AN: It has been so long since I updated this story but not many people have been reading it so oh well.
Oh btw don't mind the original character in this chapter she's not a major part, she was just tossed in for the hell of it.
Enseñame A Olvidar
Chapter 5: Confused (Kohaku's POV)
They had thought I was gone before their little exchange but I admit I overheard every word said by the demon lord though the half demon did not respond, his expression told volumes. I don't understand how they did not sense me there, I know how powerful their noses are yet they could not catch my scent. I left before they could notice me and now sit here with the little kitsune. He looks so adorable cuddled up in the bed with all his bandages. It surprises me that demons can be this cute. Kouga opens his eyes to look at me at the sound of my small snicker and I give him a weak smile.
"What are you thinking of that woke me up?"
"Nothing Kouga-kun.," I feel the wolf is the only one I can really trust the other two frighten me a bit because their demon nature is so very obvious, Kouga though reminds me of one of the men of the village save for his pointed ears. Sesshomaru has an aura that suffocates that is the only reason I fear him because I feel if I stand in his presence for too long I'll run out of breath. Inuyasha, well I don't really know about him he confuses me so. He looks at me with anger in his eyes one moment and the next its lust. I really can't explain that. No one has ever looked at me with lust, not even Naraku who took advantage of almost every human that passed his domain. I shudder at the mere thought of him causing Kouga's blue eyes to fall on me once again. I see his gaze raise slightly making me realize that the one I fear is standing directly behind me, towering over me. I look up at Sesshomaru's inhuman eyes and feel all the hairs on my body stand on end, I'm afraid that one day he'll cut my throat. I know the power of his claws, he could cut straight through my bones if he so wished as can Inuyasha I bet.
"Do you fear me ningen?" I don't even hesitate in nodding my head and a small smile creeps onto his face. The smile serves to make him look evil and I swallow down a lump of fear thinking I'm staring Death in its golden eyes.
"You are wise to fear that that is stronger than you but in the same sense stupid for you cower before it instead of transcending that fear into your strength to fight. You fear death yet you do not battle against it that is why you will not succeed. Correct that quality or the in the next battle against Naraku you will not be lucky enough to even get carried off the battle field," I nod my head and he looks over at Kouga, who stands up to follow Sesshomaru out the room. His black hair, loose, is wild behind him and falling to the back of his knees. Inuyasha had said something about that earlier that still lingered with me 'With your hair like that you almost look like one of my dead loves'.
"So each time one dies you merely replace them? Am I the next replacement then? How long will your eyes shine for me, hanyou?," I sighed, talking to yourself is really a bad habit but when your only company is a psychopathic demon you tend to develop really bad habits. Feeling my eyes growing heavy I climbed on the bed with the kitsune being wary of him as I put an arm above his head and left the other at my side.
"I wish you were here sister Sango you would've made sense of all of this and… and you would've known that we could never beat Naraku for he gets stronger every passing second."
"You shouldn't say things like that out loud Sesshomaru-sama might hear you and put you out of your misery," I sat up as the new voice made known the servant girl that had entered the room. Her hair was a rich black darker than my own mane put up in a messy bun that was barely hanging on. She held a tray in one arm and a rolled up tatami in the other.
"What are you doing?"
"Sesshomaru-sama ordered for me to stay here with the kitsune and keep watch over him. You can leave or stay if you'd like I don't mind, I have my sleep mat to lay out on the floor. Not allowed to sleep on the beds I'm surprised you are." She rolled out her mat and put the tray down on the table beside the bed, it held what looked to be a heated bowl of water and rolls of bandages.
"Why aren't you allowed to sleep on the beds?"
"Duh I'm human," it irked me how she said it like it was no big deal and only served to increase my fear of the property's Lord. She sat down on the mat, a small pillow on her lap and looked at me with bright green eyes. Those eyes frightened me a bit because they reminded me so much of times I had seen Kirara at night.
"Because you're human you're not allowed to sleep on the beds?"
"If you haven't noted it yet Sesshomaru-sama has an extreme distaste for humans or so he claims for all his castle servants minus a select few are human and that little girl, the gods rest her soul, was human. He loved her like a father would his child though he would not admit it but I oft saw him give her such a look of adoration. And even his brother who is half human, he adores the hanyou brat no matter what he says or has done to him. Don't tell him I said that though he'd cut my head off so fast."
"How can I tell him you said anything if I don't even know you're name?"
"Anou… boy you are a smart one. I don't really have a name but Sesshomaru-sama calls me Jun."
"Kohaku," we shook hands, she having to lean up to reach mine, it was then I noticed how absolutely delicate her hands were. It was like holding the hand of a child; a servant with hands this delicate was useless so why would Sesshomaru keep her around? I noticed I had been holding her hand too long as she gently snatched it back.
"It's a pleasure to meet you." I nodded my head in agreement and laid back on the bed feeling very tired all of a sudden. It didn't take long before I fell asleep hearing someone humming softly in the room, it echoing and reminding me of my sister Sango. I realize I cried in my sleep.
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I awoke in a different room feeling very warm and wondering what was giving me that feeling of such warmth. I moved my arms to try and get away from that heat that was making me sweat a bit only to realize that the heat belonged to a body. I looked at the face of the hanyou seeing it perfectly at peace as he was still in the throes of sleep. My heart started to race from the mere closeness of him and I gulped seeing his ears twitch as if he had heard it. I didn't doubt for a second that he had and it only made me that much more nervous. He stirred and I expected him to awaken but instead ended up with his head on my chest his arms wrapped tightly around my waist almost protectively. My chin rest in his mess of silver/white hair, I wasn't really too sure what shade it was as the moonlight made it glow almost blue. Cautiously I put my arms around him feeling him snuggle up a little closer to me and it calmed my racing heart.
The only problem was as my heart calmed something else began to stir. I can't understand how he gets such a reaction out of me. Every time he touches me my body responds by developing this tightness in my stomach and raising somewhere else. My eyes open wide as I feel a hand brush against that area I really rather keep to myself at this moment.
"Sesshomaru said no mating but he didn't say anything about touching," of course he had known I heard every word. How could I let myself believe for even a second that he had not been aware of my presence? A moan escaped my lips as that teasing hand traveled into my pants making bare flesh meet bare flesh. I arched slightly off the bed to let him pull off the clothing I wore not really sure why I was letting him do this to me. I dropped back onto the bed looking up at the ceiling, mouth agape as he continued to touch me. My thoughts ran to the things that he made me feel, how he made me actually want to be alive. How all the people that I had cared for in a manner of a different level like I care for him have all perished. Tears came to my eyes as I thought of my father, mother and my sister Sango. She had not given up on me after all that had happened and now she was lying alone and cold in the ground with mother and father. No I can't say that because no one knows where her body is or if she's actually died, she could still be somewhere suffering. The tears came harder now making my body shake slightly though it was pleasure that made me do this as well. It was so confusing to feel so much pain yet have this other person giving me so much pleasure at the same time. I lifted myself a bit off the bed finding an arm that grabbed onto me holding me tight as I pressed my forehead to a kimono that smelled of sweat and for some strange reason fire. I panted onto that kimono feeling the strong chest under it heaving slightly and then heard myself cry out. Felt my hands gripping rough hair as if I were in a trance experiencing all of this but not really taking part in it.
"I don't care what Sesshomaru says," that voice and lips on my forehead brought me back, "You won't distract me… Kikyou I never was able to tell her how much I cared… and Kagome died thinking I was angry with her… that I didn't love her… I won't let the same happen with you… I have to have you once… before the battle with Naraku… I have to have you." He kissed all over my face then at my neck as one of his hands busied itself at undoing the sash of his kimono.
"Please… I don't understand… but please," I assisted him in getting free of the thing that was annoying me at this moment. He laid me back on the bed and propped himself over me while giving himself enough room to push the devious kimono down to his ankles. He kicked one foot out of it then the other till he was over me in all his naked glory and I was in complete awe of it. His eyes came into my focus leaving me just a shaking, craving thing on the bed as I stared into those lust filled golden eyes.
"Tonight? I can have you tonight?" he seemed concerned and I just nodded my head as he pulled me closer kissing my skin delicately. Treating me as some fragile thing that needed to be lavished but handled with care.
"Please… I'm afraid…" I mumbled as I held onto him and felt his fingers trailing down my thighs then grip the appendage gently.
"No one will hurt you again… never… never again… I'll make sure of that."
(Must cut it off here cuz of FF.net's damn censoring. Really we should start a petition on that because it's supposed to be let your imagination run wild and freeing your soul or some bs, well my imagination is perverted and my soul is the reincarnated soul of many many perverted gay men.)
Oh btw don't mind the original character in this chapter she's not a major part, she was just tossed in for the hell of it.
Enseñame A Olvidar
Chapter 5: Confused (Kohaku's POV)
They had thought I was gone before their little exchange but I admit I overheard every word said by the demon lord though the half demon did not respond, his expression told volumes. I don't understand how they did not sense me there, I know how powerful their noses are yet they could not catch my scent. I left before they could notice me and now sit here with the little kitsune. He looks so adorable cuddled up in the bed with all his bandages. It surprises me that demons can be this cute. Kouga opens his eyes to look at me at the sound of my small snicker and I give him a weak smile.
"What are you thinking of that woke me up?"
"Nothing Kouga-kun.," I feel the wolf is the only one I can really trust the other two frighten me a bit because their demon nature is so very obvious, Kouga though reminds me of one of the men of the village save for his pointed ears. Sesshomaru has an aura that suffocates that is the only reason I fear him because I feel if I stand in his presence for too long I'll run out of breath. Inuyasha, well I don't really know about him he confuses me so. He looks at me with anger in his eyes one moment and the next its lust. I really can't explain that. No one has ever looked at me with lust, not even Naraku who took advantage of almost every human that passed his domain. I shudder at the mere thought of him causing Kouga's blue eyes to fall on me once again. I see his gaze raise slightly making me realize that the one I fear is standing directly behind me, towering over me. I look up at Sesshomaru's inhuman eyes and feel all the hairs on my body stand on end, I'm afraid that one day he'll cut my throat. I know the power of his claws, he could cut straight through my bones if he so wished as can Inuyasha I bet.
"Do you fear me ningen?" I don't even hesitate in nodding my head and a small smile creeps onto his face. The smile serves to make him look evil and I swallow down a lump of fear thinking I'm staring Death in its golden eyes.
"You are wise to fear that that is stronger than you but in the same sense stupid for you cower before it instead of transcending that fear into your strength to fight. You fear death yet you do not battle against it that is why you will not succeed. Correct that quality or the in the next battle against Naraku you will not be lucky enough to even get carried off the battle field," I nod my head and he looks over at Kouga, who stands up to follow Sesshomaru out the room. His black hair, loose, is wild behind him and falling to the back of his knees. Inuyasha had said something about that earlier that still lingered with me 'With your hair like that you almost look like one of my dead loves'.
"So each time one dies you merely replace them? Am I the next replacement then? How long will your eyes shine for me, hanyou?," I sighed, talking to yourself is really a bad habit but when your only company is a psychopathic demon you tend to develop really bad habits. Feeling my eyes growing heavy I climbed on the bed with the kitsune being wary of him as I put an arm above his head and left the other at my side.
"I wish you were here sister Sango you would've made sense of all of this and… and you would've known that we could never beat Naraku for he gets stronger every passing second."
"You shouldn't say things like that out loud Sesshomaru-sama might hear you and put you out of your misery," I sat up as the new voice made known the servant girl that had entered the room. Her hair was a rich black darker than my own mane put up in a messy bun that was barely hanging on. She held a tray in one arm and a rolled up tatami in the other.
"What are you doing?"
"Sesshomaru-sama ordered for me to stay here with the kitsune and keep watch over him. You can leave or stay if you'd like I don't mind, I have my sleep mat to lay out on the floor. Not allowed to sleep on the beds I'm surprised you are." She rolled out her mat and put the tray down on the table beside the bed, it held what looked to be a heated bowl of water and rolls of bandages.
"Why aren't you allowed to sleep on the beds?"
"Duh I'm human," it irked me how she said it like it was no big deal and only served to increase my fear of the property's Lord. She sat down on the mat, a small pillow on her lap and looked at me with bright green eyes. Those eyes frightened me a bit because they reminded me so much of times I had seen Kirara at night.
"Because you're human you're not allowed to sleep on the beds?"
"If you haven't noted it yet Sesshomaru-sama has an extreme distaste for humans or so he claims for all his castle servants minus a select few are human and that little girl, the gods rest her soul, was human. He loved her like a father would his child though he would not admit it but I oft saw him give her such a look of adoration. And even his brother who is half human, he adores the hanyou brat no matter what he says or has done to him. Don't tell him I said that though he'd cut my head off so fast."
"How can I tell him you said anything if I don't even know you're name?"
"Anou… boy you are a smart one. I don't really have a name but Sesshomaru-sama calls me Jun."
"Kohaku," we shook hands, she having to lean up to reach mine, it was then I noticed how absolutely delicate her hands were. It was like holding the hand of a child; a servant with hands this delicate was useless so why would Sesshomaru keep her around? I noticed I had been holding her hand too long as she gently snatched it back.
"It's a pleasure to meet you." I nodded my head in agreement and laid back on the bed feeling very tired all of a sudden. It didn't take long before I fell asleep hearing someone humming softly in the room, it echoing and reminding me of my sister Sango. I realize I cried in my sleep.
o
I awoke in a different room feeling very warm and wondering what was giving me that feeling of such warmth. I moved my arms to try and get away from that heat that was making me sweat a bit only to realize that the heat belonged to a body. I looked at the face of the hanyou seeing it perfectly at peace as he was still in the throes of sleep. My heart started to race from the mere closeness of him and I gulped seeing his ears twitch as if he had heard it. I didn't doubt for a second that he had and it only made me that much more nervous. He stirred and I expected him to awaken but instead ended up with his head on my chest his arms wrapped tightly around my waist almost protectively. My chin rest in his mess of silver/white hair, I wasn't really too sure what shade it was as the moonlight made it glow almost blue. Cautiously I put my arms around him feeling him snuggle up a little closer to me and it calmed my racing heart.
The only problem was as my heart calmed something else began to stir. I can't understand how he gets such a reaction out of me. Every time he touches me my body responds by developing this tightness in my stomach and raising somewhere else. My eyes open wide as I feel a hand brush against that area I really rather keep to myself at this moment.
"Sesshomaru said no mating but he didn't say anything about touching," of course he had known I heard every word. How could I let myself believe for even a second that he had not been aware of my presence? A moan escaped my lips as that teasing hand traveled into my pants making bare flesh meet bare flesh. I arched slightly off the bed to let him pull off the clothing I wore not really sure why I was letting him do this to me. I dropped back onto the bed looking up at the ceiling, mouth agape as he continued to touch me. My thoughts ran to the things that he made me feel, how he made me actually want to be alive. How all the people that I had cared for in a manner of a different level like I care for him have all perished. Tears came to my eyes as I thought of my father, mother and my sister Sango. She had not given up on me after all that had happened and now she was lying alone and cold in the ground with mother and father. No I can't say that because no one knows where her body is or if she's actually died, she could still be somewhere suffering. The tears came harder now making my body shake slightly though it was pleasure that made me do this as well. It was so confusing to feel so much pain yet have this other person giving me so much pleasure at the same time. I lifted myself a bit off the bed finding an arm that grabbed onto me holding me tight as I pressed my forehead to a kimono that smelled of sweat and for some strange reason fire. I panted onto that kimono feeling the strong chest under it heaving slightly and then heard myself cry out. Felt my hands gripping rough hair as if I were in a trance experiencing all of this but not really taking part in it.
"I don't care what Sesshomaru says," that voice and lips on my forehead brought me back, "You won't distract me… Kikyou I never was able to tell her how much I cared… and Kagome died thinking I was angry with her… that I didn't love her… I won't let the same happen with you… I have to have you once… before the battle with Naraku… I have to have you." He kissed all over my face then at my neck as one of his hands busied itself at undoing the sash of his kimono.
"Please… I don't understand… but please," I assisted him in getting free of the thing that was annoying me at this moment. He laid me back on the bed and propped himself over me while giving himself enough room to push the devious kimono down to his ankles. He kicked one foot out of it then the other till he was over me in all his naked glory and I was in complete awe of it. His eyes came into my focus leaving me just a shaking, craving thing on the bed as I stared into those lust filled golden eyes.
"Tonight? I can have you tonight?" he seemed concerned and I just nodded my head as he pulled me closer kissing my skin delicately. Treating me as some fragile thing that needed to be lavished but handled with care.
"Please… I'm afraid…" I mumbled as I held onto him and felt his fingers trailing down my thighs then grip the appendage gently.
"No one will hurt you again… never… never again… I'll make sure of that."
(Must cut it off here cuz of FF.net's damn censoring. Really we should start a petition on that because it's supposed to be let your imagination run wild and freeing your soul or some bs, well my imagination is perverted and my soul is the reincarnated soul of many many perverted gay men.)