Disclaimer: I still don't own Power Rangers, or the song. Mine All Mine belongs to many people, and was sung by SheDaisy

Chapter 4

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The sun kisses the window sill and I am still
On my second cup of pity me
It's been a long night of chasing ghosts but at the most
It's been a rude awakening
That all to late I finally see
That it's

Sighing softly Trini looked at the window. Reaching out she traced the patterns the setting sun was making on the glass. Her best friend was dead. And the rest were fighting about it. Tommy was so angry, with himself perhaps. Mostly at Kim. He blamed her for putting them in this position. And while they knew he was just reacting badly, it still caused quite a bit of arguments.

Kat, Aisha, Adam, and Rocky all blamed themselves, as well as being in a state of shock and pain. Billy was locked away in himself, talking to no one. He had refused to believe it was suicide, though he never explained why. When they had asked, he had closed up. And now he was sitting across the room staring at the wall.

Jason and Zach were like her, a wreck. They had never even learned about the letter Kim sent breaking up with Tommy. They had been on a tour of the other countries, and for some reason no one had even taken the time to tell them about the changes. They had spent most of the night before finding out what had been happening for the past six months.

And what they had learned was a surprise. But the greater surprise had been that they had not thought to let the three of them know. They were friends, fellow rangers. But they had been left out of the loop.

Even Kim hadn't talked to them, their best friend, their sister. So the question then was, what kind of friends were they if they could have ended up like this.

My loss, my lonely
My mistake, mine only
Mine all, mine all mine
And it's my bad, my broken
All my should have's left unspoken
Mine all, mine all mine

And now one of their own was gone. And they were falling apart. They had talked with Kim's mom, and found out that Kim had been seeing a psychologist. When they investigated her death, they had gotten in touch with the woman. Kim had lost reality. And the woman believed it had been building for some time, possibly years.

And they hadn't been there to help her. To possibly save her. They should have been there for her. She should have been there for her best friend. But instead she was in Switzerland.

I drove you to the edge of the map and after that
I pushed you off just to watch you fall
You always were the bounce back kind
But boy this time you've proven me wrong after all
Now I'm the one who's gonna crawl
Cause it's

Looking back she had to admit they never truly paid attention to her. Sure they had kept an eye on her, watching her perform. Trying to protect her when they fought. Watching over her like someone who couldn't take care of herself. Like a child. They always patronized her.

Of course in some part of her mind she knew that probably wasn't entirely true. But it was in part. They had been wrapped up in their own lives. In saving the world. And she knew that she was only thinking things like this because she would rather blame herself than Kim. That was the only problem with suicide, the blame fell on the person they had lost. Because the truth was Kim had killed herself.

My loss, my lonely
My mistake, mine only
Mine all, mine all mine
And it's my bad, my broken
All my should have's left unspoken
Mine all, mine all mine

But Trini couldn't help but wonder if she had talked to Kim more, maybe Kim would still be here. And now everything she ever wanted to tell Kim could never be told. She would never get the chance to tell her friend all the things she wanted to. Because she was gone and would never be back. And that was what was killing them all.

Always thought I'd get to sorry
But the chance has come and gone
So if it finds it's way back in
I'll hold on hold on hold on
My loss, my lonely
My mistake, mine only
Mine all, mine all, mine all mine

They would never get to tell Kim how sorry they were for not being there when she needed them most. But she knew she wouldn't let that happen again with anyone else. She had lost one friend without saying all the things she wanted to, but as for the other people in her life, she would never let a chance go by again.

Though she had to wonder what would become of them now.