A/N: You probably shouldn't sit outside during a thunderstorm, but it
sounds like fun! Anyways, this chapter is definitely better than the last one,
That's just an introduction. So enjoy and review like always! Upwards and Onwards!
The thunder rumbled in the distance. Haley walked down the stone path,
kicking at loose pebbles. The air was moist and thick with dew. It was the air right
before it rains. Not just rains, but really gets out and tries to ruin you. It was the
kind that reminds you of perfectly painted red lips which seemed to be your friend
at first but then betray you. Which ruin your life and turn it into something you
don't need, something you don't want it to be. And then you wonder to yourself,
"How the hell did it all get so screwed up?" But no one answers and you go along
your own merry way.
Haley looked up at the sky, tasted the dew on her lips, felt the few
drops that started to come down in her hair. She looked up at the sky with her eyes.
Her eyes, and if anyone would have looked in them, they would just say "Oh, she's
fine, nothing to worry about here, just an average girl with a perfect life. Haley
was far from that. Only the people who really knew her could see all of her
emotions in her eyes. She looked like an innocent person, with open trusting eyes,
but few could see the layer behind that, the wall of protection. The area that you
couldn't get by until you knew her so well, she was almost you. She was Haley. Pure
Haley, none of the "Oh my God, I say I'm this person but you have to just dig
deeper and find out the real me" kind of crap. She was open about not being
innocent anymore, and completely accepting the fact. The thunder rumbled again.
Haley needed a release. A release from all the passion, the pent-up
anger, the love, the pure energy. She needed to be free from all the drama and
just be herself again. She wanted to go to the mall with Peyton and Brooke and
laugh and giggle over girl stuff. She didn't want to be weighed down by emotional
baggage.
A lone figure stood in the distance. Haley was disrupted from her
thoughts by thunder. She saw the man's back. Her breath caught in her throat. The
moisture in the air around her suddenly made her feel like she was choking, like she
was drowning. She finally took a deep breath and called out his name.
"Nathan!"
He turned around and looked at her. His face didn't change when he saw
her. He just looked at her and kept on walking. Her face took on a look of
desperation. "Nathan!" she called out. "Nathan!" She got no answer. She ran to him,
stumbling over rocks, feeling as if she was walking over hot coals, but still having to
get to him. It felt like it was necessary. She reached him and practically collapsed.
"Nathan!" she gasped.
"What do you want from me Haley?" he asked. "I've done everything I
could to try and keep us together. I love you. And you said you felt the same way.
But then you tell me you want a divorce and then you go and sleep with my half
brother. You're giving out mixed signals and you have to pick a signal that you want
to give out, one that you want to go with. I can't be with you or around you until you
do."
Haley stared back at him, regaining her composure. She stopped trying.
"Nathan, I thought you were cheating on me," she replied cooly. "I was really upset
because, you're right, I did and do love you, but now I'm with Lucas, I moved on
after a month of crying at home. I want to be your friend, but I still want a
divorce."
Nathan stared back at her. "Fine," he stated simply. Haley looked back
at him again.
"Fine? That's it? You're going to leave our entire marriage as a 'Fine'?
Did I not mean anything to you? Do you not care that I'm with Lucas? What the
hell is wrong with you? I do love you! But I can't be with you and I don't know if I
ever can be! I don't know if I want to be with Lucas either! Hell, I don't even know
if I want to be with Jake! So just leave me alone about everything and stop
pressuring me!" She had started yelling by the end.
Nathan glared at her defiantly. "You think you mean nothing to me?
Haley, I spent the last month trying to get you back. I was in the cafe and in your
apartment 24/7! Hales, I love you so much! I kissed another girl once but that's
because she wouldn't let me go no matter how hard I tried to push her away! And
of course I care that you're with Lucas, Hales!"
Both of them stood next to each other, panting, after their outbursts,
waiting for the next one to make their move. Neither one letting their guard down.
Nathan spoke first. "So what do we do now?" he asked. She sighed and looked at
him.
"I can't be with you now," she said. "I'm with Lucas, and I want to see
where it goes, I think I love him. But I think I might love you too. I have no idea,"
she finished off.
"Well, until you figure it out, you have no friends," he said. "I just can't
believe you moved right from me to Lucas without a second thought and now you
can't make up your mind. I don't even know if I want to be with you anymore. I had
to sit there and listen to you and Luke having sex and I don't want to have to do
that again, I don't want to be the person who waits and waits for something that
may never come. Haley, I hate you for doing this to me. I hate you for changing my
feelings and making me open up because now I can't close off again! I'm not in
control and I can't handle that feeling. I hate you." He let out a shaky breath and
walked away from her down the pebbled path.
"Oh yeah?" she screamed after him. "You were cheating on me! You
broke the trust between us! You have no right to hate me for breaking us up! And
the whole control thing? That was good for you! Before you had a girlfriend who is
now my best friend who you used for sex, mindless followers/basketball
teammates, and a father who pushed you to do things you didn't want to do! I
helped you for a reason, now you actually have people who care about you and they
don't think you're an arrogant jerk anymore. Thought maybe they should, because
they have damn good reason to!"
She was graced the with sight of his retreating back and his middle
finger.
Haley let out a shaky breath also that she didn't know she was holding.
She sank down to her knees on the path from loss of energy. The thunder rumbled
ominously very close to her. A few flashes of lightning could be seen in the moving
clouds. The type that you can only see in Southern thunderstorms. Across large
plains of sand and grass and pebbled, stone, dirt roads. The few drops of rain
turned into quite a few and Haley started to get wet. She smirked. Her anger was
rising and threatening to break her, threatening to make her explode.
The thunderclouds reached her and the thunderstorm began. Rain
poured down in sheets, flooding the plains and soaking Haley all the way through her
clothes. She was drenched. The lightning came, illuminating the sky at dusk/twilight.
Haley felt her anger reach its limit. She screamed, and all of her anger and passion
and love and emotion came out in that scream. When it was over, she laughed.
Laughed at everything for a long time and tried to escape all of her problems in the
rain, her favorite type of weather. She felt free and safe as the lightning flashed
and the thunder rumbled over head.
Her release finally came as she looked up at the sky and screamed and
laughed.
sounds like fun! Anyways, this chapter is definitely better than the last one,
That's just an introduction. So enjoy and review like always! Upwards and Onwards!
The thunder rumbled in the distance. Haley walked down the stone path,
kicking at loose pebbles. The air was moist and thick with dew. It was the air right
before it rains. Not just rains, but really gets out and tries to ruin you. It was the
kind that reminds you of perfectly painted red lips which seemed to be your friend
at first but then betray you. Which ruin your life and turn it into something you
don't need, something you don't want it to be. And then you wonder to yourself,
"How the hell did it all get so screwed up?" But no one answers and you go along
your own merry way.
Haley looked up at the sky, tasted the dew on her lips, felt the few
drops that started to come down in her hair. She looked up at the sky with her eyes.
Her eyes, and if anyone would have looked in them, they would just say "Oh, she's
fine, nothing to worry about here, just an average girl with a perfect life. Haley
was far from that. Only the people who really knew her could see all of her
emotions in her eyes. She looked like an innocent person, with open trusting eyes,
but few could see the layer behind that, the wall of protection. The area that you
couldn't get by until you knew her so well, she was almost you. She was Haley. Pure
Haley, none of the "Oh my God, I say I'm this person but you have to just dig
deeper and find out the real me" kind of crap. She was open about not being
innocent anymore, and completely accepting the fact. The thunder rumbled again.
Haley needed a release. A release from all the passion, the pent-up
anger, the love, the pure energy. She needed to be free from all the drama and
just be herself again. She wanted to go to the mall with Peyton and Brooke and
laugh and giggle over girl stuff. She didn't want to be weighed down by emotional
baggage.
A lone figure stood in the distance. Haley was disrupted from her
thoughts by thunder. She saw the man's back. Her breath caught in her throat. The
moisture in the air around her suddenly made her feel like she was choking, like she
was drowning. She finally took a deep breath and called out his name.
"Nathan!"
He turned around and looked at her. His face didn't change when he saw
her. He just looked at her and kept on walking. Her face took on a look of
desperation. "Nathan!" she called out. "Nathan!" She got no answer. She ran to him,
stumbling over rocks, feeling as if she was walking over hot coals, but still having to
get to him. It felt like it was necessary. She reached him and practically collapsed.
"Nathan!" she gasped.
"What do you want from me Haley?" he asked. "I've done everything I
could to try and keep us together. I love you. And you said you felt the same way.
But then you tell me you want a divorce and then you go and sleep with my half
brother. You're giving out mixed signals and you have to pick a signal that you want
to give out, one that you want to go with. I can't be with you or around you until you
do."
Haley stared back at him, regaining her composure. She stopped trying.
"Nathan, I thought you were cheating on me," she replied cooly. "I was really upset
because, you're right, I did and do love you, but now I'm with Lucas, I moved on
after a month of crying at home. I want to be your friend, but I still want a
divorce."
Nathan stared back at her. "Fine," he stated simply. Haley looked back
at him again.
"Fine? That's it? You're going to leave our entire marriage as a 'Fine'?
Did I not mean anything to you? Do you not care that I'm with Lucas? What the
hell is wrong with you? I do love you! But I can't be with you and I don't know if I
ever can be! I don't know if I want to be with Lucas either! Hell, I don't even know
if I want to be with Jake! So just leave me alone about everything and stop
pressuring me!" She had started yelling by the end.
Nathan glared at her defiantly. "You think you mean nothing to me?
Haley, I spent the last month trying to get you back. I was in the cafe and in your
apartment 24/7! Hales, I love you so much! I kissed another girl once but that's
because she wouldn't let me go no matter how hard I tried to push her away! And
of course I care that you're with Lucas, Hales!"
Both of them stood next to each other, panting, after their outbursts,
waiting for the next one to make their move. Neither one letting their guard down.
Nathan spoke first. "So what do we do now?" he asked. She sighed and looked at
him.
"I can't be with you now," she said. "I'm with Lucas, and I want to see
where it goes, I think I love him. But I think I might love you too. I have no idea,"
she finished off.
"Well, until you figure it out, you have no friends," he said. "I just can't
believe you moved right from me to Lucas without a second thought and now you
can't make up your mind. I don't even know if I want to be with you anymore. I had
to sit there and listen to you and Luke having sex and I don't want to have to do
that again, I don't want to be the person who waits and waits for something that
may never come. Haley, I hate you for doing this to me. I hate you for changing my
feelings and making me open up because now I can't close off again! I'm not in
control and I can't handle that feeling. I hate you." He let out a shaky breath and
walked away from her down the pebbled path.
"Oh yeah?" she screamed after him. "You were cheating on me! You
broke the trust between us! You have no right to hate me for breaking us up! And
the whole control thing? That was good for you! Before you had a girlfriend who is
now my best friend who you used for sex, mindless followers/basketball
teammates, and a father who pushed you to do things you didn't want to do! I
helped you for a reason, now you actually have people who care about you and they
don't think you're an arrogant jerk anymore. Thought maybe they should, because
they have damn good reason to!"
She was graced the with sight of his retreating back and his middle
finger.
Haley let out a shaky breath also that she didn't know she was holding.
She sank down to her knees on the path from loss of energy. The thunder rumbled
ominously very close to her. A few flashes of lightning could be seen in the moving
clouds. The type that you can only see in Southern thunderstorms. Across large
plains of sand and grass and pebbled, stone, dirt roads. The few drops of rain
turned into quite a few and Haley started to get wet. She smirked. Her anger was
rising and threatening to break her, threatening to make her explode.
The thunderclouds reached her and the thunderstorm began. Rain
poured down in sheets, flooding the plains and soaking Haley all the way through her
clothes. She was drenched. The lightning came, illuminating the sky at dusk/twilight.
Haley felt her anger reach its limit. She screamed, and all of her anger and passion
and love and emotion came out in that scream. When it was over, she laughed.
Laughed at everything for a long time and tried to escape all of her problems in the
rain, her favorite type of weather. She felt free and safe as the lightning flashed
and the thunder rumbled over head.
Her release finally came as she looked up at the sky and screamed and
laughed.