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Chapter One, Part One

Lily had spent the rest of that day locked up in her cupboard. She hadn't seen her letter since her father had taken it from her and now she could barely think straight. The only thing that she could think about was Hogwarts and she kept slipping off to various events that had occurred there, from her first year to her fifth...

At Diagon Alley, before year one

Lily took in everything she saw, filled with awe. She hadn't expected any of this. After quickly exchanging her muggle money to gold galleons, silver sickles, and bronze knuts, she went from shop to shop getting her supplies. She had even gotten a small black kitten, which she immediately named Kevin, after her best friend in the whole world.

When she had gone to get her wand she had gotten a surprise of the lifetime. The man there had already known her name and...

"Ah, Miss Evans. I wondered when I would see you. Your father is a great wizard and I imagine you will be quite the same."

"I'm sorry sir, but my father isn't a wizard. He hadn't even thought it possible that anyone could be magic in the entire world!" Lily laughed a little and the old man looked back, seriousness shining out through his eyes causing her to stop laughing immediately.

When she had finally gotten and paid for her wand she had left the shop in a hurry.

She was about to enter the last shop she needed to go to, Flourish and Blotts, when someone ran into her knocking her down.

"Watch where you're going!" yelled the boy as he got up, glaring at her. He had very messy black hair, glasses and very hazel eyes.

Lily blushed, "I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean –"

"Yeah, whatever." He muttered as he ran off after his friend laughing.

To Lily, she recognized this as the first mistake she had ever made in the Wizarding world and she made a promise to herself not to ever make one again. So she bought all of the required books for her first year and bought several extra books to study up on Hogwarts and the spells, charms, etc... that she would be doing at her new school promising herself that she would be the smartest person there.

A few weeks later, on the train bound for Hogwarts

Lily was rereading her charms book for the 5 time that summer. She had memorized all of the spells and the ones that she hadn't memorized were near the end of this book, so she had time. She was alone in the far back compartment of the train, having not found any other empty ones closer to the front.

It hadn't even been an hour and she already missed Kevin. She had told him that her parents had enrolled her in a private school in Scotland. He didn't believe her and ran off calling her a liar. Her eyes filled with tears at the memory, but she quickly brushed them away. She can't cry, she WOULDN'T cry.

That was her vow ever since she was 4 and she got spanked for the very fist time, she had made a vow never to cry again, for when she did back then, she would just get spanked again and would get a long talking to about never crying.

Lily was almost through with the book when in walked the boy from Diagon Alley and three of his friends.

"Well, if it isn't the girl who knocked me down in Diagon Alley." He sneered.

Lily didn't say anything. Another lesson she had learned that got her out of trouble.

"Aren't you going to say anything? Oh wait, CAN you speak? Sorry I don't know any sign language."

All of the boys started laughing, but Lily remained silent... no comeback, no hurt... right? So she just sat there, still very close to tears but still willing them back.

One of the boys, a pale sickly looking one, must have noticed because immediately he stopped laughing and walked up to her, causing Lily to shrink back.

"Are you alright? My name is Remus Lupin, that is James Potter," he said pointing to the boy who she had knocked down before, "Sirius Black," he pointed to another boy with black hair, but his was more neat than that Potter's, "and Peter Pettigrew." He pointed to the last boy who looked a little pudgy. "Who are you?"

Lily blushed a little and quietly muttered, "Lily" "Nice to meet you Lily." Remus said. He smiled at her then turned back to his friends. "Let's just get out of here ok? She didn't do anything."

Lily remembered vaguely that they didn't leave after all. They had stayed there because there was no other compartments available for four more people.

In Gryfinndor house, after the sorting

Lily wandered over to a vacant armchair in the back corner of the common room that was all dusty. From there she could hear most of the conversations that were going around, one of the worst coming from that Potter.

"I can't believe that she is in our house. I mean look at her! She's a loner, a FREAK."

That single word did more to her than all of the mocking on the train. That one word struck home and caused her to run upstairs to her dormitories in tears. She had heard that word from her family all of her life because she was different, and now she was hearing it from part of the people who she wanted to respect her the most. She had wanted to fit in, that was why she had studied all of those books. She hadn't studied all of those books to be a freak. But if that was what they were going to label her, then fine. She would show them who the freak was. She would show them.

Thank you so much pinkmooseofdoom for the review!!!! :D hope you like this chapter, i might have to tweek it later on...... well i have to go study for my exam tomorrow. sigh don't you hate school! oh well, tomorrows the last day till fall. hope to be updating tomorrow!