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Jamie sat on the edge of her bed and just began to cry. She truly cared for Landon maybe started to love him, she gave her self to him, her mind, her body.

Jamie's never been close to anyone before, Landon was her first for a lot more then sex.

After about an hour, she cried her self to sleep.

The next morning, Jamie dragged herself out of bed and took a long shower, hoping to erase last night. But it didn't work, she still felt the pain in her heart.

Jamie walked down stairs into the kitchen where Blair and Miller were having breakfast. She slumped down in a chair, not bothering to say anything.

" Who died?" Blair asked, seeing how bad Jamie looked. The puffiness in her eyes from all the crying, the anger in her presence.

" Can you just leave me alone?" Jamie asked as she looked at Blair.

" Just because Carter dumped you doesn't mean you have to be so snappy." Blair said.

" You know what Blair? Fuck you, you don't know anything so shut up!" Jamie yelled as she stood from her seat.

" Jamie, clam down. There's no need for that kind of talk." Miller said.

" Forget this." Jamie said as she walked into the living room.

" Where are you going?" Miller asked as he followed her.

" I'm leaving."

" Jamie you know it's not safe." Miller said.

" Spare me the 'its not safe talk', I'm sick of it." Jamie said before she left. She needed to be alone.

Jamie just walked, she didn't care what could happen or wouldn't care if someone did grab her. " Maybe they can take this pain away." Jamie said softly to her self as walked down the road.

She continued to walk until she ended up at the beach, it was a breezy day, no one was around. She walked along the edge of the sand with thought and memories of Landon.

She started to cry when she replayed last night in her mind. Jamie couldn't handle this pain any more, she began to get angry, how dare he do this to her, how dare he love her enough to want to keep her safe.

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" What's going on?" Landon asked as he walked in to Miller's living room after he called him.

" Jamie's upset, she just walked out, there was no stopping her. I need you to find her." Miller explained.

" I think I'm the last person she wants to see." Landon said as he ran his hand through his hair. He knew Jamie walked out because she was upset and he caused that.

" Carter you're the only one that can find her, I need you to do this and put the breakup behind you." Miller said.

Landon just looked at him, he could never put the breakup behind him, this is killing him as much as it is Jamie.

" I'll find her." Landon said as he left.

He knew she left on foot and just wanted to get away. So her put him self in her position which wasn't to hard.

Jamie slid off her shoes and let the cool water wash over her feet. It felt so peaceful and calm, for that moment nothing hurt.

Landon stood away from Jamie and just watched her, wanting to hold her in his arms, feel her skin against his, just to be happy, not a care in the world but that was the life Landon said goodbye to when he took his first job for Miller. Back then Landon never thought he could fine someone to make him happy the way Jamie did, this would be one of the only times Landon regrets his decision.

Jamie felt his presence, she quickly turned around and met his eyes. " Go away." She said as she looked towards the ground, it hurt to make to see him.

" Your father's worried about you." Landon said as he walked up to her, not sure if it was a good idea.

" Let him worry, I don't care." Jamie said as she kept her eyes on the ocean, she didn't want to realize Landon was right next to her.

" I know you're hurting but you can't run out and get hurt, that doesn't help anyone." Landon said as he looked at her, fighting the urges in his body.

" You know I'm hurting? Is that a joke?! You used me for what you wanted then just threw me away. I doubt you know how I feel!" Jamie screamed as she held tears back. She was so angry.

" Don't say that, you know that's not the truth." Landon said causing her to look into his eyes.

" Truth? You wouldn't know the truth if it bit you in the ass. Your life is lying and you lied to me about how you felt what you wanted. Just leave me alone!" Jamie said as she wiped the tears from her eyes she couldn't control anymore.

" I never lied about how I felt towards you. This is what's right and making it look I liked used you is the way I guess you're dealing with it." Landon said. He just wanted to tell her this isn't what I want, I want you. He saw her cry and it broke his heart, he just wanted to make it all go away but he couldn't because Miller was right, it isn't safe.

" Yeah because the thought of being used is comforting. It's not how I'm dealing with it, it's the truth because if it wasn't, it would be so easy for you to hurt me." Jamie said through clenched teeth and bawled fists, she was so mad she could barely see.

" You think this is easy?! It's not easy! I'm in love with you damn it! But that doesn't matter if it coasts your life, I've never been scared before in my life but when you were taken I was scared I'd never see you again." Landon said, he couldn't hold it in any more he just burst and he knew he shouldn't have told her that bit it just came out.

" Then why this? Why all this pain? There's something you're not telling me, I see it in your eyes." Jamie pointed out as they were face to face.

" I knew from the beginning this would happen but I was selfish I just wanted you. When you were taken I couldn't hide what I was feeling." Landon explained as he looked towards the ground, he couldn't handle seeing her eyes anymore.

" My father found out. He made you do this." Jamie thought out loud. She was right, it all made sense now.

" No Jamie it wasn't like that. Miller just pointed out what I all ready knew, don't blame him." Landon said. He couldn't let Jamie figure out what Miller made him do, it would cause to many questions and disloyalty towards Miller.

" Don't defend him, if you feel the way you say, why are you letting my father run your life? Just forget what he says." Jamie said.

" I can't do that. Miller gave me everything I have, he believed in me when no one would I just can't betray him now….even for you." Landon explained. It hurt like hell to say but it was the truth, he owed his life to Miller, he just can't turn his back on him now not even for love and happiness.

" I'm not gonna make this easy on you. You're gonna feel pain the way I feel pain." Jamie said as she started to leave.

" Where are you going now?"

" Home. Happy?" Jamie asked as she continued to walk. Landon walked behind her, far enough to give her some space.

Jamie's emotions were running wild. She wanted to sit in a corner and cry and at the same time hurt some body, bring pain to anyone but her.

When they walked inside the building Landon let Jamie go to the PH by herself and he went to his.

" Jamie finally your home safe." Miller said as he met Jamie in the living room.

" Why did you do this to me? Why couldn't I be happy?" Jamie asked as she crossed her arms and looked at her father's confused expression.

" Jamie what do you mean?" Miller asked but had a feeling this had something to do with Landon.

" Landon broke up with me last night as you know because you told him to."

" How did you find out?" Miller asked, beginning to get angry that Landon would tell her.

" I started to think and nothing made sense. Then I started to think why you didn't seem to shocked. I pieced it together, Landon had nothing to do with it." Jamie explained. She may be pissed at Landon but doesn't want to see him get in trouble or be looked at as a trader or someone Miller couldn't trust, that would kill Landon then for it would kill Jamie.

" Jamie this is what had to be done."

" Mom asked me over and over if I was sure about coming to stay with you and I said yes but I didn't think it all the way through. I can't let you run my life like you do everyone's around you. I love you dad, no matter what and I still want to see you but I can't do this. I'm moving out."


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