Author's Note: I know it's been awhile now... Well I was stuck on this
chapter, because I didn't like how I had written it previously. So I
deleted everything and wrote it with a different outlook. Plus I think it's
much better than my old chapter. Well hope you like it! And please, please,
check out my other stories. I work on them just as hard as this one and I
would greatly appreciate it if you read it and let me know how I'm doing
with them. I write because I love to, and not for the reviews, so for those
who think that's what it is about has the wrong idea. If I wrote for the
reviews I would've stopped writing awhile ago. I just ask that my other
stories are given a try, because each and every chapter in my stories have
been spent hours, if not, days on them. I write them trying to make it the
best as it can be. So give it a chance and be open minded when reading
other stories, sometimes you can find the best stories that way, I know
because that's how I usually discover really good stories.
Oh and a side-note, the reason Sango and Miroku's relationship is moving so fast is because they have known each other for a long time, if you haven't been paying attention to the earlier chapters in which it briefly goes into detail about their long term relationship. This story is just giving you a taste of their relationship. It's going to show up here and there in this story but the main focus is going to on Inuyasha, Kikyo, and Kagome. And please don't ask me if this will turn out into a lemon. It's going to stay pg-13.
Disclaimer: Someday...
High School Reunion
Chapter Seven
The Difference Between Right and Wrong
Kagome's heart beated wildly. She could hardly breathe. All her feelings that she had for him, poured out in one kiss.
Just that one kiss was enough for her to give in.
That one kiss was able to make her forget everything, except how right that it felt to be in his arms. To be with him. It had been so long since Kagome had a man that could make her feel like this.
To feel like a woman. A desirable woman.
She pulled him closer and bravely kissed him deeper. His hair intertwined with her dark locks. One of her hands gently tugged on his tie, the other draped around his neck. Both of his arms encircling her waist, pressed firmly against her. He rubbed her back sensuously. Kagome let out a soft moan, Inuyasha took that as a chance and darted his tongue into her mouth.
She didn't stop him. He continued to kiss her, exploring her mouth.
Being brave she broke apart the kiss and opened her door and let him in. For that one night she was going to give in. Even if it would cost her pain. Even if it meant trouble along the way. Even if it meant she didn't' know what she was putting herself in to.
Kagome woke up her head pounding. Even if she didn't drink much last night, a little bit of alcohol was enough to give her a headache. She sat up and stretched lightly when her hand softly hit something.
Soft silky hair. She slowly turned around and saw Inuyasha sleeping peacefully. His hair splayed out on both their pillows. She looked back down and saw an arm loosely draped over her stomach.
She blushed when her mind processed last night's event. She looked over back at him and saw his half naked form, the other cover beneath the blanket and sheets which confirmed last night's activities.
Kagome got out of bed and put on her robe. She ran her hands through her hair looking at the sleeping figure in her bed. Then looking down to his hands. He carried no ring symbolizing his marriage to another woman.
But at that very moment she felt dirty. She felt horrible and disgusted with herself. She had been with a man that was still involved in a relationship with someone else. And even though she had known that in the back of her head, she still let him into her house, she had...
She had done the unthinkable. She pulled the robe closer to her and leaned against her bedroom door and slid down slowly against it. 'How could I do this? How could I be so stupid?'
Her tears gently streamed down her face. She knew better, yet she pushed those taunting questions aside and did what she wanted to do for so long. Not once but twice.
She furiously wiped her tears and opened the door quietly and headed towards the bathroom. She closed the bathroom door quietly, locking it and then turned on the water for her shower. She stuck one of her hands in the water and deciding it was perfect took off her robe and stepped inside.
She let the water soak into her skin, to wash away her previous activities from last night. She wasn't disgusted with what they had done. Just with herself for letting it get that far. She looked poured an adequate amount of shampoo in her hands and lathered her hair up with it. She let the shampoo set in her hair thinking of what she should do next.
The next step she should proceed. The right choice. The only choice.
Moments later after finishing her shower she put on her robe and grabbed a towel and wiped the mirror that was covered from the heat of her shower. Moving in a circular motion she wiped enough to see herself in the mirror. She pulled the collar of her robe slightly down and saw what she suspected was to be there.
A rather large love mark was on her neck. And another one on her shoulder. She covered it back up with her robe and headed out of the bathroom. She went back in her bedroom and went in the closet to change. She stepped out of the closet only not to find Inuyasha in bed.
She saw the bed was made. Her nose caught onto the scent of food, being made. It had circulated her whole entire house. She followed the smell of food into the kitchen. Inuyasha was cooking breakfast.
Inuyasha looked over at Kagome as she stepped into the kitchen and smiled at her. "Morning sleepy head."
Kagome unable to resist a smile sat down at the kitchen table. "What's for breakfast?" Inuyasha set down two plates of omelets, one for him and her. He had already set the other plates of food that he had concocted. "Where did you learn how to cook?" Inuyasha took off the apron and set it on the counter before joining her at the table. "I learned it from my mother." He said casually. Kagome took a small bite of it and found it surprisingly delicious.
"So how is it?" Kagome gave a thumbs up because she had a mouthful of omelet. Inuyasha smiled even wider and started digging in to his own meal.
After breakfast Kagome gathered her courage when she saw Inuyasha waiting for her outside. He was waiting for something else. Not what she was about to drop on him.
She closed the door behind her. 'It's the right thing to do.' She kept telling herself. Even if she hated herself for it, in her heart and soul, it was the right thing. Not the easiest, but the right choice. The best choice.
Inuyasha not noticing her dilemma that was going on in her head, placed his index finger under her chin and lifted it up so that she now looked into his eyes. Her eyes danced in the sunlight. Even without her makeup she looked beautiful. He dipped his head down for a kiss.
A few moments later Kagome put her hand on his chest and broke apart the kiss. She was feeling rather lightheaded and finding it difficult to form words.
She caught her breath and was slowly getting feeling back in her body. The kiss was a simple gesture but even the kiss had made an lasting impact. She was slowly able to form the words in her head.
'I have to stop this before things get out of hand.' She kept her hand on his chest to keep the distance away from each other. Before anything else happened. She wouldn't allow herself to do something she regretted. Inuyasha looked at her with confusion in his eyes. 'Had he done something wrong? Was his breath disgusting?'
She couldn't bear to hurt another person for her selfish actions... Even if he was a good kisser. She continued to look in his eyes, gathering every ounce of courage to say what she had to say. Telling herself once again. 'It's the right thing to do.'
"Inuyasha thank you for everything. You've made me feel like a whole woman again. Something no man has ever done. You'll always have a place in my heart... ( She put his hand over her heart, to show him how she felt) But what we did last night, can't ever happen again. This can't ever happen again. It's wrong. It's... It's not worth hurting her for." Kagome refused to blink; she forced herself to keep her eyes open so her tears wouldn't stream down her face.
She was stronger than that. No, she was better than that.
She kept on continuing to talk, even if it was breaking her up slowly. "There's a part of you that still loves her... Even if it's the tiniest bit, I know that's all there is to holding onto that someone. You love someone else, and that someone else isn't me..." She looked away, not wanting to see the hurt in his eyes. The rejection she was putting on him.
Inuyasha froze and looked at Kagome. Her eyes seemed glassy, as if she was trying to hold back her tears. He wanted so badly to hug and kiss her and tell her the real truth. But that other part of him also stopped him from doing so. It was his damn conscience.
Because she was right. He did love Kikyo even though it had been so long since he had kissed her with passion, or told her that he loved her... His obligations were to her first, even if what he was feeling for Kagome was something that he had never felt before. The raw passion and intensity of their kisses.
And he hated it. The choice he was making, and the choice she was making. It was a cruel game for the fates.
"I see... Well then I'll see you around. Goodbye Kagome." He kissed her on the cheek as a goodbye and removed his hand slowly off from where her heart still beated so fiercely. He slowly descended down the stairs walking with his shoulders slumped, never once looking back.
He felt defeated, hurt, and sad. Each step that he went down was painful for him. It burned the soles of his shoes and into his feet. His heart surging with pain, not delightful pain, but the pain that stripped your skin exposing to the harshness of the world.
Kagome looked back at his retreating figure with silent tears streaming down her face. "I'm so sorry Inuyasha, only if you knew..." She whispered. She stood there until she couldn't see him anymore.
Sango woke up and looked over at the clock. It was eight in the morning she had overslept but she felt great. She looked over to her shoulder and smiled at the sleeping figure beside her. His face was relaxed and he was snoring softly.
She laughed softly and poked at his cheek. He still was sleeping. She got out of bed and headed towards the kitchen to make breakfast when she saw on the answering machine there was one unanswered message. She pressed the button to hear the message.
"Hey man, look Tokyo has been great. Thank you for letting me back into your life, and for being my friend; my best friend I mean... Well I decided to go back home and work out some things with Kikyo. I guess what I was looking for here... What I'm trying to say is congrats on your proposal to Sango. Call me when you're having the wedding. Wouldn't miss it for anything in the world. Call you back when I get home, bye!"
Sango looked at the answering machine and shook her head lightly. She couldn't believe he was leaving so soon. It was odd, just a few days ago he would come over for dinner at the restaurant they worked at and tell them life was great here. And now... She couldn't even begin to understand what would make him change his mind.
She had noticed his voice on the message was creepily cheery. It was very fake.
'But why?' and 'Kikyo?' came to Sango's mind when she continued to think about the message that she had just heard. She had thought Kikyo and him were history after Kikyo had left him.
Maybe she thought wrong. Sango frowned unhappy with Inuyasha leaving. It made her worried about Kagome.
She picked up the phone and dialed Kagome's number. The phone rang several times and Sango was about to hang up when Kagome picked up at the very last second.
"Hello?" Kagome called out. Sango could tell her voice was cracking. She figured it was from all her crying. "Kagome? It's me Sango. How are you?" there was a pause before she answered back "Yeah everything is okay, why?" Sango could tell that it was a lie. "Just checking up on my friend, what now it's a crime to ask how my best friend is doing?"
Kagome didn't do her usual laugh instead she sighed. "Sorry, I guess I've been feeling a little... Oh I don't know it's as if I'm sick but I'm not really sick?" Sango sat down on a chair and listened to what Kagome was saying. It was all slowly beginning to make sense now.
Kagome's heartache and Inuyasha's early departure.
"I know how that feels like. It's not sickness it's heartache." Said Sango. There was a pause before Kagome responded. "What are you talking about? I'm not heartbroken over anyone. I'm not seeing anyone."
'Oh Kagome, don't make this any harder on yourself than it really is' Sango thought. "Kagome did you know Inuyasha went back to America?" Again there was a long pause before she answered back. "Well good for him. He needs to work things out with Kikyo. It's the right thing to do." Sango knitted her brows together in confusion. She knew Kagome wasn't a selfish person, but to give someone you love away, back to his previous girlfriend, even a girl like Kagome would be deeply hurt. Kagome wasn't naïve.
Sango also caught onto the words "It's the right thing to do," instead of "It's the best thing for him to do." Which Kagome would've said if she believed it to be so, there was still a small glimmer of hope. "I guess, well I'll call you later Kagome, I have to make breakfast for the grizzly bear." "You do that now, I'll be home all day today. Bye."
"Goodbye Kagome." Sango hung up the phone only to jump in fright when she felt a sudden strong hold of warm arms encircle her waist and lift her up off the couch. She relaxed as soon as she noticed who it was. "Miroku! You scared me!" Sango added playfully. Miroku rested his chin on her right shoulder while still holding her.
"I'm a grizzly bear huh?" Miroku whispered. Sango smiled and pulled away from the embrace and led him into the kitchen. "Because you eat like one." She muttered as she pulled out eggs and a juice carton from the fridge. It was time to get to work. She had a mouth to feed. A very large mouth.
Kagome sat in her drawing room as she called it and worked on her sketches of clothes. Her latest line of spring clothes were... Blank, and white, nothing was there. Not even a pencil mark. Her mind couldn't focus on her work. She lost the inspiration to draw.
Instead thoughts invaded into her head attacking her viciously. 'Why didn't you give him another chance?' 'Didn't you want this opportunity?' 'What about his feelings for you, are they stronger than his for Kikyo?' thoughts continued to provoke inside her head. She let out a frustrated scream. Her house, this room was trapping her into depression. She needed to get out.
She needed to breathe.
She dropped the pencil and the sketch pad on the ground and sat on the ledge of her window and looked out. It was a clear sunny day that beckoned her to come outside and experience the joyful weather.
"Why am I thinking of him like this? It's just a man. It's just Inuyasha."
She pressed her head against the window and felt the surge of fresh tears forming around her eyes. One slid down, then another, and another.
Things weren't the same anymore. She couldn't concentrate, she hardly had any sleep last night, and she felt a terrible heartache in her chest.
Sango was right. She was heartbroken, over a man that wasn't really hers. A man that would move on to better on greater things. She wiped away the tears and stood up, away from the window. She walked over to her bedroom and changed into jogging clothes. She needed to think.
Her feet rhythmically pounded the cement walkway that lay out through the enormous park. She had been running for hours, but she was yet to be tired. A slight sheen of sweat started to show on her face. She kept on running. 'How could you?' 'What are you going to do now?' She closed her eyes and ran letting the wind caress her face. It was the only comfort to her at the moment.
She tried so hard to forget that day when they had first kissed. Even when she forced all her mind-taunting questions upon her, she couldn't ignore the fact that something was there. She couldn't forget him.
Or maybe she just didn't want to forget him...
Inuyasha sighed as he unloaded his bags of clothes, which wasn't much. He felt that he didn't want to unpack so he plopped down on his bed and looked at the ceiling. "And we're back home..." Except it didn't seem like home to him anymore.
He couldn't explain what he was feeling because it was so foreign to him. Or maybe it had been so long since he had rekindled these feelings. He was in a predicament that even he couldn't get himself out of.
What he did know was that he was understanding a small jist of it.
He wasn't angry, in fact he understood why Kagome did what she did. But he wasn't happy either. The one thing he felt so much desire, so much wanting for was too far out of his grasp.
It frustrated him. He wanted her, but there were choices in life he had to make. The right ones.
He looked over to his left and looked at the clock, it was ten at night and for sure he didn't know if Kikyo was home, or if she was asleep, or if he even knew her number.
Did he really want to call her? Did he really want to spend the rest of his life with her? The questions that were tearing his insides apart like crazy. He just didn't know what to do. It was a harder deal to make then when he had to switch and change his stocks to a whole new company for investment, which was also a risky move. He rolled over and lifted up the cordless phone and punched in the numbers that he thought to be Kikyo's.
Luck was on his side today. It was the right number. "Hello?" It was Kikyo's voice, but her cheery voice was replaced by a sad and monotonous voice.
She was home alone, he could tell by the silence in the background. Inuyasha was about to hang up when she spoke again. "Inuyasha?" He hadn't expected her to figure out who it was on the other line.
He froze and ran his hand through his hair because of stress. A main factor of his life lately. "Yeah, it's me." There was a slight pause, a pause of hesitation before she talked. "How have you been these past few months?"
Inuyasha looked down at his nails; they were bitten down to the point that it was a very small square. His had chewed them unnecessantly on the plane back home. "Confused." He replied lamely.
Kikyo sighed feeling responsible for his feelings. "I'm so sorry. I've been... Well things have been coming up lately and I've just been unable to be with anyone. Let alone talk or functioning properly. I feel so alone, Inuyasha."
Inuyasha felt sympathy for her, understanding her loneliness. He had been there before, when his mother and father had passed away. But a fresh surge of anger rose in him slowly. He was her friend, her lover for so many years and to this day she had trouble confiding in him. How could he help her if she couldn't even tell him her problems?
"Kikyo what happened?" Kikyo let out a choked sob before she completely broke down on the phone. Inuyasha sat up straight in his bed. He was feeling very concerned. "Kikyo please tell me. Tell me where you are. Let me help you." She stopped crying and said "Don't bother, seeing me won't help this pain I am feeling, the pain and the burden I have been carrying for the last few months. Nothing ever will... Inuyasha, I'm dying." He was in shock. Had he heard her right. When Kikyo hung up on him he let her words process into his head slowly.
Inuyasha shut his eyes and shook his head in disbelief. Kikyo was dying.
AN: Let off at a good part huh, well don't kill me yet? Well when my spring break starts, hopefully my stories will be updated more. One more week to go, one more week...
Oh and a side-note, the reason Sango and Miroku's relationship is moving so fast is because they have known each other for a long time, if you haven't been paying attention to the earlier chapters in which it briefly goes into detail about their long term relationship. This story is just giving you a taste of their relationship. It's going to show up here and there in this story but the main focus is going to on Inuyasha, Kikyo, and Kagome. And please don't ask me if this will turn out into a lemon. It's going to stay pg-13.
Disclaimer: Someday...
High School Reunion
Chapter Seven
The Difference Between Right and Wrong
Kagome's heart beated wildly. She could hardly breathe. All her feelings that she had for him, poured out in one kiss.
Just that one kiss was enough for her to give in.
That one kiss was able to make her forget everything, except how right that it felt to be in his arms. To be with him. It had been so long since Kagome had a man that could make her feel like this.
To feel like a woman. A desirable woman.
She pulled him closer and bravely kissed him deeper. His hair intertwined with her dark locks. One of her hands gently tugged on his tie, the other draped around his neck. Both of his arms encircling her waist, pressed firmly against her. He rubbed her back sensuously. Kagome let out a soft moan, Inuyasha took that as a chance and darted his tongue into her mouth.
She didn't stop him. He continued to kiss her, exploring her mouth.
Being brave she broke apart the kiss and opened her door and let him in. For that one night she was going to give in. Even if it would cost her pain. Even if it meant trouble along the way. Even if it meant she didn't' know what she was putting herself in to.
Kagome woke up her head pounding. Even if she didn't drink much last night, a little bit of alcohol was enough to give her a headache. She sat up and stretched lightly when her hand softly hit something.
Soft silky hair. She slowly turned around and saw Inuyasha sleeping peacefully. His hair splayed out on both their pillows. She looked back down and saw an arm loosely draped over her stomach.
She blushed when her mind processed last night's event. She looked over back at him and saw his half naked form, the other cover beneath the blanket and sheets which confirmed last night's activities.
Kagome got out of bed and put on her robe. She ran her hands through her hair looking at the sleeping figure in her bed. Then looking down to his hands. He carried no ring symbolizing his marriage to another woman.
But at that very moment she felt dirty. She felt horrible and disgusted with herself. She had been with a man that was still involved in a relationship with someone else. And even though she had known that in the back of her head, she still let him into her house, she had...
She had done the unthinkable. She pulled the robe closer to her and leaned against her bedroom door and slid down slowly against it. 'How could I do this? How could I be so stupid?'
Her tears gently streamed down her face. She knew better, yet she pushed those taunting questions aside and did what she wanted to do for so long. Not once but twice.
She furiously wiped her tears and opened the door quietly and headed towards the bathroom. She closed the bathroom door quietly, locking it and then turned on the water for her shower. She stuck one of her hands in the water and deciding it was perfect took off her robe and stepped inside.
She let the water soak into her skin, to wash away her previous activities from last night. She wasn't disgusted with what they had done. Just with herself for letting it get that far. She looked poured an adequate amount of shampoo in her hands and lathered her hair up with it. She let the shampoo set in her hair thinking of what she should do next.
The next step she should proceed. The right choice. The only choice.
Moments later after finishing her shower she put on her robe and grabbed a towel and wiped the mirror that was covered from the heat of her shower. Moving in a circular motion she wiped enough to see herself in the mirror. She pulled the collar of her robe slightly down and saw what she suspected was to be there.
A rather large love mark was on her neck. And another one on her shoulder. She covered it back up with her robe and headed out of the bathroom. She went back in her bedroom and went in the closet to change. She stepped out of the closet only not to find Inuyasha in bed.
She saw the bed was made. Her nose caught onto the scent of food, being made. It had circulated her whole entire house. She followed the smell of food into the kitchen. Inuyasha was cooking breakfast.
Inuyasha looked over at Kagome as she stepped into the kitchen and smiled at her. "Morning sleepy head."
Kagome unable to resist a smile sat down at the kitchen table. "What's for breakfast?" Inuyasha set down two plates of omelets, one for him and her. He had already set the other plates of food that he had concocted. "Where did you learn how to cook?" Inuyasha took off the apron and set it on the counter before joining her at the table. "I learned it from my mother." He said casually. Kagome took a small bite of it and found it surprisingly delicious.
"So how is it?" Kagome gave a thumbs up because she had a mouthful of omelet. Inuyasha smiled even wider and started digging in to his own meal.
After breakfast Kagome gathered her courage when she saw Inuyasha waiting for her outside. He was waiting for something else. Not what she was about to drop on him.
She closed the door behind her. 'It's the right thing to do.' She kept telling herself. Even if she hated herself for it, in her heart and soul, it was the right thing. Not the easiest, but the right choice. The best choice.
Inuyasha not noticing her dilemma that was going on in her head, placed his index finger under her chin and lifted it up so that she now looked into his eyes. Her eyes danced in the sunlight. Even without her makeup she looked beautiful. He dipped his head down for a kiss.
A few moments later Kagome put her hand on his chest and broke apart the kiss. She was feeling rather lightheaded and finding it difficult to form words.
She caught her breath and was slowly getting feeling back in her body. The kiss was a simple gesture but even the kiss had made an lasting impact. She was slowly able to form the words in her head.
'I have to stop this before things get out of hand.' She kept her hand on his chest to keep the distance away from each other. Before anything else happened. She wouldn't allow herself to do something she regretted. Inuyasha looked at her with confusion in his eyes. 'Had he done something wrong? Was his breath disgusting?'
She couldn't bear to hurt another person for her selfish actions... Even if he was a good kisser. She continued to look in his eyes, gathering every ounce of courage to say what she had to say. Telling herself once again. 'It's the right thing to do.'
"Inuyasha thank you for everything. You've made me feel like a whole woman again. Something no man has ever done. You'll always have a place in my heart... ( She put his hand over her heart, to show him how she felt) But what we did last night, can't ever happen again. This can't ever happen again. It's wrong. It's... It's not worth hurting her for." Kagome refused to blink; she forced herself to keep her eyes open so her tears wouldn't stream down her face.
She was stronger than that. No, she was better than that.
She kept on continuing to talk, even if it was breaking her up slowly. "There's a part of you that still loves her... Even if it's the tiniest bit, I know that's all there is to holding onto that someone. You love someone else, and that someone else isn't me..." She looked away, not wanting to see the hurt in his eyes. The rejection she was putting on him.
Inuyasha froze and looked at Kagome. Her eyes seemed glassy, as if she was trying to hold back her tears. He wanted so badly to hug and kiss her and tell her the real truth. But that other part of him also stopped him from doing so. It was his damn conscience.
Because she was right. He did love Kikyo even though it had been so long since he had kissed her with passion, or told her that he loved her... His obligations were to her first, even if what he was feeling for Kagome was something that he had never felt before. The raw passion and intensity of their kisses.
And he hated it. The choice he was making, and the choice she was making. It was a cruel game for the fates.
"I see... Well then I'll see you around. Goodbye Kagome." He kissed her on the cheek as a goodbye and removed his hand slowly off from where her heart still beated so fiercely. He slowly descended down the stairs walking with his shoulders slumped, never once looking back.
He felt defeated, hurt, and sad. Each step that he went down was painful for him. It burned the soles of his shoes and into his feet. His heart surging with pain, not delightful pain, but the pain that stripped your skin exposing to the harshness of the world.
Kagome looked back at his retreating figure with silent tears streaming down her face. "I'm so sorry Inuyasha, only if you knew..." She whispered. She stood there until she couldn't see him anymore.
Sango woke up and looked over at the clock. It was eight in the morning she had overslept but she felt great. She looked over to her shoulder and smiled at the sleeping figure beside her. His face was relaxed and he was snoring softly.
She laughed softly and poked at his cheek. He still was sleeping. She got out of bed and headed towards the kitchen to make breakfast when she saw on the answering machine there was one unanswered message. She pressed the button to hear the message.
"Hey man, look Tokyo has been great. Thank you for letting me back into your life, and for being my friend; my best friend I mean... Well I decided to go back home and work out some things with Kikyo. I guess what I was looking for here... What I'm trying to say is congrats on your proposal to Sango. Call me when you're having the wedding. Wouldn't miss it for anything in the world. Call you back when I get home, bye!"
Sango looked at the answering machine and shook her head lightly. She couldn't believe he was leaving so soon. It was odd, just a few days ago he would come over for dinner at the restaurant they worked at and tell them life was great here. And now... She couldn't even begin to understand what would make him change his mind.
She had noticed his voice on the message was creepily cheery. It was very fake.
'But why?' and 'Kikyo?' came to Sango's mind when she continued to think about the message that she had just heard. She had thought Kikyo and him were history after Kikyo had left him.
Maybe she thought wrong. Sango frowned unhappy with Inuyasha leaving. It made her worried about Kagome.
She picked up the phone and dialed Kagome's number. The phone rang several times and Sango was about to hang up when Kagome picked up at the very last second.
"Hello?" Kagome called out. Sango could tell her voice was cracking. She figured it was from all her crying. "Kagome? It's me Sango. How are you?" there was a pause before she answered back "Yeah everything is okay, why?" Sango could tell that it was a lie. "Just checking up on my friend, what now it's a crime to ask how my best friend is doing?"
Kagome didn't do her usual laugh instead she sighed. "Sorry, I guess I've been feeling a little... Oh I don't know it's as if I'm sick but I'm not really sick?" Sango sat down on a chair and listened to what Kagome was saying. It was all slowly beginning to make sense now.
Kagome's heartache and Inuyasha's early departure.
"I know how that feels like. It's not sickness it's heartache." Said Sango. There was a pause before Kagome responded. "What are you talking about? I'm not heartbroken over anyone. I'm not seeing anyone."
'Oh Kagome, don't make this any harder on yourself than it really is' Sango thought. "Kagome did you know Inuyasha went back to America?" Again there was a long pause before she answered back. "Well good for him. He needs to work things out with Kikyo. It's the right thing to do." Sango knitted her brows together in confusion. She knew Kagome wasn't a selfish person, but to give someone you love away, back to his previous girlfriend, even a girl like Kagome would be deeply hurt. Kagome wasn't naïve.
Sango also caught onto the words "It's the right thing to do," instead of "It's the best thing for him to do." Which Kagome would've said if she believed it to be so, there was still a small glimmer of hope. "I guess, well I'll call you later Kagome, I have to make breakfast for the grizzly bear." "You do that now, I'll be home all day today. Bye."
"Goodbye Kagome." Sango hung up the phone only to jump in fright when she felt a sudden strong hold of warm arms encircle her waist and lift her up off the couch. She relaxed as soon as she noticed who it was. "Miroku! You scared me!" Sango added playfully. Miroku rested his chin on her right shoulder while still holding her.
"I'm a grizzly bear huh?" Miroku whispered. Sango smiled and pulled away from the embrace and led him into the kitchen. "Because you eat like one." She muttered as she pulled out eggs and a juice carton from the fridge. It was time to get to work. She had a mouth to feed. A very large mouth.
Kagome sat in her drawing room as she called it and worked on her sketches of clothes. Her latest line of spring clothes were... Blank, and white, nothing was there. Not even a pencil mark. Her mind couldn't focus on her work. She lost the inspiration to draw.
Instead thoughts invaded into her head attacking her viciously. 'Why didn't you give him another chance?' 'Didn't you want this opportunity?' 'What about his feelings for you, are they stronger than his for Kikyo?' thoughts continued to provoke inside her head. She let out a frustrated scream. Her house, this room was trapping her into depression. She needed to get out.
She needed to breathe.
She dropped the pencil and the sketch pad on the ground and sat on the ledge of her window and looked out. It was a clear sunny day that beckoned her to come outside and experience the joyful weather.
"Why am I thinking of him like this? It's just a man. It's just Inuyasha."
She pressed her head against the window and felt the surge of fresh tears forming around her eyes. One slid down, then another, and another.
Things weren't the same anymore. She couldn't concentrate, she hardly had any sleep last night, and she felt a terrible heartache in her chest.
Sango was right. She was heartbroken, over a man that wasn't really hers. A man that would move on to better on greater things. She wiped away the tears and stood up, away from the window. She walked over to her bedroom and changed into jogging clothes. She needed to think.
Her feet rhythmically pounded the cement walkway that lay out through the enormous park. She had been running for hours, but she was yet to be tired. A slight sheen of sweat started to show on her face. She kept on running. 'How could you?' 'What are you going to do now?' She closed her eyes and ran letting the wind caress her face. It was the only comfort to her at the moment.
She tried so hard to forget that day when they had first kissed. Even when she forced all her mind-taunting questions upon her, she couldn't ignore the fact that something was there. She couldn't forget him.
Or maybe she just didn't want to forget him...
Inuyasha sighed as he unloaded his bags of clothes, which wasn't much. He felt that he didn't want to unpack so he plopped down on his bed and looked at the ceiling. "And we're back home..." Except it didn't seem like home to him anymore.
He couldn't explain what he was feeling because it was so foreign to him. Or maybe it had been so long since he had rekindled these feelings. He was in a predicament that even he couldn't get himself out of.
What he did know was that he was understanding a small jist of it.
He wasn't angry, in fact he understood why Kagome did what she did. But he wasn't happy either. The one thing he felt so much desire, so much wanting for was too far out of his grasp.
It frustrated him. He wanted her, but there were choices in life he had to make. The right ones.
He looked over to his left and looked at the clock, it was ten at night and for sure he didn't know if Kikyo was home, or if she was asleep, or if he even knew her number.
Did he really want to call her? Did he really want to spend the rest of his life with her? The questions that were tearing his insides apart like crazy. He just didn't know what to do. It was a harder deal to make then when he had to switch and change his stocks to a whole new company for investment, which was also a risky move. He rolled over and lifted up the cordless phone and punched in the numbers that he thought to be Kikyo's.
Luck was on his side today. It was the right number. "Hello?" It was Kikyo's voice, but her cheery voice was replaced by a sad and monotonous voice.
She was home alone, he could tell by the silence in the background. Inuyasha was about to hang up when she spoke again. "Inuyasha?" He hadn't expected her to figure out who it was on the other line.
He froze and ran his hand through his hair because of stress. A main factor of his life lately. "Yeah, it's me." There was a slight pause, a pause of hesitation before she talked. "How have you been these past few months?"
Inuyasha looked down at his nails; they were bitten down to the point that it was a very small square. His had chewed them unnecessantly on the plane back home. "Confused." He replied lamely.
Kikyo sighed feeling responsible for his feelings. "I'm so sorry. I've been... Well things have been coming up lately and I've just been unable to be with anyone. Let alone talk or functioning properly. I feel so alone, Inuyasha."
Inuyasha felt sympathy for her, understanding her loneliness. He had been there before, when his mother and father had passed away. But a fresh surge of anger rose in him slowly. He was her friend, her lover for so many years and to this day she had trouble confiding in him. How could he help her if she couldn't even tell him her problems?
"Kikyo what happened?" Kikyo let out a choked sob before she completely broke down on the phone. Inuyasha sat up straight in his bed. He was feeling very concerned. "Kikyo please tell me. Tell me where you are. Let me help you." She stopped crying and said "Don't bother, seeing me won't help this pain I am feeling, the pain and the burden I have been carrying for the last few months. Nothing ever will... Inuyasha, I'm dying." He was in shock. Had he heard her right. When Kikyo hung up on him he let her words process into his head slowly.
Inuyasha shut his eyes and shook his head in disbelief. Kikyo was dying.
AN: Let off at a good part huh, well don't kill me yet? Well when my spring break starts, hopefully my stories will be updated more. One more week to go, one more week...