A/N: Yes, it is here! The Great Total Request Songfic Challenge! Each installment will be a different song that has been requested by you, the reviewers! So enjoy and please r/r and let me know what songs you want made into songfics! (This will be set up similarly to Goofy Monkey Child's poetry fic, but it has all of my own work of course)
Song: Can You Forgive Her, by the Pet Shop Boys and
Requested by KenjiFinster
Too late to sleep, too soon to rise
You're short of breath, is it a heart attack?
Hot and feverish you face the fact
You're in love, and it feels like shame
Because she's gone and made a fool of you in public again
You're in love, and it feels like pain
Because you know there's too much truth in everything she claims
Mikey Blumburg tossed and turned in his bed, thinking about the falling out he had had with his longtime girlfriend Kristin Kurst. They had beed together for almost four years and that night he had taken her out for a special dinner to ask for her hand in marriage. He had taken great pains to make sure the evening went perfectly, but unfortunately, things didn't go as planned. Not only did she turn him down, but she had embarrassed him in front of the entire restaurant, screaming about how he was a joke of a boyfriend and never there when she needed him. She had claimed that he spent way too much time on his job as a cop, and that the proposal was just any easy way to get more money from relatives and get laid more often. Although Kristin's words had hurt him deeply, almost to the point of him wanting to die, he couldn't help but think that there was a lot of truth in the many accusations that she had made.
So ask yourself now: Can you forgive her
If she wants you to?
Ask yourself: Can you even deliver
What she demands of you?
You drift into the strangest dreams
Of youthful follies and changing teams
Admit you're wrong, oh, no, not yet
Then you wake up and remember that you can't forget
Later that night, after Mikey had finally drifted off to sleep, clinging onto the thought of him forgiving her and how they would end up back together again. He vowed to himself that he would try and change, spend less time working and more time with her, trying to make her happy and be the best boyfriend, and possibly best husband he could be. He dreamed of the two of them as a happily married couple, living in a cute little house with a white picket fence raising wonderful children together and always being happy with each other. He knew he had to face facts and admit he was wrong about some parts of their relationship, but in his heart he knew, as he finally woke up the next morning, that he would never be able to forget the hurtful words she had used and the embarrassment she had caused him.
She's made you some kind of laughing stock
Because you dance to disco, and you don't like rock
She'd make fun of you, and even in bed
Said she was gonna go and get herself a real man instead
So ask yourself now: Can you forgive her
If she begs you to?
Ask yourself: Can you even deliver
What she demands of you?
Or do you want revenge?
But that's childish, so childish!
(But that's childish, so childish!)
The more he thought about it, the more he realized how much their relationship as truly suffering. She would constantly rag on him for taking dance lessons and singing, calling him hurtful names in front of other people and laughing along with the others around them, something he thought was just playful joking, but in reality, he knew she meant every hateful word she said to him. It wasn't even in public, it was even in intimate moments that she would constantly make some sort of comment about his performance or even his size. She would often tell him what a horrible lover he was, but she still stayed with him, despite her claims that she was looking for a real man. Mikey knew he couldn't be the perfect lover to her, nor was he a perfect person, but he thought Kristin was able to accept that. But apparently he was wrong. Mikey closed his eyes, wishing that there was some way he could get revenge on her, make her suffer for all the hurt and embarrassment she had put him through. He tried thinking of good ways at getting back at her, but every idea seemed too childish, too immature to really let her know how truly hurt he was.
Remember when you were more easily led
Behind the cricket pavillion and the bicycle shed
Trembling as your dreams came true
You looked right into those blue eyes and knew
It was love, and now you can't pretend
You've forgotten all the promises of that first friend
It's bad enough, she knows how you feel
But she's not prepared to share you with the memory
About a week later, Mikey was sitting in the park, looking for inspiration for some poetry he was planning on writing when he saw two little kids eating together by a tree. It reminded him of the day back in fourth grade when he and Kristin had first spent time together, as Mikey and Kristin, not Kurst the Worst and Poetry Boy. That was when they had learned about each other---their dreams, their families and how they handled the constant teasing they faced. He remembered looking at her and seeing a person he wouldn't mind spending the rest of his life with, even though he was young and hardly had a clue about what love was. But there was just something about her that made him want to spend more time with her, to learn more about her, so they slowly became friends, and then ended up dating when they were eighteen, after he had finally gotten the courage to ask her to the prom. Those were memories he would keep with him forever, and he knew that he wanted more with her, so he decided to call her and see if she had changed her mind about him. However, she had merely hung up the phone when she had heard his voice, not ready to remember the good times, even though she knew how much he loved her and how badly he wanted to be with her.
So ask yourself now: Can you forgive her
If she begs you to?
Ask yourself: Can you even deliver
What she demands of you?
Ask yourself now: Can you forgive her
If she begs you to?
And ask yourself: Can you even deliver
What she demands of you?
Or do you want revenge?
But that's childish, so childish
Mikey listened to the dial tone for a moment before closing his cell phone. As much as he wanted to, he wasn't sure that he would ever be able to forgive her now, not after she had once again let him know how she meant nothing to him, even after all they had shared. To her, he woud never be the man she wanted him to be, and as much as he wanted her to suffer for all the pain she had put him through, he knew that that wasn't right either. Two wrongs didn't make a right, and it was time for him to finally move on.
A/N: Odd, yes, but I hope you like it. I got it to fit the song the best I can, so I really hope you enjoy it and will read and send me lots of soul hugs! Thank you, happy reading and please keep requesting songs!