Title: The Trouble With Getting Married Pt. Π
Chapter 2: Epiphanies, Many Sorry's, And Many More Epiphanies
{DISCLAIMER}: I own nothing…Nada!!! Don't sue me!!! I no own song either I wish I owned Davey Havok…he's a butt got himself sick can't sing for awhile until he get better the stupid butt makes me so mad at him!!!!!!!
Author's Note: Hmmm what tah say…I don't think many will like this chapter ish a bit a confusing…. Hmm anywho's on with the fic...a la mode…HeHe saying that makes me feel like a little kid in a candy store...strangely that was never me…I was a deprived little child think Ah'm catching up now…that must explain my weirdness...o0ops-ies I'm ranting so onwards to greatness and floundering…erf…
"Where shall you be staying, or are you not planning on staying long?"
"Oh I think I shall be vacationing here. I will be staying at a hotel, which I haven't checked into yet."
"Well I hope you enjoy your stay here mon ami." Remy glared at him hoping he would burst into flames before his very eyes, but instead his visitor turned to leave.
"Wait!" Rogue called after him. "What kind of friends would we be if we didn't invite you to stay with us, while you're in town, that is if it is all right with Jean-Luc." Rogue turned to Remy with pleading eyes, she felt she had to be nice to him; after all she had all most killed his lover.
"It's fine with Jean-Luc if it's fine with me, and if that's what mon chére wants then that's what mon chére gets."
"That's ok I'll find a nice hotel."
"No we insist you stay with us."
"Well if you insist." He said with mischievous eyes.
~*~*~*~*~
She walked along the corridors of the hall of the many bedrooms, taking her time. She had stopped at the kitchen for a quick glass of water on her way to her room. Now as she walked these long corridors of the west wing she longed to prolong her arrival to her room. Thinking of what she could do she thought of the earlier events. She thought of the angered look on Remy's face when she had invited his enemy to stay with them, but she was only trying to be nice. She only felt as if she had to be nice to him, after she had found out about his unfaithfulness to her she did try to kill his mistress and felt that she owed him for that. Now she felt horrible for hurting her love, she didn't want Remy to be upset with her, so she figured she would make it up to him now, behind closed doors where no one could she them.
* Don't waste your touch, you won't feel anything
Or were you sent to save me?
I've thought too much, you won't find anything...
Worthy of redeeming
Yo he esta-do aqui muchas veces antes y regreso*
Just as she turned to head in the direction of Remy's room she heard a door open. At that instant she felt eyes on her and felt as if a draft had passed through the hall. She froze dead in her tracks. Her hands had become frozen, her body wracked with shivers. She feared to turn around and see the one who was staring at her, she was afraid of what would happen if she looked at him. She was unable to walk away as if she hadn't heard the door open or pretend it was one of the other inhabitants of the Guild house, because she heard him speak. She heard him call her name out, that had sent her to shiver even harder; that had sent her knees to want to buckle under her with fear.
* To... break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away*
"Rogue…" At that she did a one eighty and faced him.
"Scott," she stated his name so blunt that it would have made the Arctic's seem warm.
"Hey you ok? You look like you saw a ghost or something."
"Yeah I'm fine. What's up?"
"I just wanted to say thank you again for letting me stay here with you, and I wanted to apologies for everything…."
"It's fine. How about we leave the past to the past ok?" With that she turned away from him and walked towards Remy's room even faster than she had turned away from him.
~*~*~*~*~
She looked at the massive double Victorian style doors and knocked. Without waiting for an answer she entered, to find a surprised Remy turn to her with hatred in his eyes. Quickly seeing her astonished face his eyes softened. There was something inside her eyes, something that made him just want to hold her for eternity. With a knowing expression he opened his arms to her. With that she quickly rushed into his warm comforting arms and began to sob. He held her tightly stroking her head softly. After awhile he raised her face to look at him. He stared into her deep emerald eyes looking for the answer to his question so he wouldn't have to ask her, but there was too much in them. There was too much emotion revealed, it was as if a floodgate had opened and everything she had been feeling these past months were being released.
* Imperfect cry,
and scream in ecstasy
So what befalls the flawless?
Look what I've built, it shines so beautifully
Now watch as it destroys me
Y regreso aqui otra vez y comienzo*
"What's wrong mon chére?"
"I just want you to hold me." The tears that were hidden behind her eyes had started to pour out of her. "I just…" She stumbled for the words to describe how she felt but there were none.
"Shh it's alright I'm here for you. I won't leave you."
"You promise?"
"Why would I leave my life?" At that moment she giggled. "It's good to hear you laugh. How about you stay here with me tonight or would you like to go back to your room?"
"How about you grab your stuff and I grab my stuff and we leave?"
"And go where?"
"Anywhere, just somewhere that's not here?"
"Non"
"But why?"
"We have this hole place to our selves why leave?"
"Well we're not completely alone." She was hinting to Scott.
"So why not kick him out, non?" He said with a fat grin on his face.
"Non we can't go somewhere now, we have to be good hosts. So we'll go to my room." She said winking at him.
~*~*~*~*~
* To... break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away*
He could hear voices in the corridor, they sounded like Remy and Rogue. He knew in order to get to Rogue's room they would have to pass his. Opening his door quietly and enough for him to peek outside and watch them he stuck his head out. The couple was walking down the corridor laughing and joking around. Remy was teasing Rogue about something he couldn't hear. He saw Rogue swat at Remy with her hand as if he were a fly. Seeing the two made his heart rage with furry. He really and truly did at one point want them to be happy together, but something had changed inside him, he didn't know what but all he knew was that he wanted Rogue, he needed and deserved her.
"Mon chére shall we check on our guest like good hosts?" He looked down at her with such passion, which only infuriated Scott even more.
"Non why bother him. He must be asleep by now, so shh." She replied looking up at him with the look of intoxication in her eyes and giggling so low that even hummingbirds would have to strain to hear it.
After they had disappeared around the coroner Scott shut his door being careful not to make a noise just incase they might hear. Why did seeing them together bother him so much? He thought he was over the sight of them together, but seeing them he felt sick. Seeing her glow the way she did when she was with him, in his arms, looking in his eyes, made him…regret ever coming there. Part of him felt like he just wanted them to be happy together. He knew the right thing would be to wish them good luck and wish for the best for them both. Something inside him however pulled him in the opposite direction; it pulled him to feel like Gambit didn't deserve Rogue, he didn't deserve her presence, her looks, her kisses, her embraces, and most of all her love. He deserved all of it, he did all lot for everyone he deserved what he wanted, right?
Could he be wrong? Could it be that he didn't deserve Rogue, and another thought did he want her because she didn't belong to him any more. Did he really get over and now just felt jealousy? What he would give to know what exactly he should do. He felt like eh was being ripped at the seams, like something was pulling him in several different directions and that something being his heart and brain. He just wanted to let loose of everything and feel free again, like he did when he was a child or whenever he was around Rogue. Maybe that was one of the reasons he wanted her so badly, because being around her made him feel like he could be himself he didn't have to hide. He felt free when he was with her, free like a dove, even though it sounded so cliché it true for him. He would give anything to repay her for making him feel the way he did with her, but he wanted to feel like this whole life. He felt like he was going to burst, so much conflict within himself over one girl. This had to be love, what else could it be he thought.
*Break
down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away*
Returning back to reality he continued to unpack his things. As he turned from his back to hang his shirt in the closet he caught a glimpse of something shinny in the bottom of the back in the corner of his eye. After placing his shirt in the closet he rummaged through the back obtaining the object that had caught his attention and found it to be a picture frame. The picture inside was of him and Rogue at the surprise birthday party she had thrown.
~*~FLASHBACK~*~
He continued to tickle her even through all her attempts of escape and many protests. He wouldn't stop until she confused to him what she planning. After her many failed attempts or yielding her harsh punishment she gave in. She looked up at him trying her hardest not to laugh and told him exactly what was happening. She told him about planning a little surprise for him just the two in his room candlelight dinner and one wonderful night alone just the two of them. Not wanting to spend the night in his room he tried to persuade her into doing something else. After much deliberation they came to the conclusion of a movie and then dinner for two in his room.
The couple had gone to the movie as planned but when they returned they found that the mansion was completely deserted and left in total darkness. Realizing that something was wrong they wandered all over the mansion looking for any sign of life. When they got the rec. room it was just the same as the other rooms dark and empty or so they thought. After turning on the lights a mob of people jumped out from behind various objects proclaiming "Happy Birthday!" as they did so. Scott was rushed by a bunch of these people all wishing him a happy birthday and giving him hugs and gifts. As Scott was being plagued by people Rogue slipped off into a dark corner with a grin on her face.
She found her self at the refreshment table. After awhile Scott had escaped the mob and looked everywhere for Rogue. Finally finding her by herself at the refreshment table he approached her. Sneaking up behind her he wrapped his arms around her and whispered into her ear a grateful "Thank you". She slowly turned around in his arms and asked "For what?"
"You know all of this," he said while indicating with both his arms the room filled with people, "the birthday party."
"You're welcome." And with that she leaned in to kiss him.
~*~END FLASHBACK~*~
He carefully placed the picture in a draw beside his bed and went to sleep.
~*~*~*~*~
He heard the door open slowly, the person being careful not to wake the sleeping occupant. He heard them set a tray down beside his bed and heard them as they walked over to the blinds and opened them, not enough to wake the person but enough to illuminate the room. The person then walked back over to the tray and he could smell the sweet scent of the person. It smelt like French vanilla but there was another smell to, it smelt like coffee. He then heard her turn to leave, stretching his hand out quickly and grabbing her wrist found his way out from under the tangles of the comforter. He heard her gasped inwardly, and smiled at the shocked look on her face when she had turned to look at whom her capturer was.
"Dear lord," she exclaimed, "You scared me half tah death."
"I am so sorry I didn't mean to."
"It's all right." She quickly snatched her hand back from him and began rubbing her wrist.
"Did I hurt?"
"No, why would you say that?" He just pointed at her hands. "Oh no I just injured my wrist last night that's all." She smiled at the memory and got a curious look from Scott. "Nothing," was all she said. Just as she was about to exit he called out to her.
"Wait! I need to talk to you." He looked at her with a guilty expression his face, as if he was just caught shoplifting or with his hand in the cookie jar.
"What's wrong?"
"What if I said I lied when I told you I didn't know you and Remy were going to be at the Ball last night? What would you do if I said I still pine for you? What would you say I need you like I need oxygen? What would you do if I said I still love you, I've always loved you and always will?" Rogue was shocked at this revelation, she couldn't believe all that he was saying to her, everything that came out of his mouth.
"You can't! You just can't…"
"But I do."
"And I don't. I don't love you; I never have and never will. I admit I did like you…a lot, but I didn't love you. I love Remy, always have and always will."
"Do you ever wonder what would have happened if I had never slept with Jean?"
"I used to but now I know that it wouldn't have lasted. We weren't meant for each other. I believe that we would have broken up even if you didn't cheat. I believe it would have happened anyway if it was meant to be…." As if she had heard what she was saying she turned once again and almost dashed out of the room, if it weren't for Scott you had grasped her by the shoulder.
"Wait. I'm sorry for everything, maybe you're right maybe were not meant for each other," at that moment he turned her around and lifted her chin to look into her eyes, "Is there anything I can do to repay you or help you in anyway?"
"Repay me? For what? Help with what?"
"Repay you for your hospitality or help you with the wedding."
"Oh no but thanks for asking." Just as she was leaving he called out after her, "Hey if there is anything I can do then let me know ok?" She just nodded her head at him and ran out the room.
~*~*~*~*~
Rogue rushed into Remy's room, hugging him she exclaimed, "Let's do it!"
"Do what mon chére?"
A/N: Sorry took so long for me to write this chap, but I think I had an epiphany or something or ruther. Me not gonna write for awhile haven't felt like writing anything lately… all I do is come up with ideas but never feel like writing…think I'm having writer's block or something…but anywho's don't think I'll be writing for awhile…even though this now means I didn't complete my spring break goal of finishing one story and starting my sequel to Affairs of the Heart ::sighs::
Special thanks to ishandahalf for reviewing basically all my fanfic stories THANK YOU!!P.S. Sorry for the mistakes in the last chapter and sorry for any in this chapter!! Ubberly sorry {wow haven't used that word in awhile…wonder why I stopped I loved that word…humph}