AS A TEENAGER
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MEMORIES OF HER
Severus Snape sat in the empty compartment thinking to himself of all the things he will be forced to do this year. Being eleven years old, teachers would expect him to know nothing and suck up at every opportunity that arose. He was going to surprise them. Severus had big plans in mind. He was going to be head boy, he was going to be in Slytherin, and he was NOT going to conform to anyone's will.
He pulled out Hogwarts: A History, and began to read it for the eighth time. There were students outside, saying good-byes, and parents, giving their children hugs and telling them to be good this year. He drowned them all out. His parents weren't mushy like that. They said their good-bye's curtly and disapparated. They didn't even see him off.
"Do you mind if I sit here," asked a red headed girl taking his concentration from his book,"Everywhere else is full." Severus looked up, he had been so engrossed in the book (he had practically memorized) that he didn't notice her open the compartment door. He nodded and the girl pulled her trunk in.
"I'm Lily," the girl said trying to make conversation.
"Severus," he replied closing the book and focusing his attention to the girl. She had long dark red hair, and bright green eyes. She was looking around the small compartment curiously, nervously, it was as if this were all a dream to her. It dawned on him, this girl was muggle born.
"I still can't believe this is all real," she breathed, "I mean, a year ago, if you would have told me that I would be going to a wizarding school, I would have thought you were bonkers. Not that you are."
"You must be from a NON-WIZARDING family," Severus finally said.
"Well, yes," Lily said looking him in the eye, "the man at the wand shop said it was perfectly common to come from a-a-a 'm-m-muggle' family. Do you come from a pure wizarding family?" Severus felt shivers run through his spine as she met his eyes.
"Yes, I am," he answered. "I'm going to be a great wizard someday, just like my father. Bigger than Dumbledore. You just watch, one day the name Severus Snape will be a name whispered with great reverence in households up and down Europe."
"You've got big dreams," Lily chimed.
"They're going to be a reality someday," he whispered. "Don't you have anything planned for your future?" She looked down at her lap and then raised her head to look at him.
"I was hoping to have a small garden, and maybe a kid or two running about with my husband playing with them," she said this all very fast. She looked back down at her lap. Severus was trying to get a better look at her face. She was blushing. 'Why is she blushing?' he thought madly. 'Is he still looking at me,' thought Lily as she slowly raised her head to check.
They sat in silence for a while then the trolley lady came and Severus bought food for both of them. She choked loudly as she spat out a jelly bean, screamed when her chocolate frog became animated and was simply disgusted at the cockroach clusters. Severus sat back, extremely amused at the sight being played out before him. She had never had wizarding food before in her life.
Severus let out a loud yelp when the compartment doors opened suddenly and a pack of Filibuster's were thrown onto his lap. It let out sparks ranging in all of the colors of the rainbow, and CRACK's and BANG's that made Lily shriek murder. Severus pulled out is wand and quickly started casting spells to stop the disturbance, and once he had he saw Lily with her hands over her head shivering in fear, and loud cacophonous laughter ringing out in the corridor. Severus knew exactly who those voices belonged to. He felt suddenly torn, he wanted to go to Lily and tell her that it was alright, but he also wanted to go out into the corridor and ring the necks of his "friends."
"ARGH!!! Potter!!!," he screamed throwing the compartment doors open to face two boys laughing on the ground over their dangerous prank. "What were you thinking?!?!"
The raven haired boy got up and straightened his robes out. "What're you gonna do 'bout it?? Huh, Snivellus? Cry to your daddy?"
The boy behind him started to laugh at Potter's remarks. Severus was shaking, he wanted to take James' neck and wring him until he begged for forgiveness. "You obviously weren't thinking," said Severus choosing his words carefully, he stepped aside and let the two boys get a look of Lily, pale and shaking. "I wasn't alone, and I could go and get the headmaster and tell them all about your prank. But I'm not, because there's no point to it. You're never going to change Potter, you're always going to be a joker. And who would respects a clown?"
Severus knew he hit a nerve with is words, he saw James' face contort, and he suddenly jumped at Severus with all the intent of making him as unrecognizable as possible. Soon afterward, Potter's friend jumped in, and helped his friend in rearranging Severus' face. Severus was taken by surprise, not by their reaction, but of what happened next.
"STOP!" came the voice. "Stop it!! Stop it now, you bullies!"
It was Lily. She was sticking up for him, she was frantically trying to get the boys off of him. "Get off you toerags!! Get off him now!!" She managed to get James off of him and James was immediately struck stupid. He just stood there while Sirius and Severus continued to fight in the corridor, staring at Lily. He probably would have continued staring had Professor Flitwick not come and pulled Sirius off of Severus, and reprimanded James for fighting.
Severus and Lily spent the sorting in the hospital wing. He was thankful that he did not have to face the school in his condition. What surprised him the most was HER. He was curious on just why she would pursue being around him even though he was what he was. A pureblood elitist. From birth he was taught to hate muggle borns, and never settle for second best. Yet here he was, fraternizing with someone he was taught to hate. She didn't seem to notice. She just attended to his wounds while Madam Pomfrey buzzed about the hospital wing mumbling about family rivalries.
"Why does he enjoy goading you Severus," she asked while applying a salve to the cut on his forehead. Severus was taken-aback, he didn't really know what to say. He and James Potter were natural enemies. Complete opposites. There was no changing that.
"Our families have just known each other for too long," centuries and centuries long, "and we're just another generation of old blood trying to kill each other. It's really very routine, and better left alone than messed with."
She nodded in understanding. Madam Pomfrey came back and started to check over Severus, before she could let him go to the feast, after several "tsk's," and "oh, my's" she gave her approval for them both to go see Prof. McGonagall about their houses. They arrived at the front of a menacing gargoyle statue and stood there wondering what next. They didn't know the password, and little did Lily know that the statue was a doorway. Luckily the doorway opened and there stood Prof. McGonagall, looking quite stern.
"You two have missed the Sorting Ceremony," she began, and Lily began to shrink behind him, "but we have made a special exception for you two since you were both involved in the altercation with Mr. Potter and Mr. Black, and were unavailable to be sorted. You may come up the stairs with me to be sorted, unfortunately the headmaster will not be present since he is still overseeing the feast in the Great Hall. Follow me."
"You mean," said Lily in a small voice, "we're not going to be expelled??"
"Ms. Evans we don't expel students for minor trivial things such as fighting," said McGonagall with a small laugh. Severus felt Lily relax next him. "But we do give detentions for those who repetitively violate the rules."
They began to ascend the spiraling staircase, and Lily took Severus' hand for support. He felt a blush invade his pale cheeks, fortunately Lily was too preoccupied to see his crimson cheeks.
Severus Snape sat bolt upright in his bed. Memories of HER continued to inhabit his dreams. Every night, it was a different dream, every night he would wake up in a cold sweat. He was growing sick of missing her, unable to cope with the fact that she was gone. He was unable to go back to sleep, so instead he began to write in his journal. Dumbledore recommended that he write all of his thoughts down, so he didn't keep them bottled up inside, so that he had an outlet for his mind to pour itself into. So he wrote, all about school, his dreams, the students, Lily. He had written six pages going on seven when he noticed that it was almost daylight. He decided to go out and take a brisk walk before going to breakfast.
As he made it down to the grounds he was greeted by Draco Malfoy, obviously coming from an early morning broom stick ride. They met each others eyes and nodded, and Severus and Draco went their separate ways. The morning was cold, that was the way he liked it. As he made it down to the lake something caught his eye. Someone was already there, covered in their cloak, Severus couldn't see their face properly. As he got closer the figure turned and took Severus by surprise.
It was Hermione.
'What's she doing out here so early?' he thought to himself.
"Sam," she said, "what're you doing out here."
"Hm, I uh...needed a walk," he replied. He still wasn't used to people calling him Sam. "I'd like to ask the same question of you miss head girl," he added jokingly.
A mischievous spark went off in her eye ever so quickly before she replied: "I needed a change of scenery from the library. I've been studying day and night for N.E.W.T.S. and they're still ages away." She gave a small laugh.
"I agree," said Severus, "you have been studying too much."
"Oh not you too!!" she said giggling, "everyone's been telling me that, do you really think I'm overdoing it?? I mean, trying to do more than I should be carrying on?"
"I suppose you could stand to spend more hours at Hogsmeade rather than the library buried under notes and books. All work and no play.."
"Makes Hermione a rather dull girl. Yes, I know, I'll try to cut down on the studying. Thanks Sam," she said.
"No problem," he replied. "Perhaps we should be getting back. It's almost breakfast, and my stomach's telling me to hurry up and get food in it."
She laughed, and nodded, and together they walked back to the castle.
AN: I'm soooo sorry that it's taken me so long to update this fic! I do hope you can forgive me, I've just had soo many things come up and what- not, that I haven't had time to type much of my ideas down into the loverly laptop. hugs laptop But thankfully, it's almost summer and I've got nothing but free time. But if you're desperate for more fic-madness, got to my profile page and read anyone of my other fics.
If you've got any predictions on what's going to happen next tell me in a review. Questions, praises, flames, anything, feel free to tell me in a review! Now, push the purple button, you know you wanna.
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Disclaimer: puts on blonde wig HELLOO!! I'm Jay Kay Roooling!! And I own Harry Potter!! Yeeessh, that iiizz meeee. points to self I have a bagillioooon doollars, err i mean pounds, and I'm filthy bleeding rich!! wig falls off aw crap. I don't own Harry Potter. ,;;
MEMORIES OF HER
Severus Snape sat in the empty compartment thinking to himself of all the things he will be forced to do this year. Being eleven years old, teachers would expect him to know nothing and suck up at every opportunity that arose. He was going to surprise them. Severus had big plans in mind. He was going to be head boy, he was going to be in Slytherin, and he was NOT going to conform to anyone's will.
He pulled out Hogwarts: A History, and began to read it for the eighth time. There were students outside, saying good-byes, and parents, giving their children hugs and telling them to be good this year. He drowned them all out. His parents weren't mushy like that. They said their good-bye's curtly and disapparated. They didn't even see him off.
"Do you mind if I sit here," asked a red headed girl taking his concentration from his book,"Everywhere else is full." Severus looked up, he had been so engrossed in the book (he had practically memorized) that he didn't notice her open the compartment door. He nodded and the girl pulled her trunk in.
"I'm Lily," the girl said trying to make conversation.
"Severus," he replied closing the book and focusing his attention to the girl. She had long dark red hair, and bright green eyes. She was looking around the small compartment curiously, nervously, it was as if this were all a dream to her. It dawned on him, this girl was muggle born.
"I still can't believe this is all real," she breathed, "I mean, a year ago, if you would have told me that I would be going to a wizarding school, I would have thought you were bonkers. Not that you are."
"You must be from a NON-WIZARDING family," Severus finally said.
"Well, yes," Lily said looking him in the eye, "the man at the wand shop said it was perfectly common to come from a-a-a 'm-m-muggle' family. Do you come from a pure wizarding family?" Severus felt shivers run through his spine as she met his eyes.
"Yes, I am," he answered. "I'm going to be a great wizard someday, just like my father. Bigger than Dumbledore. You just watch, one day the name Severus Snape will be a name whispered with great reverence in households up and down Europe."
"You've got big dreams," Lily chimed.
"They're going to be a reality someday," he whispered. "Don't you have anything planned for your future?" She looked down at her lap and then raised her head to look at him.
"I was hoping to have a small garden, and maybe a kid or two running about with my husband playing with them," she said this all very fast. She looked back down at her lap. Severus was trying to get a better look at her face. She was blushing. 'Why is she blushing?' he thought madly. 'Is he still looking at me,' thought Lily as she slowly raised her head to check.
They sat in silence for a while then the trolley lady came and Severus bought food for both of them. She choked loudly as she spat out a jelly bean, screamed when her chocolate frog became animated and was simply disgusted at the cockroach clusters. Severus sat back, extremely amused at the sight being played out before him. She had never had wizarding food before in her life.
Severus let out a loud yelp when the compartment doors opened suddenly and a pack of Filibuster's were thrown onto his lap. It let out sparks ranging in all of the colors of the rainbow, and CRACK's and BANG's that made Lily shriek murder. Severus pulled out is wand and quickly started casting spells to stop the disturbance, and once he had he saw Lily with her hands over her head shivering in fear, and loud cacophonous laughter ringing out in the corridor. Severus knew exactly who those voices belonged to. He felt suddenly torn, he wanted to go to Lily and tell her that it was alright, but he also wanted to go out into the corridor and ring the necks of his "friends."
"ARGH!!! Potter!!!," he screamed throwing the compartment doors open to face two boys laughing on the ground over their dangerous prank. "What were you thinking?!?!"
The raven haired boy got up and straightened his robes out. "What're you gonna do 'bout it?? Huh, Snivellus? Cry to your daddy?"
The boy behind him started to laugh at Potter's remarks. Severus was shaking, he wanted to take James' neck and wring him until he begged for forgiveness. "You obviously weren't thinking," said Severus choosing his words carefully, he stepped aside and let the two boys get a look of Lily, pale and shaking. "I wasn't alone, and I could go and get the headmaster and tell them all about your prank. But I'm not, because there's no point to it. You're never going to change Potter, you're always going to be a joker. And who would respects a clown?"
Severus knew he hit a nerve with is words, he saw James' face contort, and he suddenly jumped at Severus with all the intent of making him as unrecognizable as possible. Soon afterward, Potter's friend jumped in, and helped his friend in rearranging Severus' face. Severus was taken by surprise, not by their reaction, but of what happened next.
"STOP!" came the voice. "Stop it!! Stop it now, you bullies!"
It was Lily. She was sticking up for him, she was frantically trying to get the boys off of him. "Get off you toerags!! Get off him now!!" She managed to get James off of him and James was immediately struck stupid. He just stood there while Sirius and Severus continued to fight in the corridor, staring at Lily. He probably would have continued staring had Professor Flitwick not come and pulled Sirius off of Severus, and reprimanded James for fighting.
Severus and Lily spent the sorting in the hospital wing. He was thankful that he did not have to face the school in his condition. What surprised him the most was HER. He was curious on just why she would pursue being around him even though he was what he was. A pureblood elitist. From birth he was taught to hate muggle borns, and never settle for second best. Yet here he was, fraternizing with someone he was taught to hate. She didn't seem to notice. She just attended to his wounds while Madam Pomfrey buzzed about the hospital wing mumbling about family rivalries.
"Why does he enjoy goading you Severus," she asked while applying a salve to the cut on his forehead. Severus was taken-aback, he didn't really know what to say. He and James Potter were natural enemies. Complete opposites. There was no changing that.
"Our families have just known each other for too long," centuries and centuries long, "and we're just another generation of old blood trying to kill each other. It's really very routine, and better left alone than messed with."
She nodded in understanding. Madam Pomfrey came back and started to check over Severus, before she could let him go to the feast, after several "tsk's," and "oh, my's" she gave her approval for them both to go see Prof. McGonagall about their houses. They arrived at the front of a menacing gargoyle statue and stood there wondering what next. They didn't know the password, and little did Lily know that the statue was a doorway. Luckily the doorway opened and there stood Prof. McGonagall, looking quite stern.
"You two have missed the Sorting Ceremony," she began, and Lily began to shrink behind him, "but we have made a special exception for you two since you were both involved in the altercation with Mr. Potter and Mr. Black, and were unavailable to be sorted. You may come up the stairs with me to be sorted, unfortunately the headmaster will not be present since he is still overseeing the feast in the Great Hall. Follow me."
"You mean," said Lily in a small voice, "we're not going to be expelled??"
"Ms. Evans we don't expel students for minor trivial things such as fighting," said McGonagall with a small laugh. Severus felt Lily relax next him. "But we do give detentions for those who repetitively violate the rules."
They began to ascend the spiraling staircase, and Lily took Severus' hand for support. He felt a blush invade his pale cheeks, fortunately Lily was too preoccupied to see his crimson cheeks.
Severus Snape sat bolt upright in his bed. Memories of HER continued to inhabit his dreams. Every night, it was a different dream, every night he would wake up in a cold sweat. He was growing sick of missing her, unable to cope with the fact that she was gone. He was unable to go back to sleep, so instead he began to write in his journal. Dumbledore recommended that he write all of his thoughts down, so he didn't keep them bottled up inside, so that he had an outlet for his mind to pour itself into. So he wrote, all about school, his dreams, the students, Lily. He had written six pages going on seven when he noticed that it was almost daylight. He decided to go out and take a brisk walk before going to breakfast.
As he made it down to the grounds he was greeted by Draco Malfoy, obviously coming from an early morning broom stick ride. They met each others eyes and nodded, and Severus and Draco went their separate ways. The morning was cold, that was the way he liked it. As he made it down to the lake something caught his eye. Someone was already there, covered in their cloak, Severus couldn't see their face properly. As he got closer the figure turned and took Severus by surprise.
It was Hermione.
'What's she doing out here so early?' he thought to himself.
"Sam," she said, "what're you doing out here."
"Hm, I uh...needed a walk," he replied. He still wasn't used to people calling him Sam. "I'd like to ask the same question of you miss head girl," he added jokingly.
A mischievous spark went off in her eye ever so quickly before she replied: "I needed a change of scenery from the library. I've been studying day and night for N.E.W.T.S. and they're still ages away." She gave a small laugh.
"I agree," said Severus, "you have been studying too much."
"Oh not you too!!" she said giggling, "everyone's been telling me that, do you really think I'm overdoing it?? I mean, trying to do more than I should be carrying on?"
"I suppose you could stand to spend more hours at Hogsmeade rather than the library buried under notes and books. All work and no play.."
"Makes Hermione a rather dull girl. Yes, I know, I'll try to cut down on the studying. Thanks Sam," she said.
"No problem," he replied. "Perhaps we should be getting back. It's almost breakfast, and my stomach's telling me to hurry up and get food in it."
She laughed, and nodded, and together they walked back to the castle.
AN: I'm soooo sorry that it's taken me so long to update this fic! I do hope you can forgive me, I've just had soo many things come up and what- not, that I haven't had time to type much of my ideas down into the loverly laptop. hugs laptop But thankfully, it's almost summer and I've got nothing but free time. But if you're desperate for more fic-madness, got to my profile page and read anyone of my other fics.
If you've got any predictions on what's going to happen next tell me in a review. Questions, praises, flames, anything, feel free to tell me in a review! Now, push the purple button, you know you wanna.
LOVE PEACE CHICKEN GREASE!!! Super out! (Ryan Seacrest moment. OY.) Push the button....do it! Do it now!! NOW! NOW!!