funny Anymore!!!
Your right, your right...well it's still funny to me but that's only because I don't have to worry about sleeping on the couch do I?
::a pillow flies across the room and hits Sammy in the face:: HEY! ::looks at you:: You may just want to go read the fic before things get worse...and tell me what you think! Comments of any kind are deeply craved...so please read and enjoy!
Scars
Chapter 4
I snapped the new battery into my cd player and closed the cover. Not on the road again for ten minutes and my batteries go dead. I need a break from NIN for a minute anyway.
I reached into my bag and pulled out my cd case, flipping through 'till I'd found the Dir en Gray. I put it into the player and replaced the empty slot. I glanced over at 'Fei before putting my headphones back on. He was reading a book he had snuck into my bag when I'd been shoving my clothes into it. 'Fei kept extra clothes at all of Quatre's "houses". Mansions more like.
I laid my head back against the seat and pushed play I sighed and closed my eyes, Heero had given me this CD for Christmas last year, had said he'd figured that I'd like the more hard stuff of the band. Trust Heero to find some hard classic J-rock band for me.
And here I am listening to the slowest, most depressing song on this. Guess that's how things go. My mind started to wander and I remembered what I had been doing the day I'd found out about the accident.
I had just gotten done jumping up and down on the mini trampoline that I'd finally convinced 'Fei to buy. I was laying in the middle of the living room floor, breathing hard but overall happy at the exhilaration the jumping had given me. I told him it'd be good for me, having to stay at home all day when I wasn't working. It was near lunchtime and he was coming home early today, only working the morning shift, and then coming home.
Lunch came and went and I'd already ate two bowls of my ramen noodles. I wasn't worried, knowing 'Fei he'd probably gotten stuck with a report that he had to finish. He could have brought it home, I would, but again I also ended up losing half the papers. Thank god for copies.
I knew he'd call when he refilled his coffee cup...around 2:30. It was nearly 4 and he still hadn't called, I started to get worried. I called his cell and got his voicemail. Probably turned it off. I called his office phone. No answer. I called it again and someone picked up.
"Chang's office. Who's calling?"
"April! Turn on the screen!" There was a click and April's face came into view. She was new at the Preventers, a part timer who generally just filed and answered the phones. Une didn't trust her with much yet. She was young, only 17 and had short black hair that was streaked with blue, she had it pinned up today. And she was wearing her green-rimmed glasses today.
"Oh, hey Duo. What do you need?" I stared at her.
"What do I--never mind. Why are you answering Wufei's phone?" She pushed her glasses back up her nose.
"In case you called."
"Why what happened?"
"Wufei was called up to Lady Une's office and was told that she needed him to go as backup for a sweep that Heero was doing." She pushed her glasses up again. "He was going to call you, but Heero had called in and said he needed the backup right then. So Wufei had to leave in a hurry. We don't have much information yet, we're not sure where their position is. But we do know that they've been injured." I nearly leaped through the screen at those words.
"What!? April how long ago did you receive this information?" I suddenly felt the urge to strangle the life out the little ditz, but no that wasn't my style...I'd let Quatre have her, he enjoyed strangling employees at Winner Corp. for some odd reason...maybe he'd grant me a favor...
"A half hour ago." No, I'll do it myself.
"A half hour and you didn't contact me!?!" she shrunk back.
"I don't have the number, and the Lady and everyone else is still trying to get a hold and find out where they are and the severity of their wounds. I'm sorry Duo I really would have called-"
"I'm on my way." I hung up the phone and grabbed my keys off the hook, putting on my boots and shoving the laces into the sides. I ran out to my black custom 60cc cycle, and peeled out to get to the headquarters.
I opened my eyes and looked over at 'Fei, who was still reading, a Dorito sitting in the air half way to his mouth. I smiled, he must have gotten to a good part. I had lived up to my nickname during the war when I'd peeled out of there like a bat out of hell. Deathscythe's spirit must have possessed my bike then, given that the bike was made out of the parts I'd managed to salvage from Deathscythe before we'd destroyed the gundams. It's a good bike.
When I'd shown up at the headquarters it took all I could to not go completely Shinigami on all of them. Une had managed to calm me down after saying that Wufei had called and told them that he didn't know where they were, only that it was an old warehouse, and that his injuries were mild. But Heero's were severe.
We'd grouped up into 3 different search parties, though I'd refused to search other than by myself. Une had agreed, though not willingly, and had given me a com. unit to contact her if I found anything.
I'd found something that'd been for sure. There are a lot of warehouses on the colony and I new most of them. One good thing about living on L2 for most of my life is that you know the layout of everything. It felt like going down memory lane into hell again, and I wasn't necessarily looking forward to it.
Une had said that the last spot they'd known where Heero had been was an isolated part of the slums. Sadly I knew that part like the back of my hand.
I'd rode around for about ten minutes when I started walking through them, keeping as silent as I could, my old instincts kicking in as though they had never been out of use. Nothing had changed overly much, just dustier and more rotten.
I had gone into one of the warehouses that I'd hidden out in with Trio for a few years after Solo had died and before we had found the church, it was dark and I cursed myself for leaving my flashlight back with my bike. It was near the back when I heard what sounded like labored breathing.
"'Fei?" the breathing grew raspy, and I could hear the pain of movement, the shuffling sound of crawling noting me to where it was coming from.
"Duo?" the voice was 'Fei's but it was constricted and low, I could hear the earnestness in it too.
"It's me. Do you have a light?" I heard him cough and a flashlight was turned on. I ran over to where the light had illuminated crouching down to check his wounds. Trying my best to hold back from just latching onto him.
"Easy. I broke my rib..." I nodded, too stunned to speak, my hands clenched to keep them from shaking. "I'm alright Duo. Don't worry about me." he touched my cheek and I kissed him on the lips gently, just grateful that nothing worse had happened to him. I took a breath.
"Where's Heero?" 'Fei stilled and I could see his jaw clench in the dim light of the flashlight. "How bad are his injuries? Wufei?" he took my hands and gave me the flashlight, gripping onto them for a moment.
"Don't break when you see him. I'm just giving you a vague description of what his condition is...but he's unconscious. It's a miracle he's even alive..." I flashed the light around and could see Heero's still slim form lying on the floor nearby. He had a jacket over him, and it looked like 'Fei had bandaged his head up with the first aid kit. I could see the dark stain of blood on them.
I just swallowed the lump in my throat and scooted over to where he was laying. The sight made me nearly cry out and gag, my hand covering my mouth. What had happened...
I brought the com to my mouth and turned it on.
"Lady? This is agent Maxwell, can you hear me?"
"Duo? I can hear you, have you found them?" I hesitated then cleared my throat,
"I've found them. Heero's injuries are too severe to move him. I need an emergency chopper down here immediately. Wufei's injuries are mild and I can just bandage him up when we go home. Sally is going to have to give Heero all her attention."
It was silent a moment.
"Tell me where you are." I relayed our position to her and turned off the unit.
I had sat there for a long time, trying my hardest not to cry. My whole 'ready to kick some ass' exterior had been disintegrated. Of course it hadn't been much better when 'Fei had moved over to me and took me into his arms, ignoring his injuries.
I had broken down then, unable to keep the tears from falling, couldn't help it really. I had seen Heero self destruct right before my eyes and hadn't even really flinched. (Even though after the 4th time I'd nearly jumped him.) I'd seen 'Fei be knocked unconscious, and Quatre beaten when we had been captured. With Trowa too, and I'd seen him when he'd lost his memory. (I'd also seen him destroy Deathscythe but we won't go there...)
I've seen all of us go through hell and back, often being there myself. Never had I felt the presence of death as closely as I had when I'd seen Heero lying there. It makes me shudder to recall the feeling I'd had for a moment, as though Death himself was standing over my shoulder, breathing down my neck.
I took the Dir en Gray and put in my Korn CD. I looked back over at 'Fei and saw that the chip was still in his hand, it hadn't progressed much towards his mouth. I just chuckled and pushed his hand up.
He kind of jumped, then just smiled sheepishly and ate the chip. Wiping the cheese off his fingers with a napkin that I'd stuffed into the plastic bag, he then went back to reading his book.
I stared at him for a moment, noting the scratch above his eyebrow was pretty much all the way healed. He had told me pretty much the gist of what had happened while I had bandaged his ribs and ankle. He had sprained it, but claimed to have already "walked it off." When actually I'd rubbed and massaged the hell out of it. Then watched him squirm when he'd had to stick his whole foot and ankle into a bowl of ice water. That had been hilarious to watch.
He had left out the details, keeping me from having to endure anymore emotional pain...I could have taken more, I think, but him and the other protected me nearly as much as they did Quatre. I drew the line on most things, but emotional protection I guess I couldn't avoid. Hell, Quatre even protected me...I never did get that.
(Back to the topic before I get too sidetracked...)
But Wufei had said that when Heero had been going through a routine sweep he'd came in onto a drug deal going with some of the big guys. Heero had apparently spooked them, and caused them to start firing on him. That's when he'd called in. Wufei had been there in a matter of five minutes, and when he'd gotten there Heero had already been fairly beaten up. He had told him that the drug lord wasn't taking any chances and wanted them dead.
'Fei and Heero had battled with them for nearly 3 hours until they had to move to safety, (much as he was reluctant to admit, they couldn't take them all.) and when they'd moved to get out of sight and to safety Heero had been hit. 'Fei had had to carry him to safety, by then he was suffering his own battle wounds.
He hadn't told me anymore so I pretty much filled it in on my own. Heero had been shot in the right side of his head, but I wasn't sure of the severity. I'd seen numerous other spots all over his body covered in blood but hadn't been able to check them before the other Preventers had shown up.
That was why we were going to the best hospital in the colony. All the way on the other side, but the best. I looked at my watch and turned my CD player off, putting everything back into my bag.
'Fei came out of his trance like state and handed his book to me to put into the bag. The van pulled to a stop and Rashid shut off the engine.
"Well, we're here."
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On to chapter 5!......::drinks as much caffeine as possible::