To: "Shinigami"
From: [Identity undisclosed]
Date: February 2nd A.C.197
It's hard sometimes, sitting here, tapping away at these grey plastic keys, accessing endless files, all for the sake of a mission that I don't know that I even believe in anymore. It's ten o'clock now; I'll turn in in a couple of hours.
It's not the same without you here
I've never told you this, but I think I'm in love with you. How could I not be? You are what's kept me going all this time; you believed in me when I thought the mission had failed, but you also never hesitated to be the cynical presence when I got ahead of myself. And your smile –I don't remember ever seeing you without that smile for long. It's contagious, you know, like your laughter. I don't smile much, but I do right now, thinking of you; your endless banter and your violet eyes.
I never thought that anyone could affect me like this. I was trained to be the perfect soldier; emotions, especially those as potent as love, are to be considered a weakness. I cannot rid myself of I though. It should be easier now you're gone, but somehow my mind is plagued by thoughts of you: I can't sleep for thinking of you, and when I do, you fill my dreams.
I can't help but feel that things could have worked out differently. I was so callous toward you, so unresponsive to your persistent friendship. I never could bring myself to admit that I valued your company, even to myself.
Would you have stayed if I had told you the truth, or would that simply have pushed you further away? I suppose I shall never know now. This has been a long time in coming, but I decided it had to come out or I would never be at peace with myself.
Don't bother to reply, or even to trace this message; I intend to terminate this account tonight. I'm leaving tomorrow - you don't need to know where to. You're happy now, though I must admit that I never envisioned you two settling down as a couple. Goodbye, Duo
Aishiteru.
Just a practice piece to get myself back into the mood for writing after so long. I apologise for my absence. -Rose