Author's note: I know this is on short notice but this is the last chapter
of unexpected love. I'm going to try and make it a long one. I have been so
busy with my new story that I haven't had any thoughts on this one. I'm
starting another one too.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Too bad. (
Recap: last chapter Pacey and Joey had gotten in a fight and not really cool. Sam and Carmen got back together but got into a fight. Pacey and Sam felt bad so they got drunk and Carmen and Sam got back again. Joey and Pacey were close to having sex when Joey said she wanted more. At the worst time the phone rang. It was Andie and she said she couldn't stop bleeding.
New: this chapter is going to be in the summer. If you remember some details from the story it will make sense. Every other important detail will be shown. I hope you enjoy THE LAST UNEXPECTED MOMENTS.
Joey Potter walked down the four familiar steps in front of the Potter house for the billionth time this summer. Joey hadn't had a chance to relax at all. Dawson and Charlie were dragging her everywhere in town and even to a few towns over. She realized that there was no use fighting them because they would say "Joey, we are not leaving you here to mop your sorry ass of an eighteen year old around your house, eat ice cream and get plump for Worthington." It was their pathetic attempt to get her mind off of Pacey.
Pacey.
That's a name she wish she could forget. The one guy she ever loved, the one guy who said he would never let her fall, dropped flat on her face at the prom. He made a huge scene. Pacey looked her straight in the eyes and told her how miserable she was making him. After three years of realizing they loved each other, he decided to tell her then. It was two months since that horrible night and yet Joey couldn't stop crying. In the shower, in her bed at night, while cleaning her house, even when she was in the library! Joey didn't like how Pacey made her feel but she still loved him. It hurt her so much that when she saw him, she couldn't touch him. He was always around. Either he was walking down the same street she was on or he was leaving her house after hanging with Sam. Why couldn't he just disappear? Joey knew that's the reason she said yes to this whole summer close road trip with Dawson, Charlie, Jen and Carmen. She wanted to get away from Pacey and forget him...sadly, it wasn't working. Joey felt a single tear run down her cheek as she sat on the porch waiting for the van to pull up.
Pacey Witter sat on his soft white and red chair that his sister got him for his birthday. He was staring off into space not blinking once. His mind was concentrated on the words of the song coming from his stereo. They fit so perfectly with him that it seemed as though the song was made for him. These types of songs weren't usually what he listened to but lately, he couldn't get enough of songs that made him sad. Pacey picked up the picture of him and Joey as the song played. I set out on a narrow way
Many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you (Chorus)
Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were just Northern Stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
(That) God blessed the broken road
And led me straight to you I look back on the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to take the time I lost
And give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan
That is coming true (Chorus) Straight to you Now I'm just rolling home
into my lover's arms
this much I know...I know its true
(That) God blessed the broken road
And led me straight to you
(Yes) God blessed the broken road
And led me straight to you - Melodie Crittenden "Broken Road"
When the song ended Pacey saw a few wet spots on the glass of the picture frame. Pacey wiped away the tears and smiled at the picture. He remembered the day it was taken. It was a freezing cold day by the creek. Everyone was decorating Gram's tree while Joey and Pacey sat on the porch. Joey decided to wear just a blue and white sweater so she was scrunched up practically into a ball. Pacey moved his hand over hers and it was ice cold. He looked at her and laughed. Joey slowly turned her head and rolled her eyes. "See Jo," Pacey said unbuttoning his large jacket. "That's what you get for not listening to your boyfriend." Joey felt her hands going numb but didn't want to give up so easily. "Well I'm fine Pace. I don't need your jacket." "Who said I was going to give you my Jacket? I may love you but I'm not going to freeze my ass off." "O that's very sweet of you." Joey said sarcastically. "I would have though, if you wanted, let you sit on my lap and I held you nice and close so we could both be warm and comfortable on this freezing cold night." Pacey smiled at Joey tempting her. "But, since you don't want to, I guess I'll keep this double coated flannel all to myself then." Joey nodded and turned away. After a few seconds a wind blew in and froze her nose. Joey gave in and walked to Pacey. He just opened his coat and let her sit on his lap then they held each other close inside the coat. "I knew you couldn't resist sitting on my lap Potter." "Get over yourself Witter. It was either this or face Mother Nature in a battle. Let me tell ya, she's one tough lady." Joey smiled sweetly at Pacey. "So are you gonna kiss me or do I have to make you?" "You never have to force me to kiss you." Pacey smiled and leaned into Joey. They both had there eyes closed but could hear a camera go off. The pair looked up and there was Jen holding a Camera and smiling. "You guys are so cute when you stop fighting." Jen said about to cry. "Lindley, that was a very private moment you took a picture of and I would like to have it." Pacey stumbled out with a face that was red. "Is Pacey embarrassed? You really shouldn't be because I caught you two doing a little more than just kissing at the junior class trip last year." Jen put her hand over her mouth in sarcasm. Joey got up and felt her face all red. "Well this is embarrassing. If you never bring that up again that would be great Jen. I'm going to go inside and get warmed up." Joey hurried inside.
Pacey would never forget that day, even that year. So much happened in high school between the bantering buddies. Neither one of them would have guessed this is what high school would have ended like. If someone would have told Pacey freshman year that he was going to end up falling in love with Joey his sophomore year and end up dating her on and off for the next two, he would have laughed in their face and show them to the nearest psyche ward. Despite all of the amazing times he had, the ones he couldn't get out of his head were the prom and two weeks later. Pacey went to the prom with all of this anger because he didn't do so hot on a test after Joey kept nagging him to keep studying. Seeing Joey talking to another guy and the fact that it didn't really bother him set him off. It wasn't until the next day that Pacey realized that he did care but Joey was so worried about her grades that it made him happy to see her smile, not that she was talking to another guy.
Two weeks after they broke up, Joey shows up at his door wanting to be friends again. Pacey could not be friends with a woman that he was still in love with. He went off on her again. This time Joey ran away crying after telling him she hated him. That line hit his heart hard. "I hate you Pacey!" floated around his mind for weeks. It still came back sometimes leaving Pacey in an almost suicide state. How could you hurt her again? Pacey kept asking himself. He decided it was best if they stayed away from each other.
Pacey put down the picture and looked at his clock. It was time that he got ready to go see Andie. She had gone to a mental help place after trying to commit suicide earlier in the year. She called Joey up after she slit her wrists and legs because the bleeding wouldn't stop. If she wouldn't have taken so much aspirin her blood wouldn't have been so thin that she couldn't stop bleeding. Pacey hasn't seen Andie in a few weeks and was excited to see her. Pacey got changed as Happiness by Abra Moore played.
I didn't know it could feel like this
I didn't know the hurt
And I try to explain to myself
But I can't find no word
So I lie about it
And I tell 'em I'm feeling fine
And I'll cry about it
Hoping tomorrow will change my mind
Happiness has come to this
And God, it's such a heavy burden to bear
I didn't know it could be like this
I didn't know it could go so far
And I try to reveal the part of me
But you can't find no scar
And I lie about it
And I tell 'em I'm feeling fine
And I cry about it
Hoping tomorrow will change my mind
Happiness has come to this
And God, it's such a heavy burden to bear .
Joey was deep in thought when she heard a car pull in her drive way. Joey smiled at the fact that they were always late. She stood up and walked down to the ground to wave at them. Dawson ran out of the car and hugged Joey. Charlie followed suit. "Joey, I'm so sorry I'm late. Is he here yet?" Dawson asked. Joey stood back and looked strangely at Dawson. "Is who here?" "Pacey." Joey's eyes sprung open. "Pacey? He's coming? Why didn't you guys tell me!" "Charlie was...Charlie!" Dawson turned to Charlie and crossed his arms. "Charlie! Did you not tell her?" Charlie swore a few times and stepped towards Joey. "I'm so sorry Joey it slipped my mind." "How could telling me that PACEY was coming with us just slip your mind?" Joey took in a few deep breaths. "Its fine, it's okay. I have you two also so I'll be okay." Joey started to calm down but looked at Dawson who had something else on his mind. "I know that look Dawson. What other surprises are there?" Joey said angrily. "Um well, we're not going. Surprise." Dawson squeaked out fidgeting. Joey exploded. "What! Are you seriously telling me that I'm stuck all day with Pacey, alone? How could you do this to me Dawson? You know how I feel about Pacey! What the hell am I supposed to do?" Joey started crying and yelling and throwing her arms around. Charlie stopped her. "Joey! There's an easy way out. All you have to do is not go." He smiled at his good working brain but stopped smiling when he saw Joey. "Good thinking Brainiac, but I can't NOT go! I promised Andie I would come visit her today. I can't break my promise. I guess I just have to deal with him. I won't talk to him though." Joey heard rocks cackling and watched as the Witter truck she knew too well rolled up the drive way and stopped next to Joey. "Your chariot awaits." said Pacey as he opened up the door for Joey. Joey turned her head and got in the truck. She slammed the door hard and stared out the window. Pacey walked around the other side and sat in. "I guess someone's not happy with this arrangement." Pacey joked to the boys then closed his door and drove off.
The whole drive to the expressway was silent. There was so much tension that you could cut it with a knife. Pacey tried to lighten the mood. "So, isn't this road horrible?" No answer. "How've you been Joey?" No answer. Joey kept staring out the window. Pacey put the truck in the side lane and parked. He got out of the car and stood in front of Joey's window by the zooming traffic. Joey looked at him. Pacey was close to the cars passing by. "Pacey, get back into the car before you get hit!" Joey yelled. "No! Not until you talk to me. I don't want to fight with you anymore." Joey watched as a car came inches for Pacey. "Okay, please get back in the car." Pacey walked to his seat and got in. He looked at Joey. "Talk to me." "I have nothing to say." Joey didn't even look at him. "Fine." Pacey opened his door and was about to walk out when Joey stopped him. "Pacey wait! What do you want to know?" Joey looked at Pacey's face and not just his eyes. "I want to know how you're feeling." "I...I'm feeling pretty bad. Actually, I've never felt so bad. Pacey you really hurt me." Pacey looked down but forced himself to look at the pain in her dark brown eyes. "I know I did Joey. I want to apologize. I went way overboard at prom and when you came to my house. I've been dying inside because I hurt you so much. I hope that sometime you can forgive me." "Pace, I know that I hurt you too. I didn't mean to, I always had good intensions. It still hurts and I need some time. I just want you to know that I don't hate you but I can't your friend. I couldn't handle it." Joey felt a tear run down her face. Pacey just shook his head. "Okay, well at least I tried. Thank you Joey for not hating me. You have no idea how much that means."
Pacey started up the car again and got back on the road to Andie's hospital. It was another half hour before they reached St. Diangelo's Mental Help Center. The hospital was small. It was actually kind of dirty and was brightly lighted. All of the nurses wore white dresses like they did in the old days and the doctors had on blue coats instead of white ones. They sat in chairs outside of Andie's room and waited for the nurse to come out. She told them that only one person could go in at a time. Joey saw Andie last week so she let Pacey go in first because he hasn't seen her in a few weeks. Pacey walked into Andie's room and looked around. Everything was white. White clothes, white drapes, white walls, even white carpet. Andie was lying in her bed smiling at Pacey. Her arms had bandages on them and little red spots were visible. "Hey Andie. How've you been?" Pacey gave her a hug then sat in the chair next to her. "I've been pretty good. They said I can leave soon. How've you been?" Andie sat up and looked at Pacey. Her hair had grown and her face was very pale. "I'm good." Pacey gave a little smile then looked down at his jeans that had mud on the legs. "Pacey." Andie looked into Pacey's eyes and sighed. "I want the truth. I know you're sad. Is it really that bad?" "Yeah." Was the only reply Andie got. "Why don't you tell her?" "How do I do that Andie? Should I just go up to her and say, "Joey, I know I stomped on your heart and hurt you a million times but I love you and I hope you can forget that I'm completely out of your league and that you can't stand to be around me?" She doesn't even want to be my friend Andie." "You don't know that." "Yes I do. On the ride here I apologized and she said that she thinks she can forgive me and she doesn't hate me but she can't and doesn't want to be my friend. I can't tell her I still love her when she doesn't want anything to do with me. Besides, I'm leaving soon so it doesn't matter." "It does matter Pacey. You will regret not telling her for the rest of your life. You need to stop thinking so low of yourself. She does want to know you. I bet she still loves you too but she's just too scared to do anything because wounds are still fresh." "Andie, I don't want to hurt her again and I will if I do anything. I WON'T hurt her." "How do you know that not telling her isn't hurting her?" Pacey just stared at Andie. She was wrong. There was no way that not telling her was hurting her. He couldn't tell Joey how he felt. It wouldn't work. She doesn't like him already and if he does anything she might start to hate him. "I should let Joey see you before we have to go." Pacey stood up and hugged Andie. He whispered thank you into her ear then told Joey to see Andie.
Joey walked into the room where Andie was. She smiled and gave Andie a hug. Joey sat in the seat that Pacey was sitting in before. She didn't say anything but just looked at Andie. Andie just looked at Joey and could tell what she felt. "How was it being alone with Pacey again?" Andie asked. Joey chuckled. "It was...something. The man almost got killed." "What?" "Pacey didn't tell you?" Andie shook her head. "Well, I wasn't talking to him so Pacey put the truck on the side lane and stood by the traffic by my window until I agreed to talk to him. He is the most persistent man I have ever known." "He's only like that when it comes to you." Joey turned red at that comment. "I wish he wasn't so...so pacey." "That's Pacey for ya, always himself." "Andie I'm really hurting right now." Joey started to cry. "Why? What set it off?" "It's just me and Pacey. I can't be around him Andie. I...I still love him. After all of the pain he gave me I just want to be in his arms and kiss him." "Why don't you tell him this?" "I want to. I want to so badly but I don't want to get hurt when he tells me he doesn't love me." "You might not get the answer you are expecting."
At that moment the nurse walked in and told Joey that visiting time was over and she needed to leave. Joey hugged Andie and closed the door behind her. Joey and Pacey met in the hallway and walked down the street to the truck. The ride to the expressway was silent. Once they were riding smoothly Joey turned and smiled at Pacey. Pacey just looked at her. "What?" Pacey asked smiling at Joey and trying to watch the rode. "I want to be friends again Pace." Pacey nodded. "Alright then Potter. Let's have some music." Pacey turned on the radio and put on 101.9 fm the mix. Pacey drove with one hand and rested the other on the bench. The song buddy holly by Weezer came on. Joey started to yelp and started to sing. "What's with these homies, dissing my girl? Why do they gotta front? What did we ever do to these guys That made them so violent? Woo-hoo, but you know I'm yours Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine Woo-hoo, and that's for all time!"
The next chorus Pacey came in. They sang the whole ride back to Joey's house. When they were about two miles away from her house, Criminal started to play. Pacey and Joey looked at each other. After about a second or two, Pacey looked away so he could watch the road. Joey kept looking at Pacey. Joey took a deep breath and reached her hand out. She rested it on Pacey's hand and could feel sparks flying though her body. Pacey looked down at their hands then looked up at Joey who was smiling with a closed mouth. Pacey smiled back and turned his hand so their palms were touching. He laced his fingers with hers then turned to watch the road. They sat like that until they reached her home.
Once Pacey stopped the truck in the driveway Joey opened the door, smiled, and walked away. Pacey watched Joey walk away. When Joey was about to walk in she turned around. "You hungry Pacey?" Joey smiled.
"You mean Josephine Potter is actually going to cook for me?"
"Do you want something or not?" Joey rolled her eyes.
"Okay." Pacey turned off the car and headed inside.
Joey turned on the lights and noticed no one was home. She walked into the kitchen and looked in the cabinets. Pacey sat on the counter.
"So what's the delicacy Madame Potter?" Pacey asked removing his shoes.
"All I have is Mac and Cheese." Joey started to boil water. After about two minutes Joey picked out pasta and gave it to Pacey to try. Pacey put it in his mouth and gave an ugly look.
"This is extremely hard Joey." Pacey spit out the Macaroni.
"Do you think you could do better Mr. Puck?" Joey gave Pacey the spoon.
"I can do better then him." Pacey jumped off the counter. "Sit and learn from the master."
Pacey kept boiling the pasta then drained and put butter, crème, and cheese powder in the bowl. After he was done mixing he looked at Joey. "Would you like to try it and have a taste of heaven?"
"I doubt its heaven." Joey took a spoonful and smiled. It really was like heaven! "That's really good Pacey." Joey grabbed a spoon and started to eat by herself.
"Hey, save me some." Pacey pulled away the pot.
Joey swallowed. "Sorry Pace, it's really good." Joey took another spoonful. "Here Pacey."
Pacey put his hand on Joey's and put the spoon in his mouth. It was either good or he was really hungry. Joey watched as Pacey ate. She felt sparks in her hand and butterflies in her stomach. She had this strange feeling that maybe Pacey wasn't over her yet either. Joey needed to know.
Joey took the pot from Pacey and put it next to her on the counter. Pacey protested but Joey just smiled. Joey took Pacey's hand and got the spoon and put it on the counter. Pacey watched ever action Joey made. He smiled right back at her. Joey put both her hands in his and wrapped in her fingers. Both of them leaned in and closed their eyes. Their lips brushed each others then they pressed harder against each other. Pacey let go her hands and ran his own down her hair. Joey wrapped hers around Pacey's neck and pulled him closer. She wrapped her legs around his waist and started to play with his hair. Pacey placed his arms around her waist and picked her up off the counter. He moved his hand down so he could carry her. Slowly Pacey walked into the bedroom. Joey closed the door behind them.
The next day at seven at night, Pacey walked into Lerry's fresh fish with a frown on his face. Sam was already sitting at the table so Pacey sat across from him. "Hey man, how'd yesterday go?" Sam asked between bites of his fish sticks.
"It was some day."
"What happened yesterday Pacey?" Sam asked concerned about his friend.
"Joey, Joey is what happened."
"What did you do to her now?"
"Nothing! Well, I mean I did stuff but not bad stuff." Pacey smiled at the thought of last night.
"Something good must have happened if you're smiling."
Pacey looked at Sam with a smile then frowned. "No! Sam, we had sex last night. It was the most amazing night and the most terrifying. I don't know what to do, I'm leaving tomorrow and I can't get back with her but I want her and I love her and I don't want to hurt her."
"I think you should talk to her. Speak of the devil, look whom just walked in." Sam said pointing to the door.
Pacey looked towards the door and there stood Joey. She had on a tank and shorts. She looked at Pacey and gave a sad smile then walked out. Pacey felt a pain in his heart. He took a deep breath and got up to follow Joey. Pacey looked around but couldn't find her. He walked a little and found Joey sitting on the wooden swing in front of the park.
"Joey, I need to talk to you." Pacey sat next to Joey and saw that she was crying.
"Hey Pacey. How've you been?" Joey wiped away her tears.
"I'm sorry I left this morning Jo. I just...we can't be together Joey."
"I knew you were going to say that."
"Joey it's not because..."
"If you didn't want to get back together then why did we kiss?"
"I...I don't know. Joey, I'm leaving for New York tomorrow. I got a job. The place in Boston last summer said I was good and they offered me a job."
Joey stood up. "You're leaving? Why didn't you tell me?"
Pacey stood in front of her. "I didn't know how."
"O, you didn't know how. You knew how to get me in bed though didn't you pace? Was that all I was? A quick lay?"
"No Joey! I would never use you for anything, including sex. I felt the same way you did."
"Sure Pacey. If you knew you were going then why did you tell me that you loved me? Why did you have to lie?"
"I never lied about that. I always, always loved you and I still do. I want to be with you but I can't."
"Stay Pacey. Stay with me. I don't want you to go."
"You can't tell me to stay. We're not together! We're never going to be again. You deserve better. Why can't you just hate me?"
"I can't hate you Pacey because I love you. I still love you even though you have been a total ass lately. Pace, I need to know that there is no chance for us."
"I already told you that Joey."
"I need to feel it. I need you to kiss me. I need to feel it from you that you don't want us."
Pacey was hesitant at first but he got closer and kissed Joey ever so lightly. He knew that if he kissed her any harder that he wouldn't be able to let her go. It was short and Pacey stood back. He watched her reaction.
"Satisfied? I should go. Good night Joey." Pacey turned and started to walk away.
"Pacey," Pacey stopped walking but didn't turn around. Joey walked up behind him. "If you leave me Pacey, it's not good night, it's good bye and we never see each other again. Please don't say goodbye." Pacey felt a warm hand on his shoulder.
Pacey took off her hand and faced Joey. "Goodbye Joey Potter." Pacey turned around and walked away. He could here Joey crying and he felt as though he carried his own torn heart in his hands as he walked away from the person that mattered most.
Two weeks into the new school year and already Joey had tons of homework. It was Friday night so Joey would be in the dorm alone. She didn't mind though. Carmen was her roommate at Worthington so she knew someone on campus. Joey sat looking out her window at the Boston clock tower. Joey felt tears coming so she looked away. That was the first thing she saw when Pacey and her came to Boston two summers ago. Joey felt Carmen's hand on her arm.
"Are you okay Joey? Do you want me to stay?"
"No, I'm fine. Have fun tonight. Be careful with that ring."
Carmen smiled and walked out of the room. Carmen was now engaged to Sam for about a month now. Her ring had a medium sized round diamond in the middle and was held with a gold band.
Joey studied for an hour then she heard a knock at the door. She figured it was Carmen who forgot her key or something. Joey didn't remove her eyes from her book then opened the door.
"Hey Jo." A familiar voice rang out.
Joey dropped her book and looked at the person. "Pacey? What are doing here? How did you find me?"
"Joey I came to get you back."
Joey felt her self getting dizzy so she sat on her bad. "It's too late for that Pacey."
"I know it is but I miss you so much. It's been a living hell this last month and a half. I hated every moment I was in New York because I wasn't with you. I picked the wrong thing back then Joey and I want to make it right. I should have said goodnight."
"If it was killing you then why did you wait so long to find me?"
"I was in New York for two hours when I realized I need you. Joey, you are my everything. I told my boss I couldn't stay because I needed to go to Boston. My boss setup a transfer for me to Boston but it was a month later. I needed to keep a Job so I stayed. I got transferred to Boston two weeks ago."
"I still don't understand. Why did you wait two weeks?"
Pacey smiled. "I couldn't come unprepared." Pacey reached into his pocket and took out a little black box. Pacey got down on a knee and took Joey's hand in his. Joey had tears in her eyes. Pacey opened the box and held it in his other hand.
"Jo, I fell in love with you when we were kids and I never stopped loving you. I loved even when we were two complete opposites and I loved you when I finally had the guts to tell you. I know I have been a complete jerk this last year but I hope you can forgive me and love me again. I'm always in heaven when I'm with you and I don't want to lose the best thing that has ever happened to me. You don't have to answer now but I want you to consider making me the luckiest man in the world by letting me become your husband. If it's not me, who ever that man will be, he would be the most lucked out person ever. I know that if you want me, I will spend my whole life making you happy. So now I'll ask the question. Josephine Potter, would you do me the honor, of becoming my wife?"
Pacey look at Joey's face. There was tears falling from her eyes and she was smiling. Joey squeezed Pacey's hand. "There is nothing that would make me happier than to become Mrs. Josephine Witter."
Pacey felt tears in his eyes. He had trouble taking out the ring and putting it on Joey's finger. By the time the ring was on, Pacey was crying too. They both stood up and hugged each other. They kissed many times and their tears mixed.
Love comes naturally, in unexpected ways, without any permission. Unknown
The end.
Read and review! I had a lot of fun with this story.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Too bad. (
Recap: last chapter Pacey and Joey had gotten in a fight and not really cool. Sam and Carmen got back together but got into a fight. Pacey and Sam felt bad so they got drunk and Carmen and Sam got back again. Joey and Pacey were close to having sex when Joey said she wanted more. At the worst time the phone rang. It was Andie and she said she couldn't stop bleeding.
New: this chapter is going to be in the summer. If you remember some details from the story it will make sense. Every other important detail will be shown. I hope you enjoy THE LAST UNEXPECTED MOMENTS.
Joey Potter walked down the four familiar steps in front of the Potter house for the billionth time this summer. Joey hadn't had a chance to relax at all. Dawson and Charlie were dragging her everywhere in town and even to a few towns over. She realized that there was no use fighting them because they would say "Joey, we are not leaving you here to mop your sorry ass of an eighteen year old around your house, eat ice cream and get plump for Worthington." It was their pathetic attempt to get her mind off of Pacey.
Pacey.
That's a name she wish she could forget. The one guy she ever loved, the one guy who said he would never let her fall, dropped flat on her face at the prom. He made a huge scene. Pacey looked her straight in the eyes and told her how miserable she was making him. After three years of realizing they loved each other, he decided to tell her then. It was two months since that horrible night and yet Joey couldn't stop crying. In the shower, in her bed at night, while cleaning her house, even when she was in the library! Joey didn't like how Pacey made her feel but she still loved him. It hurt her so much that when she saw him, she couldn't touch him. He was always around. Either he was walking down the same street she was on or he was leaving her house after hanging with Sam. Why couldn't he just disappear? Joey knew that's the reason she said yes to this whole summer close road trip with Dawson, Charlie, Jen and Carmen. She wanted to get away from Pacey and forget him...sadly, it wasn't working. Joey felt a single tear run down her cheek as she sat on the porch waiting for the van to pull up.
Pacey Witter sat on his soft white and red chair that his sister got him for his birthday. He was staring off into space not blinking once. His mind was concentrated on the words of the song coming from his stereo. They fit so perfectly with him that it seemed as though the song was made for him. These types of songs weren't usually what he listened to but lately, he couldn't get enough of songs that made him sad. Pacey picked up the picture of him and Joey as the song played. I set out on a narrow way
Many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you (Chorus)
Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were just Northern Stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
(That) God blessed the broken road
And led me straight to you I look back on the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to take the time I lost
And give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan
That is coming true (Chorus) Straight to you Now I'm just rolling home
into my lover's arms
this much I know...I know its true
(That) God blessed the broken road
And led me straight to you
(Yes) God blessed the broken road
And led me straight to you - Melodie Crittenden "Broken Road"
When the song ended Pacey saw a few wet spots on the glass of the picture frame. Pacey wiped away the tears and smiled at the picture. He remembered the day it was taken. It was a freezing cold day by the creek. Everyone was decorating Gram's tree while Joey and Pacey sat on the porch. Joey decided to wear just a blue and white sweater so she was scrunched up practically into a ball. Pacey moved his hand over hers and it was ice cold. He looked at her and laughed. Joey slowly turned her head and rolled her eyes. "See Jo," Pacey said unbuttoning his large jacket. "That's what you get for not listening to your boyfriend." Joey felt her hands going numb but didn't want to give up so easily. "Well I'm fine Pace. I don't need your jacket." "Who said I was going to give you my Jacket? I may love you but I'm not going to freeze my ass off." "O that's very sweet of you." Joey said sarcastically. "I would have though, if you wanted, let you sit on my lap and I held you nice and close so we could both be warm and comfortable on this freezing cold night." Pacey smiled at Joey tempting her. "But, since you don't want to, I guess I'll keep this double coated flannel all to myself then." Joey nodded and turned away. After a few seconds a wind blew in and froze her nose. Joey gave in and walked to Pacey. He just opened his coat and let her sit on his lap then they held each other close inside the coat. "I knew you couldn't resist sitting on my lap Potter." "Get over yourself Witter. It was either this or face Mother Nature in a battle. Let me tell ya, she's one tough lady." Joey smiled sweetly at Pacey. "So are you gonna kiss me or do I have to make you?" "You never have to force me to kiss you." Pacey smiled and leaned into Joey. They both had there eyes closed but could hear a camera go off. The pair looked up and there was Jen holding a Camera and smiling. "You guys are so cute when you stop fighting." Jen said about to cry. "Lindley, that was a very private moment you took a picture of and I would like to have it." Pacey stumbled out with a face that was red. "Is Pacey embarrassed? You really shouldn't be because I caught you two doing a little more than just kissing at the junior class trip last year." Jen put her hand over her mouth in sarcasm. Joey got up and felt her face all red. "Well this is embarrassing. If you never bring that up again that would be great Jen. I'm going to go inside and get warmed up." Joey hurried inside.
Pacey would never forget that day, even that year. So much happened in high school between the bantering buddies. Neither one of them would have guessed this is what high school would have ended like. If someone would have told Pacey freshman year that he was going to end up falling in love with Joey his sophomore year and end up dating her on and off for the next two, he would have laughed in their face and show them to the nearest psyche ward. Despite all of the amazing times he had, the ones he couldn't get out of his head were the prom and two weeks later. Pacey went to the prom with all of this anger because he didn't do so hot on a test after Joey kept nagging him to keep studying. Seeing Joey talking to another guy and the fact that it didn't really bother him set him off. It wasn't until the next day that Pacey realized that he did care but Joey was so worried about her grades that it made him happy to see her smile, not that she was talking to another guy.
Two weeks after they broke up, Joey shows up at his door wanting to be friends again. Pacey could not be friends with a woman that he was still in love with. He went off on her again. This time Joey ran away crying after telling him she hated him. That line hit his heart hard. "I hate you Pacey!" floated around his mind for weeks. It still came back sometimes leaving Pacey in an almost suicide state. How could you hurt her again? Pacey kept asking himself. He decided it was best if they stayed away from each other.
Pacey put down the picture and looked at his clock. It was time that he got ready to go see Andie. She had gone to a mental help place after trying to commit suicide earlier in the year. She called Joey up after she slit her wrists and legs because the bleeding wouldn't stop. If she wouldn't have taken so much aspirin her blood wouldn't have been so thin that she couldn't stop bleeding. Pacey hasn't seen Andie in a few weeks and was excited to see her. Pacey got changed as Happiness by Abra Moore played.
I didn't know it could feel like this
I didn't know the hurt
And I try to explain to myself
But I can't find no word
So I lie about it
And I tell 'em I'm feeling fine
And I'll cry about it
Hoping tomorrow will change my mind
Happiness has come to this
And God, it's such a heavy burden to bear
I didn't know it could be like this
I didn't know it could go so far
And I try to reveal the part of me
But you can't find no scar
And I lie about it
And I tell 'em I'm feeling fine
And I cry about it
Hoping tomorrow will change my mind
Happiness has come to this
And God, it's such a heavy burden to bear .
Joey was deep in thought when she heard a car pull in her drive way. Joey smiled at the fact that they were always late. She stood up and walked down to the ground to wave at them. Dawson ran out of the car and hugged Joey. Charlie followed suit. "Joey, I'm so sorry I'm late. Is he here yet?" Dawson asked. Joey stood back and looked strangely at Dawson. "Is who here?" "Pacey." Joey's eyes sprung open. "Pacey? He's coming? Why didn't you guys tell me!" "Charlie was...Charlie!" Dawson turned to Charlie and crossed his arms. "Charlie! Did you not tell her?" Charlie swore a few times and stepped towards Joey. "I'm so sorry Joey it slipped my mind." "How could telling me that PACEY was coming with us just slip your mind?" Joey took in a few deep breaths. "Its fine, it's okay. I have you two also so I'll be okay." Joey started to calm down but looked at Dawson who had something else on his mind. "I know that look Dawson. What other surprises are there?" Joey said angrily. "Um well, we're not going. Surprise." Dawson squeaked out fidgeting. Joey exploded. "What! Are you seriously telling me that I'm stuck all day with Pacey, alone? How could you do this to me Dawson? You know how I feel about Pacey! What the hell am I supposed to do?" Joey started crying and yelling and throwing her arms around. Charlie stopped her. "Joey! There's an easy way out. All you have to do is not go." He smiled at his good working brain but stopped smiling when he saw Joey. "Good thinking Brainiac, but I can't NOT go! I promised Andie I would come visit her today. I can't break my promise. I guess I just have to deal with him. I won't talk to him though." Joey heard rocks cackling and watched as the Witter truck she knew too well rolled up the drive way and stopped next to Joey. "Your chariot awaits." said Pacey as he opened up the door for Joey. Joey turned her head and got in the truck. She slammed the door hard and stared out the window. Pacey walked around the other side and sat in. "I guess someone's not happy with this arrangement." Pacey joked to the boys then closed his door and drove off.
The whole drive to the expressway was silent. There was so much tension that you could cut it with a knife. Pacey tried to lighten the mood. "So, isn't this road horrible?" No answer. "How've you been Joey?" No answer. Joey kept staring out the window. Pacey put the truck in the side lane and parked. He got out of the car and stood in front of Joey's window by the zooming traffic. Joey looked at him. Pacey was close to the cars passing by. "Pacey, get back into the car before you get hit!" Joey yelled. "No! Not until you talk to me. I don't want to fight with you anymore." Joey watched as a car came inches for Pacey. "Okay, please get back in the car." Pacey walked to his seat and got in. He looked at Joey. "Talk to me." "I have nothing to say." Joey didn't even look at him. "Fine." Pacey opened his door and was about to walk out when Joey stopped him. "Pacey wait! What do you want to know?" Joey looked at Pacey's face and not just his eyes. "I want to know how you're feeling." "I...I'm feeling pretty bad. Actually, I've never felt so bad. Pacey you really hurt me." Pacey looked down but forced himself to look at the pain in her dark brown eyes. "I know I did Joey. I want to apologize. I went way overboard at prom and when you came to my house. I've been dying inside because I hurt you so much. I hope that sometime you can forgive me." "Pace, I know that I hurt you too. I didn't mean to, I always had good intensions. It still hurts and I need some time. I just want you to know that I don't hate you but I can't your friend. I couldn't handle it." Joey felt a tear run down her face. Pacey just shook his head. "Okay, well at least I tried. Thank you Joey for not hating me. You have no idea how much that means."
Pacey started up the car again and got back on the road to Andie's hospital. It was another half hour before they reached St. Diangelo's Mental Help Center. The hospital was small. It was actually kind of dirty and was brightly lighted. All of the nurses wore white dresses like they did in the old days and the doctors had on blue coats instead of white ones. They sat in chairs outside of Andie's room and waited for the nurse to come out. She told them that only one person could go in at a time. Joey saw Andie last week so she let Pacey go in first because he hasn't seen her in a few weeks. Pacey walked into Andie's room and looked around. Everything was white. White clothes, white drapes, white walls, even white carpet. Andie was lying in her bed smiling at Pacey. Her arms had bandages on them and little red spots were visible. "Hey Andie. How've you been?" Pacey gave her a hug then sat in the chair next to her. "I've been pretty good. They said I can leave soon. How've you been?" Andie sat up and looked at Pacey. Her hair had grown and her face was very pale. "I'm good." Pacey gave a little smile then looked down at his jeans that had mud on the legs. "Pacey." Andie looked into Pacey's eyes and sighed. "I want the truth. I know you're sad. Is it really that bad?" "Yeah." Was the only reply Andie got. "Why don't you tell her?" "How do I do that Andie? Should I just go up to her and say, "Joey, I know I stomped on your heart and hurt you a million times but I love you and I hope you can forget that I'm completely out of your league and that you can't stand to be around me?" She doesn't even want to be my friend Andie." "You don't know that." "Yes I do. On the ride here I apologized and she said that she thinks she can forgive me and she doesn't hate me but she can't and doesn't want to be my friend. I can't tell her I still love her when she doesn't want anything to do with me. Besides, I'm leaving soon so it doesn't matter." "It does matter Pacey. You will regret not telling her for the rest of your life. You need to stop thinking so low of yourself. She does want to know you. I bet she still loves you too but she's just too scared to do anything because wounds are still fresh." "Andie, I don't want to hurt her again and I will if I do anything. I WON'T hurt her." "How do you know that not telling her isn't hurting her?" Pacey just stared at Andie. She was wrong. There was no way that not telling her was hurting her. He couldn't tell Joey how he felt. It wouldn't work. She doesn't like him already and if he does anything she might start to hate him. "I should let Joey see you before we have to go." Pacey stood up and hugged Andie. He whispered thank you into her ear then told Joey to see Andie.
Joey walked into the room where Andie was. She smiled and gave Andie a hug. Joey sat in the seat that Pacey was sitting in before. She didn't say anything but just looked at Andie. Andie just looked at Joey and could tell what she felt. "How was it being alone with Pacey again?" Andie asked. Joey chuckled. "It was...something. The man almost got killed." "What?" "Pacey didn't tell you?" Andie shook her head. "Well, I wasn't talking to him so Pacey put the truck on the side lane and stood by the traffic by my window until I agreed to talk to him. He is the most persistent man I have ever known." "He's only like that when it comes to you." Joey turned red at that comment. "I wish he wasn't so...so pacey." "That's Pacey for ya, always himself." "Andie I'm really hurting right now." Joey started to cry. "Why? What set it off?" "It's just me and Pacey. I can't be around him Andie. I...I still love him. After all of the pain he gave me I just want to be in his arms and kiss him." "Why don't you tell him this?" "I want to. I want to so badly but I don't want to get hurt when he tells me he doesn't love me." "You might not get the answer you are expecting."
At that moment the nurse walked in and told Joey that visiting time was over and she needed to leave. Joey hugged Andie and closed the door behind her. Joey and Pacey met in the hallway and walked down the street to the truck. The ride to the expressway was silent. Once they were riding smoothly Joey turned and smiled at Pacey. Pacey just looked at her. "What?" Pacey asked smiling at Joey and trying to watch the rode. "I want to be friends again Pace." Pacey nodded. "Alright then Potter. Let's have some music." Pacey turned on the radio and put on 101.9 fm the mix. Pacey drove with one hand and rested the other on the bench. The song buddy holly by Weezer came on. Joey started to yelp and started to sing. "What's with these homies, dissing my girl? Why do they gotta front? What did we ever do to these guys That made them so violent? Woo-hoo, but you know I'm yours Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine Woo-hoo, and that's for all time!"
The next chorus Pacey came in. They sang the whole ride back to Joey's house. When they were about two miles away from her house, Criminal started to play. Pacey and Joey looked at each other. After about a second or two, Pacey looked away so he could watch the road. Joey kept looking at Pacey. Joey took a deep breath and reached her hand out. She rested it on Pacey's hand and could feel sparks flying though her body. Pacey looked down at their hands then looked up at Joey who was smiling with a closed mouth. Pacey smiled back and turned his hand so their palms were touching. He laced his fingers with hers then turned to watch the road. They sat like that until they reached her home.
Once Pacey stopped the truck in the driveway Joey opened the door, smiled, and walked away. Pacey watched Joey walk away. When Joey was about to walk in she turned around. "You hungry Pacey?" Joey smiled.
"You mean Josephine Potter is actually going to cook for me?"
"Do you want something or not?" Joey rolled her eyes.
"Okay." Pacey turned off the car and headed inside.
Joey turned on the lights and noticed no one was home. She walked into the kitchen and looked in the cabinets. Pacey sat on the counter.
"So what's the delicacy Madame Potter?" Pacey asked removing his shoes.
"All I have is Mac and Cheese." Joey started to boil water. After about two minutes Joey picked out pasta and gave it to Pacey to try. Pacey put it in his mouth and gave an ugly look.
"This is extremely hard Joey." Pacey spit out the Macaroni.
"Do you think you could do better Mr. Puck?" Joey gave Pacey the spoon.
"I can do better then him." Pacey jumped off the counter. "Sit and learn from the master."
Pacey kept boiling the pasta then drained and put butter, crème, and cheese powder in the bowl. After he was done mixing he looked at Joey. "Would you like to try it and have a taste of heaven?"
"I doubt its heaven." Joey took a spoonful and smiled. It really was like heaven! "That's really good Pacey." Joey grabbed a spoon and started to eat by herself.
"Hey, save me some." Pacey pulled away the pot.
Joey swallowed. "Sorry Pace, it's really good." Joey took another spoonful. "Here Pacey."
Pacey put his hand on Joey's and put the spoon in his mouth. It was either good or he was really hungry. Joey watched as Pacey ate. She felt sparks in her hand and butterflies in her stomach. She had this strange feeling that maybe Pacey wasn't over her yet either. Joey needed to know.
Joey took the pot from Pacey and put it next to her on the counter. Pacey protested but Joey just smiled. Joey took Pacey's hand and got the spoon and put it on the counter. Pacey watched ever action Joey made. He smiled right back at her. Joey put both her hands in his and wrapped in her fingers. Both of them leaned in and closed their eyes. Their lips brushed each others then they pressed harder against each other. Pacey let go her hands and ran his own down her hair. Joey wrapped hers around Pacey's neck and pulled him closer. She wrapped her legs around his waist and started to play with his hair. Pacey placed his arms around her waist and picked her up off the counter. He moved his hand down so he could carry her. Slowly Pacey walked into the bedroom. Joey closed the door behind them.
The next day at seven at night, Pacey walked into Lerry's fresh fish with a frown on his face. Sam was already sitting at the table so Pacey sat across from him. "Hey man, how'd yesterday go?" Sam asked between bites of his fish sticks.
"It was some day."
"What happened yesterday Pacey?" Sam asked concerned about his friend.
"Joey, Joey is what happened."
"What did you do to her now?"
"Nothing! Well, I mean I did stuff but not bad stuff." Pacey smiled at the thought of last night.
"Something good must have happened if you're smiling."
Pacey looked at Sam with a smile then frowned. "No! Sam, we had sex last night. It was the most amazing night and the most terrifying. I don't know what to do, I'm leaving tomorrow and I can't get back with her but I want her and I love her and I don't want to hurt her."
"I think you should talk to her. Speak of the devil, look whom just walked in." Sam said pointing to the door.
Pacey looked towards the door and there stood Joey. She had on a tank and shorts. She looked at Pacey and gave a sad smile then walked out. Pacey felt a pain in his heart. He took a deep breath and got up to follow Joey. Pacey looked around but couldn't find her. He walked a little and found Joey sitting on the wooden swing in front of the park.
"Joey, I need to talk to you." Pacey sat next to Joey and saw that she was crying.
"Hey Pacey. How've you been?" Joey wiped away her tears.
"I'm sorry I left this morning Jo. I just...we can't be together Joey."
"I knew you were going to say that."
"Joey it's not because..."
"If you didn't want to get back together then why did we kiss?"
"I...I don't know. Joey, I'm leaving for New York tomorrow. I got a job. The place in Boston last summer said I was good and they offered me a job."
Joey stood up. "You're leaving? Why didn't you tell me?"
Pacey stood in front of her. "I didn't know how."
"O, you didn't know how. You knew how to get me in bed though didn't you pace? Was that all I was? A quick lay?"
"No Joey! I would never use you for anything, including sex. I felt the same way you did."
"Sure Pacey. If you knew you were going then why did you tell me that you loved me? Why did you have to lie?"
"I never lied about that. I always, always loved you and I still do. I want to be with you but I can't."
"Stay Pacey. Stay with me. I don't want you to go."
"You can't tell me to stay. We're not together! We're never going to be again. You deserve better. Why can't you just hate me?"
"I can't hate you Pacey because I love you. I still love you even though you have been a total ass lately. Pace, I need to know that there is no chance for us."
"I already told you that Joey."
"I need to feel it. I need you to kiss me. I need to feel it from you that you don't want us."
Pacey was hesitant at first but he got closer and kissed Joey ever so lightly. He knew that if he kissed her any harder that he wouldn't be able to let her go. It was short and Pacey stood back. He watched her reaction.
"Satisfied? I should go. Good night Joey." Pacey turned and started to walk away.
"Pacey," Pacey stopped walking but didn't turn around. Joey walked up behind him. "If you leave me Pacey, it's not good night, it's good bye and we never see each other again. Please don't say goodbye." Pacey felt a warm hand on his shoulder.
Pacey took off her hand and faced Joey. "Goodbye Joey Potter." Pacey turned around and walked away. He could here Joey crying and he felt as though he carried his own torn heart in his hands as he walked away from the person that mattered most.
Two weeks into the new school year and already Joey had tons of homework. It was Friday night so Joey would be in the dorm alone. She didn't mind though. Carmen was her roommate at Worthington so she knew someone on campus. Joey sat looking out her window at the Boston clock tower. Joey felt tears coming so she looked away. That was the first thing she saw when Pacey and her came to Boston two summers ago. Joey felt Carmen's hand on her arm.
"Are you okay Joey? Do you want me to stay?"
"No, I'm fine. Have fun tonight. Be careful with that ring."
Carmen smiled and walked out of the room. Carmen was now engaged to Sam for about a month now. Her ring had a medium sized round diamond in the middle and was held with a gold band.
Joey studied for an hour then she heard a knock at the door. She figured it was Carmen who forgot her key or something. Joey didn't remove her eyes from her book then opened the door.
"Hey Jo." A familiar voice rang out.
Joey dropped her book and looked at the person. "Pacey? What are doing here? How did you find me?"
"Joey I came to get you back."
Joey felt her self getting dizzy so she sat on her bad. "It's too late for that Pacey."
"I know it is but I miss you so much. It's been a living hell this last month and a half. I hated every moment I was in New York because I wasn't with you. I picked the wrong thing back then Joey and I want to make it right. I should have said goodnight."
"If it was killing you then why did you wait so long to find me?"
"I was in New York for two hours when I realized I need you. Joey, you are my everything. I told my boss I couldn't stay because I needed to go to Boston. My boss setup a transfer for me to Boston but it was a month later. I needed to keep a Job so I stayed. I got transferred to Boston two weeks ago."
"I still don't understand. Why did you wait two weeks?"
Pacey smiled. "I couldn't come unprepared." Pacey reached into his pocket and took out a little black box. Pacey got down on a knee and took Joey's hand in his. Joey had tears in her eyes. Pacey opened the box and held it in his other hand.
"Jo, I fell in love with you when we were kids and I never stopped loving you. I loved even when we were two complete opposites and I loved you when I finally had the guts to tell you. I know I have been a complete jerk this last year but I hope you can forgive me and love me again. I'm always in heaven when I'm with you and I don't want to lose the best thing that has ever happened to me. You don't have to answer now but I want you to consider making me the luckiest man in the world by letting me become your husband. If it's not me, who ever that man will be, he would be the most lucked out person ever. I know that if you want me, I will spend my whole life making you happy. So now I'll ask the question. Josephine Potter, would you do me the honor, of becoming my wife?"
Pacey look at Joey's face. There was tears falling from her eyes and she was smiling. Joey squeezed Pacey's hand. "There is nothing that would make me happier than to become Mrs. Josephine Witter."
Pacey felt tears in his eyes. He had trouble taking out the ring and putting it on Joey's finger. By the time the ring was on, Pacey was crying too. They both stood up and hugged each other. They kissed many times and their tears mixed.
Love comes naturally, in unexpected ways, without any permission. Unknown
The end.
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