Nightmares
Sirius walked into the common room, and threw himself into the chair as his friends just looked on wondering what had happened. Lily and James looked at each other and then James moved over to the chair next to him.
"It didn't go to well then." James said carefully.
"She has an even worst temper here then she did there." Sirius told him.
"What she hit you?" Harry asked shocked.
"Well it's not the first time, though you did desire that one." Remus told him.
"Thanks, you don't need to remind me about that; I know I desired it." Sirius told him hotly.
"She pouched on him and punched him in the face, though technically considering everything what happened he desired it." Remus told him.
"Didn't I just say that?" Sirius said. "God I'm such an idiot, do you know who her family are?"
They all looked at him as though he had gone mad; well that was part from Remus.
"Yes." Remus answered.
"What? And you didn't tell me?" Sirius demanded.
"What, I know what you're like and see how you reacted this is how you reacted last time remember and that didn't really help matters did it?" Remus told him. "And anyway, I only learnt about it because I was finding out more about werewolves; it was their people her family who made all this possible for werewolves. They're equals protectors of the people, so much more than anyone back home could ever imagine; no wonder she was always so annoyed how they treated them."
"Fine but, where does she lay then in the family did you find that out?" Sirius asked.
"It didn't say, well I couldn't find it; she's just related with the royal family." Remus answered.
"Who would have thought considering, I wonder if they're all so bad tempered?" James asked thoughtfully. "I just had a thought, she always liked you mate."
"So that doesn't help me here does it?" Sirius said.
"Yeah it does, just think about it." James told him. "She must get transported back in time right but in the future I mean the future here, after spending time with you here. That's why she knows us all, well gets along with us so well unlike the rest of the girls...who were all so girly as though they couldn't talk to us; its not as though we bite."
"I do." Remus told him.
"Yes well you know what I mean." James said of handled.
"James has a point Sirius, try to be nice to her." Lily told him. "We all know you have it in you; I don't think you can wait a couple of years like you did there. Try not to insult her, come out with stupid comments you know the sort of stuff I'm talking about because you did it all the first time around; well that is unless you want to go through it all over again."
"Of course I don't." Sirius said, and then added smiling. "Though some of it was fun."
"I must had missed those parts, well some of them." Lily said.
"But this answers so many of your questions about her." Remus said. "Like how did she know about the barking and how to get your normal voice back, and how she could change at will."
"And why she was so powerful, and had a saber which she ran me through with." Sirius added.
"What she ran you through with it?" Harry asked.
"Was this when you fell out?" Fred asked.
"Well kind of." Sirius answered.
"She was bitten by this creature; it sent her a little...well evil." James answered.
"She tried to kill Jevidah; he was our potions teacher and head of Slytherin back then." Sirius told them.
"You know if you wouldn't have messed that up, she would have been with me." Severus said as he sat down on the sofa.
"Yeah keep dreaming." Sirius said.
"But it wasn't a dream was it?" Severus said smiling at him. "Oh yeah Black there, couldn't really keep her satisfied so she came to me."
Sirius tried to laugh but instead threw himself at Severus, no one really tried to stop him or break them up.
"Sirius...Sirius she's here." Lily tried to tell him. "Maybe you should stop fighting both of you."
They both fell onto the floor with Sirius on top of him as Nissa walked pass with Ewan, Li and Sirius F.
"And you said that you didn't like guys like that." Sirius F said smiling.
Severus looked up at him horrified and pushed him off and quickly got to his feet.
"God Black what the hell is your problem, stay the hell away from me." Severus shot at him.
"He was joking!" James shouted after him, but Severus still stormed out of the room. "That guy really needs to learn to relax."
"Who cares?" Sirius said waving his hand dismissively as he got to his feet, and quickly went after Nissa. "Nis, please can I have a word?"
Nissa turned slowly around as did the other's, as Sirius kind of just stood there he didn't really want an audacious while talking to her but he knew that he had no chance now of talking to her on her own.
"Yes." Nissa said.
"I'm...I'm sorry...about before." Sirius told her.
"Accepted." Nissa said and turned around to walk off but Sirius stopped her again, but it wasn't Nissa who turned around this time Ewan did.
"I think you've said enough for today, why don't you let it rest for a while." Ewan told him calmly, and then lifted his hand off of Nissa. "Well that is unless you want to get your ass kicked because you pissed her off, or one of us?"
"No...but..." Sirius tried to say, but Remus and James came up behind him and directed him back to their seats. "I don't get it, we were getting on so well...I did it again. Why do I keep doing it?"
Remus, James and Lily all looked at each other and then at Sirius while the others were just a little confused about what was going on; there wasn't really that much they could say or do at the moment.
Sirius just laid in bed trying not to think about the idiot he had been that night, and how he could have ruined his future and past some how; but it wasn't something you could really keep from popping up. He finally fell asleep about an hour later but he didn't have a peaceful night, instead he got to re-live all of his worst memories...
Nissa was sat with Lily in the Great Hall she wasn't really eating because her detention was praying on her mind, which she would have to leave for in a couple of minutes; she remembered her last detention with him he had kidnapped her using a Portkey and then she had to deal with Infidus, so of course she wasn't looking forward to this.
She got up to leave, both James and Remus looked up at her but Sirius just carried on eating; they gave her reassuring smiles which she did back and then went down to the dungeon's.
"Why aren't you bothered?" James asked him irritated by his behaviour.
"What it's a detention." Sirius said.
Nissa knocked on the door then waited for an answer. "Come in." She opened the door slowly and then walked into the classroom; she hated being here on her own with him.
Jevidah smiled at her as she walked into the classroom, he whispered a spell and the door closed and locked behind her. Nissa stopped dead, knowing that wasn't a good sign.
"Well it is nice to see you." Jevidah told her. "How lucky of you to get the detention, we have a lot of catching up to do."
Jevidah smiled at her as he walked over, but Nissa back away from him making sure that there were tables and caldron's in their way; but this being his classroom he knew it very well and was able to move in-between the tables with ease to get too her.
"What's wrong I was hoping to put everything behind us." Jevidah told her.
"Of course you were." Nissa said.
He moved the tables blocking her way out of the corner, the only way was past him; he smiled at her as he moved closer. Nissa was right up against the table, he pulled out his wand and pointed it at her; without thinking she kicked it out of his hand.
"Now, now we'll have none of that." Jevidah told her and quickly made for her, he grabbed her wrist and pulled her head down and injected something in the back of her neck; then let her go smiling.
"It'll take a little while to start working, but the move you fight it the quicker it'll start working." Jevidah told her as she rubbed her neck panicking wondering what it could be.
He smiled at her as he stepped forward. "Something Infidus lent me."
"What, no he wouldn't." Nissa said suddenly realising what it was even more panicked now knowing what it is.
He stocked her arm as he did she moved away from him but there was no where for her to go, and they both knew it.
'Sirius please hear me.' Nissa pleaded.
Sirius was sat in the common room with his friends when he suddenly heard her voice in his head, it had been a while but he still knew; but this time he wasn't having any of it.
'Leave me alone!' Sirius shouted back at her.
Nissa closed her eyes, he was her only hope. Jevidah smiled as he pressed against her and stroked her arms pulling her into him, she could feel his bulge through his trousers; she didn't feel the same as she had when Sirius had been this close to her, she was terrified.
He tried to kiss her but she moved her face away he grabbed hold of it so that he could kiss her and then with his other hand, he moved it up until he reached her breasts and began to massage them eagerly.
She pushed him back with all her strength and he fell into the table behind them, Nissa quickly made to leave but he grabbed her ankle and she fell to the floor; he pulled her towards him as she tried to kick him off. He crawled on top of her as she continued too kick and hit him.
'Sirius please!' Nissa screamed.
Sirius suddenly shocked his head at hearing her so loudly, it was normally so soft and soaring; he waved his arm's. 'Kwit it!'
"Are you alright?" James asked him concerned by his behaviour.
"I'm fine, why wouldn't I be?" Sirius said, ignoring the voice screaming in his mind.
Jevidah pulled at her robes but she wouldn't let him take them off, instead he ripped them open making her flinch and him smile by her reaction. He opened his own robe and his trousers, and then started to hers again. He moved his hands under her top she closed her eyes as she felt his hands on her skin touching her; he led into her and kissed her cheek.
'Sirius.' Nissa whispered into the darkness one last time, but he balmy heard it and chose to ignore it just as before.
"You're mine." Jevidah whispered as he lifted up and pulled her trousers and underwear down together, she crawled at his hands but they wouldn't change; she had no magic it was gone.
He tied her hands to the ground with magic and held her waist tightly as he rubbed his bulge against her, she bit her lip as he moan quietly; a little voice in her head telling her to scream but she couldn't.
He removed her top by magic and then began to kiss and suck her naked skin, his every touch burned into her like she had never felt before; she was in pain burning agony and there was nothing she could. He ran his hands all over her body and then over her thighs, he softly stroked her; at this point she was biting her lip so hard that it was bleeding. He pulled his hand way and took a tight grip on her waist on either side then thrust as hard as he could into her.
This time she screamed, but he didn't care no one could hear her; he thrust as hard as he could over and over again faster and faster. Her hands were bleeding from gripping them so tightly mixing with the sweet and the blood from her lip was running down her neck and onto the floor.
"Yes...oh yes." Jevidah moaned, as he moved harder and faster in and out of her. Her eyes were shut tight, wishing for it all to be over. He was nearly there he was so close and he could feel her tightening around him and then he came deep inside of her and fell on top of her, holding her.
Nissa wanted to kick him off of her, to get him out of her; to run and hide to be anywhere but here. He lifted his head and smiled at her.
"I'm glad that you enjoyed that, I'll look forward to the next time." Jevidah told her pleasantly.
Nissa looked away from her, screaming in her mind...
Sirius almost jumped out of his bed panting, he looked around the bedroom breathing heavily holding his chest. He couldn't believe it he had never seen it before; he had known what happened but never it that much detail. He collapsed onto his bed pulling the covers up close around, he had let her down when she needed him the most all because he was so stubborn, he knew now and he knew then that he should have gone to her as soon as she had asked for help.
He tried not to close his eyes because every time he did he saw them, that bastard touching her and there was nothing he could do about it. But he finally fell back to sleep, though to another nightmare...
Sirius was pacing the length of the living room angrily, while Remus sat on the sofa with Cassie in his arms. He patted his cloak pocket but couldn't fell anything inside of it, he stopped suddenly and started to root through his pockets; but he couldn't find it he had lost it.
"Looking for something Padfoot?" Remus asked smiling at him holding out a small black box.
Sirius looked over at him and smiled when he saw the box in his hand; he took it off him and then sat down beside him.
"There's no way she can say no, is there darling." Sirius said smiling down at Cassie and then kissed her forehead making her giggle and reach up for him, he took her off Remus. "So beautiful where's your mummy got too then, she's going to miss the christening at this rate."
"And so are we if we don't get going." Remus told him.
"All right, your right." Sirius agreed getting up. "And now that these attacks have gotten worst, we've got to be careful. He seems to have it in for us at the moment; maybe we shouldn't have pissed him off so much."
"Weren't that the whole point, and bringing him down?" Remus asked before the apperated out of there, and reappeared in the church.
"Yeah well." Sirius said and then said quietly as Lily walked over to them. "We'll talk later."
"Great you're here, but where's Nissa?" Lily asked as she only saw the two of them stood there.
"Something happened, she got called away; but she'll be back as soon as she can." Sirius told her. "I promise she wouldn't miss Harry's christening."
Sirius smiled at her reassuringly, he knew that she wouldn't if she could help it; but there was something in the back of his mind telling him that she would. But he wanted her here as well, it was important that she be here with him today.
The christening was over and they were back at the Potter's, and she still hadn't turned up; Sirius had been made Godfather was carrying Harry around the house playing with him. He walked into the kitchen they were all stood there with Higgs and Moody.
"Black, we haven't heard from Nissa all day; nor Frank." Moody told him. "He got into a spot of bother and she went to help."
"What? And no one's heard anything?" Sirius asked sounding very worried, all the anger gone at these words.
"I'm sure she's fine, you know how she is." Higgs reassured him.
"Right little fiery one, you've got yourself there Black." Moody told him.
"Yeah." Sirius said absent minded.
"You can go if you like." Lily told him.
"No it's alright we'll stay a bit longer; she might turn up." Sirius told her trying to smile.
They stayed for a few more hours, even after everyone started to leave and she still hadn't turned up. Sirius wasn't sure if he was anger or worried about her or maybe it was both.
Remus took Sirius home with Cassie, he took her upstairs to her bedroom and went back down to Sirius who was making himself another drink.
"She isn't here is she?" Sirius said knocking the drink back in one.
"She's fine Sirius." Remus reassured him, just then there was a loud pop in the hall behind him.
Sirius pushed past him. "Where the hell have you been? You missed Harry's christening and everything."
Nissa looked as though she was going to collapse right there, because she looked so tired; but part from that they couldn't see anything else wrong with her.
"I'm sorry, but something came up." Nissa told him, trying not to move.
"Sorry, that's all you seem to say lately." Sirius said.
"I'll leave, and Sirius be nice; remember." Remus told him before he left leaving them alone.
"I've had enough for tonight, we'll talk tomorrow." Nissa told him, turning around heading for the stairs.
"What, we haven't said anything." Sirius told her following her up the stairs. "You can't keep doing this, you have a family; don't we mean anything to you? Or is the job more important?"
Nissa turned slowly around and faced him. "Sometimes, yes they have too."
Sirius just stared at her. "I'm sleeping on the sofa."
She closed her eyes and turned round holding onto the wall for support. "Whatever you want."
Sirius stomped all the way down stairs and slammed the living room door shut, somehow though Cassie slept through the whole thing. Nissa went into the bathroom and turned on the shower, she carefully took off her clothes and changed her appearance as she got in wincing as the water touched her cut and bleeding body.
Nissa didn't sleep at all; she could hardly just lay there because it hurt too much. Even Sirius didn't sleep that much, but he did manage to get a couple of hours; before he heard Nissa come down stairs in the morning.
She walked into the kitchen in a vest and shorts which she wore for bed; Sirius didn't come in straight away while she sorted a bottle out for Cassie. Remus popped into the kitchen almost making her drop the pan of water.
"Morning." Remus said. "Just making sure that the two of you are still alive and haven't killed each other."
"I'm going for a shower!" Sirius shouted through.
"It didn't really go well." Nissa told him.
"You'll sort things out, you always do." Remus reassured her.
Sirius appeared in front of them, making Nissa jump again. He still had his trousers and shirt on from the day before.
"Blood!" Sirius said.
They both looked at him as he glared at Nissa.
"Are you hurt?" Nissa asked him concerned.
"NO! But you are, aren't you; it was from the shower." Sirius said. "Why are you hiding?"
Nissa looked away from him, but not even at Remus as she changed her appearance; they both grasped once they saw her. It didn't look as bad because the bleeding had stopped now, but it still looked bad; she was black and blue and cut to pieces.
"What the hell happened?" Sirius asked her. "They mustn't have just used magic."
"They did, but they also had a giant with them." Nissa told him. "Franks fine, hasn't even got a scratch made sure he was alright."
"But you didn't for yourself." Sirius shot at her. "Look at you."
"I..." Nissa tried to say.
"Maybe you should go Remus, so we can talk." Sirius told him.
Remus nodded. "If you need anything you know where to find me."
"You keep doing this to me, hiding away from me; when I only want to be with you and keep you safe." Sirius told her. "How can I when you push me away all the time, and don't let me in. I love you, can't you understand that."
"I..." Nissa tried again but still nothing.
"Let me in, stop pushing me away; I think it's about time that you tell me everything." Sirius told her. "Tell me!"
"I can't." Nissa told him.
"Tell me!" Sirius demanded.
"Fine! You want to know, then here it is." Nissa told him. "I've told you that I'm different, well I am. I'm not even from here, this place this time; I'm from the future and a different reality. Where I come from everyone knows my name and bows down at my feet..."
Sirius just stared at her taking this all in, but he was stuck at the part when she had told him that people bow down at her feet. He shock his head as he stepped backwards.
"I've got to go." Sirius told her and disappeared.
"Damn it!" Nissa shouted, stood there alone in the kitchen.
Sirius went around to James', he stood in their kitchen unmoving, they both stared at him wondering what was wrong with him. He sat down after a while but still didn't say anything or even eat anything when Lily gave him something to eat.
"Are you coming to work?" James asked him as he got his cloak.
He didn't answer, just sat staring into space. James looked at Lily, they both knew that something bad must have happened but just didn't know what.
"Keep an eye on him will you, while I go to work." James asked her, she nodded; he gave her a kiss before he left.
Lily tried to talk to him all morning but nothing, even when she brought Harry down still nothing; she had never seen him like this before, it was making her very worried.
About dinner time, Sirius suddenly got to his feet and without another word left; this though worried Lily even more and told James through the fire what had happened. He left work to go find him.
Sirius was at Remus' flat going through all of his books looking for something, and throwing them aside when he didn't find what he was looking for. Remus stood there just watching him not even sure what he should do, then James turned up.
"He hasn't said anything, just started going through all of my books." Remus told him. "But I do know that they had an argument, but I'm surprised that he left her; you should have seen her, she was bad."
"What do you mean?" James asked concerned.
"She looked as though she needed to go to hospital." Remus answered.
"This is it." Sirius announced making them both jump at the sound of his voice. He started flipping through the pages, not really taking in anything.
They sat down and watched him for a while, until finally he got up and left again but with his book; they thought this was even more strange. But about ten minutes later he returned holding about half a dozen more books, brand new ones as though he had just brought them.
"No idea, you?" James asked.
"Not a clue." Remus said.
Sirius went through all the books he could get his hands on, just reading them until finally he fell asleep on the floor; hours after James had gone back home leaving Remus to keep an eye on him.
Sirius woke with a start the next morning, he pushed all the books away and he got up and almost ran down the small hall to Remus' bedroom and ran in without knocking.
"We're going out, come on and get dressed!" Sirius shouted at him.
Remus rolled over pulling the pillows over his head, but Sirius jumped on the bed throwing them across the room.
"Come on Moony, this is important." Sirius told him.
Remus turned back over and looked up at him. "It's first thing in the morning."
"Yes well, I need to do this straight away; get a move on." Sirius told him dragging him out of bed.
Once he was hanging over the edge he let go and left him to get dressed now that he was awake; Sirius had also changed into some old clothes that he had left behind. He looked a lot better then he did yesterday, though would have looked even better if his clothes had of been ironed.
Sirius dragged him out without breakfast and went straight to the jeweller's, which this completely threw Remus for six.
"What the hell are we doing here?" Remus asked him.
"I need to make it right." Sirius told him, as he scanned over the many cases full of rings, necklaces and bracelets. "That's it; I want that one right there."
He was pointing at a white gold bracelet, with yellow gold wrapped around it; and the centre piece was a princess cut period stone, her favourite.
"A bracelet?" Remus asked, as they were leaving and Sirius had that cheesy grin back. "Well what ever you think will work."
They appeared outside of the front door to his house, he knocked then stepped back.
"Why are you knocking?" Remus asked him.
But before he could answer Nissa opened the door, he smiled at her but she didn't return his smile.
"I guess you've come for your things." Nissa said as she went back inside. "I've already done some of them; I'll go get them for you."
"But..." Sirius tried to say but she had already gone upstairs. He looked over at Remus and nodded towards the kitchen.
Nissa walked into the bedroom, fighting back the tears; when she heard a loud thud from downstairs.
"What are you doing?" Nissa shouted down to them as she walked to the top of the stairs.
She stopped dead when she saw who was stood there, he almost ran up the stairs at her and grabbed hold of her pulling her back down.
"We have to go now, he's coming; he's coming here. For you." Severus told her.
She had never seen him look so worried before it scared her a little, she had always thought him of cool and calm; she unlike others knew that he had feels like the rest of them but didn't show them.
"What are you talking about?" Nissa asked him pulling back.
"He's coming for you." Severus told her again.
She stopped at the door to the kitchen, Sirius and Remus were laying there unconscious she tried to get to them but Severus pulled her towards the door.
"Nissa please, he doesn't want them; only you." Severus told her, she looked at him and then aloud herself to be pulled out of the house by him.
He dragged her outside and up the path, looking around him all the time half expecting them to jump out on him at any moment.
"Nissa, what ever they say..." Severus started but was cut off, as half a dozen Deatheaters apperated around them. He let go of Nissa as they turned round taking everything.
They made a gap in front of them, and Voldermot himself appeared. "Thank you Severus, you may step back now."
Nissa didn't look at him as he lowered his head and stepped back into the circle that surrounded her.
Voldermot smiled at her as he lifted his wand. "You have been a thrown in my side for far too long, but I did want the pleasure of killing you myself."
She never heard the curse he spoke, as she concentrated hard. She smiled at him as the curse hit her, but she felt nothing; nothing had happened.
"Was that meant to do something?" Nissa asked him smiling.
Voldermot looked livid, as Infidus stepped forward from his side.
"Stupid child!" Infidus shouted at her. "I'll deal with her." And he pulled out his saber and charged her, she pulled out her own and blocked ever stork.
"You'll have to do better then that, remember you could never take me; back there." Nissa told him as she kicked him in the chest sending him flying backwards into the car.
"Get her!" Voldermot shouted.
Infidus was back on his feet in a flash, but a giant appeared by Voldermot's command and throw Nissa across the street. She fell to the ground, knocking her head hard on the ground; blood slowly dipping down the side of her face.
A black shape emerged from behind the car, hovering across the ground; it's rattling breath drawing in the air around it.
"You may have her." Voldermot told it lazier.
Infidus grabbed hold of Severus to stop him running out to her, as the Dementor lowered and picked her up off the ground; it lowered its head towards her pressing a kind of mouth against hers. Infidus looked away unable to watch, as Severus fought to free himself; but it was to late; it was all over, the Dementor dropped her now empty body on the ground.
Severus stopped fighting against him, as he saw her laying there once that creature had glided back; he would have fallen to the ground himself if Infidus hadn't had hold of him. He had failed her. She just stared at him, there was nothing; he could feel how empty she was even from where he stood.
The Dementor made to leave, but then seemed to double over in pain; they all looked over at it though none of them dared go near that thing. It started to grow lighter somehow, the black wasn't so black but grey but it didn't stop; soon it was white that was so bright that it was almost blinding then it exploded into nothingness.
"That wasn't her; she couldn't do something like that." Voldermot told them. "Destroy it I want nothing left of it, and leave the mark." Then he left not wanting to stay, he didn't know what had happened; but he wouldn't believe that she could have done it.
They all looked at one another; none of them would go near her as they walked past her. Infidus finally let Severus go, he looked at him; he looked broken as he walked slowly over to her body. He fell to the ground beside her and pulled her into his arms, the tears fell down his face; he hadn't cried since he was little. But holding her here now, she was alive but not; this was worst then her being dead.
"I'm sorry." Severus whispered as he kissed her forehead and rested her against the car. He stood up slowly; he looked down at her one last time and then left.
Higgs and Moody were making their way through the falling down house towards the kitchen; others had gone upstairs to check to see if anyone was there. They found Sirius and Remus lying in the kitchen just coming around. They bent down over them.
"Are you two alright?" Moody asked them.
They looked around, the house looked as though it had been bombed; Sirius almost jumped to his feet looking around. Remus slowly got to his beside him.
"Where is she, is she alright? Nissa where is she, she was just upstairs." Sirius demanded, trying to push past them but they wouldn't let him past.
"Sirius, I'm so sorry." Higgs told him.
"No, no you're wrong; she's fine she's fine." Sirius shouted at them. "Let me past I need to get to her."
"She's gone." Moody told him.
"No, I want to see her." Sirius told them with a lump in his throat.
"We found her outside." Higgs told him. "I'm...sorry. They must've had a Dementor with them."
"No." Sirius whispered, he looked from one to the other wanting them to tell him that it wasn't true what they were telling him; but they didn't. Tears rolled down his face as he pulled away from them and pounded the wall, as Remus tried to get hold of him. He fell back onto his friend and they both just sack to the ground and cried...
...Sirius sat in the cold dark damp ceil of Azkaban, staring at the four walls; he didn't know how long he had been in there it already felt like an eternity. He spent most of the time in his dog form; it didn't seem to have the same effect on him. And he couldn't take seeing their face's anymore.
He heard someone coming towards him; he knew it wasn't a Dementor because they didn't make a sound they didn't walk. He quickly changed back as the door opened, a man stood there; he knew that he knew him from somewhere but couldn't put his figure on it.
"I have a present something to make your stay a little better." He told him, and pulled someone else into view.
Sirius thought he was in a nightmare, that this was just his mind playing tricks on him.
"You did this to her, she probably knew what you were up too all along." He told him as he lead her inside, her blank eyes looking down into pained tired eyes.
He sat her down on the floor, she did nothing just sit there.
"You killed her, just like you killed the Potter's and Pettigrew." He told him. "Enjoy your stay Black."
He turned room and slammed the barred doors close behind him and walked back down the corridor. Sirius just sat there for a moment staring at her, and then crawled over to her and pulled her into his arms and cried.
She still felt warm to touch, her warm energy flowed through him making him warmer and feeling safe.
He fell asleep finally against the cold hard wall with her safely in his arms, he knew she wasn't really there with him; but it made him feel a little better just to be able to hold her, it had been so long.
He was in a deep sleep far away from here when he heard her voice.
'Hold on to me love'
He woke with a start at hearing her voice in his mind, it had been so long but it still sounded the same as though she was there with him still; he looked at her. She still had a blank glazed look, he shock his head knowing that it couldn't have been her.
"Could it? Was it you?" Sirius asked aloud, but she said nothing of course.
He lay back down and rested his head onto hers, and held her tightly; it wasn't really for her but for him it was enough for now.
'Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?'
"Oh god." Sirius whispered. "You can't be, don't please; stop it."
There was nothing again, was he sure he wanted her to stop what ever it was she was doing; if she was doing anything.
"Are you still in there?" Sirius asked her; she didn't answer him as he looked longingly at her to speak. "I'm sorry, I never stopped loving you; I still do now. You told me the truth what I always wanted and I walked out, when I should have told you it was alright."
'Hold me.'
Sirius obeyed, he held her and kissed her forehead.
"I promise that one day, I'll make all this right; and I'll get us out of here." Sirius promised her. "We can all live together; and we can get married. I have the ring, I read this thing after what you told me; and I found out something. I got you a bracelet, I hope that's right."
This time he felt her, her arms around him and her lips against his cheeks; he didn't know how she was doing it but he didn't care. She was there she was still in there, he was going to get her back.
Three years had past since Sirius had been sent to Azkaban.
He spent most of his time in his dog form crawled up in Nissa's lap, or doing a little bit of excise. She had gotten a little better over the years, but you would never know by just looking at her; because she still looked the same. But he could feel it.
Late that afternoon, almost night; they had a visited. A man in long black robes with his hood up came into the cell; he looked at Sirius and then bent down in front of Nissa.
Sirius didn't hear a word what he said to her, but saw him slip something around her neck; he kissed her on the cheek and then stood. He bowed his head slightly to the two of them before he left.
After he was gone Sirius quickly moved over to her, he couldn't see what he had given her; there was nothing.
"Don't worry, everything's fine." Sirius told her, but he could feel that something wasn't there was something different.
'Hold on to me love'
He held her tightly, and kissed her forehead and then kissed her; her voice came clearly into his mind more so then it had done since she had been whole.
'Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (Come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me calling me as you fade to black'
Tears rolled down his face onto hers, and he pulled her into his arms knowing what was to come; praying that it wouldn't happen. But he could already feel it, the heat coursing through her body; it was to hot for him to hold onto as he let go of her.
He felt her hand touch his face reassuringly and kiss his lips one last time; before she left him. She smiled as she was engulfed in flames, she washed over him as she floated out of the ceil leaving with him the warmth of her soul always on him...
Sirius woke up almost crying, that was just to much for him, he hadn't dreamt about that for years and now with all this it was like a new wound cutting into him.
(The song was from 'Evanescence' 'My Last Breath' off the album 'Fallen'. Hoped you enjoyed the chapter, a really long one there but the flash backs in dream form kind of added to his mood. Though if you were wondering the story 'Going Under' which I'm putting the whole series into that one story, well that's where they all come from his life before this story.
Anyway next chapter coming soon, as soon as I get everything working.)
Sirius walked into the common room, and threw himself into the chair as his friends just looked on wondering what had happened. Lily and James looked at each other and then James moved over to the chair next to him.
"It didn't go to well then." James said carefully.
"She has an even worst temper here then she did there." Sirius told him.
"What she hit you?" Harry asked shocked.
"Well it's not the first time, though you did desire that one." Remus told him.
"Thanks, you don't need to remind me about that; I know I desired it." Sirius told him hotly.
"She pouched on him and punched him in the face, though technically considering everything what happened he desired it." Remus told him.
"Didn't I just say that?" Sirius said. "God I'm such an idiot, do you know who her family are?"
They all looked at him as though he had gone mad; well that was part from Remus.
"Yes." Remus answered.
"What? And you didn't tell me?" Sirius demanded.
"What, I know what you're like and see how you reacted this is how you reacted last time remember and that didn't really help matters did it?" Remus told him. "And anyway, I only learnt about it because I was finding out more about werewolves; it was their people her family who made all this possible for werewolves. They're equals protectors of the people, so much more than anyone back home could ever imagine; no wonder she was always so annoyed how they treated them."
"Fine but, where does she lay then in the family did you find that out?" Sirius asked.
"It didn't say, well I couldn't find it; she's just related with the royal family." Remus answered.
"Who would have thought considering, I wonder if they're all so bad tempered?" James asked thoughtfully. "I just had a thought, she always liked you mate."
"So that doesn't help me here does it?" Sirius said.
"Yeah it does, just think about it." James told him. "She must get transported back in time right but in the future I mean the future here, after spending time with you here. That's why she knows us all, well gets along with us so well unlike the rest of the girls...who were all so girly as though they couldn't talk to us; its not as though we bite."
"I do." Remus told him.
"Yes well you know what I mean." James said of handled.
"James has a point Sirius, try to be nice to her." Lily told him. "We all know you have it in you; I don't think you can wait a couple of years like you did there. Try not to insult her, come out with stupid comments you know the sort of stuff I'm talking about because you did it all the first time around; well that is unless you want to go through it all over again."
"Of course I don't." Sirius said, and then added smiling. "Though some of it was fun."
"I must had missed those parts, well some of them." Lily said.
"But this answers so many of your questions about her." Remus said. "Like how did she know about the barking and how to get your normal voice back, and how she could change at will."
"And why she was so powerful, and had a saber which she ran me through with." Sirius added.
"What she ran you through with it?" Harry asked.
"Was this when you fell out?" Fred asked.
"Well kind of." Sirius answered.
"She was bitten by this creature; it sent her a little...well evil." James answered.
"She tried to kill Jevidah; he was our potions teacher and head of Slytherin back then." Sirius told them.
"You know if you wouldn't have messed that up, she would have been with me." Severus said as he sat down on the sofa.
"Yeah keep dreaming." Sirius said.
"But it wasn't a dream was it?" Severus said smiling at him. "Oh yeah Black there, couldn't really keep her satisfied so she came to me."
Sirius tried to laugh but instead threw himself at Severus, no one really tried to stop him or break them up.
"Sirius...Sirius she's here." Lily tried to tell him. "Maybe you should stop fighting both of you."
They both fell onto the floor with Sirius on top of him as Nissa walked pass with Ewan, Li and Sirius F.
"And you said that you didn't like guys like that." Sirius F said smiling.
Severus looked up at him horrified and pushed him off and quickly got to his feet.
"God Black what the hell is your problem, stay the hell away from me." Severus shot at him.
"He was joking!" James shouted after him, but Severus still stormed out of the room. "That guy really needs to learn to relax."
"Who cares?" Sirius said waving his hand dismissively as he got to his feet, and quickly went after Nissa. "Nis, please can I have a word?"
Nissa turned slowly around as did the other's, as Sirius kind of just stood there he didn't really want an audacious while talking to her but he knew that he had no chance now of talking to her on her own.
"Yes." Nissa said.
"I'm...I'm sorry...about before." Sirius told her.
"Accepted." Nissa said and turned around to walk off but Sirius stopped her again, but it wasn't Nissa who turned around this time Ewan did.
"I think you've said enough for today, why don't you let it rest for a while." Ewan told him calmly, and then lifted his hand off of Nissa. "Well that is unless you want to get your ass kicked because you pissed her off, or one of us?"
"No...but..." Sirius tried to say, but Remus and James came up behind him and directed him back to their seats. "I don't get it, we were getting on so well...I did it again. Why do I keep doing it?"
Remus, James and Lily all looked at each other and then at Sirius while the others were just a little confused about what was going on; there wasn't really that much they could say or do at the moment.
Sirius just laid in bed trying not to think about the idiot he had been that night, and how he could have ruined his future and past some how; but it wasn't something you could really keep from popping up. He finally fell asleep about an hour later but he didn't have a peaceful night, instead he got to re-live all of his worst memories...
Nissa was sat with Lily in the Great Hall she wasn't really eating because her detention was praying on her mind, which she would have to leave for in a couple of minutes; she remembered her last detention with him he had kidnapped her using a Portkey and then she had to deal with Infidus, so of course she wasn't looking forward to this.
She got up to leave, both James and Remus looked up at her but Sirius just carried on eating; they gave her reassuring smiles which she did back and then went down to the dungeon's.
"Why aren't you bothered?" James asked him irritated by his behaviour.
"What it's a detention." Sirius said.
Nissa knocked on the door then waited for an answer. "Come in." She opened the door slowly and then walked into the classroom; she hated being here on her own with him.
Jevidah smiled at her as she walked into the classroom, he whispered a spell and the door closed and locked behind her. Nissa stopped dead, knowing that wasn't a good sign.
"Well it is nice to see you." Jevidah told her. "How lucky of you to get the detention, we have a lot of catching up to do."
Jevidah smiled at her as he walked over, but Nissa back away from him making sure that there were tables and caldron's in their way; but this being his classroom he knew it very well and was able to move in-between the tables with ease to get too her.
"What's wrong I was hoping to put everything behind us." Jevidah told her.
"Of course you were." Nissa said.
He moved the tables blocking her way out of the corner, the only way was past him; he smiled at her as he moved closer. Nissa was right up against the table, he pulled out his wand and pointed it at her; without thinking she kicked it out of his hand.
"Now, now we'll have none of that." Jevidah told her and quickly made for her, he grabbed her wrist and pulled her head down and injected something in the back of her neck; then let her go smiling.
"It'll take a little while to start working, but the move you fight it the quicker it'll start working." Jevidah told her as she rubbed her neck panicking wondering what it could be.
He smiled at her as he stepped forward. "Something Infidus lent me."
"What, no he wouldn't." Nissa said suddenly realising what it was even more panicked now knowing what it is.
He stocked her arm as he did she moved away from him but there was no where for her to go, and they both knew it.
'Sirius please hear me.' Nissa pleaded.
Sirius was sat in the common room with his friends when he suddenly heard her voice in his head, it had been a while but he still knew; but this time he wasn't having any of it.
'Leave me alone!' Sirius shouted back at her.
Nissa closed her eyes, he was her only hope. Jevidah smiled as he pressed against her and stroked her arms pulling her into him, she could feel his bulge through his trousers; she didn't feel the same as she had when Sirius had been this close to her, she was terrified.
He tried to kiss her but she moved her face away he grabbed hold of it so that he could kiss her and then with his other hand, he moved it up until he reached her breasts and began to massage them eagerly.
She pushed him back with all her strength and he fell into the table behind them, Nissa quickly made to leave but he grabbed her ankle and she fell to the floor; he pulled her towards him as she tried to kick him off. He crawled on top of her as she continued too kick and hit him.
'Sirius please!' Nissa screamed.
Sirius suddenly shocked his head at hearing her so loudly, it was normally so soft and soaring; he waved his arm's. 'Kwit it!'
"Are you alright?" James asked him concerned by his behaviour.
"I'm fine, why wouldn't I be?" Sirius said, ignoring the voice screaming in his mind.
Jevidah pulled at her robes but she wouldn't let him take them off, instead he ripped them open making her flinch and him smile by her reaction. He opened his own robe and his trousers, and then started to hers again. He moved his hands under her top she closed her eyes as she felt his hands on her skin touching her; he led into her and kissed her cheek.
'Sirius.' Nissa whispered into the darkness one last time, but he balmy heard it and chose to ignore it just as before.
"You're mine." Jevidah whispered as he lifted up and pulled her trousers and underwear down together, she crawled at his hands but they wouldn't change; she had no magic it was gone.
He tied her hands to the ground with magic and held her waist tightly as he rubbed his bulge against her, she bit her lip as he moan quietly; a little voice in her head telling her to scream but she couldn't.
He removed her top by magic and then began to kiss and suck her naked skin, his every touch burned into her like she had never felt before; she was in pain burning agony and there was nothing she could. He ran his hands all over her body and then over her thighs, he softly stroked her; at this point she was biting her lip so hard that it was bleeding. He pulled his hand way and took a tight grip on her waist on either side then thrust as hard as he could into her.
This time she screamed, but he didn't care no one could hear her; he thrust as hard as he could over and over again faster and faster. Her hands were bleeding from gripping them so tightly mixing with the sweet and the blood from her lip was running down her neck and onto the floor.
"Yes...oh yes." Jevidah moaned, as he moved harder and faster in and out of her. Her eyes were shut tight, wishing for it all to be over. He was nearly there he was so close and he could feel her tightening around him and then he came deep inside of her and fell on top of her, holding her.
Nissa wanted to kick him off of her, to get him out of her; to run and hide to be anywhere but here. He lifted his head and smiled at her.
"I'm glad that you enjoyed that, I'll look forward to the next time." Jevidah told her pleasantly.
Nissa looked away from her, screaming in her mind...
Sirius almost jumped out of his bed panting, he looked around the bedroom breathing heavily holding his chest. He couldn't believe it he had never seen it before; he had known what happened but never it that much detail. He collapsed onto his bed pulling the covers up close around, he had let her down when she needed him the most all because he was so stubborn, he knew now and he knew then that he should have gone to her as soon as she had asked for help.
He tried not to close his eyes because every time he did he saw them, that bastard touching her and there was nothing he could do about it. But he finally fell back to sleep, though to another nightmare...
Sirius was pacing the length of the living room angrily, while Remus sat on the sofa with Cassie in his arms. He patted his cloak pocket but couldn't fell anything inside of it, he stopped suddenly and started to root through his pockets; but he couldn't find it he had lost it.
"Looking for something Padfoot?" Remus asked smiling at him holding out a small black box.
Sirius looked over at him and smiled when he saw the box in his hand; he took it off him and then sat down beside him.
"There's no way she can say no, is there darling." Sirius said smiling down at Cassie and then kissed her forehead making her giggle and reach up for him, he took her off Remus. "So beautiful where's your mummy got too then, she's going to miss the christening at this rate."
"And so are we if we don't get going." Remus told him.
"All right, your right." Sirius agreed getting up. "And now that these attacks have gotten worst, we've got to be careful. He seems to have it in for us at the moment; maybe we shouldn't have pissed him off so much."
"Weren't that the whole point, and bringing him down?" Remus asked before the apperated out of there, and reappeared in the church.
"Yeah well." Sirius said and then said quietly as Lily walked over to them. "We'll talk later."
"Great you're here, but where's Nissa?" Lily asked as she only saw the two of them stood there.
"Something happened, she got called away; but she'll be back as soon as she can." Sirius told her. "I promise she wouldn't miss Harry's christening."
Sirius smiled at her reassuringly, he knew that she wouldn't if she could help it; but there was something in the back of his mind telling him that she would. But he wanted her here as well, it was important that she be here with him today.
The christening was over and they were back at the Potter's, and she still hadn't turned up; Sirius had been made Godfather was carrying Harry around the house playing with him. He walked into the kitchen they were all stood there with Higgs and Moody.
"Black, we haven't heard from Nissa all day; nor Frank." Moody told him. "He got into a spot of bother and she went to help."
"What? And no one's heard anything?" Sirius asked sounding very worried, all the anger gone at these words.
"I'm sure she's fine, you know how she is." Higgs reassured him.
"Right little fiery one, you've got yourself there Black." Moody told him.
"Yeah." Sirius said absent minded.
"You can go if you like." Lily told him.
"No it's alright we'll stay a bit longer; she might turn up." Sirius told her trying to smile.
They stayed for a few more hours, even after everyone started to leave and she still hadn't turned up. Sirius wasn't sure if he was anger or worried about her or maybe it was both.
Remus took Sirius home with Cassie, he took her upstairs to her bedroom and went back down to Sirius who was making himself another drink.
"She isn't here is she?" Sirius said knocking the drink back in one.
"She's fine Sirius." Remus reassured him, just then there was a loud pop in the hall behind him.
Sirius pushed past him. "Where the hell have you been? You missed Harry's christening and everything."
Nissa looked as though she was going to collapse right there, because she looked so tired; but part from that they couldn't see anything else wrong with her.
"I'm sorry, but something came up." Nissa told him, trying not to move.
"Sorry, that's all you seem to say lately." Sirius said.
"I'll leave, and Sirius be nice; remember." Remus told him before he left leaving them alone.
"I've had enough for tonight, we'll talk tomorrow." Nissa told him, turning around heading for the stairs.
"What, we haven't said anything." Sirius told her following her up the stairs. "You can't keep doing this, you have a family; don't we mean anything to you? Or is the job more important?"
Nissa turned slowly around and faced him. "Sometimes, yes they have too."
Sirius just stared at her. "I'm sleeping on the sofa."
She closed her eyes and turned round holding onto the wall for support. "Whatever you want."
Sirius stomped all the way down stairs and slammed the living room door shut, somehow though Cassie slept through the whole thing. Nissa went into the bathroom and turned on the shower, she carefully took off her clothes and changed her appearance as she got in wincing as the water touched her cut and bleeding body.
Nissa didn't sleep at all; she could hardly just lay there because it hurt too much. Even Sirius didn't sleep that much, but he did manage to get a couple of hours; before he heard Nissa come down stairs in the morning.
She walked into the kitchen in a vest and shorts which she wore for bed; Sirius didn't come in straight away while she sorted a bottle out for Cassie. Remus popped into the kitchen almost making her drop the pan of water.
"Morning." Remus said. "Just making sure that the two of you are still alive and haven't killed each other."
"I'm going for a shower!" Sirius shouted through.
"It didn't really go well." Nissa told him.
"You'll sort things out, you always do." Remus reassured her.
Sirius appeared in front of them, making Nissa jump again. He still had his trousers and shirt on from the day before.
"Blood!" Sirius said.
They both looked at him as he glared at Nissa.
"Are you hurt?" Nissa asked him concerned.
"NO! But you are, aren't you; it was from the shower." Sirius said. "Why are you hiding?"
Nissa looked away from him, but not even at Remus as she changed her appearance; they both grasped once they saw her. It didn't look as bad because the bleeding had stopped now, but it still looked bad; she was black and blue and cut to pieces.
"What the hell happened?" Sirius asked her. "They mustn't have just used magic."
"They did, but they also had a giant with them." Nissa told him. "Franks fine, hasn't even got a scratch made sure he was alright."
"But you didn't for yourself." Sirius shot at her. "Look at you."
"I..." Nissa tried to say.
"Maybe you should go Remus, so we can talk." Sirius told him.
Remus nodded. "If you need anything you know where to find me."
"You keep doing this to me, hiding away from me; when I only want to be with you and keep you safe." Sirius told her. "How can I when you push me away all the time, and don't let me in. I love you, can't you understand that."
"I..." Nissa tried again but still nothing.
"Let me in, stop pushing me away; I think it's about time that you tell me everything." Sirius told her. "Tell me!"
"I can't." Nissa told him.
"Tell me!" Sirius demanded.
"Fine! You want to know, then here it is." Nissa told him. "I've told you that I'm different, well I am. I'm not even from here, this place this time; I'm from the future and a different reality. Where I come from everyone knows my name and bows down at my feet..."
Sirius just stared at her taking this all in, but he was stuck at the part when she had told him that people bow down at her feet. He shock his head as he stepped backwards.
"I've got to go." Sirius told her and disappeared.
"Damn it!" Nissa shouted, stood there alone in the kitchen.
Sirius went around to James', he stood in their kitchen unmoving, they both stared at him wondering what was wrong with him. He sat down after a while but still didn't say anything or even eat anything when Lily gave him something to eat.
"Are you coming to work?" James asked him as he got his cloak.
He didn't answer, just sat staring into space. James looked at Lily, they both knew that something bad must have happened but just didn't know what.
"Keep an eye on him will you, while I go to work." James asked her, she nodded; he gave her a kiss before he left.
Lily tried to talk to him all morning but nothing, even when she brought Harry down still nothing; she had never seen him like this before, it was making her very worried.
About dinner time, Sirius suddenly got to his feet and without another word left; this though worried Lily even more and told James through the fire what had happened. He left work to go find him.
Sirius was at Remus' flat going through all of his books looking for something, and throwing them aside when he didn't find what he was looking for. Remus stood there just watching him not even sure what he should do, then James turned up.
"He hasn't said anything, just started going through all of my books." Remus told him. "But I do know that they had an argument, but I'm surprised that he left her; you should have seen her, she was bad."
"What do you mean?" James asked concerned.
"She looked as though she needed to go to hospital." Remus answered.
"This is it." Sirius announced making them both jump at the sound of his voice. He started flipping through the pages, not really taking in anything.
They sat down and watched him for a while, until finally he got up and left again but with his book; they thought this was even more strange. But about ten minutes later he returned holding about half a dozen more books, brand new ones as though he had just brought them.
"No idea, you?" James asked.
"Not a clue." Remus said.
Sirius went through all the books he could get his hands on, just reading them until finally he fell asleep on the floor; hours after James had gone back home leaving Remus to keep an eye on him.
Sirius woke with a start the next morning, he pushed all the books away and he got up and almost ran down the small hall to Remus' bedroom and ran in without knocking.
"We're going out, come on and get dressed!" Sirius shouted at him.
Remus rolled over pulling the pillows over his head, but Sirius jumped on the bed throwing them across the room.
"Come on Moony, this is important." Sirius told him.
Remus turned back over and looked up at him. "It's first thing in the morning."
"Yes well, I need to do this straight away; get a move on." Sirius told him dragging him out of bed.
Once he was hanging over the edge he let go and left him to get dressed now that he was awake; Sirius had also changed into some old clothes that he had left behind. He looked a lot better then he did yesterday, though would have looked even better if his clothes had of been ironed.
Sirius dragged him out without breakfast and went straight to the jeweller's, which this completely threw Remus for six.
"What the hell are we doing here?" Remus asked him.
"I need to make it right." Sirius told him, as he scanned over the many cases full of rings, necklaces and bracelets. "That's it; I want that one right there."
He was pointing at a white gold bracelet, with yellow gold wrapped around it; and the centre piece was a princess cut period stone, her favourite.
"A bracelet?" Remus asked, as they were leaving and Sirius had that cheesy grin back. "Well what ever you think will work."
They appeared outside of the front door to his house, he knocked then stepped back.
"Why are you knocking?" Remus asked him.
But before he could answer Nissa opened the door, he smiled at her but she didn't return his smile.
"I guess you've come for your things." Nissa said as she went back inside. "I've already done some of them; I'll go get them for you."
"But..." Sirius tried to say but she had already gone upstairs. He looked over at Remus and nodded towards the kitchen.
Nissa walked into the bedroom, fighting back the tears; when she heard a loud thud from downstairs.
"What are you doing?" Nissa shouted down to them as she walked to the top of the stairs.
She stopped dead when she saw who was stood there, he almost ran up the stairs at her and grabbed hold of her pulling her back down.
"We have to go now, he's coming; he's coming here. For you." Severus told her.
She had never seen him look so worried before it scared her a little, she had always thought him of cool and calm; she unlike others knew that he had feels like the rest of them but didn't show them.
"What are you talking about?" Nissa asked him pulling back.
"He's coming for you." Severus told her again.
She stopped at the door to the kitchen, Sirius and Remus were laying there unconscious she tried to get to them but Severus pulled her towards the door.
"Nissa please, he doesn't want them; only you." Severus told her, she looked at him and then aloud herself to be pulled out of the house by him.
He dragged her outside and up the path, looking around him all the time half expecting them to jump out on him at any moment.
"Nissa, what ever they say..." Severus started but was cut off, as half a dozen Deatheaters apperated around them. He let go of Nissa as they turned round taking everything.
They made a gap in front of them, and Voldermot himself appeared. "Thank you Severus, you may step back now."
Nissa didn't look at him as he lowered his head and stepped back into the circle that surrounded her.
Voldermot smiled at her as he lifted his wand. "You have been a thrown in my side for far too long, but I did want the pleasure of killing you myself."
She never heard the curse he spoke, as she concentrated hard. She smiled at him as the curse hit her, but she felt nothing; nothing had happened.
"Was that meant to do something?" Nissa asked him smiling.
Voldermot looked livid, as Infidus stepped forward from his side.
"Stupid child!" Infidus shouted at her. "I'll deal with her." And he pulled out his saber and charged her, she pulled out her own and blocked ever stork.
"You'll have to do better then that, remember you could never take me; back there." Nissa told him as she kicked him in the chest sending him flying backwards into the car.
"Get her!" Voldermot shouted.
Infidus was back on his feet in a flash, but a giant appeared by Voldermot's command and throw Nissa across the street. She fell to the ground, knocking her head hard on the ground; blood slowly dipping down the side of her face.
A black shape emerged from behind the car, hovering across the ground; it's rattling breath drawing in the air around it.
"You may have her." Voldermot told it lazier.
Infidus grabbed hold of Severus to stop him running out to her, as the Dementor lowered and picked her up off the ground; it lowered its head towards her pressing a kind of mouth against hers. Infidus looked away unable to watch, as Severus fought to free himself; but it was to late; it was all over, the Dementor dropped her now empty body on the ground.
Severus stopped fighting against him, as he saw her laying there once that creature had glided back; he would have fallen to the ground himself if Infidus hadn't had hold of him. He had failed her. She just stared at him, there was nothing; he could feel how empty she was even from where he stood.
The Dementor made to leave, but then seemed to double over in pain; they all looked over at it though none of them dared go near that thing. It started to grow lighter somehow, the black wasn't so black but grey but it didn't stop; soon it was white that was so bright that it was almost blinding then it exploded into nothingness.
"That wasn't her; she couldn't do something like that." Voldermot told them. "Destroy it I want nothing left of it, and leave the mark." Then he left not wanting to stay, he didn't know what had happened; but he wouldn't believe that she could have done it.
They all looked at one another; none of them would go near her as they walked past her. Infidus finally let Severus go, he looked at him; he looked broken as he walked slowly over to her body. He fell to the ground beside her and pulled her into his arms, the tears fell down his face; he hadn't cried since he was little. But holding her here now, she was alive but not; this was worst then her being dead.
"I'm sorry." Severus whispered as he kissed her forehead and rested her against the car. He stood up slowly; he looked down at her one last time and then left.
Higgs and Moody were making their way through the falling down house towards the kitchen; others had gone upstairs to check to see if anyone was there. They found Sirius and Remus lying in the kitchen just coming around. They bent down over them.
"Are you two alright?" Moody asked them.
They looked around, the house looked as though it had been bombed; Sirius almost jumped to his feet looking around. Remus slowly got to his beside him.
"Where is she, is she alright? Nissa where is she, she was just upstairs." Sirius demanded, trying to push past them but they wouldn't let him past.
"Sirius, I'm so sorry." Higgs told him.
"No, no you're wrong; she's fine she's fine." Sirius shouted at them. "Let me past I need to get to her."
"She's gone." Moody told him.
"No, I want to see her." Sirius told them with a lump in his throat.
"We found her outside." Higgs told him. "I'm...sorry. They must've had a Dementor with them."
"No." Sirius whispered, he looked from one to the other wanting them to tell him that it wasn't true what they were telling him; but they didn't. Tears rolled down his face as he pulled away from them and pounded the wall, as Remus tried to get hold of him. He fell back onto his friend and they both just sack to the ground and cried...
...Sirius sat in the cold dark damp ceil of Azkaban, staring at the four walls; he didn't know how long he had been in there it already felt like an eternity. He spent most of the time in his dog form; it didn't seem to have the same effect on him. And he couldn't take seeing their face's anymore.
He heard someone coming towards him; he knew it wasn't a Dementor because they didn't make a sound they didn't walk. He quickly changed back as the door opened, a man stood there; he knew that he knew him from somewhere but couldn't put his figure on it.
"I have a present something to make your stay a little better." He told him, and pulled someone else into view.
Sirius thought he was in a nightmare, that this was just his mind playing tricks on him.
"You did this to her, she probably knew what you were up too all along." He told him as he lead her inside, her blank eyes looking down into pained tired eyes.
He sat her down on the floor, she did nothing just sit there.
"You killed her, just like you killed the Potter's and Pettigrew." He told him. "Enjoy your stay Black."
He turned room and slammed the barred doors close behind him and walked back down the corridor. Sirius just sat there for a moment staring at her, and then crawled over to her and pulled her into his arms and cried.
She still felt warm to touch, her warm energy flowed through him making him warmer and feeling safe.
He fell asleep finally against the cold hard wall with her safely in his arms, he knew she wasn't really there with him; but it made him feel a little better just to be able to hold her, it had been so long.
He was in a deep sleep far away from here when he heard her voice.
'Hold on to me love'
He woke with a start at hearing her voice in his mind, it had been so long but it still sounded the same as though she was there with him still; he looked at her. She still had a blank glazed look, he shock his head knowing that it couldn't have been her.
"Could it? Was it you?" Sirius asked aloud, but she said nothing of course.
He lay back down and rested his head onto hers, and held her tightly; it wasn't really for her but for him it was enough for now.
'Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?'
"Oh god." Sirius whispered. "You can't be, don't please; stop it."
There was nothing again, was he sure he wanted her to stop what ever it was she was doing; if she was doing anything.
"Are you still in there?" Sirius asked her; she didn't answer him as he looked longingly at her to speak. "I'm sorry, I never stopped loving you; I still do now. You told me the truth what I always wanted and I walked out, when I should have told you it was alright."
'Hold me.'
Sirius obeyed, he held her and kissed her forehead.
"I promise that one day, I'll make all this right; and I'll get us out of here." Sirius promised her. "We can all live together; and we can get married. I have the ring, I read this thing after what you told me; and I found out something. I got you a bracelet, I hope that's right."
This time he felt her, her arms around him and her lips against his cheeks; he didn't know how she was doing it but he didn't care. She was there she was still in there, he was going to get her back.
Three years had past since Sirius had been sent to Azkaban.
He spent most of his time in his dog form crawled up in Nissa's lap, or doing a little bit of excise. She had gotten a little better over the years, but you would never know by just looking at her; because she still looked the same. But he could feel it.
Late that afternoon, almost night; they had a visited. A man in long black robes with his hood up came into the cell; he looked at Sirius and then bent down in front of Nissa.
Sirius didn't hear a word what he said to her, but saw him slip something around her neck; he kissed her on the cheek and then stood. He bowed his head slightly to the two of them before he left.
After he was gone Sirius quickly moved over to her, he couldn't see what he had given her; there was nothing.
"Don't worry, everything's fine." Sirius told her, but he could feel that something wasn't there was something different.
'Hold on to me love'
He held her tightly, and kissed her forehead and then kissed her; her voice came clearly into his mind more so then it had done since she had been whole.
'Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (Come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me calling me as you fade to black'
Tears rolled down his face onto hers, and he pulled her into his arms knowing what was to come; praying that it wouldn't happen. But he could already feel it, the heat coursing through her body; it was to hot for him to hold onto as he let go of her.
He felt her hand touch his face reassuringly and kiss his lips one last time; before she left him. She smiled as she was engulfed in flames, she washed over him as she floated out of the ceil leaving with him the warmth of her soul always on him...
Sirius woke up almost crying, that was just to much for him, he hadn't dreamt about that for years and now with all this it was like a new wound cutting into him.
(The song was from 'Evanescence' 'My Last Breath' off the album 'Fallen'. Hoped you enjoyed the chapter, a really long one there but the flash backs in dream form kind of added to his mood. Though if you were wondering the story 'Going Under' which I'm putting the whole series into that one story, well that's where they all come from his life before this story.
Anyway next chapter coming soon, as soon as I get everything working.)