Chapter Six: What can I do?
Dear Diary, September 12th 1978
I know I haven't written in you for a while but I've had things on my mind. Oh I don't know what I'm gonna do. I just need to get over it, I feel like I wanna die. Please diary instruct in some form. I haven't ever felt this bad even when Michael left. God why do I have such crap luck with men I sometimes think I'm doomed to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. Why can't they ever love me for me you know? To Michael I was the hottest chick in school, which was nice, but I was paraded around like a doll. He didn't love me for me. And Steven to him I was an annoying brat that needed to shut up and I guess the only way he could do that was to kiss me. I bet each time he did he thought of someone else. God I get so angry just thinking about it. I don't get it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I don't think I ever will. Donna is really lucky Eric is a great guy. I know diary you may think the next thing I write is a stroke of madness but I'm actually beginning to think that Michael is serious in his proposal. Too bad it's from the wrong guy. Steven made his choice and guess I have to make one to. I need to think so I'm saying bye.
Jackie
Xxxx
Jackie was walking through the school hallway without a care in the world. At least that was how it looked, inside she still felt angry and hurt but decided to keep up such emotions were to exhausting for her. For the past week and a half she appeared dead to school and decided to revamp her image and be as carefree as she wanted to. Hyde didn't care so why should she.
As she passed the Jocks and various other good looking guys in school she waved and smiled sweetly and gave them a wink. She was reclaiming her role as most popular girl at Point Place High and biggest bitch. She flounced past the basement gang, she only acknowledged Donna Personally and walked past. Fez, Hyde, Kelso and even Eric were in awe as she passed dressed in a pale yellow halter neck and dark denim hot pants. She wore rose tinted glasses that hid her eyes and was seductively sucking a lollypop. Her hair was loose and flowed down her shoulders.
Hyde couldn't help but stare and when he heard all the wolf whistles as she walked by his hands clenched into fists. But Fez broke the tension and Hyde relaxed.
"Oh my god she has candy, I must go get her and get it." Fez said, as he was just about to walk in Jackie's direction. Eric's hand stopped Fez who replied with his usual good day and walked off. Donna was laughing but was brought back to reality.
"What the hell has gotten into Jackie, I mean she looks..." She trailed off trying to find the right words.
"Sexy.." Both Eric and Kelso said in unison.
Both Donna and Hyde gave them deathly looks at which Eric responded;
"But not as sexy as you honey."
"Forman you better quite while you're ahead." Hyde said while walking away towards class.
"Dude your going to class!!" Eric said shocked.
"Yeah man I guess I just don't wanna end up like Kelso." He replied.
"Well I'm gonna go see Jackie." Kelso said.
And before Donna and Eric could stop him Kelso had gone.
"So I guess it's just us."
"Hmm no it's just you and tonight that will still be the same, so don't pick me up from catholic school okay!" With that she walked out the school.
"But Donna we're a tag team it's a stupid game without you!" He just walked to class. He knew he was in trouble.
Hyde was sitting in class and couldn't stop thinking about Jackie and what she was wearing. It was hot but he didn't want anyone looking at her like that. The teacher rudely interrupted him.
"Now Mr Hyde I'm glad to see you enjoy the task of staring into space but can you put your focus on something a little more taxing." Mr Crafts voice drifted off in to the loud laughter of the classroom. Hyde didn't need this right now so he just got up from his seat and began to walk out of the classroom.
"Mr Hyde I didn't give you permission to leave."
"Yeah, well I didn't ask for it so technically I'm not defying your orders. So see ya." And with that he walked out and collided with Jackie. She nearly fell back but Hyde caught her just in time. She didn't say anything she tried to remain Zen, as did he. A few minutes had passed before Hyde spoke.
"Hi." Was all he could say. He looked Jackie up and down until his gaze rested at her lips. They were extremely glossy and looked a luscious shade of pink.
"Hey." Jackie said back. She was trying to remain calm as all these emotions of love, lust, anger and sadness washed over her and all she wanted to do was slam Hyde against her locker and kiss him. Suddenly her breathing became quicker and she felt all hot. Hyde noticed this and took a step closer. At that moment he didn't care about not being enough for her, he just wanted to feel her. Under him, over him all over skin on skin.
"Kelso came to talk to me and ......" She was cut off by Hyde.
"I know he came back to the basement and bragged about it. Are you really considering taking him back?"
"Why do you care? At least he wants me, he cares for me, HE LOVES ME!" She shouted the last part.
Hyde wanted to laugh, he knew Kelso hadn't changed. "Do you really think so? Cos he's always gonna be the same Kelso that cheated on you with Laurie, Pam Macy and others you don't even know about."
"Yeah well I guess it takes one to know one huh." Jackie spat out.
Hyde couldn't argue with that, as it was true.
"Why? Steven why did you did you cheat on me? You know what don't answer cos I don't care. I told you things I haven't told anyone and you went off with some skank at a party that you brought me to as your date. We were gonna tell Michael. You know what I must be so stupid to actually believe that you could love me. That you could feel anything for me. Cos if you did. If you felt for me the slightest shred of what I feel for you than you could never have done that to me." All her emotions came out all at once. She had wanted to say these things to Michael when he cheated but she wasn't strong enough.
While Jackie was pouring her heart out Hyde just stood still. He felt as if his heart was breaking all over again. He wanted to tell her why he did what he did, and that he felt more for than he had ever felt in his entire life but instead he just listened.
Tears were now trailing out of Jackie's eyes but she remained strong and continued. "You knew what Michael did to me you said so yourself and yet you did the same thing. How can you stand there and question how Michael feels for me when you obliviously have never felt anything for me." She now stood on the other side of the hallway.
Hyde didn't know what to do or say.
"Fine. I understand that's how you feel, but have you ever considered anyone except yourself." Hyde shouted. He didn't have the will power to admit how he feels but he had to say something.
"What are you trying to say? I never know cos I don't know how to decipher your conspiracy crap. You know what I think I was just a cheep thrill for you. You never wanted this to go anywhere because I'm not the type of girl that belongs with a guy like you right. I'm just a dumb cheerleader."
"Jackie I never said that!" Hyde tried to reason. He walked over to her and tried to wrap his arms around her but just shrugged him off.
"You didn't have to. You're the love 'em and leave 'em type of guy and that's exactly what you did to me." She paced up and down the hall.
" Well you don't have to worry about me. Because Michael said he wants to marry me and so I ..."
"If you want to marry Kelso I'm not gonna stop you. It's probably what you wanted all along you just didn't know it. For more than four years there's been Jackie and Kelso and it's always going to be that way." Hyde had never felt so much love for someone and so much anger at the same time.
"It that how you really feel." She asked
"Yes it is." Hyde deadpanned. Jackie turned away crushed. She thought that if she argued long enough with him he'd admit how really felt about her.
" I wanted to know how you felt about me and I guess I found my answer. And Michael has the answer he wants." Jackie said with tears continuing to roll down her cheeks. And she ran down the hall and out of Hyde's life.
A kid from Hyde's class had come out to see what all the commotion was.
"There's nothing to see kid, so buzz off!"
The kid appeared scared and ran back into the classroom.
2 Days later.
Jackie knocked on Kelso's door. She waited for him to open it.
"Jackie what are you doing here?" He asked.
"Well Michael I've been doing some thinking and I would really like for us to give it another try."
"So your saying you'll take me back."
"Yeah Michael I'll take you back." She said and jumped into his arms. He hugged her so tightly and said, "I love you Jackie Burkhart".
"And about my proposal?" He asked.
"Yes, yes I'll marry you."
Dear Diary, September 12th 1978
I know I haven't written in you for a while but I've had things on my mind. Oh I don't know what I'm gonna do. I just need to get over it, I feel like I wanna die. Please diary instruct in some form. I haven't ever felt this bad even when Michael left. God why do I have such crap luck with men I sometimes think I'm doomed to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. Why can't they ever love me for me you know? To Michael I was the hottest chick in school, which was nice, but I was paraded around like a doll. He didn't love me for me. And Steven to him I was an annoying brat that needed to shut up and I guess the only way he could do that was to kiss me. I bet each time he did he thought of someone else. God I get so angry just thinking about it. I don't get it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I don't think I ever will. Donna is really lucky Eric is a great guy. I know diary you may think the next thing I write is a stroke of madness but I'm actually beginning to think that Michael is serious in his proposal. Too bad it's from the wrong guy. Steven made his choice and guess I have to make one to. I need to think so I'm saying bye.
Jackie
Xxxx
Jackie was walking through the school hallway without a care in the world. At least that was how it looked, inside she still felt angry and hurt but decided to keep up such emotions were to exhausting for her. For the past week and a half she appeared dead to school and decided to revamp her image and be as carefree as she wanted to. Hyde didn't care so why should she.
As she passed the Jocks and various other good looking guys in school she waved and smiled sweetly and gave them a wink. She was reclaiming her role as most popular girl at Point Place High and biggest bitch. She flounced past the basement gang, she only acknowledged Donna Personally and walked past. Fez, Hyde, Kelso and even Eric were in awe as she passed dressed in a pale yellow halter neck and dark denim hot pants. She wore rose tinted glasses that hid her eyes and was seductively sucking a lollypop. Her hair was loose and flowed down her shoulders.
Hyde couldn't help but stare and when he heard all the wolf whistles as she walked by his hands clenched into fists. But Fez broke the tension and Hyde relaxed.
"Oh my god she has candy, I must go get her and get it." Fez said, as he was just about to walk in Jackie's direction. Eric's hand stopped Fez who replied with his usual good day and walked off. Donna was laughing but was brought back to reality.
"What the hell has gotten into Jackie, I mean she looks..." She trailed off trying to find the right words.
"Sexy.." Both Eric and Kelso said in unison.
Both Donna and Hyde gave them deathly looks at which Eric responded;
"But not as sexy as you honey."
"Forman you better quite while you're ahead." Hyde said while walking away towards class.
"Dude your going to class!!" Eric said shocked.
"Yeah man I guess I just don't wanna end up like Kelso." He replied.
"Well I'm gonna go see Jackie." Kelso said.
And before Donna and Eric could stop him Kelso had gone.
"So I guess it's just us."
"Hmm no it's just you and tonight that will still be the same, so don't pick me up from catholic school okay!" With that she walked out the school.
"But Donna we're a tag team it's a stupid game without you!" He just walked to class. He knew he was in trouble.
Hyde was sitting in class and couldn't stop thinking about Jackie and what she was wearing. It was hot but he didn't want anyone looking at her like that. The teacher rudely interrupted him.
"Now Mr Hyde I'm glad to see you enjoy the task of staring into space but can you put your focus on something a little more taxing." Mr Crafts voice drifted off in to the loud laughter of the classroom. Hyde didn't need this right now so he just got up from his seat and began to walk out of the classroom.
"Mr Hyde I didn't give you permission to leave."
"Yeah, well I didn't ask for it so technically I'm not defying your orders. So see ya." And with that he walked out and collided with Jackie. She nearly fell back but Hyde caught her just in time. She didn't say anything she tried to remain Zen, as did he. A few minutes had passed before Hyde spoke.
"Hi." Was all he could say. He looked Jackie up and down until his gaze rested at her lips. They were extremely glossy and looked a luscious shade of pink.
"Hey." Jackie said back. She was trying to remain calm as all these emotions of love, lust, anger and sadness washed over her and all she wanted to do was slam Hyde against her locker and kiss him. Suddenly her breathing became quicker and she felt all hot. Hyde noticed this and took a step closer. At that moment he didn't care about not being enough for her, he just wanted to feel her. Under him, over him all over skin on skin.
"Kelso came to talk to me and ......" She was cut off by Hyde.
"I know he came back to the basement and bragged about it. Are you really considering taking him back?"
"Why do you care? At least he wants me, he cares for me, HE LOVES ME!" She shouted the last part.
Hyde wanted to laugh, he knew Kelso hadn't changed. "Do you really think so? Cos he's always gonna be the same Kelso that cheated on you with Laurie, Pam Macy and others you don't even know about."
"Yeah well I guess it takes one to know one huh." Jackie spat out.
Hyde couldn't argue with that, as it was true.
"Why? Steven why did you did you cheat on me? You know what don't answer cos I don't care. I told you things I haven't told anyone and you went off with some skank at a party that you brought me to as your date. We were gonna tell Michael. You know what I must be so stupid to actually believe that you could love me. That you could feel anything for me. Cos if you did. If you felt for me the slightest shred of what I feel for you than you could never have done that to me." All her emotions came out all at once. She had wanted to say these things to Michael when he cheated but she wasn't strong enough.
While Jackie was pouring her heart out Hyde just stood still. He felt as if his heart was breaking all over again. He wanted to tell her why he did what he did, and that he felt more for than he had ever felt in his entire life but instead he just listened.
Tears were now trailing out of Jackie's eyes but she remained strong and continued. "You knew what Michael did to me you said so yourself and yet you did the same thing. How can you stand there and question how Michael feels for me when you obliviously have never felt anything for me." She now stood on the other side of the hallway.
Hyde didn't know what to do or say.
"Fine. I understand that's how you feel, but have you ever considered anyone except yourself." Hyde shouted. He didn't have the will power to admit how he feels but he had to say something.
"What are you trying to say? I never know cos I don't know how to decipher your conspiracy crap. You know what I think I was just a cheep thrill for you. You never wanted this to go anywhere because I'm not the type of girl that belongs with a guy like you right. I'm just a dumb cheerleader."
"Jackie I never said that!" Hyde tried to reason. He walked over to her and tried to wrap his arms around her but just shrugged him off.
"You didn't have to. You're the love 'em and leave 'em type of guy and that's exactly what you did to me." She paced up and down the hall.
" Well you don't have to worry about me. Because Michael said he wants to marry me and so I ..."
"If you want to marry Kelso I'm not gonna stop you. It's probably what you wanted all along you just didn't know it. For more than four years there's been Jackie and Kelso and it's always going to be that way." Hyde had never felt so much love for someone and so much anger at the same time.
"It that how you really feel." She asked
"Yes it is." Hyde deadpanned. Jackie turned away crushed. She thought that if she argued long enough with him he'd admit how really felt about her.
" I wanted to know how you felt about me and I guess I found my answer. And Michael has the answer he wants." Jackie said with tears continuing to roll down her cheeks. And she ran down the hall and out of Hyde's life.
A kid from Hyde's class had come out to see what all the commotion was.
"There's nothing to see kid, so buzz off!"
The kid appeared scared and ran back into the classroom.
2 Days later.
Jackie knocked on Kelso's door. She waited for him to open it.
"Jackie what are you doing here?" He asked.
"Well Michael I've been doing some thinking and I would really like for us to give it another try."
"So your saying you'll take me back."
"Yeah Michael I'll take you back." She said and jumped into his arms. He hugged her so tightly and said, "I love you Jackie Burkhart".
"And about my proposal?" He asked.
"Yes, yes I'll marry you."