On the Edge
Remus was sat in his bedroom he hadn't gone out of their quarters for over a week, Sirius and James was really starting to worry about him; even more so when they haven't seen Nissa either for a couple of days. Nothing either of them seem to say to him make any difference, and they were running out of ideas of how to help him.
Lily had offered to sit with Remus while they went out for a bit, because they had one last idea and if this didn't work then they didn't have a clue what to do; but Remus wouldn't let Lily stay with him encase he hurt her.
"James what ever you two are going to do, it better be good because I've never seen him like this...he's really scaring me now." Lily told them as they walked out of their quarters. "What if he does something?"
"Remus wouldn't do anything stupid." Sirius reassured her and then turned to James. "He wouldn't would he?"
"No of course not." James said, and then kissed Lily on the cheek. "We'll be back in a bit, just keep an eye on him."
Both James and Sirius turned round and walked down the corridor together, they didn't look back because they knew that would only worry her, well worry her even more then she was to start with. After the rounded the corner could they only talk.
"Right Sirius, so where do you think they'll be?" James asked him.
"Considering the time, either their quarters or the common room." Sirius answered as he called for the lift.
"Well we don't know where their quarters are so we'll start in the common room, they always go to the joint one right?" James said.
"Yeap." Sirius said.
The door opened and they both walked in and told it to talk them to the common room, in only took them a minute and then the doors opened again. They walked down the corridor only passing a couple of others who didn't pay them much attention.
"So what are we asking them again?" James asked.
"We'll ask Lupus to talk to him, to help him." Sirius said. "He won't, he can't say no can he? I would ask Nissa but I hadn't seen her around."
"It's just not fair." A familiar voice said coming towards them. "I don't see why he doesn't believe me, it was right there in front of him; what is he blind?"
Both James and Sirius smiled at each other and started to walk faster so that they could catch her up, they rounded the corner and there she was on her own; they both wondered who she had been talking to.
"I can understand about keeping me on report, but they could give back some of the points." Nissa said; but they couldn't see anyone else with her they thought that she was talking to herself. "Don't look at me like that, the recording proved that he attacked me, and they're doing what?" She paused for a minute as though letting the other person talk. "That's right nothing, nothing at all; because it was all my fault, that...oh there isn't even a word for him."
"Erm...Nissa...are you alright?" Sirius asked her, looking around again.
Nissa smiled at him slightly. "Don't worry; I'm not crazy...well not yet anyway. He's just a friend; he doesn't show himself too many."
"Oh right, and we thought you were talking to yourself how stupid of us." James said smiling at her, but she didn't smile back at him to start with.
"So, how's Remus I've been told that he hasn't been to lessons all week; is he ill?" Nissa asked them.
"NO he's not ill, he's still upset about what happened." Sirius told her. "Where have you been anyway?"
"With my Master." Nissa answered.
"Your Master?" Sirius asked her slowly, and then looked at James.
"Yes, senior council member Master Ordin Domnus; please tell me that you've heard of him?" Nissa said. "If you haven't then you must have been living on an asteroid all your life."
"Don't be stupid, of course we have." Sirius said waving his hand, but she looked at them both as though she didn't believe them, but then she smiled at them.
"Right...so going back to Remus the problem is what?" Nissa asked starting to walk again with them on either side of her.
"It's the whole werewolf thing; he's always been touchy about it." James told her.
"What do you mean always, because he would have been trained as soon as he became one like all do." Nissa told them. "Do you know how it happened?"
"Not really, he never went into detail about it." Sirius told her.
"His parents were kind of alright with him being one I guess." James said, but this made Nissa stop and they both turned round to see what was wrong.
"His parents, what has his parents got to do with it; considering that we leave them when we're just babies or toddlers what ever you know what I mean." Nissa said. "Or is he worried that he could pass on the werewolf genre?"
"Everything really." Sirius told her, not completely understanding everything she had just said.
"The main thing that he's always worried that he's going to hurt someone when he changes into it." James told her. "And this kind of threw him over the edge."
"We all worry that our animal sides may hurt others if we lose control over them, but if we let that fear drive us then something like that is going to happen." Nissa told them. "He's always in so much pain because of his other side, it hurts others around him as well who are sensitive to werewolves."
"Can you talk to him for us, and then your friend to help him as well?" Sirius asked her.
She smiled at him. "We can only offer to help, if he doesn't want it then we can't make him not with something like this; but yes I will talk to him."
"Thank you." Sirius said and then hugged her taking her completely off guard, even more so when he tried to kiss her, but she pushed him away and quickly carried on walking without saying anything about it.
Sirius looked over at James, they both shrugged and then followed her; but she wasn't going back the way they had come but a different way.
"Erm...I'm sure you know this place better then us...but the lifts back that way." James told her.
"Yes I know and there's another one up here, but I've got to do something first." Nissa them and then disappeared through a wall.
They both stopped outside looking at the wall and then at each other, James touched the wall it was solid. They stood there for a couple of minutes and then she walked back out of it, and carried on walking up the corridor as though nothing had happened; they looked at each other again and then quickly followed her.
"I think I preferred our Nissa, at least she talked even if it didn't make sense." James told Sirius.
"She does talk, well I wish she would tell me how she does all of this magic she does." Sirius said.
"Maybe we should study a little like Lily suggested." James said, and then smiled. "We could learn a lot imagine the fun."
They arrived back at their quarters and James went in first and then Sirius and Nissa.
"Hey Remus, we've found Nissa she's come to say hi." James shouted as he walked over to Remus' room.
Nissa looked over at Sirius and then walked over to the sofa and sat down, looking around the room; it could do with a bit a tidy though she couldn't say much because hers and Siren got a lot worst especially when they weren't here long just for a stop over and then off again.
Sirius sat down next to her as Remus' door opened and Remus walked out and looked round, she smiled at him as James walked over with him and they sat down together.
"Hi Remus, sorry I haven't been around been sorting a few things out with the council and my Master." Nissa told him. "Oh that reminds me, I need to speak with Severus as well, that should be fun."
"Yeah anyway." James said.
"Right." Nissa said.
"What have they told you, that...I might jump off the edge?" Remus asked her.
"No, of course not." Nissa said. "And can't you fly anyway, I mean the three of you are on the Firmasca team; well that's what I've heard. Me and James play the same spot, Videre."
"Yeah what ever. "Remus said. "Well I'm not going to throw myself out of the window if that's what your all worried about."
"Of course not." Sirius and James said.
"Though technically there are easier ways of doing it of course." Nissa said, making them all look at her. "Anyway, the real reason I'm here is to talk you. I might not be a werewolf, I might be one day considering one of my names I was given when I was younger; but not yet...something not important. Anyway, I can change into a couple of different animals as well and can do mirror images."
"So." Remus said.
"That right there, you're so angry with your, with the wolf inside of you." Nissa told him. "I've never met anyone like you before, who hasn't accepted. That's why you're in so much pain because your always fighting it, that's why it seems so much stronger then because it is, because you've made it stronger. It's a part of who you are, so you must learn to live together or it could end up destroying you."
"And how would you know, I doubt that you can change into anything that is remotely as powerful." Remus shot at her. "The white tiger doesn't really count does it?"
"How do...it doesn't matter...but yes it does count because I have to learn to become one in every way." Nissa told him. "And that is the more destructive one I can change into your right...that one could destroy everything and everyone I care about in a heart beat."
"What ever." Remus said flopping back.
Nissa looked at Sirius beside her and then at Remus again, she took a deep breath and then stood up; Sirius reached out to stop her thinking that she was leaving but she wasn't leaving well not like he thought she was. She grew in height and grew scares and wings and fangs, all three of them moved away from her because it wasn't her anymore but a dragon standing in her place.
She roared and breathed fire but nothing set a light, and then she changed back and sat back down.
"Fuck." Sirius said.
"I don't think so." Nissa said smiling at him slightly, and then turned to Remus. "We all have something, even if it doesn't seem as though we have. And believe me, mines far worst then even that and anything you could imagine; but at least you know now if I'm not as going as always, some days are easier then others."
"So that's why you would never give your whole self to someone, even if you love them?" Sirius asked her.
Nissa slowly turned round and smiled at him softly. "Yeah you could say that, but we all hope that we will find that somehow who we can share everything with; even I do. Though I can take my time if I want to, considering I'm going to live for thousands of years; should be fun."
Sirius looked at her wondering what she was talking about, but then she smiled brightly at him, they all remembered that smile.
"So have you lot got anything to eat while I'm here?" Nissa asked them.
(A/N: well that was enlightening hoped you all understood, well if you didn't everything will become much clearer as the story goes on. But I think we'll have a bit of fun in the next chapter, a bit of a lighter note. But have you figured out what Firmasca is yet? Well if not you've only got a couple more chapters until you find out.
Thanks yaukira for your review, nice to hear from you again; it was fine of course that you haven't done it in a while there not going anywhere.
Remus was sat in his bedroom he hadn't gone out of their quarters for over a week, Sirius and James was really starting to worry about him; even more so when they haven't seen Nissa either for a couple of days. Nothing either of them seem to say to him make any difference, and they were running out of ideas of how to help him.
Lily had offered to sit with Remus while they went out for a bit, because they had one last idea and if this didn't work then they didn't have a clue what to do; but Remus wouldn't let Lily stay with him encase he hurt her.
"James what ever you two are going to do, it better be good because I've never seen him like this...he's really scaring me now." Lily told them as they walked out of their quarters. "What if he does something?"
"Remus wouldn't do anything stupid." Sirius reassured her and then turned to James. "He wouldn't would he?"
"No of course not." James said, and then kissed Lily on the cheek. "We'll be back in a bit, just keep an eye on him."
Both James and Sirius turned round and walked down the corridor together, they didn't look back because they knew that would only worry her, well worry her even more then she was to start with. After the rounded the corner could they only talk.
"Right Sirius, so where do you think they'll be?" James asked him.
"Considering the time, either their quarters or the common room." Sirius answered as he called for the lift.
"Well we don't know where their quarters are so we'll start in the common room, they always go to the joint one right?" James said.
"Yeap." Sirius said.
The door opened and they both walked in and told it to talk them to the common room, in only took them a minute and then the doors opened again. They walked down the corridor only passing a couple of others who didn't pay them much attention.
"So what are we asking them again?" James asked.
"We'll ask Lupus to talk to him, to help him." Sirius said. "He won't, he can't say no can he? I would ask Nissa but I hadn't seen her around."
"It's just not fair." A familiar voice said coming towards them. "I don't see why he doesn't believe me, it was right there in front of him; what is he blind?"
Both James and Sirius smiled at each other and started to walk faster so that they could catch her up, they rounded the corner and there she was on her own; they both wondered who she had been talking to.
"I can understand about keeping me on report, but they could give back some of the points." Nissa said; but they couldn't see anyone else with her they thought that she was talking to herself. "Don't look at me like that, the recording proved that he attacked me, and they're doing what?" She paused for a minute as though letting the other person talk. "That's right nothing, nothing at all; because it was all my fault, that...oh there isn't even a word for him."
"Erm...Nissa...are you alright?" Sirius asked her, looking around again.
Nissa smiled at him slightly. "Don't worry; I'm not crazy...well not yet anyway. He's just a friend; he doesn't show himself too many."
"Oh right, and we thought you were talking to yourself how stupid of us." James said smiling at her, but she didn't smile back at him to start with.
"So, how's Remus I've been told that he hasn't been to lessons all week; is he ill?" Nissa asked them.
"NO he's not ill, he's still upset about what happened." Sirius told her. "Where have you been anyway?"
"With my Master." Nissa answered.
"Your Master?" Sirius asked her slowly, and then looked at James.
"Yes, senior council member Master Ordin Domnus; please tell me that you've heard of him?" Nissa said. "If you haven't then you must have been living on an asteroid all your life."
"Don't be stupid, of course we have." Sirius said waving his hand, but she looked at them both as though she didn't believe them, but then she smiled at them.
"Right...so going back to Remus the problem is what?" Nissa asked starting to walk again with them on either side of her.
"It's the whole werewolf thing; he's always been touchy about it." James told her.
"What do you mean always, because he would have been trained as soon as he became one like all do." Nissa told them. "Do you know how it happened?"
"Not really, he never went into detail about it." Sirius told her.
"His parents were kind of alright with him being one I guess." James said, but this made Nissa stop and they both turned round to see what was wrong.
"His parents, what has his parents got to do with it; considering that we leave them when we're just babies or toddlers what ever you know what I mean." Nissa said. "Or is he worried that he could pass on the werewolf genre?"
"Everything really." Sirius told her, not completely understanding everything she had just said.
"The main thing that he's always worried that he's going to hurt someone when he changes into it." James told her. "And this kind of threw him over the edge."
"We all worry that our animal sides may hurt others if we lose control over them, but if we let that fear drive us then something like that is going to happen." Nissa told them. "He's always in so much pain because of his other side, it hurts others around him as well who are sensitive to werewolves."
"Can you talk to him for us, and then your friend to help him as well?" Sirius asked her.
She smiled at him. "We can only offer to help, if he doesn't want it then we can't make him not with something like this; but yes I will talk to him."
"Thank you." Sirius said and then hugged her taking her completely off guard, even more so when he tried to kiss her, but she pushed him away and quickly carried on walking without saying anything about it.
Sirius looked over at James, they both shrugged and then followed her; but she wasn't going back the way they had come but a different way.
"Erm...I'm sure you know this place better then us...but the lifts back that way." James told her.
"Yes I know and there's another one up here, but I've got to do something first." Nissa them and then disappeared through a wall.
They both stopped outside looking at the wall and then at each other, James touched the wall it was solid. They stood there for a couple of minutes and then she walked back out of it, and carried on walking up the corridor as though nothing had happened; they looked at each other again and then quickly followed her.
"I think I preferred our Nissa, at least she talked even if it didn't make sense." James told Sirius.
"She does talk, well I wish she would tell me how she does all of this magic she does." Sirius said.
"Maybe we should study a little like Lily suggested." James said, and then smiled. "We could learn a lot imagine the fun."
They arrived back at their quarters and James went in first and then Sirius and Nissa.
"Hey Remus, we've found Nissa she's come to say hi." James shouted as he walked over to Remus' room.
Nissa looked over at Sirius and then walked over to the sofa and sat down, looking around the room; it could do with a bit a tidy though she couldn't say much because hers and Siren got a lot worst especially when they weren't here long just for a stop over and then off again.
Sirius sat down next to her as Remus' door opened and Remus walked out and looked round, she smiled at him as James walked over with him and they sat down together.
"Hi Remus, sorry I haven't been around been sorting a few things out with the council and my Master." Nissa told him. "Oh that reminds me, I need to speak with Severus as well, that should be fun."
"Yeah anyway." James said.
"Right." Nissa said.
"What have they told you, that...I might jump off the edge?" Remus asked her.
"No, of course not." Nissa said. "And can't you fly anyway, I mean the three of you are on the Firmasca team; well that's what I've heard. Me and James play the same spot, Videre."
"Yeah what ever. "Remus said. "Well I'm not going to throw myself out of the window if that's what your all worried about."
"Of course not." Sirius and James said.
"Though technically there are easier ways of doing it of course." Nissa said, making them all look at her. "Anyway, the real reason I'm here is to talk you. I might not be a werewolf, I might be one day considering one of my names I was given when I was younger; but not yet...something not important. Anyway, I can change into a couple of different animals as well and can do mirror images."
"So." Remus said.
"That right there, you're so angry with your, with the wolf inside of you." Nissa told him. "I've never met anyone like you before, who hasn't accepted. That's why you're in so much pain because your always fighting it, that's why it seems so much stronger then because it is, because you've made it stronger. It's a part of who you are, so you must learn to live together or it could end up destroying you."
"And how would you know, I doubt that you can change into anything that is remotely as powerful." Remus shot at her. "The white tiger doesn't really count does it?"
"How do...it doesn't matter...but yes it does count because I have to learn to become one in every way." Nissa told him. "And that is the more destructive one I can change into your right...that one could destroy everything and everyone I care about in a heart beat."
"What ever." Remus said flopping back.
Nissa looked at Sirius beside her and then at Remus again, she took a deep breath and then stood up; Sirius reached out to stop her thinking that she was leaving but she wasn't leaving well not like he thought she was. She grew in height and grew scares and wings and fangs, all three of them moved away from her because it wasn't her anymore but a dragon standing in her place.
She roared and breathed fire but nothing set a light, and then she changed back and sat back down.
"Fuck." Sirius said.
"I don't think so." Nissa said smiling at him slightly, and then turned to Remus. "We all have something, even if it doesn't seem as though we have. And believe me, mines far worst then even that and anything you could imagine; but at least you know now if I'm not as going as always, some days are easier then others."
"So that's why you would never give your whole self to someone, even if you love them?" Sirius asked her.
Nissa slowly turned round and smiled at him softly. "Yeah you could say that, but we all hope that we will find that somehow who we can share everything with; even I do. Though I can take my time if I want to, considering I'm going to live for thousands of years; should be fun."
Sirius looked at her wondering what she was talking about, but then she smiled brightly at him, they all remembered that smile.
"So have you lot got anything to eat while I'm here?" Nissa asked them.
(A/N: well that was enlightening hoped you all understood, well if you didn't everything will become much clearer as the story goes on. But I think we'll have a bit of fun in the next chapter, a bit of a lighter note. But have you figured out what Firmasca is yet? Well if not you've only got a couple more chapters until you find out.
Thanks yaukira for your review, nice to hear from you again; it was fine of course that you haven't done it in a while there not going anywhere.