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"Elladan, I said no. Now go away!"
Thalia shouted from the comfort of her bed. Elladan had woken her from a really good dream, just to ask if she wanted to heave breakfast near the waterfall.
"Thalia please, Arwen will be there as will Elrohir and Legolas"
She buried her head into the pillows.
"Elladan will you bugger off!"
He entered the room and began searching for something for her to wear. She only had five months to go before the arrival of the babies and the twins were determined to have as much fun with her as possible before she became grouchy and irritable.
He grinned triumphantly as he pulled out a lilac dress and threw it at her.
"Get up and get dressed, the day is just beginning"
She merely groaned and turned over. Shaking his head, Elladan strode over to her and pulled the covers off of her making her yelp.
"Alright! Alright! I'll get up. But you have to help me"
She said miserably. Elladan looked down at her with a smile. Her silver hair was messy from sleep and her nightgown creased from her tossing and turning, it made her look adorable.
He reached down and helped her up, with a withering look she disappeared into the bathroom.
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Uh, that little shit. It's too early to be awake. But then again the thought of seeing Legolas was nice.
Since the departure of my mother things between me and Legolas have been...uncomfortable. It feels like I'm walking on egg shells, things just seem so uncertain. The only time we spend together is at dinner, when I come in at night he is usually already asleep or he comes in later, in the mornings he is gone before I am awake.
I have to sort this out, we cannot go on like this. The children are growing restless without their father, they constantly complain about his absence, and knowing that Legolas can feel it makes everything worse.
I can understand his need for privacy, and I understand that I have relied on him a lot and I have been unfair to him. It has been hard on him, I know. But it can go on no longer. We are going over old ground, again and again, the circle never seems to stop.
I stopped washing my face and looked at myself in the mirror. I didn't like what I saw. I quickly finished washing and got dressed.
Pulling the dress over my head I sighed. My stomach was beginning to irk me, I was huge. I was having twins, granted, but you'd think I was having baby elephants the size I was. Alright so I'm exaggerating a little. But I felt huge. I didn't feel like a proper mother yet. I don't really want to accept it until me and Legolas have spoken, being with Legolas makes it a little more real. I know that my size should be enough to make it real and it was, but I didn't feel right.
Oh my goddess- I'm babbling again.
I threw open the door to see Elladan lazing about in the middle of my unmade bed.
"You better make that bed before you leave"
Wow- I was turning into my mother already!
He rolled his eyes but got up and made the bed.
"So my lady, are you finally ready"
"I am indeed my lord"
I grasped his outstretched hand and let him lead me out of the room.
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The sun was warm as she bathed us in her morning rays. I was half-listening to the conversation that Elrohir and Arwen were having, but my thoughts were on my wife. The wife that I had not touched in months, whom I had neglected.
I loved her yes, but the trials of the past have finally caught up with me. I had spoken to Elrond about my feeling but they remain the same, I cannot bear to touch her in fear that I will break her. I cannot help but view her as fragile, even through I know she is anything but.
My heart broke every time I felt my children call out to me. At night when I would come in late and she sleeping I would lay my hands on her stomach and talk to them. I know that they could hear me. To look upon my sleeping wife's face and know that I cannot talk to her is becoming my downfall.
If we do not speak soon I fear that our relationship will become unsalvageable. I came out of my daze just as Elladan appeared over the hill top. I presumed that he was alone until I saw him turn back and offer his hand to somebody. It was Thalia. She looked radiant. Her hair shone and her eyes sparkled. Her stomach was large and it only added to her beauty. She glowed with new life. Her laughter was music to my ears.
She smiled at me, not as she used to, but it was a smile nonetheless.
The conversation flowed and laughter was shared over a hearty breakfast.
Out of the corner of my eye I watched Thalia. She ate little and said less. Her eyes shifted from person to person, as was her habit when her mind was elsewhere.
Arwen suggested swimming, discreetly leaving me and Thalia alone to talk.
Thalia shifted and sighed heavily. I did not wish to start the conversation for I do not know what to say.
"I don't understand. What went wrong between us Legolas? I don't get it"
She kept her eyes firmly on Arwen and the twins who were busy trying to drown each other.
It was time to be honest.
"I cannot stand it anymore Thalia. The tension between us is too much"
She turned to me, one hand shielding her eyes from the harsh sunlight,
"Elaborate" she said simply
"Every time I speak I feel I must choose my words carefully. My guard is always up when we are together and it not only pains me to do so, but it is putting further strain upon us"
I stopped, and looked at her. Her expression was one of indifference yet I could feel the turmoil inside of her.
"I love you, and you love me that is not being disputed. But we cannot live like this. It is tiring is it not?"
"It is. I wholeheartedly agree. We cannot continue as we are"
Her agreement shocked me, I had not expected such a response from her.
"Be honest with me Legolas, what is it that you feel you cannot say, what are you keeping from me?"
I closed my eyes and sighed.
"I am afraid that should I say something that upsets you, I shall not have a wife anymore"
She gasped and her eyes widened. She crawled over to me and placed a hand on my cheek. It felt so good to feel her skin against mine once more.
"Legolas, husband. I am so sorry. I did not realise what a strain I have put you under. You shoulders cannot carry such a weight"
Her eyes gleamed with emotion, as did mine no doubt. She truly had not intended to do it.
"It is not just that Thalia. We are untruthful with each other are we not?"
I raised an eyebrow and she looked away.
"No, we are not truthful. So what do we do about it?"
"It is time that we faced what we both fear"
"What do you mean", she looked confused.
"Honesty, complete honesty Thalia. What is it that you want from me?"
She looked thoughtful for a moment.
"I want somebody who no matter what will always be there, I want a friend, a confident, a lover, a match. I want integrity and I want honesty"
"We wish the same, yet in our relationship it is not so. We are not honest with each other. This is our biggest mistake. We say we are honest, yet we lie"
"So speak the truth then, tell me Legolas, what is it that preys on your mind?"
"You are reckless, you are private, you keep things from me. Your darkest thoughts are present in your mind, I can feel it, and yet you keep them from me. We have to work together. We are not individuals anymore Thalia. For the sake of our children we must begin to open up"
She sat with her head bowed and one hand on her rounded stomach. I regretted my words but knew that they had to be said.
"You are aloof Legolas, quiet, I never know when to talk with you. There is much hatred between us, hatred for my actions. It cannot be helped. There is much left unsaid between us and it is hard to know what to talk about. I do not know when it is alright to even touch you. You welcome only contact that you have initiated"
"I agree. The faults belong to both of us. So where do we draw the medium?"
"We draw it where we see fit"
I looked at her, not quite understanding her proposal. She turned her head and smiled,
"We simply talk about what we feel we must, no more guessing, no more 'it doesn't matter', just talk. It doesn't have to be important. All it takes is for the other to listen does it not? And that is easy"
I grinned at the simplicity of her answer and the absurdity of our behaviour.
I reached out and grabbed her by the waist, pulling her against me.
"We are fools"
I whispered as I nuzzled her neck, enjoying the feeling of her body against mine and he scent mingling with mine.
"Then we are made for each other"
She said with a laugh.
"Ahh, so the royal couple have patched things up it seems"
Elladan said from the bank of the pool.
"Indeed we have"
"Are you two coming in then?
Arwen called from a rock she was on.
"No, if you do not mind, I am stealing my wife away so that I may spend some time with her"
"Ahh, music to my ear, finally, I do not think I could stand seeing your miserable faces any longer"
"Hold you tongue unless you wish to loose it Elrohir"
Thalia shouted. She turned her head and whispered to me,
"You have to help me up, I'm too big to get up on my own"
I laughed and was rewarded with her elbow in my stomach.
I helped her up from the grass and we journeyed down the path to the forest.
Uh- glad your loving it- aww, the poor babies- having you as a teacher
Lady Viola- lol- the random guard now refuses to go near you! He is isn't he
Eowyn- Thanks- I'm hopeless at spelling sometimes- but I do try. I'm glad that you like it.
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"Elladan, I said no. Now go away!"
Thalia shouted from the comfort of her bed. Elladan had woken her from a really good dream, just to ask if she wanted to heave breakfast near the waterfall.
"Thalia please, Arwen will be there as will Elrohir and Legolas"
She buried her head into the pillows.
"Elladan will you bugger off!"
He entered the room and began searching for something for her to wear. She only had five months to go before the arrival of the babies and the twins were determined to have as much fun with her as possible before she became grouchy and irritable.
He grinned triumphantly as he pulled out a lilac dress and threw it at her.
"Get up and get dressed, the day is just beginning"
She merely groaned and turned over. Shaking his head, Elladan strode over to her and pulled the covers off of her making her yelp.
"Alright! Alright! I'll get up. But you have to help me"
She said miserably. Elladan looked down at her with a smile. Her silver hair was messy from sleep and her nightgown creased from her tossing and turning, it made her look adorable.
He reached down and helped her up, with a withering look she disappeared into the bathroom.
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Uh, that little shit. It's too early to be awake. But then again the thought of seeing Legolas was nice.
Since the departure of my mother things between me and Legolas have been...uncomfortable. It feels like I'm walking on egg shells, things just seem so uncertain. The only time we spend together is at dinner, when I come in at night he is usually already asleep or he comes in later, in the mornings he is gone before I am awake.
I have to sort this out, we cannot go on like this. The children are growing restless without their father, they constantly complain about his absence, and knowing that Legolas can feel it makes everything worse.
I can understand his need for privacy, and I understand that I have relied on him a lot and I have been unfair to him. It has been hard on him, I know. But it can go on no longer. We are going over old ground, again and again, the circle never seems to stop.
I stopped washing my face and looked at myself in the mirror. I didn't like what I saw. I quickly finished washing and got dressed.
Pulling the dress over my head I sighed. My stomach was beginning to irk me, I was huge. I was having twins, granted, but you'd think I was having baby elephants the size I was. Alright so I'm exaggerating a little. But I felt huge. I didn't feel like a proper mother yet. I don't really want to accept it until me and Legolas have spoken, being with Legolas makes it a little more real. I know that my size should be enough to make it real and it was, but I didn't feel right.
Oh my goddess- I'm babbling again.
I threw open the door to see Elladan lazing about in the middle of my unmade bed.
"You better make that bed before you leave"
Wow- I was turning into my mother already!
He rolled his eyes but got up and made the bed.
"So my lady, are you finally ready"
"I am indeed my lord"
I grasped his outstretched hand and let him lead me out of the room.
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The sun was warm as she bathed us in her morning rays. I was half-listening to the conversation that Elrohir and Arwen were having, but my thoughts were on my wife. The wife that I had not touched in months, whom I had neglected.
I loved her yes, but the trials of the past have finally caught up with me. I had spoken to Elrond about my feeling but they remain the same, I cannot bear to touch her in fear that I will break her. I cannot help but view her as fragile, even through I know she is anything but.
My heart broke every time I felt my children call out to me. At night when I would come in late and she sleeping I would lay my hands on her stomach and talk to them. I know that they could hear me. To look upon my sleeping wife's face and know that I cannot talk to her is becoming my downfall.
If we do not speak soon I fear that our relationship will become unsalvageable. I came out of my daze just as Elladan appeared over the hill top. I presumed that he was alone until I saw him turn back and offer his hand to somebody. It was Thalia. She looked radiant. Her hair shone and her eyes sparkled. Her stomach was large and it only added to her beauty. She glowed with new life. Her laughter was music to my ears.
She smiled at me, not as she used to, but it was a smile nonetheless.
The conversation flowed and laughter was shared over a hearty breakfast.
Out of the corner of my eye I watched Thalia. She ate little and said less. Her eyes shifted from person to person, as was her habit when her mind was elsewhere.
Arwen suggested swimming, discreetly leaving me and Thalia alone to talk.
Thalia shifted and sighed heavily. I did not wish to start the conversation for I do not know what to say.
"I don't understand. What went wrong between us Legolas? I don't get it"
She kept her eyes firmly on Arwen and the twins who were busy trying to drown each other.
It was time to be honest.
"I cannot stand it anymore Thalia. The tension between us is too much"
She turned to me, one hand shielding her eyes from the harsh sunlight,
"Elaborate" she said simply
"Every time I speak I feel I must choose my words carefully. My guard is always up when we are together and it not only pains me to do so, but it is putting further strain upon us"
I stopped, and looked at her. Her expression was one of indifference yet I could feel the turmoil inside of her.
"I love you, and you love me that is not being disputed. But we cannot live like this. It is tiring is it not?"
"It is. I wholeheartedly agree. We cannot continue as we are"
Her agreement shocked me, I had not expected such a response from her.
"Be honest with me Legolas, what is it that you feel you cannot say, what are you keeping from me?"
I closed my eyes and sighed.
"I am afraid that should I say something that upsets you, I shall not have a wife anymore"
She gasped and her eyes widened. She crawled over to me and placed a hand on my cheek. It felt so good to feel her skin against mine once more.
"Legolas, husband. I am so sorry. I did not realise what a strain I have put you under. You shoulders cannot carry such a weight"
Her eyes gleamed with emotion, as did mine no doubt. She truly had not intended to do it.
"It is not just that Thalia. We are untruthful with each other are we not?"
I raised an eyebrow and she looked away.
"No, we are not truthful. So what do we do about it?"
"It is time that we faced what we both fear"
"What do you mean", she looked confused.
"Honesty, complete honesty Thalia. What is it that you want from me?"
She looked thoughtful for a moment.
"I want somebody who no matter what will always be there, I want a friend, a confident, a lover, a match. I want integrity and I want honesty"
"We wish the same, yet in our relationship it is not so. We are not honest with each other. This is our biggest mistake. We say we are honest, yet we lie"
"So speak the truth then, tell me Legolas, what is it that preys on your mind?"
"You are reckless, you are private, you keep things from me. Your darkest thoughts are present in your mind, I can feel it, and yet you keep them from me. We have to work together. We are not individuals anymore Thalia. For the sake of our children we must begin to open up"
She sat with her head bowed and one hand on her rounded stomach. I regretted my words but knew that they had to be said.
"You are aloof Legolas, quiet, I never know when to talk with you. There is much hatred between us, hatred for my actions. It cannot be helped. There is much left unsaid between us and it is hard to know what to talk about. I do not know when it is alright to even touch you. You welcome only contact that you have initiated"
"I agree. The faults belong to both of us. So where do we draw the medium?"
"We draw it where we see fit"
I looked at her, not quite understanding her proposal. She turned her head and smiled,
"We simply talk about what we feel we must, no more guessing, no more 'it doesn't matter', just talk. It doesn't have to be important. All it takes is for the other to listen does it not? And that is easy"
I grinned at the simplicity of her answer and the absurdity of our behaviour.
I reached out and grabbed her by the waist, pulling her against me.
"We are fools"
I whispered as I nuzzled her neck, enjoying the feeling of her body against mine and he scent mingling with mine.
"Then we are made for each other"
She said with a laugh.
"Ahh, so the royal couple have patched things up it seems"
Elladan said from the bank of the pool.
"Indeed we have"
"Are you two coming in then?
Arwen called from a rock she was on.
"No, if you do not mind, I am stealing my wife away so that I may spend some time with her"
"Ahh, music to my ear, finally, I do not think I could stand seeing your miserable faces any longer"
"Hold you tongue unless you wish to loose it Elrohir"
Thalia shouted. She turned her head and whispered to me,
"You have to help me up, I'm too big to get up on my own"
I laughed and was rewarded with her elbow in my stomach.
I helped her up from the grass and we journeyed down the path to the forest.