AN: So I felt like writing another part of this and it seemed like a stupid
idea to just keep it on my PC so here it is. I have an idea for a possible
third part, but we'll see. Otherwise you can simply see this as a different
way to start off the Mic- and Renéeless season 7.
Part 2
Two weeks later...
Renée and Harm were entering his apartment. Renée was carrying Harm's suitcase since Harm had problems enough walking with his crutch.
"Are you alright?" Renée asked him worriedly.
"I'm fine, I'm fine," he repeated twice "Are you OK?"
"Yeah, I keep telling myself better your suitcase than your casket.
Harm looked around the apartment and decided on sitting down on the couch so he slowly made his way over to it.
"Do you want something?" Renée asked.
"Yeah," Harm said. He didn't know exactly when he had decided on doing this. Skates speak to him about grabbing hold of the things that were really important had definitely helped, but he had had this feeling even before she had said it. If he had died out there in the ocean, he would have left so many things in his life not the way he wanted them to be. "Renée, can you come over here and sit down?"
"Is this about Mac?"
"No, why would it be?"
"Nothing," Renée said. For some reason Harm still didn't know about Mac breaking off her engagement and relationship with Mic and she sure didn't want to tell him.
Harm looked at her for a while. He knew she was hiding something, but wondered if it really mattered anymore.
"I don't think we should continue seeing each other," he started off hoping that she would agree with him on this.
Renée didn't make a move. When he had said he wanted her to sit down she had known that something like this was coming. She didn't want it to come to this. She didn't want their relationship to end, but right now she thought that it might still be better if they went their separate ways.
"I didn't mean to hurt you. I think we both know that we're never walking down the aisle," he paused "And it's not because of you, I think. It's because I'm not ready to make that commitment to you and I'm pretty sure that I never will be ready for that with you."
"I know that... deep down," Renée looked up at him and in his eyes she saw sadness, but no regret. There was no hope for them anymore "I'm glad you know that. I kind of wish you would have told me this before I fell... before we got so serious. It would have saved us both a lot of grieve, I think."
"I never thought we'd get this serious. It just happened..."
"To be honest I didn't think that either back then. I should have realized I was never going to be the one for you. Someone already occupies that place in your heart."
"Renée, this really isn't about Mac. She is still with Mic... anyway this isn't about her. This is about being honest with you and with myself."
"Mic left."
"What?"
"As far as I know Mac broke up with him and he went back to Australia," Renée said. That was what Mac had told her when she had seen her at the hospital a week ago. Renée had asked where Mic was and Mac had told her about it quickly before she went in to see Harm. She still didn't know why and how Harm didn't know about the break-up and the truth was that it wasn't her concern anymore.
"I... I didn't know that."
"You should talk to her."
"I know," Harm said.
"I'm going to leave now." Renée got up from the couch, but before she walked out of the door she added "You're a good man, Harm, but I deserve a whole lot better than what you were willing to give me."
"I know that too." Harm couldn't agree with her more. The door slammed shut behind her and she would most likely never return.
Part 2
Two weeks later...
Renée and Harm were entering his apartment. Renée was carrying Harm's suitcase since Harm had problems enough walking with his crutch.
"Are you alright?" Renée asked him worriedly.
"I'm fine, I'm fine," he repeated twice "Are you OK?"
"Yeah, I keep telling myself better your suitcase than your casket.
Harm looked around the apartment and decided on sitting down on the couch so he slowly made his way over to it.
"Do you want something?" Renée asked.
"Yeah," Harm said. He didn't know exactly when he had decided on doing this. Skates speak to him about grabbing hold of the things that were really important had definitely helped, but he had had this feeling even before she had said it. If he had died out there in the ocean, he would have left so many things in his life not the way he wanted them to be. "Renée, can you come over here and sit down?"
"Is this about Mac?"
"No, why would it be?"
"Nothing," Renée said. For some reason Harm still didn't know about Mac breaking off her engagement and relationship with Mic and she sure didn't want to tell him.
Harm looked at her for a while. He knew she was hiding something, but wondered if it really mattered anymore.
"I don't think we should continue seeing each other," he started off hoping that she would agree with him on this.
Renée didn't make a move. When he had said he wanted her to sit down she had known that something like this was coming. She didn't want it to come to this. She didn't want their relationship to end, but right now she thought that it might still be better if they went their separate ways.
"I didn't mean to hurt you. I think we both know that we're never walking down the aisle," he paused "And it's not because of you, I think. It's because I'm not ready to make that commitment to you and I'm pretty sure that I never will be ready for that with you."
"I know that... deep down," Renée looked up at him and in his eyes she saw sadness, but no regret. There was no hope for them anymore "I'm glad you know that. I kind of wish you would have told me this before I fell... before we got so serious. It would have saved us both a lot of grieve, I think."
"I never thought we'd get this serious. It just happened..."
"To be honest I didn't think that either back then. I should have realized I was never going to be the one for you. Someone already occupies that place in your heart."
"Renée, this really isn't about Mac. She is still with Mic... anyway this isn't about her. This is about being honest with you and with myself."
"Mic left."
"What?"
"As far as I know Mac broke up with him and he went back to Australia," Renée said. That was what Mac had told her when she had seen her at the hospital a week ago. Renée had asked where Mic was and Mac had told her about it quickly before she went in to see Harm. She still didn't know why and how Harm didn't know about the break-up and the truth was that it wasn't her concern anymore.
"I... I didn't know that."
"You should talk to her."
"I know," Harm said.
"I'm going to leave now." Renée got up from the couch, but before she walked out of the door she added "You're a good man, Harm, but I deserve a whole lot better than what you were willing to give me."
"I know that too." Harm couldn't agree with her more. The door slammed shut behind her and she would most likely never return.