(Still don't own DBZ)
We all had a great dinner. Chi-chi had made me and Gohan's favorite things. I'm not sure exactly why...but I was happy about that considering I knew I wouldn't be back anytime soon after tonight. Wow...my last dinner at home. I almost started to feel bad about it until, of course, we started eating. It is one of my favorite things, after all! And Chi-chi always made the best things. Too bad I didn't really get to enjoy them much, being gone all the time. No big conversations really circled around dinner like they might at most houses, but then again, none really ever had.
After dinner, Gohan helped Chi-chi with the dishes, something he normally didn't do. Chi-chi never even asked him to either. He was so helpful and nice towards everyone. Sometimes I thought I didn't deserve such an amazing son...he seemed perfect to me. It was already late by the time all that was over, so Chi-chi sent Gohan to get ready for bed. Though he looked to me for backup on it, I had to agree with Chi-chi on this one because after all, we both did have a big day tomarrow, whether we wanted to or not. besides, Chi-chi can be convincing even to me still, either one way or another.
"Oh alright then..." Gohan said walking towards the hallway, "Goodnight Mom!" He gave her a quick hug and she did the same. "Goodnight my sweet little Gohan. Have a good rest!" Chi-chi responded.
Chi-chi turned her attention to me after she saw Gohan run off and sighed. I looked back at her just wide eyed. "I still don't get what this whole hair and eye color switch is about!" She said crossing her arms. "Don't worry, I'll explain everything, Chi...it's not permanent, or bleached or anything, I promise! It'll all make sense," I told her trying to reason this out. Sometimes Chi-chi had a quick temper, but for putting up with me, I guess she had the right to. "You'd better explain..."
She sighed again though and loosened up. "Well, just meet me in the bedroom and you can tell me all about it, alright?"
I nodded. "Kay." That's when we both saw Gohan a little ways off walk into his room from the bathroom; I turned to look at Chi-chi again. "I'm just going to say goodnight to Gohan first."
"Alright then." She walked to the stairs and went up to our room, only a small way away.
I quietly walked into the hall and to Gohan's bedroom door, putting my hand on the doorknob. Then I stopped. This would be the last time I would be able to say goodnight to him in probably a long while. In the time chamber, I'd had the dream, but it'd never really dawned on me what it meant as much as now...I would have to leave my son, who had just a couple hours before cried right in front of me about my leaving him, and this would be the last time I'd get to put him to bed... Looking down at my hand on the doorknob, tears blurred my vision from my thoughts, but I shook my head alittle. I didn't want my own sorrow to go into Gohan again.
I could sense from his energy level that he was still awake. Finally, my hand turned the doorknob quietly and with one eye, I peeked in. Gohan was wearing his long sleeved pyjamas, sitting up straight in bed holding the blanket and looking out the window the other way. I spoke up finally in a small voice.
"...Hey Gohan?"
He turned his head and looked over to the door. "Yeah?"
"Can I come in?"
"...sure." He was quiet and looked down at the covers in front of him he was holding.
The door opened wider, and I stepped inside his spacious room, closing the door softly behind me. I walked up to him, trying to smile.
"Hey I had alot of fun today..." I said quietly.
"Yeah...so did I..." he responded in the same voice.
"You okay?"
"I'm fine..." he still looked down in front of him, and the happiness had gone from his voice that was there before. Something was obviously at least alittle wrong, but I didn't know what and didn't want to impose or sound like I was trying to push him to tell me.
"...Well, ok. If you say so." Remembering what I came in for, I continued. "I just wanted to say goodnight to you." Then, seeing as he didn't respond, I just continued. "So...uh I'll...just see you tomarrow morning then...and get a good night sleep, ok? We've got a big day tomarrow, as you know..."
"...Ok."
I didn't want to annoy him, but I was worried. I couldn't stand just not knowing what was wrong anymore. "Hey...what's wrong, Son?" I asked in a more serious tone.
"Nothing!" He responded and quickly turned his head the other way. I could still see the outline of his face, seeing a tear run down his cheek. My smile was gone now. I knew what he was still sad about. I put my hand on his shoulder. "Gohan..."
"Nothing's wrong!" He tried to insist. He tried to sound angry, but I knew he was just sad inside. However, I didn't want to make him tell me. "Alright then..." I said in a low tone, taking my hand away. I closed my eyes and turned, slowly starting to walk to the door. "Goodnight Gohan." I said, now in a more disappointed but serious way.
But Gohan couldn't take it. I was about to reach for the door whenever I could hear him dash out of bed. "No Dad! Don't leave!" He called out, running to me and clinging my shirt. I turned around surprised, and he sank down to his knees staring at the floor, crying and burying his face in his hands. "Please, Dad, don't leave! Don't leave me! please...no! I'm sorry!" I knelt down beside him, about to say something, but he continued, sniffling. "I didn't mean to push you away. Do I always do that? Is that why you leave me here? Because I push you away? If it is, I promise i'll never do it again ever! Just don't go..." He looked up at me with teary eyes and a soft voice now. "...don't go."
I wasn't sure what to say at first in response. I hated the sound of him crying. It was one of the worst things to me. I saw my own tears drop to the floor. "Oh Gohan..." I opened my arms out alittle, about to put them around him, whenever Gohan embraced me first, leaning his head on my shoulder. I returned it and put a hand on the back of his head. "That's not it at all, Son. You never pushed me away, making me leave you. Like I told you before, I never have wanted to go, and I hate every minute of it. You matter way too much for me to remember some little thing you might have said to me one time or another. Please don't be sad...every time you are it makes me feel worse too."
Gohan looked up at me. "But...why?"
"Why?" I was able to smile alittle at him. "Because you're the most important thing in my life, and I love you more than anything. You're my son. I care about you. I'd never want to just leave you by yourself. No...I hate making you suffer like that. It pains me more than anything else in the world." I still looked into his shining eyes. With what I'd said, and what he'd said, I was close to having tears flow down my own face.
But Gohan seemed to get the message of what I was trying to tell him. His expression changed to having a little smile himself. "Oh...I never knew you cared that much...you must think I'm really stupid for making such a big deal of all this, "He said looking away.
"No Gohan! I've never thought that. I've always thought of you as the perfect son. You make me proud to be your father."
He looked back at me with a smile and leaned back on my shoulder, closing his eyes. I held him again in my arms, one hand on the back of his head and stood up. I carried him over to his bed and lied him down. "Now you sleep well, ok?"
Gohan returned my smile and gave a quick nod. "Alright then. Goodnight Son."
"Goodnight."
I turned and started to walk away again and Gohan spoke up.
"And Dad?"
I looked over at him.
"Thanks..."
"Anything for you, Gohan," I said in a low but happy voice.
I went to the door and opened it, seeing him roll over facing the window now. I smiled with that proud-of-you look again. With that final glance, I turned the doorknob and went into the hallway again, closing the door quietly behind me. I looked at my hand still on the knob.
"Goodnight my son...I'll miss you..."
Review answerer...thing...yeah...:
Rika/Phoenix and Carrie2sky/anybody else: Actually, after thinking about it, I dont think its over and I'm pretty sure I'll end up doing another one possibly about during and/or after the cell games. o and thanks for the reviews! Look for one involving Chi-chi/Goku too.
We all had a great dinner. Chi-chi had made me and Gohan's favorite things. I'm not sure exactly why...but I was happy about that considering I knew I wouldn't be back anytime soon after tonight. Wow...my last dinner at home. I almost started to feel bad about it until, of course, we started eating. It is one of my favorite things, after all! And Chi-chi always made the best things. Too bad I didn't really get to enjoy them much, being gone all the time. No big conversations really circled around dinner like they might at most houses, but then again, none really ever had.
After dinner, Gohan helped Chi-chi with the dishes, something he normally didn't do. Chi-chi never even asked him to either. He was so helpful and nice towards everyone. Sometimes I thought I didn't deserve such an amazing son...he seemed perfect to me. It was already late by the time all that was over, so Chi-chi sent Gohan to get ready for bed. Though he looked to me for backup on it, I had to agree with Chi-chi on this one because after all, we both did have a big day tomarrow, whether we wanted to or not. besides, Chi-chi can be convincing even to me still, either one way or another.
"Oh alright then..." Gohan said walking towards the hallway, "Goodnight Mom!" He gave her a quick hug and she did the same. "Goodnight my sweet little Gohan. Have a good rest!" Chi-chi responded.
Chi-chi turned her attention to me after she saw Gohan run off and sighed. I looked back at her just wide eyed. "I still don't get what this whole hair and eye color switch is about!" She said crossing her arms. "Don't worry, I'll explain everything, Chi...it's not permanent, or bleached or anything, I promise! It'll all make sense," I told her trying to reason this out. Sometimes Chi-chi had a quick temper, but for putting up with me, I guess she had the right to. "You'd better explain..."
She sighed again though and loosened up. "Well, just meet me in the bedroom and you can tell me all about it, alright?"
I nodded. "Kay." That's when we both saw Gohan a little ways off walk into his room from the bathroom; I turned to look at Chi-chi again. "I'm just going to say goodnight to Gohan first."
"Alright then." She walked to the stairs and went up to our room, only a small way away.
I quietly walked into the hall and to Gohan's bedroom door, putting my hand on the doorknob. Then I stopped. This would be the last time I would be able to say goodnight to him in probably a long while. In the time chamber, I'd had the dream, but it'd never really dawned on me what it meant as much as now...I would have to leave my son, who had just a couple hours before cried right in front of me about my leaving him, and this would be the last time I'd get to put him to bed... Looking down at my hand on the doorknob, tears blurred my vision from my thoughts, but I shook my head alittle. I didn't want my own sorrow to go into Gohan again.
I could sense from his energy level that he was still awake. Finally, my hand turned the doorknob quietly and with one eye, I peeked in. Gohan was wearing his long sleeved pyjamas, sitting up straight in bed holding the blanket and looking out the window the other way. I spoke up finally in a small voice.
"...Hey Gohan?"
He turned his head and looked over to the door. "Yeah?"
"Can I come in?"
"...sure." He was quiet and looked down at the covers in front of him he was holding.
The door opened wider, and I stepped inside his spacious room, closing the door softly behind me. I walked up to him, trying to smile.
"Hey I had alot of fun today..." I said quietly.
"Yeah...so did I..." he responded in the same voice.
"You okay?"
"I'm fine..." he still looked down in front of him, and the happiness had gone from his voice that was there before. Something was obviously at least alittle wrong, but I didn't know what and didn't want to impose or sound like I was trying to push him to tell me.
"...Well, ok. If you say so." Remembering what I came in for, I continued. "I just wanted to say goodnight to you." Then, seeing as he didn't respond, I just continued. "So...uh I'll...just see you tomarrow morning then...and get a good night sleep, ok? We've got a big day tomarrow, as you know..."
"...Ok."
I didn't want to annoy him, but I was worried. I couldn't stand just not knowing what was wrong anymore. "Hey...what's wrong, Son?" I asked in a more serious tone.
"Nothing!" He responded and quickly turned his head the other way. I could still see the outline of his face, seeing a tear run down his cheek. My smile was gone now. I knew what he was still sad about. I put my hand on his shoulder. "Gohan..."
"Nothing's wrong!" He tried to insist. He tried to sound angry, but I knew he was just sad inside. However, I didn't want to make him tell me. "Alright then..." I said in a low tone, taking my hand away. I closed my eyes and turned, slowly starting to walk to the door. "Goodnight Gohan." I said, now in a more disappointed but serious way.
But Gohan couldn't take it. I was about to reach for the door whenever I could hear him dash out of bed. "No Dad! Don't leave!" He called out, running to me and clinging my shirt. I turned around surprised, and he sank down to his knees staring at the floor, crying and burying his face in his hands. "Please, Dad, don't leave! Don't leave me! please...no! I'm sorry!" I knelt down beside him, about to say something, but he continued, sniffling. "I didn't mean to push you away. Do I always do that? Is that why you leave me here? Because I push you away? If it is, I promise i'll never do it again ever! Just don't go..." He looked up at me with teary eyes and a soft voice now. "...don't go."
I wasn't sure what to say at first in response. I hated the sound of him crying. It was one of the worst things to me. I saw my own tears drop to the floor. "Oh Gohan..." I opened my arms out alittle, about to put them around him, whenever Gohan embraced me first, leaning his head on my shoulder. I returned it and put a hand on the back of his head. "That's not it at all, Son. You never pushed me away, making me leave you. Like I told you before, I never have wanted to go, and I hate every minute of it. You matter way too much for me to remember some little thing you might have said to me one time or another. Please don't be sad...every time you are it makes me feel worse too."
Gohan looked up at me. "But...why?"
"Why?" I was able to smile alittle at him. "Because you're the most important thing in my life, and I love you more than anything. You're my son. I care about you. I'd never want to just leave you by yourself. No...I hate making you suffer like that. It pains me more than anything else in the world." I still looked into his shining eyes. With what I'd said, and what he'd said, I was close to having tears flow down my own face.
But Gohan seemed to get the message of what I was trying to tell him. His expression changed to having a little smile himself. "Oh...I never knew you cared that much...you must think I'm really stupid for making such a big deal of all this, "He said looking away.
"No Gohan! I've never thought that. I've always thought of you as the perfect son. You make me proud to be your father."
He looked back at me with a smile and leaned back on my shoulder, closing his eyes. I held him again in my arms, one hand on the back of his head and stood up. I carried him over to his bed and lied him down. "Now you sleep well, ok?"
Gohan returned my smile and gave a quick nod. "Alright then. Goodnight Son."
"Goodnight."
I turned and started to walk away again and Gohan spoke up.
"And Dad?"
I looked over at him.
"Thanks..."
"Anything for you, Gohan," I said in a low but happy voice.
I went to the door and opened it, seeing him roll over facing the window now. I smiled with that proud-of-you look again. With that final glance, I turned the doorknob and went into the hallway again, closing the door quietly behind me. I looked at my hand still on the knob.
"Goodnight my son...I'll miss you..."
Review answerer...thing...yeah...:
Rika/Phoenix and Carrie2sky/anybody else: Actually, after thinking about it, I dont think its over and I'm pretty sure I'll end up doing another one possibly about during and/or after the cell games. o and thanks for the reviews! Look for one involving Chi-chi/Goku too.