Title: Jaded
Fandom: Love Mode
Pairing/Character(s): Ian/Rin (warning: Shounen Ai), Rin centric, first person POV
Rating: PG? PG-13? At least PG... (and you'll noticed I'm adding and getting rid of catergories in the fic bio as I go...)
Summary: Rin's thoughts on his and Ian's 'relationship'.
Notes: Supposed to take place during three pages in volume 7 chapter 1 towards the end of the chapter, if you want the links to the pages so you can see them, go to my livejournal, you'll find the link in my Author Profile. Um, if you don't know Love Mode, even after looking at the pages, you probably won't understand at least some points in it. Though it's probably not too hard to make a correct guess about it from what it says...
jaded: adj.
1. Worn out; wearied: "My father's words had left me jaded and depressed" (William Styron).
2. Dulled by surfeit; sated: "the sickeningly sweet life of the amoral, jaded, bored upper classes" (John Simon).
3. Cynically or pretentiously callous.
Jaded
He keeps talking like that, like I was more to him than just something he bought. But right when I start to think he really cares for me, he goes and reminds me just how expensive I am. And once again I call myself an idiot for trusting someone, for getting too attached.
The two of us, boyfriends? Why does he keep saying those idealistic things? He just wants me for my body, doesn't he? Which is exactly why I don't give it to him. But he still stays.
Is he trying to break my heart?
If so, it's working.