By: SotMoon
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter.
Authors Note: Okay, I have to say ONE thing. HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY GABBY EVANS! Hehe. Ok, now that I have that out of the way, I would like to say WOW for all the Reviews I have gotten, I'm really surprised. Okay, anyways here is the next chapter.
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James Potter sat in shock, in the Hospital wing, looking down at the pale Lily Evans. The head nurse wasn't too sure that Lily would make it, even with all the potions, and charms set on her.
While worrying, James grasped onto Lily's small delicate hand, and sighed. 'What if she doesn't wake up?' James suddenly felt something drop down onto his cheek; he lifted a finger and brushed it off. A tear? James Potter was crying… In all his years at Hogwarts, no one had seen him cry. He snuffled a bit, then thought back when he could hear one song coming from Lily's small dormitory. A muggle song, he'd heard it before. He looked down at Lily and started to sing.
Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for, everything I do-I do it For you.
James stopped singing for a moment, looking down at Lily then looking around to see if anyone was coming.
Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you…
James didn't notice that Lily was starting to stir, starting to flutter her eyelashes; her big green eyes glanced up at James, then lightly closed.
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true
everything I do - I do it for you
James wiped a few tears from his eyes, then noticed that Lily was stirring.
"Lils?" he whispered.
"Eh?" She whispered back, opening an eye. "What happened?"
"I think you'd know," James Growled.
"I…cut myself. How'd I get here, we were on the train?"
"I carried you…It was along run, I assure you."
"You ran?" Lily gasped, then tried to sit up, but the pain in her wrists hurt her too much, so she lay flat on her back.
"Half way, we were on the carriage for awhile."
~*Flashback*~
James banged down the door, and saw Lily Evans with blood pooling around her. He gasped in shock, kneeling down to check her pulse. It was light, and she was scarcely breathing.
"God Lils…" James whispered as he easily picked up the feathery light girl, and ran out of the Loo, down the corridors and out of the Hogwarts Express.
James ran all the way down to the carriages, and then the carriage drove. "God…Hurry up!" James bellowed at the carriage, then finally saw that the carriage wouldn't hurry up, so he flew out of the carriage and started to run as fast as he could go towards the castle.
When he finally made it to the Castle, out of breath, he banged open the door, almost hitting a few first years, and ran up the corridors, being bound to get to the hospital wing.
"H-Help!" James gasped as he got to the Hospital wing. Madam Pomfery looked at the pale bleeding girl in James' arms.
"What happened?"
"She slit her wrists!"
"Get her to a bed!"
When Madam Pomfery took off the bandages James had put on her, blood squirted from her pale wrists, and James' vision went black.
~*End Flashback*~
When James finished what had happened, Lily's eyes were dark, and blank. Like she was soulless.
"Why?" James whispered.
Lily's eyes clouded over even more, and then she suddenly turned hostile.
"What is it any concern of you?" She snarled.
"I was just worried," said James with a hurt look in his eyes.
"Well bugger off!" Lily shrieked, and Madam Pomfery came bustling into the room.
"James Potter!" She Shrieked. "Why are you in here harassing my patients?"
James just gave one last hurt look to Lily, and walked out of the door, walking to the common room, when he got to the Fat Lady she said disdainfully: "Password?"
James swore so venomously that the Fat Lady gasped in shock, until he heard a fit of laughter from behind him, he sighed when he saw who it was; Sirius.
"What's the password, Padfoot?"
"Vanilla Rice cakes."
The portrait swung open, and James walked through, sighing, then flopped down in a big over stuffed chair. Sirius flopped down beside him, his pale eyes looking into James' dark ones.
"What's wrong, Prongs? I can tell. You don't have a certain glint to your eyes."
James Potter sighed, wiping his glasses off on his robes, and noticed he had blood all the way down his front.
"Damn Prongs! What did you do?"
James calmly put his glasses back on and then started to tell Sirius the story.
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'Why did I have to be so cross with him? He just wanted to know if I felt better, or why I did it…But no one understands. No one. I cannot let my secret out, I can trust no one.
But James…He may be different. Sure, he's a Marauder, famous Prankster; Pulls pranks on me, but my heart still melts when I see his smile, his eyes…Oh god, I've got it bad.
I know he wants to know what's wrong, but I can't…I can't be hurt again.'
Madam Pomfery walked into the room again, mumbling to herself, and ordered Lily drink a sleeping potion.
"You'll not be going to classes tomorrow."
"But Madam-"
"No, Missy! Your already going to be in trouble enough. We'll be speaking to your head of house about this. We'll get someone to bring you your books. Good night, Lily."
"Night, Madam Pomfery."
Lily drank the potion, and her eyes began to droop slowly, her last thoughts of James' face, looking so hurt when she yelled at him…
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AN2: There you go! I hope you like this fic, I put a song in it. A Brian Adams song, "Everything I do" I'm a sucker for that song, I swear. LOL!
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