By: SotMoon*
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter.
Authors Note: Ahhh…It's time. Ravens' due date is apon us. But…is it?
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Weeks passed by, and Raven's due date was getting nearer. The baby was supposed to be born on February eleventh. Raven and Sirius had everything planned out. They were to buy the house next door to the one that James was to buy Lily in Godricks Hollow, and their children would grow up together. The Marauders and their ladies walked the halls late at night, James and Lily using their invisibility cloak, and Sirius using his with Raven. The map was quite handy when running from the Professors on a nightly stroll.
It was two days before Raven's due date, and everyone's nerves were being trodden on, the most nervous of them all was Sirius. He was nervous about what if something went wrong, what if… anything went as Sirius paced the floor the night before Raven's due date. Not saying a thing, but pacing out of nerves. Raven grabbed his sleeve of his shirt as he paced, and she looked at him with big blue pleading eyes.
"Please, Sy. Stop pacing you are making me nervous. It isn't going to help you pacing." Sirius sighed, and sat down and put his hands in his hair and stared at the floor.
"I can't help it," Sirius began as he looked at Raven, then to his other friends. "I'm so excited about the baby, but I'm also so…nervous. What if I'm not a good dad? What if he doesn't love me, what if he's ashamed…"
"Man, don't worry. You'll be a great dad," James said as he patted Sirius on the back. "You'll be perfect."
Lily kept silent as the three talked, and so did Remus. They were both thinking alike. 'If only I had a good dad,' Both of their minds whispered. Lily's father hated her because she wasn't good enough, and she was a witch. Remus' father beat him because he is a werewolf, and was never going to be "Normal".
"Can we just not talk about this," Lily whispered as she looked at the floor, her eyes beginning to tear up.
"Why?" Sirius asked, confused. James and Raven shot him a glance and he cast his eyes to the floor. Lily stood up, brushed some lint off of her jeans, and walked out of the portrait hole. She walked down the corridor for a while, and then sat down at the top stair. She sat staring down the stairs, wondering what would have happened if she was normal, if she wasn't so bad. 'Why was I so bad, why did he hate me?' Her mind whispered again. She sat thinking of why she was the way she was until she heard the sound of quiet footsteps coming from behind her. She turned around and saw Remus walking slowly towards her. His blue-green eyes shining oddly as he walked over.
"I need to talk to you," Remus said. Lily nodded, and they walked down the stairs, occasionally hopping over the trick steps. Lily walked in a daze for awhile, and then noticed she was outside. She looked up into the sky and saw that it was beginning to get dark.
"I know you're feeling guilty about your dad," Remus began as he looked down at Lily, his blue-green eyes surveying her. "Do not feel guilty. It isn't your fault."
"How would you know if it was my fault?" Lily snapped as she looked up at Remus, her green eyes now blazing.
"I know because the way you act, you couldn't possibly have done anything wrong. He was just sick, Lily. He was sick," Remus sat down onto the ground, his back leaning up against the wall of the castle. He patted the ground beside him, and Lily sat down. "I know how you are feeling because my father beats me. Or he used to."
"When I was first bitten, my parents tried everything they could to find a cure. Their search was futile. It was too late, every full moon, I would become, and still do become a full-fledged monster. After a few years, my parents grew tired of me, they began to hate me for what I had became, they called me a monster, and I soon believed them.
Not only did they give me emotional abuse, they beat me, too. If I did something wrong, they'd hit me. I would never hit my mother, but with my father…. I fought back I couldn't take it. I just wanted to hurt him so bad for everything he did to me… Finally one time he beat me so bad I had to go to the hospital. He said that I was a clumsy child and that I had fell down on some glass. The doctors were skeptical because of the bruises, and they questioned him. I was so small, but they knew that there was no way that I could have had that much damage from just one fall.
They soon came and asked me what happened," Remus broke off, his eyes shining with tears. "I told them what happened, and they still made me go with him…they made me go home with the bastard!! I couldn't…ever stay with him. When I got out of the hospital, he beat me until he himself died. I almost died too. He died of a heart attack, but I still wish I could have been the one to kill him." Lily hugged Remus, and Remus hugged her back. He cried on her shoulder, and she cried with him.
"I'm so sorry, Remus. I didn't know," Lily said as they walked back up to the Gryffindor Common Room. Remus nodded as he let Lily into the Common Room first. As they looked into the Common Room, they saw Peter, James, Sirius, and Raven sitting in a corner. Peter and James in a heated game of Wizards Chess. It seemed that one of Peter's knights had gone completely insane, and was going about the board, destroying everything.
"Wow, isn't that something to see," Sirius said as he winced at the sound of breaking porcelain as the Knight snapped James' king in half. James laughed a bit, then looked up and saw that Lily had red-puffy eyes.
"Love, what's wrong?" James asked as he stood up, and looked at Lily.
"Oh, I went outside to think, and I got a little emotional." Lily said, as she sighed as she watched Peter's knight squish a pawn. "What happened to make the Knight mad?"
Peter laughed as he watched his Knight rear into the air. "Oh, I called it a pansy, and I think it took it personally."
"Well, I say we should all go to bed," Raven said, as she yawned. "We have a big day tomorrow, and I don't want to be tired, I need my beauty sleep!"
Everyone mumbled as they got up and went to their own Dormitories. Lily sat in her bed, looking as if she were reading on a book, but just thinking about what Remus said. 'It's not my fault,' Her mind whispered, and she closed her book, and lay down in her bed, soon falling to sleep.
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AN2:
Ooh! We are getting close, aren't we? Will Raven have a Pretty or Ugly baby!?
When will Raven's dad come into the Picture? Will Sirius actually stay in the
room when Raven is having her baby!?
FIND OUT IN THE NEXT CHAPPIE! *Snort*
(This chapter is reallllllllly small.)