A/N: well, it's kinda back.

I won't get into shounen ai yet,

But that's only because I'm only going to do that if the majority of the reviews in this week are towards shounen ai.

Otherwise I'm just keeping them friends.

But if it does become shounen ai,

it's probably not even going to be lime.

So, don't get your hopes up if that's what you're looking for.

I mean I can read lime but can't write it.

Oh wow, I'm so ADD, I meant to say in the last authors note, thanks to:

XXMidori-ChanXx- yay! I love reviews. Thanks for saying that my idea of an Irish accent wasn't stupid or bad1 *sniff* I feel so loved. I know it's not perfect but at least it's not totally wrong right? I'm sorry though; I'll try to read your fic! It just wasn't working for a while, but it's working now and I'll read it right away! Anyway Ja mata! Arigatou Gozamazu for reviewing!!!

Forsaken-in-death/Kitsune_Demon: sorry it takes me so long to update, just so busy! Going to Pittsburgh next weekend and it sux! And I had to clean my room (which is so dirty) wow, I didn't know I had carpet in here?! Anyway thanks for reviewing! I'm not entirely sure that I'm going to make it shounen ai? I know you want me to but other people don't . . . ? What am I supposed to do! Anyway Ja mata! Arigatou Gozamazu for reviewing!!!

Hikaru-009: I know just as much as you how stereotypical it is to have those kinds of fics but I'm drawn to angst! Sorry it takes me so long to update! It's hard! Anyway, thank you for reviewing. I think they're a really cute and perfect couple but the problem is I need a few more people to say for it to be that way for me to actually make it shounen ai. But thank you! I probably will make them a couple seeing as three people said they wanted them to be together and only one saying they wanted them just friends! Ja mata till next time! Arigatou gozaimazu!!!

Sycogerl64: rrr!?!?! I'm so confused right now?! People are saying to make it shounen ai, and you're saying not to? My cuz says not to!? I'm so confused!!! Anyway, if I get more votes for shounen ai then I'm gonna do that?! I'm sorry! But this chapter is completely shounen ai free! I just want to leave it shounen ai free until I get more people to say whether or not. Anyway Ja mata! Arigatou Gozamazu for reviewing!!! Oh and, I adore your fic uh . . . I don't know what it's called but it's got Touya in it and it's really long. I haven't gotten around to reviewing it but you have to tell me what you're doing different than me?! How is it that you get so many reviews!??!?!!? Anyway, I love it; it's got such lovely angst scenes! Got any pointers for me? Just e-mail me or something! Sayonara!

Okay, finally done with that incredibly long authors note! But if you reviewed I said something to you! Hopefully . . . if you're not up there you will be for sure in the next one! And I am so sorry if I forgot you or something!? Anyway on with the fic!

ON WITH THE FIC!!! AND IF YOU DIDN'T READ THE AUTHORS NOTE PLEASE DO!!!

It felt as though I was falling. All the gravity seemed to have left my body. I couldn't see but I was shaking and tense. It was all black.

I forced my eyes open to see nothing; the same as the inside of my eyes. Dark. Then it seemed that I had stopped, I was still all tensed up but I was now standing.

I stepped forward. There was one solitary light. As though a star were sitting on the ground about fifteen yards away. I walked towards it.

I could feel heat coming from the star. I continued to walk towards it. It was only two yards from me when a woman suddenly lifted it up.

She had feathers covering her. Only enough so that she wasn't exposed but it wasn't a flaunting notion in the way she moved. She held the star in her hands.

It glowed brighter. I didn't shield his eyes though. The light of the star covered the woman's face so that it was unreadable. It burned with brightness yet undiscovered of the universe. Her hands seemed to disappear in the sheer intensity of the light.

She had sky blue eyes that seemed to hold storms within, waiting to be released to wreak havoc on the unready world. A small peach colored tail flicked behind her lithe form as long slender baby pink wings began to enclose the both of us in a new orb of light.

The woman was still standing in the same way, pale eyes burning a hole into my own icy azure eyes. She stared through me as her wings held me within her soothing world of light.

Her feathers were soft against my back as I was locked inside. The star flickered. I didn't want it to go out. I didn't want to be left in the dark. The woman continued to stare through me. Not searching my expression so much as she was my own soul.

I could feel her burning soul as she brought forth a locket. It was around her neck on a long golden chain. The locket was not the normal curved heart shape. It was not even a shape; it was a jagged three-dimensional star, shining silver as the light in front of me was.

I continued to stare at the star in her outstretched hands, unable to do anything else. The woman seemed to have an aura that matched the stars of the night sky. She pulled off locket from her neck and handed it to me.

I hadn't moved but it was in my hand none the less. I hadn't grabbed it but I had it.

The woman seemed satisfied. She pulled the star back, close to her body. She held it up against her collarbone. She closed her eyes, mission complete.

I watched in confusion as her wings retracted. She pulled them behind her and they disappeared. Her tail seemed to be pulled back into her body.

The feathers that still covered her lean physique fell apart. All I could see was feathers. Then my legs gave out. There was no floor to catch me.

I then heard the woman scream and the light went out. I knew it was the woman. There was no one else there. I saw the woman one last time through the feathers. Pain flooded her face.

She cast me one last glance full of pain and then I fell out of view. The light went out and I was once again falling in the dark.

I continued falling for what seemed like eternity. My hand hurt from the spikes of the necklace in my hand. I grasped it firmly and felt the points of it prick my hand painfully.

But I could not stop. My own pain seemed to pale in comparison to the woman's. I looked back upon the memory of her face.

The lines in it were contorted into shapes that seemed to scream agony. Her eyes were crying out to be freed from the rest of this distress and send away this foul storm devouring her from the inside out. Her scream shattered her composure to be replaced with pure torment that was thick in the air as the sound rung back and forth without a reverberation.

I felt bad for the woman. I could feel my icy aura fill the air around me only to be left in the air that I had just fallen through.

I wish that the woman were with me now; that her willowy wings were once again wrapped around my own form. She would have pulled me up with those long slight wings.

I found ground once again. Although I fell upon it; this time the fall ended with a rough jerk. Agony reached my shoulders. I picked myself up. I stared to the dark; half expecting to see the same star in front of me.

There was no star. Not this time.

I shouldn't have been able to see anything. There was no light anywhere. But ahead I saw a dark form. I didn't know how I knew it was Reisho. But it was.

I then heard a horrible laugh; it was nearly inhuman. But that's what Reisho sounded like. I shivered; it seemed so cold. I couldn't stand it. It was like I was being frozen. I never knew what that had felt like before.

Reisho's shadowy form moved closer. I was quivering. Usually I just stayed calm, but I just couldn't this time. I was terrified. The earth master seemed to emit an energy that I had never known before. Reisho was grinning maniacally.

I felt a few tears on his cheeks but they quickly froze and fell to the unobserved ground with a quiet chime as if someone were tapping fine china.

I tried to move but found that my feet wouldn't follow command. I couldn't see very well.

It wasn't the darkness; that seemed to just be in the background. It was that everything was blurry, and it was as though I couldn't open my eyes all the way.

Reisho continued to come closer. He was so close that I could feel his body heat. But I couldn't do anything. I was frozen. I couldn't move. Why couldn't I move?

I couldn't even look down to my feet; I half expected them to be frozen to the ground.

Reisho had an odd look on his face now. The previous look of evil had faded and was now covered by something else. What was it? I couldn't tell. But I was scared by it.

Reisho lifted up one of his sullen bony hands and put it up to my cheek. I could feel a warm burning sensation when Reisho touched my face.

I didn't like it.

I felt a few more tears fall down my cheeks, freeze, and heard them plummet to the ground. Reisho didn't seem to notice.

I wished that I could see properly. I wished that he would move. I wished that Reisho would get that odd look off his face; it scared me. I wished Reisho would stop touching me; it hurt. But most of all I wished that Jin was there.

Jin would be able to help me. Jin could protect me in a way that no one else could. Jin made me not only physically safe, but _feel_ safe as well.

Reisho didn't move. We both stood in the dark for a long while. I still couldn't move. I wanted to.

Finally Reisho moved. He slid his hand away from my burning face. I could feel the fiery touch of his hand spreading each second he left his clammy hand there.

He brought his hand down and around my slim neck. I couldn't move my body but my lips seemed to move of their own accord. I formed words that I would have never before.

"Ketsunoana!"

I could hear my voice fade away into the rest of the darkness as Reisho brought his other hand up to my neck. I could feel his grip tightening around my neck. I could no longer breathe.

I heard him utter soft words that seemed uncharacteristically nice for them to be coming out of his mouth.

"Koro shite yaru . . . "

I couldn't breathe. It was growing darker. Reisho's expression was as it usually was. Smug. He stared into my dimming eyes.

I could feel myself drifting further and further from reality. I still couldn't move.

"Jigoku ni ike!"

"Urusai, kono bakayaro! Omae o korosu!"

"Iie Reisho, onegai, iie. . . yamete!"

I felt my self-fall over. Reisho was still there but I couldn't do anything. I sat there, in a state of ignorance. I had no idea what was going on. All I heard was Reisho say one thing.

"Tameguchi kitten ja ney o."

I felt my eyes close.

I sat up quickly. It was still dark. I was scared. But I could see moonlight pouring in from a window.

I was still on hanging Neck Island. It was only a dream, a simple dream. But it was scary. I looked over to the bed next to me. There were two beds in the room that Jin and I shared. Jin was sound asleep curled up in the covers.

I could feel sweat pouring down my face. Or wait? It wasn't sweat. They were tears. I had been crying in my sleep.

I don't even remember the last time I cried. I lay back down on the bed. That dream scared me so much. I don't know what was so scary about it.

Reisho's words still played over in my head . . .

"Omae o korosu . . ."

I feared they would take over me. I was scared of him. Really scared. I know it must sound absurd, the ice master, afraid of one person. But I am.

I sat there. I continued to remember the dream. It scared me to be sitting in the dark. I didn't want to be here.

I reached my hand up to my face to brush away crystallized tears.

I found that my hand was sticky. I sat up quickly again. I turned my hand towards the moonlight to see better.

My right hand was coated in blood. I flipped my bed covers back to find a few spots of blood on them too.

I jumped off the bed and continued to stare at my hand. A cold chain was wrapped protectively around my blood soaked palm.

I closed my hand to feel pain rush through it. I opened it and looked to see several puncture wounds throughout it.

I watched several drops of blood fall to the floor. I just stared confused. Then I remembered in the dream. I had the necklace. I had held onto it so hard that it cut my hand.

I looked to the chain wrapped around my palm. I looked to the other side of the chain where something seemed to be hanging.

I reached out and turned the light on without realizing. I stared at the same pendant the so-called angel had. An image of her passive face flashed through my mind.

I then heard Jin groan behind me and he said something tiredly.

"Daijoubou desu-ka?"

"Nani? Oh, I think so."

"What does I think so mean?"

Jin opened his sleepy eyes to look at me standing beside his bed. He could see the bruising on my cheek from earlier.

Then his eyes fell upon my hand. It was covered in blood and there was a gold chain hanging from it, still shining, apparently impervious to the blood.

"What happened?!"

"Wakarimasen."

"Does it hurt?"

"Itai chotto. Gomen nasai, I didn't mean to wake you."

"I'm awake now. Do you don't know what happened?"

"Iie."

"Weird. Well let's go to the bathroom and have a look at it."

"Daijoubu."

Jin and I walked to the bathroom. I put my other hand beneath the bloodied one to stop it from dripping. We walked into the bathroom and Jin flicked the light on.

Then he grabbed my hand and flipped it over, apparently looking for something.

"Nani tendesu-ka?"

"I'm tryin' ta figure out how ta get this chain thing off without hurtin' ya. Where did it come from anyway?"

"Wakarimasen. It was just there when I woke up."

"Why'd ya wake up?"

"I had a bad yume. That's all."

"What was in the bad dream that made it so bad?"

"Nani mo. I don't remember."

"Yoshi."

Jin helped me take off the mysterious necklace. Then he put on some bandages for me seeing as I couldn't with only one hand.

"Arigatou Gozaimazu Jin-dono."

"Do itashimashite. And just call me Jin-san or something. Don't make me sound so high and mighty. It feels weird."

"Daijoubu. Well, good night. See you tomorrow Jin- . . . san."

"Night Touya-kun!"

I walked back into the room and got into bed. Jin came in too and went to sleep. I could tell by his breathing.

But I could not sleep. I was still too scared. I sat there for the rest of the night staring at the odd necklace. It confused me.

I had always been taught that dreams weren't real.

Now what was I supposed to think?

A/N: please review! If you need to know what any of the Japanese in there means then just tell me and I'll tell you!