I'm having an internal debate over whether I should put up two chapters tonight.  This one's short…I probably will.  Yeah, I'll be a good little updater.  Speaking of updating….I'm going to boarding school!  From August 31 to September 7 I might not be able to update because I'm driving up there with my dad.  It's sad, I know.  And no, I'm not a bad girl, I'm just very nerdy.  It's the good kind of boarding school!  I'm going to the school Franklin Delano Roosevelt went to…and Sam Waterston from Law and Order went there too!  Yay!

I had a very interesting conversation with Minerva today.  How else to describe it?  I have such a good memory, don't you think?  I remember everything everyone says to me and I say back, probably since I really don't have many real conversations.  Anyways, Minerva knocked on my door and opened it up.  I was sitting there with a glass of firewhiskey-my first glass of the night so I wasn't really drunk yet.  She had her hair down, makeup on, gorgeous emerald robes.  She's only a few years older than I am.

            "Hello, Severus."

            "Hello, Minerva.  Going out?"

            "Yes, to dinner.  You…you could join me if you'd like…"

            "No thanks, Minerva."

            "Please.  You look sad, here alone every night."

            "Get off it, Minerva.  I make choices."

            "Why do you…drink, Severus?"

            "What the hell?"

            "It's not good, Severus."

            "Oh, this is because of that one night.  I was feeling under the weather, it was a one time thing!"  I was getting defensive.  It wasn't a good position.

            "But you have something now that you're drinking, Severus."

            "To-to help me sleep."

            "Firewhiskey won't help you sleep.  I think that's what it is."

            "Don't you have someone to meet, Minerva?"

            "No, no I don't!  I just like to get out once in a while, just to get out of the castle even if I'm by myself…you should get out, Severus."

            "Minerva!  Since when are you my mother?"  She bit her lip.

            "Severus…I…I care about you!  Is that hard to understand?"

            "Actually, yes!"

            "That's it, Severus.  If you want me to leave, I'll go." "Great!  Leave!"  And she did.  I wonder if I really wanted her to leave or if I just wanted her to stop nagging me.  I suppose I wanted her to leave, because it's what I said, right?  But I don't always say what I mean.  I never think about what I say.  And why the hell do I have a diary?  God, it's disgusting.  I'm disgusting.  Everything I do is disgusting.\

Always ending on a cheery note, eh Sevster?