Chapter 19
A/N: Whew, it's almost to Chapter 20! I think I'm updating much faster than I have with the other chapters. Yay, for me! Okay, I'm not going to do the person who reviewed the most anymore because I don't have the time-lol-I do have a life besides the OC and One Tree Hill, okay so maybe I don't, but still I think you guys know who has reviewed the most.
Wow, there was an overwhelming vote for Marissa over Cindy. Yeah, I know, I promised this and HAD the intention of this being a Ryan and Marissa shipper, but I sort of side-stepped the plot. lol. I'm sure all of you fanfic writers know exactly what I'm talking about. winks
This chapter might seem like it's a Cindy/Ryan fic, but trust me it's NOT!
Chapter 19 . . . here we go . . .
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"I can't choose." Ryan stuttered, looking into the crystal-clear eyes of Marissa.
"Why not?" Marisssa softly whispered, tears in her eyes.
"Because I'm pregnant." Cindy cut in. She couldn't stand the fact that Ryan, the father of her baby was still enraptured with someone else.
"And. . .I'm the father." Ryan said slowly.
Marissa leaned back in her seat, comprehending what she just heard. She watched the tall models strut around. The threesome hadn't even noticed that the runway show had ended. Oops. Which also meant that Cindy and Marissa forgot to go up there as the guests of honors, poor Summer had to wing it. Another oops.
Marissa was still deep in thought. Suddenly, something struck her. She sat up rather quickly, frightening Ryan and Cindy.
"We were so happy at the pent house. Did you . . . cheat on me. . .?" Marissa asked, tears threatening to spill out.
Ryan was quick to correct his state, "No, I didn't. I swear. We did it on the plane here. We're both drunk."
"Nice way to describe "the moment"." Cindy muttered under her breath.
"So you have to stay with Ava?" Marissa whispered, hoping this was all a dream, and suddenly she would wake up.
"Ava? Who, wha—oh, yea I do." Ryan answered. "Look I'm really sorry that it had to turn out this way." Ryan cupped Marissa's face in her hands.
A single lone tear fell down Marissa's cheek.
Marissa turned her head away, out of Ryan's grasp.
"Ryan, you know I care about you. But I understand why you have to do it. I'm so . . . sorry. . ." Marissa started to gather her things.
"Marissa! Wait!" Ryan called after her.
But Marissa was already running into the blackness to some back door. Her fleeting figure disappeared into the crowd.
I'm so tired of being here.
Suppressed by all my childhood fears.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave.
Cause your presence still lingers here,
and it won't leave me alone.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.
You used to captivate me by your resonating mind,
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real . . .
My Immortal-Evanescence
Ryan sunk back into his chair. Cindy rubbed his back to make him feel better.
"At least I still have you, and you." Ryan said to Cindy's stomach.
Cindy laughed a little, but then sobered up at Ryan's expression. "Don't worry, Ry, we'll be just fine."
"I hope so."
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Anna slowly peeled herself off the floor. Her back ached and she was sore all over. Her headed pounded like a bitch. When Anna opened her eyes and got adjusted to the light, she was shocked to learn that she was in Seth's hotel room-alone. Oh Shit! Anna slowly surveyed the room. There were broken shards of glass from the wine glass she had been drinking from earlier. Anna winced as she saw the label, it read Versace. Seth wouldn't be too pleased about that. Speaking of Seth, where the hell was he? He must have deserted her. Whatever, as long as he doesn't figure it out what I put in his drink. Anna complied her stuff and freshened herself up. With a touch of bright pink MAC lip gloss, she headed down the elevator.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"Coop!" Summer desperately cried into her cell phone.
"Sum?!? What's wrong???" Marissa asked, suddenly very concerned at her best friend's urgent tone.
Summer could tell something was wrong with Marissa's teary tone. She knew her best friend inside and out, and this signal wasn't a good one. "Okay, I say what's wrong with me first and then it's your turn."
"Sound's like the good old days when we had boy trouble."
Summer chuckled to herself. She remembered when Marissa would talk to her about her problems with Luke and she would tell her about her never finding a sweet guy. They would have Friday night sleepovers and eat Doritos and munch out.
"Okay, well, I found Seth-half-naked, with a sleeping Anna next to him." Summer nearly broke into another convulsion of tears.
"Oh, Sum. . ."
"It's okay." Summer sniffed. "What about you?"
"Well Ryan and Ava were on a date!!! They were going as an item to the show!!! And she's pregnant with his baby!!!" Marissa cried. "Who knew that he could do such a thing, who would've thought?"
Summer winced. Wait, Ava was that girl Ryan was talking to? What happened to Cindy? Probably just a pseudo name or something like that. Damn, I shouldn't have invited her.
"Coop, let's check into some nearby hotel for some therapy."
Marissa assented.
"Where are you?" Summer inquired.
"Um. . . I think, well I'm in my limo. We're somewhere near Rodeo Drive. What about you?"
"I'm driving my car. Well, one of my cars. It's the white escalade. You know the one with the shiny wheels that Ryan nearly drooled over when he first saw them." Summer told Marissa. "Where do you want to check in?"
"Um. . . ooh! The new Balboa hotel! I heard it's really expensive and really nice." Marissa exclaimed.
"Okay. Let's go." Summer turned a right.
"Are you sure? I mean it's really expensive."
"Yea, Seth's footing the bill anyways."
Marissa squealed. "Okay, see you there." She was just about to hang up.
"Oh and Marissa. . . "
"Yea?"
"Try to break as many things as possible there." Summer told her.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"Wasn't that great?" Cindy remarked excitedly on the way back from the fashion show. "Ryan?" Cindy playfully nudged Ryan who was staring out of the window.
"Yea." Ryan told her before turning back to look at the nightlife of LA.
Cindy was really concerned. She knew that he must of really liked that girl, and one time, and one mistake drove her away. "Ryan, I know its been tough. I know what feels like to lose someone you love because of some stupid thing you did. But, could you at least try to enjoy the fact that you're going to be a dad? You know I have feelings too, this wasn't exactly planned. I'm 25, at the peak of my career. But, I'm trying to live with this fact. And right now, you aren't being the most embracing or receptive person at the moment. That kills me a lot. I want this baby to be raised by loving parents. Maybe over time, we'll learn to love each other. I don't want my future child to be with a father who's distant all the time."
Ryan turned around to her. He had tears in his eyes. He quickly wiped them away. "You don't …understand…" He shuddered. "I love Marissa. I've always had. I've made many mistakes before. And when things start to get good between us, after a whole decade of discomfort, this comes along."
Cindy's eyes started to water. "Wait, you think you're the only one with problems? Look, around, a lot of people have to go through much more than you do. Trust me, I would know!" Cindy yelled at Ryan.
"Right, because sweet, southern girls who make millions and are superstars have to go through tough times." Ryan yelled back at her.
"Shut the fuck up. Do you know what my life was like before I became this star? Do you know the misery and the abuse I had to go through at my house? Ever wonder why I'm so good at dramatic roles about people who have problems? Do you really? I don't think you know what I have gone through." She screamed at him.
"Oh really, because I lived the perfect childhood! I lived in god damn Chino! My mom was a drug-addict and an alcoholic, and my whatever trash my mom would bring home would always beat me up." Ryan yelled back.
"My step-dad used to beat me. And my mom was never around. And you want to know what my dad hit me with? A whip!!! And you know what you're a boy, you could defend yourself easier."
"Bullshit. I was just as powerless as you. My brother always had to defend me." As soon as Ryan said that, it began to hit him. I was just as powerless as you. Cindy had gone through the same thing he did.
"You had a brother to defend you! You know what, all of my siblings ran away. I was alone. Nobody ever helped me or defended me. And you think that you've had a tough time with love, with Marissa? Think again! The one guy who would step up for me was one of my later boyfriends. He was the one who got me into acting. What got me here today." Cindy took a deep breath.
"I loved him with all my heart. I was rehearsing a love scene with my co-star, and . . . Brendon, walked in. He thought I was cheating on him. And he ran out." Cindy screamed.
"Cindy. . ."
"I ran after him, but I wasn't very fast in my strappy, high heels. He got into a car and he drove off down the street. But then . . ." Cindy heaved a huge sob. She continued, "A car rammed into his side of the car." She sniffed. "A drunk driver killed him! I loved him so much. . ."
"I'm so sorry." Ryan said in disbelief. Cindy rested her head on Ryan's chest. "I'm so sorry, so sorry. . ." Ryan muttered over and over.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"Guys official suck." Summer remarked as she plopped into one of the plush chairs at their penthouse suite at the Balboa hotel.
"Yup, amend to that sister." Marissa said as she plopped next to Summer and they clinked their Ben and Jerry's ice cream cartons together.
"Wow, Coop, I really don't know what to say for you. You're officially screwed. I mean, there's no way you can change anything. Unless you kill Ava, but lets not do the jealous ex murdering thing." Summer said with her mouth full of chocolate.
"Well, Summer, you're officially screwed too. And you're married-with three kids." Marissa tossed back.
"Yup, guys suck." Summer spooned another spoonful of ice cream into her mouth. "And you know what's weird? There was white powder everywhere. Where they like, smoking crack? I think they know that I do something called "rage blackouts"."
Marissa suddenly sat up. "Wait, you said Anna was sleeping?"
"Yup."
"What about Seth, any condom wrappers?"
"No."
"Summer, don't you understand? This is great! I bet they didn't even do the deed. He probably stopped because he thought of you." Marissa said wistfully.
"It doesn't matter Coop, he almost did it, and the fact that he even had that motion sickens me." Summer said with disgust.
"Like Eww!" Summer and Marissa said in unison before bursting in a fit of giggles.
Summer thought for a second. "I like girl nights like these. Let's go to CVS for some more ice cream."
Marissa shouted, "You scream, I scream, we all scream for ice cream." Before running out of the door with Summer at her heels.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
It was pouring. Like really pouring. Like monsoon pouring. It was one of the few times that it rained in Los Angeles. Seth was aimlessly walking around. He was drenched and his expensive blue striped shirt was being soaked. He looked down, it was nearly see-though. Seth just walked, thinking about what had happened. He should known, he should've realized that Anna wasn't there on a simple visit. That she had wanted more, and unfortunately he didn't feel the same way as her. She could have been a great friend, but Anna couldn't get past the fact that Seth loved Summer. Then she sort of, turned, evil. Like something that would come out of a comic book. He couldn't let Summer get a divorce. He had fawned over her for what? 20 years? And when he finally married her, she was all for him. Seth wasn't even nervous at his wedding. He knew that he was doing the right thing. He didn't even ramble when he did his vows. Even Summer was surprised at that.
Flashback
"Cohen, you didn't even ramble like you usually do. Which, may I remind you, makes me totally hot." Summer excitedly said.
"You're a Cohen now too." Seth seductively whispered in her ear.
Summer just giggled and pulled him away from the reception into Ryan's car. Hey what he didn't know couldn't hurt him.
End of Flashback
Seth shook off the tears in his eyes. Seth ran, he knew where Summer would be. She would always go to a CVS whenever there was a crisis-good or bad. When she found out she was pregnant, when she graduated college, when Ryan left Marissa. It was a tradition for Summer, and there weren't many CVS' in LA. Seth ran until he stopped in front of one. He looked in the glass, slightly blinded by the white, fluorescent lighting. There she was, with her hair up in a messy bun and no makeup, but she still looked beautiful.
"Summer!" Seth yelled. He pounded on the glass.
Instantly, her head turned. She saw a drenched Seth outside the window. She turned away. But, Marissa saw Seth. "You should talk to him." She nudged Summer over to the window. "I'll get the ice cream." She whispered.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Cindy clutched her stomach in pain.
"Oh my god, are you all right?" Ryan terrified asked.
"No." Cindy whispered before passing out on his shoulder.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The doctor came into the room. Ryan instantly turned his head towards her. Cindy was awake and he was holding her hand as she lay on the hospital bed.
The doctor looked stressed. "I'm so sorry to be the one to say this, but, you're not pregnant. You lost the baby due to stress."
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
A/N: I know you Marissa and Ryan lovers, that you guys exhaled a big breath! But, wow, this was a really long chapters. So you guys better review if you want to find out what's going to happen. Yeah you, you have to take 30 seconds to review you lazy bum!