(a/n: I just had to revise it, I just wasn't happy with the results ya know! Oh well, hope you like it... P.S. this is not necessarily a nightmare but a fear..."
Quistis POV
I wanted to always keep up... I mean be better than everyone else... My Foster mother brought me up like this... She wanted me to be the best... and I was... I grew up thinking that I was the best already... Until I was 13 and enrolled in Balamb Garden, where I met my Best Friend of that time,. Her name was Xu, she was a couple of years ahead of me, I changed my look on people and life ever since she told me who I was and didn't like it...
"Xu, Help... I need... to well, ace the test tomorrow... I mean that idiot of a teacher really thinks that this Fred guy can be his top student... I gotta show him that he's wrong!"
"Um... Quistis... Don't mean to be rude but... Why do you always think like that?"
"Like what?"
"Like you don't appreciate any help people give you, Like you're beyond everyone's comprehension..."
"I Do? No I don't!"
"Yes you do, Face it you're a self-centered snob..."
I was furious, I didn't know what to do... So I ran to my room... Covered my face in a pillow and cried the night.... And during that time I realized that I was a snob and that I was thinking highly of myself... Ever since then I never underestimated anyone, and thought of myself as Average....
That was several years ago... I couldn't struggle with the thought of being less then no.1...But in order to this, I needed to find closure; I just needed to be perfect. At that thought... I remembered my stepmother and father... I also remembered my dad's guidance... I would never think of my foster father in the was I saw my foster mother. I loved him as much as I could ever love my real father. That's right... another one of my weaknesses is that I was adopted; well, sort of... My father told me that I was abandoned... But enough about that...
Well, I can't think much more because my brain will explode... What I really need now is focus... and a cold shower... and a few hours of rest....
So right about then... I walked briskly to the bathroom, got my clothes off and threw them on the ground... Knowing ill pick them up later... I got in adjusted it to the coldest the temperature can reach... and let the drops of water just fall on my hair, and slide down my back... I was too lazy to be in a hurray so I spent some time just staring at the wall beyond my eyes, and laid my head upon it... Well, I was getting more tired by the minute so I grab the soap and the bottle of shampoo and began scrubbing my way to sleep... Once, I got out I remembered my clothes...
"I'll just pick them up tomorrow... while I'm wiping the floor..."
I went near my cabinet opened up what was wear I kept my clothes grabbed some sleepwear... I put them on not even worrying if it was backwards... I just needed some freaking sleep....
"Ha... Finally..." I said with relief
So I just tucked myself in and slept the day away...
I woke up as if it were only a slumber of 10 mins. And Damn was I angry...
"What the hell?" "Huh?" "Great... I must be really off today!" "What time is it?"
I turned to see 4:00am... Damn!
I just decided to get my uniform on and stroll the campus... I went outside and saw a flashback... It was my first day in school... And I must've been only 11...
"Bye, daddy!"
"Bye, my little princess..."
"I love you daddy"
I then turned to give him a big hug.
"I love you too, Be good ok?"
"Ok... ill be good... I promise!"
That was one of the best days in my life...
"I sure miss my dad..." "I wish... I just wish..." "Oh well..."
"I better get back to my room..."
The stroll back seemed like forever. I remember looking at the red carpet along the corridor to the elevator. Walking past it and remembering...
"Wow!" "Mommy, it's beautiful!"
I then set my hand on one of the most beautiful rug ever...
"Don't touch it!" she screamed at me...
And she proceeded to slapping my hand off...
"Ouch!"
"You deserved this... I worked so hard to achieve my luxuries... Not to have it ruined by a little kid!"
I then cried, and ran up to my room... And then my dad came by and told me that it was going to be ok... I love how my dad seems to always make me happy...
I then reached my room... I tried walking to my kitchen, and then I hit one of my glass figurines... I forgot about the broken glass, and proceeded to pick them up... After it was done I noticed I had a few cuts, and had lots of blood... So I ran to the bathroom to wash it off... Looking at the blood... Made me remember something... Something not as happy as the others...
"Yey! Daddy tomorrow is my Seed annunciation"
"I know, sweetie... You'll make daddy very proud.."
"Daddy!"
"Yes?" he answered
"I love you!"
"I love you too... and I will always be here for you.."
"Daddy! Theirs a tree in our way!"
"what?" he shouted"
He tried to steer of but we hit the tree... That was the saddest day of my life... The day I will never want to relive..
I awoke a few minutes later...
"Daddy?"
"Daddy?"
I turned to my left to see my dad's head covered in blood... I cried... and began to hold my fathers bleeding wound... I could tell he wasn't breathing... He was dead... and I held my hands in front of me... My hands covered in his blood... This day was a day I always feared of... Knowing this will be the last time ill see him... I whispered...
"I love you, daddy..." and hugged him with all my might...
And of course i had to let go of him, when people came to help...
But i will never forget that day...
It was what i feared ever since i was a little girl...
That was so long ago... But it remains in my mind....That day was completely hellish... I could never forget it... I then stood up... Opened the sink.. And the water washed off the blood, as I watched... All the memories and fears going down the drain...