Author's Notes: Yeah, this took a while to update. I was on March break and was out of town and so on. This is another one of my pointless chapters but it's important later. So what else can I say? Um, thanks to everyone who reviewed. Well ya…

"speaking"

'thoughts'

Kagome's diary or song lyrics

(my notes)

Disclaimer: do do do… don't own anything.

Dear Diary,

Damn Inuyasha! I don't believe him! I can't think he would do something like that. But, well, he is a playboy. But still… writing this is depressing me. For once I have nothing new to say.

Chapter 4

Are Emotions Real?

Kagome awoke the next morning. She rubbed her eyes and tried to sit up. Her pounding head kept her from doing so. 'My God! What happened to me last night? Did I run into a wall or something?' She willed herself to get more sleep so the headache would pass. But the sunlight through the many windows kept her awake.

~Kagome's P.O.V.~

I feel something silky across my face. I open my eyes to find me in a room I have never seen before. I seem to have fallen asleep in a bed. But the strange thing is that I don't remember anything that happened past the time I arrived at Inuyasha's house. That's right! I will myself to sit up, propping myself against many pillows. Suddenly, I am cold. I realize I have fallen asleep in only my bra and skirt. My shirt is on a chair near the bed.

I found it weird to find me alone in a room so big. Its strange, considering mine is less than half the size of this. Whose room am I in anyway? I slowly get up and put on my shirt. The computer is on. So is MSN. I look at the contacts and see that most are girls. And one of the guys is Miroku. That means only one thing. I'm in Inuyasha's room!

~Normal P.O.V.~

It was a quiet morning. A few birds chirped outside. This peacefulness was disturbed by one piercing scream, "IIIIIIIINNNNNNNNUUUUUUUUUYYYYYYYYYAAAAASSSSSHHHHHHHAAA!!!!!" Yes, this was Kagome. *Shows room, then house, then city, then country, then world. The name 'Inuyasha' can still be heard.* She stormed out of his room, looking for Inuyasha.

Sesshomaru passed by and saw her face. 'My dimwit half-brother is in for it now. There is nothing scarier than an angry woman.'

Inuyasha could hear his name being called. Maybe he should have listened to Sesshomaru. Inuyashito could only imagine what his son had done. And he didn't really want to know either. Inuyasha looked for his father for help. "You're on your own." His father left the room. "When you bring a woman into this household, you deal with your own problems." Inuyasha could hear Kagome approaching. He was dead.

She stormed into the room, giving Inuyasha the death-glare. "How dare you…" Kagome was furious and marched right up to him. Several servants were curious and tried to listen in. She dragged him off by one of his dog-ears into a small room. It was more like a linen closet.

"How dare you…" she repeated, "I want a damn good explanation from you." Inuyasha tried to think of answer for her.

He remembered what Sesshomaru had once told him. "When in situations with women, always deny."

"Well," Kagome was getting impatient, "I'm waiting."

"What are you talking about? What must I explain?"

"Don't play dumb with me. About last night."

"What about it?"

"What in hells happened?"

"Nothing."

"You're lying."

"No I'm not."

"Then why does my head hurt?"

"How am I supposed to know?"

"Okay, why did I wake up without a shirt?"

"Uh…well…"

"You sick bastard."

"Oh look who's talking. You're the one who k…" Inuyasha stopped himself. He had said too much.

"I did what?"

"N-nothing. Just forget it."

"Tell me now or else…" Several flashbacks of the previous night passed in Kagome's head. Including when she had kissed Inuyasha. Not the other way around. "I'll be going now." She ran out if the room, grabbed her school bag, and ran out the front door. She ran to the end of the street and started for her home. The bridge was clear now.

'What the hell did she see? Does she remember last night?' he smirked at his thoughts. 'Now I have something to torture you with. The thought of having kissed your worst enemy.'

Kagome stopped at the park a few blocks away from her house. No one was around. She sat on a park bench and thought. 'What got into me? Did I really do that or was Inuyasha messing with my head?' She remembered the lemonade. 'I bet the damn drink was spiked. I was drunk. Why that jerk, playboy, bastard…' She cursed him for quite a while. 'But if I really do hate him, wouldn't I still have even under alcohol? Does that mean I don't? No, of course I still hate him. Remember that he annoys you, humiliates you and deceives you. Maybe seeing Kouga will make me feel better. I haven't seen him in ages.'

Kagome climbed into her dad's car and started the engine. Gojou came outside just as Kagome rounded the corner. "Kagome, next time you borrow my car, ask! I need to go to work today!"

Kouga lived on the other end of Tokyo. It was a long drive, but she was seeing her boyfriend. So the distance didn't bother her. His house was on a small street in a residential area. She rang the bell. 'Kouga still hasn't fixed this stupid bell?' She knocked instead. There was no answer. 'Probably can't hear me.' She walked around to the window where his room was. She saw his long black hair and was about to knock on the window. That is, until she saw red hair as well. It was him and that girl Ayame from her old school. They were making out. 'What a spineless creep. I can't believe I fell for him.' Kagome was more angry than sad at this point. Today was not her day.

She arrived home at around noon. Sota came and greeted her. "Hey sis. So am I an uncle yet?"

She gave him the death-glare. "Shut up, little brat. I'm not in the mood for your stupid questions." Mrs. Higurashi sensed that it was a guy problem and went to follow her daughter.

"Don't use that language with you brother," Mr. Higurashi said as he came down the stairs. Kagome gave him 'the look' and slammed the door to her room. "Don't you slam the door on me!" Mr. Higurashi barked, "Sumi, go talk some sense into that useless teenager of yours." She gave him 'the look' and followed Kagome upstairs. "Now I know where Kagome gets 'the look' from." Sota looked at his father. "Women certainly are strange."

Kagome waited for the other end of the phone to pick up.

"Moshimoshi."

"Is Kouga there? It's Kagome."

"Kagome, my love, we haven't spoken in ages."

"And this will be the last time we speak to each other."

"What ever do you mean?"

"Don't play innocent you two-timing bastard. I saw you with that Ayame-girl." There was silence on the other end. "We are through, Kouga. Goodbye!" she slammed down the phone, not wanting to hear his last few words he said over the phone that she didn't catch.

'Why is there such a thing as emotions. They're only there for someone to break. My life has been shattered twice today, both because of men. I hate them all. Why do they even exist? Life would be so much more enjoyable without them. Curse them, curse them all.'

Mrs. Higurashi opened Kagome's door slowly. "Honey, you okay?" she sat beside her on her bed.

"Yeah, just thinking of how useless men are in this world." Mrs. Higurashi smiled at her daughter's thoughts.

"While it's true they can break your heart, they can also fix it back again. The heat is an easy thing to mend." Kagome didn't quite understand what her mother was trying to tell her. She continued, "You can't know somebody until you truly know them." This philosophy junk was confusing Kagome. "What I'm trying to tell you is to get over Kouga and look for someone else. Like this Inuyasha boy." Just the names of Kouga and Inuyasha made her sick.

"How would you know? You don't even know Inuyasha."

"While it's true I don't, all I'm saying is that you should give more guys a chance."

"I don't want to. He's just a playboy. I hate people like that."

"But have you gotten to know this one?" Kagome was silent. She hadn't really allowed him to get to know her. Even though last night seemed like the perfect time to do so. Mrs. Higurashi left to give her daughter time to think.

'Maybe Mama's right. Forget Kouga. Should I give Inuyasha a chance? Urg! Feelings are so damn confusing!'

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well that's it for now. Trust me, I'm just getting into the story so it will become more interesting. All that's left to say is PLEASE REVIEW! Um, ya, I'm finished now. *_~