The Weight of it All By Rachel.
A/N: Thanks for the reviews so far. I have three so I can post the first chapter. Yey. The first chapter, however, does not have too much plot. It's just an introduction to everything really. Please review and let me know what you think. Constructive criticism is most welcome.
Chapter 1-- Can't Be Normal
"Good morning Miss Honda," Yuki said as he came down the stairs.
"Oh. Good morning Yuki," she gave him her usual bright cheery smile. She then looked around, seemingly confused, "Um where's Kyou? It's not like him to be up after you."
"Knowing that cat he's probably asleep on the roof. Well, if he wants to miss out on your wonderful breakfast, that's his problem." Yuki's eyes flashed slightly as he said this.
Ever since the whole ordeal with Kyou's true form Tohru's been keeping special watch over him. Making sure he's staying healthy, and isn't going to break down at any point. Yuki had to admit he was a bit jealous. So the cat had an ugly side, she didn't need to baby him because of it.
"I think I'll go take it to him," Tohru said, grabbing Kyou's plate and getting up. Yuki was going to protest but stopped when Shigure gave him a look.
"You need to let her do things on her own when it comes to Kyou," the dog told him once he was sure she was out of earshot.
"I'm not trying to restrict her. I just don't think she should have to go out of her way for him."
"Hm? Why do you say that?" he had asked it in his 'I-already-know-the- answer-but-I-want-to-see-if-you-do-and-can-admit-it' voice.
"He's the one always causing problems. That cat has caused Miss Honda enough trouble aready. She shouldn't be going out of her way for him." After that he stopped talking and ate.
Kyou opened his eyes and immediately closed them again. From the slight breeze and the intense aching in his back he came to the conclusion that he had fallen asleep on the roof again. He wasn't sure why it was necessarily that he liked the roof. It always made him feel better or it calmed him down. It also helped him think, which he'd been doing too much of for the last week.
He opened his eyes again prepared this time for the brightness of the wicked sunlight. Blinking several times, he yawned and stretched his muscles, which were stiff. 'I should start training again. I'm never going to beat Yuki at this rate' He sat up and stared out at the forest.
It was still over his head that everyone could still accept him after having seen his real form. Especially Tohru. The fact that she could ask him to come back while he was in that hideous body was beyond him. How could Shigure let him stay this house?
"Kyou?" Her uncertain voice broke his concentration.
It always seemed to at this time in the morning. 'Never lets me answer my own inner questions' part of him always thought. And this resulted in him giving her an annoyed look.
"Oh! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bother you," Tohru apologized needlessly.
"Don't worry about it. What do you want anyway?"
She climbed the rest of the way up the ladder and sat beside him. She put the plate down and gave him a bright smile. He glanced down at the plate of food. She had brought him breakfast again. It seemed she was trying too hard to go back to how things were. It couldn't be that way though. She didn't understand.
"You don't understand," he'd voiced aloud.
She'd looked up at him surprised. She'd been talking about the food she 'd made and how it was probably cold, and how he didn't have to eat it if he didn't want to when he'd interrupted her with that. She had an idea of what he was talking about, but she didn't really want to have anything to do with the subject. It was something she wanted to forget.
"Understand what? If you don't want to eat it, Kyou, you don't have to." She hoped he would get that she wanted him to drop the subject.
"Stop it," he stood up and glared down at her. She shied back, "Stop playing around! I know you want things to be normal again but they can't! Things aren't the same..." he lost heart as he always did when yelling at her. She just looked too pitiful.
"I know that." She said quietly. Almost too quietly. All trace of her cheery nature seemed to have fled the coop. "I know. But I want it to be. Why can't things be the way they were? As long as you keep that bracelet on, right?"
"It's not that simple Tohru. You've seen it. You've seen me. Maybe you can learn to accept it, but I can't. I..." he stopped. He had never talked to anyone about it. Not even Kazuma.
"Kyou?" she looked up at him. Her blue orbs were filled with tears she refused to release. "I don't want that thing. I want you. Even if it's inside of you, as long as your you I'm fine with it."
He stared at her, disbelief dripping from his features. This couldn't be. How could it? She was exactly like his mom. Only instead of hiding behind false pretenses, Tohru stated what he always knew his mom felt. The instantaneous realization that she wasn't who he thought she was slapped him, unmerciful, in the face.
"You don't understand," he repeated. It is me. That's what is meant by true- form. It's who I truly am. It's not just some part of me I can hold at bat! Do you understand!?" he took a step toward her and she flinched. He'd softened slightly, "You're scared of me..."
"Kyou..." she was going to tell him otherwise, but he cut her off again.
"See! Now you are scared of me! Things can't be normal again! Do you understand that!?" he reached out and roughly grabbed her chin, turning her to face him, "Do you!?"
"Cat."
It was a hiss that came from the direction of the ladder. Yuki stood there giving Kyou a cold, deadly gaze. The had finally gone too far and now the rat was going to do something about it. He stepped elegantly on the roof with all the grace his rival should have possessed.
"Yuki..." Tohru whispered. It was meant to be in protest, but it seemed more like despair.
Kyou took a step away from her. He realized that he crossed the line. There was no taking it back though. And now a fight would break out. Well Kyou had been itching for a fight all week.
"Hellooo! Is everyone up here?"
The tension in the air shattered like glass hitting tile at the sound of Shigure's voice.
"Did I miss something?"
End Chapter One
A/N: Thanks for the reviews so far. I have three so I can post the first chapter. Yey. The first chapter, however, does not have too much plot. It's just an introduction to everything really. Please review and let me know what you think. Constructive criticism is most welcome.
Chapter 1-- Can't Be Normal
"Good morning Miss Honda," Yuki said as he came down the stairs.
"Oh. Good morning Yuki," she gave him her usual bright cheery smile. She then looked around, seemingly confused, "Um where's Kyou? It's not like him to be up after you."
"Knowing that cat he's probably asleep on the roof. Well, if he wants to miss out on your wonderful breakfast, that's his problem." Yuki's eyes flashed slightly as he said this.
Ever since the whole ordeal with Kyou's true form Tohru's been keeping special watch over him. Making sure he's staying healthy, and isn't going to break down at any point. Yuki had to admit he was a bit jealous. So the cat had an ugly side, she didn't need to baby him because of it.
"I think I'll go take it to him," Tohru said, grabbing Kyou's plate and getting up. Yuki was going to protest but stopped when Shigure gave him a look.
"You need to let her do things on her own when it comes to Kyou," the dog told him once he was sure she was out of earshot.
"I'm not trying to restrict her. I just don't think she should have to go out of her way for him."
"Hm? Why do you say that?" he had asked it in his 'I-already-know-the- answer-but-I-want-to-see-if-you-do-and-can-admit-it' voice.
"He's the one always causing problems. That cat has caused Miss Honda enough trouble aready. She shouldn't be going out of her way for him." After that he stopped talking and ate.
Kyou opened his eyes and immediately closed them again. From the slight breeze and the intense aching in his back he came to the conclusion that he had fallen asleep on the roof again. He wasn't sure why it was necessarily that he liked the roof. It always made him feel better or it calmed him down. It also helped him think, which he'd been doing too much of for the last week.
He opened his eyes again prepared this time for the brightness of the wicked sunlight. Blinking several times, he yawned and stretched his muscles, which were stiff. 'I should start training again. I'm never going to beat Yuki at this rate' He sat up and stared out at the forest.
It was still over his head that everyone could still accept him after having seen his real form. Especially Tohru. The fact that she could ask him to come back while he was in that hideous body was beyond him. How could Shigure let him stay this house?
"Kyou?" Her uncertain voice broke his concentration.
It always seemed to at this time in the morning. 'Never lets me answer my own inner questions' part of him always thought. And this resulted in him giving her an annoyed look.
"Oh! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bother you," Tohru apologized needlessly.
"Don't worry about it. What do you want anyway?"
She climbed the rest of the way up the ladder and sat beside him. She put the plate down and gave him a bright smile. He glanced down at the plate of food. She had brought him breakfast again. It seemed she was trying too hard to go back to how things were. It couldn't be that way though. She didn't understand.
"You don't understand," he'd voiced aloud.
She'd looked up at him surprised. She'd been talking about the food she 'd made and how it was probably cold, and how he didn't have to eat it if he didn't want to when he'd interrupted her with that. She had an idea of what he was talking about, but she didn't really want to have anything to do with the subject. It was something she wanted to forget.
"Understand what? If you don't want to eat it, Kyou, you don't have to." She hoped he would get that she wanted him to drop the subject.
"Stop it," he stood up and glared down at her. She shied back, "Stop playing around! I know you want things to be normal again but they can't! Things aren't the same..." he lost heart as he always did when yelling at her. She just looked too pitiful.
"I know that." She said quietly. Almost too quietly. All trace of her cheery nature seemed to have fled the coop. "I know. But I want it to be. Why can't things be the way they were? As long as you keep that bracelet on, right?"
"It's not that simple Tohru. You've seen it. You've seen me. Maybe you can learn to accept it, but I can't. I..." he stopped. He had never talked to anyone about it. Not even Kazuma.
"Kyou?" she looked up at him. Her blue orbs were filled with tears she refused to release. "I don't want that thing. I want you. Even if it's inside of you, as long as your you I'm fine with it."
He stared at her, disbelief dripping from his features. This couldn't be. How could it? She was exactly like his mom. Only instead of hiding behind false pretenses, Tohru stated what he always knew his mom felt. The instantaneous realization that she wasn't who he thought she was slapped him, unmerciful, in the face.
"You don't understand," he repeated. It is me. That's what is meant by true- form. It's who I truly am. It's not just some part of me I can hold at bat! Do you understand!?" he took a step toward her and she flinched. He'd softened slightly, "You're scared of me..."
"Kyou..." she was going to tell him otherwise, but he cut her off again.
"See! Now you are scared of me! Things can't be normal again! Do you understand that!?" he reached out and roughly grabbed her chin, turning her to face him, "Do you!?"
"Cat."
It was a hiss that came from the direction of the ladder. Yuki stood there giving Kyou a cold, deadly gaze. The had finally gone too far and now the rat was going to do something about it. He stepped elegantly on the roof with all the grace his rival should have possessed.
"Yuki..." Tohru whispered. It was meant to be in protest, but it seemed more like despair.
Kyou took a step away from her. He realized that he crossed the line. There was no taking it back though. And now a fight would break out. Well Kyou had been itching for a fight all week.
"Hellooo! Is everyone up here?"
The tension in the air shattered like glass hitting tile at the sound of Shigure's voice.
"Did I miss something?"
End Chapter One