A/N: Okay I decided to something a little different instead of switching
back and forth between Van& Reese and Raven & Fiona I'm just going to write
one chapter following one pair and the next chap will be about the other
and that'll continue until they meet up
Which will be where I'll start switching around again. I know I know all of
you are saying "AGAIN?!" sorry I can't help it! I like to experiment and
try a lot of things.
A switch to remember: Chapter4 – Nightmares
Raven sat beside Fionas hospital bed staring at her waiting wishing hoping he needed her now it wasn't a matter of wanting her anymore now he needed her he needed to hear her voice to hear some smart remark anything an insult a compliment a cry for revenge anything at all would have pleased raven right now. Eve for her to open her eyes would have been good enough all he could think about was getting back at Reese now forget Van he had taken his beating It was all about Reese now she was the one who'd hurt Fiona and she was the one who'd embarrassed and almost killed him. All for her now beloved Van. Then suddenly his thought were interrupted by Fiona she was stirring.
"Uh...where am I?..." she said groaning.
"Fiona?" Raven said.
"Van?" She said cautiously she was groggy and had asked for van out of habit and because deep down a part of her wanted him to be there.
Raven was hurt how could she think he was van? Of all people and why would she be thinking of him anyway?
"No Fiona it's me Raven." He said.
"Ra...ven?" She said slowly then it all came back to her what had happened and van and Reese.
"I...I remember now...I'm sorry..." She said
"Shhhh...no need to apologize rest now." He said
"No I can't...I have to get up I have to get out of here I I need to talk to him. I need to apologize." She said
Raven was blown she was in the hospital and she wanted to go back and apologize? HE should be the one standing HERE and apologizing to HER not the other way around.
"But why?" He asked.
"Because....I was wrong....I had a dream Raven and in it I became the most evil person on the planet because I let my dislike for Reese blind me and turn me against everyone. I don't want to be that person Raven." She said softly
"Fiona....No matter what I stay by your side from now on okay? You don't have to worry about him any more you shouldn't apologize to him it's because of them you're here now."
"No it's my fault the battle was my idea I started this...even back in that cave I was mean to Reese when she was trying to be nice...I've already started changing raven you started the change these clothes...my hair...it's all changing I'm becoming someone else that I don't want to be I'm sorry but even if you want to stay with me I don't know if I can stay with you." She said
Raven was hurt beyond words his loyalty to her which had come from seemingly no where was being scorned. He'd saved her life and now she was saying she didn't want him around? How'd that work? He didn't understand at all.
"Okay Fi...I'll go then if that's what you want." He said getting up solemnly and heading for the door.
Fiona heard the deep sadness in his voice and knew he was hurt she knew he had saved her and yet she was sending him away it made absolutely no sense..."Raven....Wait...I'm sorry its just I don't know what I want anymore." She said quietly
"I'll be back to check on you later...moon bays here too by the way." He said leaving.
Fiona sighed why was everything so difficult? She still had deep feelings for Van and she knew it but she was starting to feel for raven too he was like van except he didn't really know what to do with his emotions and he didn't always know what to say like Van did But he meant well even if he didn't always go about it the right way he always meant well. That was one thing she'd learned about him.
Moon bay came into the room
"hey Fiona." She said coming in and sitting beside her.
"Hey moon bay."
"You know Raven really likes you I even heard him call you Fi just now." Moon bay said smiling at Fiona.
"Yeah...I know I just..." She started
"Don't know how you feel about him?" Moon bay finished fiona's sentence for her
Fiona just nodded.
"Raven's not such a bad guy not like I thought he was anyway once you know him he's a lot like Van." Moon bay said
"I know but still he's different...darker like he's hiding some dark secret in his past." Fiona said not letting on to moon bay that she herself was really the one hiding the dark secret.
"Hm..a dark secret huh? I wouldn't be surprised with him." Moon bay said
"What's that supposed to mean?" Fiona asked.
"Nothing it's just that I know raven has done a lot of bad things in the past and it's no surprise that there may be things he doesn't want anyone to know." Moon bay said
"Yea I guess your right..." Fiona said.
"Enough about Raven what're you gonna do about Van?" Moon Bay asked.
Fiona tensed at the question it was one she didn't have an answer to just yet. She knew in her heart she didn't want to see van dead nor did she really want reese to die she didn't want anyone to die but somewhere in some newly discovered dark part of her she wanted to hurt them for hurting her. Her mind was full of options possibilities ways to get Van back ways to hurt reese ways to get both of them she didn't know what to do what she wanted or why all these bad thoughts kept coming to her normally she'd never think of such a thing. Then again this wasn't a normal situation...
"I dunno" Was Fiona's answer at last It seemed to her at that moment like she didn't know anything, the world was out of joint and something was horribly wrong how did they get here? What sick and twisted game were they playing? How had this all begun?...when exactly did she lose Van and when did she become ravens? When did she begin losing herself? How far had it progressed? And how far would it go? All these questions echoed in her head.
"Fiona? You okay?" Moon bay asked looking at Fiona with concern
Fiona snapped out of her reverie and looked at moon bay. "Yea I'm fine...just...let me rest awhile..."
Moon bay looked at Fiona uncertainly for a moment but decided to let her rest. "Alright I'll see you later." She said as she got up and left the room.
After that Fiona tried to get some sleep but found it was nearly impossible everytime she did she had a nightmare where someone she cared for kept dieing she couldn't tell who it was though then slowly it became more people at first it was just one then it was 2 then 3 then it went back to one again though this time it seemed like the one person was always someone different. Though they were always killed by a zoid She couldn't make it out exactly it was dark and shadowy but was immensely powerful and defeated all of them and made her watch as it chose it's victims.
Fiona snapped awake from the last dream with sweat dripping from her brow. She took a deep breath and then realized someone was watching her. She looked and saw a person in the corner but the room was dark and she tried to squint to see who it was but it seemed the harder she tried the fuzzier everything got till she fell back on the bed.
"Relax you'll understand everything when it is time." The person said from the voice she assumed it was a Woman but in her state she couldn't even be sure of that as she passed out.
Raven came into Fionas room later that night he found her sleeping
"Damn I waited too long to come back." he thought to himself.
He took a seat next to her and stared at her mentally willing her to wake up and at the same time knowing it probably wouldn't happen.
"She's beautiful... Unlike that frog of a girl Reese." He thought to himself
it was then he wondered how he'd ever thought he might have liked reese he'd have had to have been insane to have liked her she was cruel mean evil and had an emotional fortress far beyond the puny barriers he'd set for himself And then he wondered "What the hell does Van see in her? Did I miss something? Or is he just crazy too? Or did she do something?" He didn't put it past Reese to use mind control or something to get Van and drive Fiona crazy but that also meant if he wasn't himself then Fiona might choose to go back to him if that were the case. He didn't want to think about that now Fiona was too deep under his skin now.
"Raven..." Fiona groaned coming to
Raven perked up and forgot his train of thought and somewhere in the back of his head the fact that she'd called for HIM first when she woke registered.
"I'm here Fiona." He said
Fiona opened her eyes a bit surprised to hear his voice so much so that at first she thought she'd dreamed it or imagined it. But when she looked he was there and he actually gave her a bit of a smile. Something that looked odd on Ravens face and made her giggle a bit.
"What?" raven asked puzzled.
"Nothing...I'm just glad you're here..." She said
"Fiona when you get out of here I'm going to get you a better zoid and we'll beat them next time we'll make them regret doing this to you." Raven said
"Raven...I don't need a better zoid the one I have is just fine and as for vengence...I've decided I don't want to hurt Van.." She said timidly
"Wha?....but he.." Raven started.
"He fought to defend himself and Reese...you fought for me and to get at Van Reese fought because Van was in danger and she had no other choice...All of this is solely my own fault." Fiona said her old self showing again.
"No it's not it's Reese's fault if it weren't for her none of this would have ever gotten started though I'm kind of grateful because it's allowed me to get to know you..." Raven said.
Fiona could see where he was going. "Raven... Don't say it not yet...I'm still not sure okay?"
Raven sighed "Alright..just as long as you know." He said
Just then a Nurse came into the room to check on Fiona.
"How're we feeling?" The nurse asked.
"Much better than earlier I can even move around a little bit." Fiona replied.
"Good the doctor says we can release you tomorrow morning since your stable and in good condition it's amazing how quickly you've healed." The nurse said.
"Yes it is...thank you." Fiona said knowing she healed quickly because she was a zoidian not because of any miracles or by luck.
"This is great Fiona I'm gonna head home and get everything ready for you in the morning I'll see you then k?" Raven said getting up.
"Alright raven tomorrow morning bright and early." Fiona answered
Raven left with the nurse and Fiona started thinking again. This time she thought about Raven and that dream she'd had. She wondered if Raven was the person she'd seen dieing in the dream. If it was then that meant she cared for him but then it also meant something terrible was probably going to happen in the near future then again it could have been Van or Irvine. She'd become relatively certain that the person in her dream had been a guy so that had narrowed it down. Now she wondered at her feelings for Raven she had to figure them out she had mixed feelings when it came to him part of her was still adjusting to being with him and not fighting against him whereas another part seemed unwilling to part from him. And yet another longed to go back to Van and how things were before. She kept thinking about it into the wee hours of the morning when she fell asleep.
End Chapter 4
Well that was a pretty mellow chapter wasn't it? Then again it couldn't be helped with me changing styles and all but oh well R&R tell me if you like the new format or not and I'll go from there.
Next Chapter- Chapter5- Return and Retribution
A switch to remember: Chapter4 – Nightmares
Raven sat beside Fionas hospital bed staring at her waiting wishing hoping he needed her now it wasn't a matter of wanting her anymore now he needed her he needed to hear her voice to hear some smart remark anything an insult a compliment a cry for revenge anything at all would have pleased raven right now. Eve for her to open her eyes would have been good enough all he could think about was getting back at Reese now forget Van he had taken his beating It was all about Reese now she was the one who'd hurt Fiona and she was the one who'd embarrassed and almost killed him. All for her now beloved Van. Then suddenly his thought were interrupted by Fiona she was stirring.
"Uh...where am I?..." she said groaning.
"Fiona?" Raven said.
"Van?" She said cautiously she was groggy and had asked for van out of habit and because deep down a part of her wanted him to be there.
Raven was hurt how could she think he was van? Of all people and why would she be thinking of him anyway?
"No Fiona it's me Raven." He said.
"Ra...ven?" She said slowly then it all came back to her what had happened and van and Reese.
"I...I remember now...I'm sorry..." She said
"Shhhh...no need to apologize rest now." He said
"No I can't...I have to get up I have to get out of here I I need to talk to him. I need to apologize." She said
Raven was blown she was in the hospital and she wanted to go back and apologize? HE should be the one standing HERE and apologizing to HER not the other way around.
"But why?" He asked.
"Because....I was wrong....I had a dream Raven and in it I became the most evil person on the planet because I let my dislike for Reese blind me and turn me against everyone. I don't want to be that person Raven." She said softly
"Fiona....No matter what I stay by your side from now on okay? You don't have to worry about him any more you shouldn't apologize to him it's because of them you're here now."
"No it's my fault the battle was my idea I started this...even back in that cave I was mean to Reese when she was trying to be nice...I've already started changing raven you started the change these clothes...my hair...it's all changing I'm becoming someone else that I don't want to be I'm sorry but even if you want to stay with me I don't know if I can stay with you." She said
Raven was hurt beyond words his loyalty to her which had come from seemingly no where was being scorned. He'd saved her life and now she was saying she didn't want him around? How'd that work? He didn't understand at all.
"Okay Fi...I'll go then if that's what you want." He said getting up solemnly and heading for the door.
Fiona heard the deep sadness in his voice and knew he was hurt she knew he had saved her and yet she was sending him away it made absolutely no sense..."Raven....Wait...I'm sorry its just I don't know what I want anymore." She said quietly
"I'll be back to check on you later...moon bays here too by the way." He said leaving.
Fiona sighed why was everything so difficult? She still had deep feelings for Van and she knew it but she was starting to feel for raven too he was like van except he didn't really know what to do with his emotions and he didn't always know what to say like Van did But he meant well even if he didn't always go about it the right way he always meant well. That was one thing she'd learned about him.
Moon bay came into the room
"hey Fiona." She said coming in and sitting beside her.
"Hey moon bay."
"You know Raven really likes you I even heard him call you Fi just now." Moon bay said smiling at Fiona.
"Yeah...I know I just..." She started
"Don't know how you feel about him?" Moon bay finished fiona's sentence for her
Fiona just nodded.
"Raven's not such a bad guy not like I thought he was anyway once you know him he's a lot like Van." Moon bay said
"I know but still he's different...darker like he's hiding some dark secret in his past." Fiona said not letting on to moon bay that she herself was really the one hiding the dark secret.
"Hm..a dark secret huh? I wouldn't be surprised with him." Moon bay said
"What's that supposed to mean?" Fiona asked.
"Nothing it's just that I know raven has done a lot of bad things in the past and it's no surprise that there may be things he doesn't want anyone to know." Moon bay said
"Yea I guess your right..." Fiona said.
"Enough about Raven what're you gonna do about Van?" Moon Bay asked.
Fiona tensed at the question it was one she didn't have an answer to just yet. She knew in her heart she didn't want to see van dead nor did she really want reese to die she didn't want anyone to die but somewhere in some newly discovered dark part of her she wanted to hurt them for hurting her. Her mind was full of options possibilities ways to get Van back ways to hurt reese ways to get both of them she didn't know what to do what she wanted or why all these bad thoughts kept coming to her normally she'd never think of such a thing. Then again this wasn't a normal situation...
"I dunno" Was Fiona's answer at last It seemed to her at that moment like she didn't know anything, the world was out of joint and something was horribly wrong how did they get here? What sick and twisted game were they playing? How had this all begun?...when exactly did she lose Van and when did she become ravens? When did she begin losing herself? How far had it progressed? And how far would it go? All these questions echoed in her head.
"Fiona? You okay?" Moon bay asked looking at Fiona with concern
Fiona snapped out of her reverie and looked at moon bay. "Yea I'm fine...just...let me rest awhile..."
Moon bay looked at Fiona uncertainly for a moment but decided to let her rest. "Alright I'll see you later." She said as she got up and left the room.
After that Fiona tried to get some sleep but found it was nearly impossible everytime she did she had a nightmare where someone she cared for kept dieing she couldn't tell who it was though then slowly it became more people at first it was just one then it was 2 then 3 then it went back to one again though this time it seemed like the one person was always someone different. Though they were always killed by a zoid She couldn't make it out exactly it was dark and shadowy but was immensely powerful and defeated all of them and made her watch as it chose it's victims.
Fiona snapped awake from the last dream with sweat dripping from her brow. She took a deep breath and then realized someone was watching her. She looked and saw a person in the corner but the room was dark and she tried to squint to see who it was but it seemed the harder she tried the fuzzier everything got till she fell back on the bed.
"Relax you'll understand everything when it is time." The person said from the voice she assumed it was a Woman but in her state she couldn't even be sure of that as she passed out.
Raven came into Fionas room later that night he found her sleeping
"Damn I waited too long to come back." he thought to himself.
He took a seat next to her and stared at her mentally willing her to wake up and at the same time knowing it probably wouldn't happen.
"She's beautiful... Unlike that frog of a girl Reese." He thought to himself
it was then he wondered how he'd ever thought he might have liked reese he'd have had to have been insane to have liked her she was cruel mean evil and had an emotional fortress far beyond the puny barriers he'd set for himself And then he wondered "What the hell does Van see in her? Did I miss something? Or is he just crazy too? Or did she do something?" He didn't put it past Reese to use mind control or something to get Van and drive Fiona crazy but that also meant if he wasn't himself then Fiona might choose to go back to him if that were the case. He didn't want to think about that now Fiona was too deep under his skin now.
"Raven..." Fiona groaned coming to
Raven perked up and forgot his train of thought and somewhere in the back of his head the fact that she'd called for HIM first when she woke registered.
"I'm here Fiona." He said
Fiona opened her eyes a bit surprised to hear his voice so much so that at first she thought she'd dreamed it or imagined it. But when she looked he was there and he actually gave her a bit of a smile. Something that looked odd on Ravens face and made her giggle a bit.
"What?" raven asked puzzled.
"Nothing...I'm just glad you're here..." She said
"Fiona when you get out of here I'm going to get you a better zoid and we'll beat them next time we'll make them regret doing this to you." Raven said
"Raven...I don't need a better zoid the one I have is just fine and as for vengence...I've decided I don't want to hurt Van.." She said timidly
"Wha?....but he.." Raven started.
"He fought to defend himself and Reese...you fought for me and to get at Van Reese fought because Van was in danger and she had no other choice...All of this is solely my own fault." Fiona said her old self showing again.
"No it's not it's Reese's fault if it weren't for her none of this would have ever gotten started though I'm kind of grateful because it's allowed me to get to know you..." Raven said.
Fiona could see where he was going. "Raven... Don't say it not yet...I'm still not sure okay?"
Raven sighed "Alright..just as long as you know." He said
Just then a Nurse came into the room to check on Fiona.
"How're we feeling?" The nurse asked.
"Much better than earlier I can even move around a little bit." Fiona replied.
"Good the doctor says we can release you tomorrow morning since your stable and in good condition it's amazing how quickly you've healed." The nurse said.
"Yes it is...thank you." Fiona said knowing she healed quickly because she was a zoidian not because of any miracles or by luck.
"This is great Fiona I'm gonna head home and get everything ready for you in the morning I'll see you then k?" Raven said getting up.
"Alright raven tomorrow morning bright and early." Fiona answered
Raven left with the nurse and Fiona started thinking again. This time she thought about Raven and that dream she'd had. She wondered if Raven was the person she'd seen dieing in the dream. If it was then that meant she cared for him but then it also meant something terrible was probably going to happen in the near future then again it could have been Van or Irvine. She'd become relatively certain that the person in her dream had been a guy so that had narrowed it down. Now she wondered at her feelings for Raven she had to figure them out she had mixed feelings when it came to him part of her was still adjusting to being with him and not fighting against him whereas another part seemed unwilling to part from him. And yet another longed to go back to Van and how things were before. She kept thinking about it into the wee hours of the morning when she fell asleep.
End Chapter 4
Well that was a pretty mellow chapter wasn't it? Then again it couldn't be helped with me changing styles and all but oh well R&R tell me if you like the new format or not and I'll go from there.
Next Chapter- Chapter5- Return and Retribution