An Innocent Joke? Chapter 19: At School
By: Freewater
Disclaimers: I do NOT own Yu-Gi-Oh! Please don't sue me, you won't get much at all
Warnings: Male/Male relationships, swearing
Pairings: Seto/Jou
Rating: R for swearing and later chapters
Archive: If you want this story for your website then just ask first
Feedback: Definitely! Please, yes!! I want to know if I did a good job or not writing this!
Notes: A bunch of these little stars Means a change in time or scenery. 'These things here indicate thoughts.
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Katsuya walked down the hall and made his way through the many groups of kids as best as he could with his small limp. If he tried hard enough it wasn't all that bad, but it continued to hurt like a bitch no matter what he did, and for once he was actually eager to get to geography class so he could sit down. But right now he had to find the others, and especially Tea so she could fix his puppy for him. So far he wasn't having too much luck in finding them.
He heaved a heavy sigh as he went, wishing that he just skipped school and headed for his usual spot in the park. The place where he went when he just wanted to sleep without worrying about his father coming after him. He'd usually go there once a week for a good rest, and right now he was wishing that he'd gone. It was the first day of school anyway, it wasn't like they were going to be given any big projects to do.
Just as Jou convinced himself to leave and give himself the time he needed at the park to heal, Yugi and Yami caught sight of him. "Hey, Jou!" The shorter of the two look alikes called as he ran over, a big grin on his face. Yami simply walked up, his arms crossed with a warm smile on his own face.
Katsuya forced a smile on his face before standing up straight to greet his friend. "Hey, Yug." He said as the shorter boy wrapped his arms around him affectionately. Jou forced back a small cry of pain at the act.
Well, he was seen by both Yugi and Yami, so cutting school was out of the question now.
"So what class do you have first?" Yugi asked. "Yami and I have geography together." The only reason why Yami attended school was to learn more about how the world now was, so Jou wouldn't be surprised if he also had history along with math and science.
"I have that class too." He said.
"Good, you can sit near me and my aibou." Yami said, obviously still trying to keep him away from Kaiba. And the suspicious looks he kept sending to anyone with short brown hair gave Katsuya the impression that he was still watching out for him.
"Hey, have you guys seen Honda?" The blonde asked, remembering that he wanted to talk with him and also trying to take their minds off of Seto for a minute. If the CEO wanted to talk to him then he was more than welcome in his opinion. Now, if only he could get his friends to see that.
Yugi let him go. "Not yet, but I was talking to Ryou and he said that he, Honda and Bakura have math together next period." He said.
"Okay, cool. But what about Tea? What classes does she have?" Jou asked, wanting to find her before she got into her sewing class and ask her to fix his puppy for him.
It was Yami who spoke this time. "She has a sewing class now and then history with me." He said, earning a small gasp from Jou. There was a good ten minutes left before the next class started! He needed to find her fast!
"Um, I'll be right back you guys!" He said, quickly running off to try and find Tea's locker. Maybe she had the same one this year.
Please, please, please, please, please....... YES!' He thought in triumph as he saw her packing away her books. Of course she'd want that same locker, it still had all the stickers she'd stuck on it from last year. "Hey, Tea!" He called as he ran up to her.
The girl with shoulder length brunet hair whipped her head at him just as he stopped in front of her, the blonde was panting slightly. "Hey Jou," She said with a smile as she dug out her box of sewing materials from the overstuffed locker and shoved it in her bag. Funny how she could get it messy like that on their first day of school and somehow manage to peg him as the slob of the group. "What's up?"
Jou then proceeded to pull out the ruined black puppy from his backpack and put on his saddest face for her. If he wanted her to do this for him then he'd most likely have to beg for it considering how busy she always was with her other little pet projects.
"Jou what happened to this?" She asked as she took in the condition of the thing. It looked so dirty, and the cotton looked rather useless too. The thing might as well be garbage.
Katsuya scratched the back of his head. "I was messing around outside and it got caught on something and ripped." He explained, hoping that she would buy his story so that he wouldn't have to explain things any further.
"And then what did you do with it, roll around with it in the trash?" She asked sarcastically while looking at all the ground in cigarette ashes. That was one comment in particular that he didn't like at all.
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Seto walked around the school calmly, his head darting back and forth as he looked for the familiar blonde head of his puppy through the many heads of hair in the school halls. His free hand was in his trench coat pocket while the other held onto his brief case, tightly holding onto the black handle while he squeezed the REBD plushie nervously. Praying that Katsuya would accept his apology.
Besides, if he told him how much he cared for him, then there was no way the blonde could turn him down! What they had couldn't mean that little to him, could it?
"Just take the damn thing, Tea!" He heard the familiar city accented voice of his puppy shout in anger through the many other voices in the hall.
Seto whipped his head in the direction of the sound, and was rather shocked to see his puppy and the girly twit he hung out with in a heated argument. But what really stabbed him in the chest was the fact that Katsuya was forcefully trying to make the girl take the stuffed puppy he gave to him from the fair. He didn't want it anymore?
On a closer look he could see how badly ruined it was as well, shredded, dirty and looking like complete garbage! The same stuffed animal that Katsuya seemed to cherish so much when they were together. The one he'd knocked him to the ground with in order to say his thank you's... he destroyed it?
"Fine, I'll take it already!" The little twit said angrily as she snatched the thing from Katsuya's hands and threw it rather unceremoniously into her locker before locking it. The puppy simply continued to glare at her.
Seto turned his back on them, but found that he couldn't walk away. Of course this was happening! What else did he expect?! That if he told the blonde that he wanted to take him back then he'd simply jump into his arms, take his measly little gift and all would be forgiven? No, that's not how things worked at all. The mutt had his memories back, and he remembered how much he hated him.
He went home and in a fit of rage destroyed the animal that he claimed to love so much back when he claimed to love him! And now he was trying to get rid of it for good! Though why he'd give it to the friendship girl instead of throwing it out or burning it himself, he didn't know. But he also didn't care. What he cared about was that his puppy hated him again.
Was what he did really all that terrible? Would Katsuya simply start making fun of his feelings for him now that he knew he had them? No, if Katsuya could go back to the way things were then he would too. He wasn't about to let his weakness get the better of him, and it's not like he'd told the blonde that he loved him or anything. Even though he did.
Kaiba simply couldn't take it as he practically shook with the hurt he was feeling in his heart. He wanted him back! Katsuya was supposed to want him back too! It wasn't fair! He then slowly pulled out the Red Eyes Black Dragon from his blue trench coat pocket before looking it over, and then sneering at it. As if it was the fault of the dragon that Jou was disgusted with him again. What good was this stupid thing to him now!? What would a simple stuffed animal do to help him?! Nothing! That's what!
Seto felt tears building in his eyes as his hands shook while he held the thing. His heart pounding beneath his chest at a speed that couldn't be healthy. Did everything he and Katsuya do together really mean so little that he'd just throw it all away like that? Their dancing, their kissing, playing around together at the fair, their lovemaking... it was all nothing to him.
The CEO forced back a sob as he pocketed the dragon, not knowing what else to do with it. 'Stop it already! He was just a dumb dog! You will not cry over something so stupid! You are Seto fucking Kaiba! You will not cry!' But while that stopped the tears from flowing down his face it didn't stop the shine he had in his eyes, or the feeling of being the one who was used and the unmistakable anger that went with it.
He never felt this way before. It wasn't even this bad when the pharaoh took him away those few weeks ago. The need to simply crawl into a hole and die with the idea that he and his puppy were rivals again shattered his soul and filled his eyes with a burning rage. This was all the fucking dogs fault! He was only playing a simple prank on him! If the fucking mutt hadn't seduced him then he wouldn't be feeling these things at all! He could give a shit if the dog hated him because at least he was used to it! How could he do that to him?! How could he claim to love him so much and then spit in his face like this?!
Jou saw Seto across the hall from where he still leaned against the lockers after Tea went away, and his face just lit up at the sight of him. But the CEO didn't see him as he got up and happily approached, his backpack still slung over his shoulder. He didn't care what Yami or Yugi said about him, he was actually here! He missed him so much and was happy just seeing him! Maybe they could cut first class and try to talk things over. Maybe this would prove everything to be one big mistake and they could get together again. Gods he hoped they could. Their separation was just unbearable.
When he made it over, Katsuya placed a gentle hand on his shoulder. "Seto, could I talk to--"
"DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME YOU FILTHY DOG!!" Seto loudly screamed at him before yanking his shoulder away, as if the blonde was dirty and he didn't want to be touched by him, before storming away and not looking back.
The whole hallway had gone quiet, but only for a moment before all the kids shrugged their shoulders and went on their way. It wasn't uncommon for Kaiba and Jou to act that way so why bother paying any attention to it?
But even after the sea of kids had disappeared and all gone to their respective classes, Jou was still standing in the quiet hall. A blank look in his dead eyes as tears poured freely down his face, but he didn't notice them. His heart was pounding furiously in his throat, making it hard for him to breathe and painful to swallow as his mind tried to process what just happened.
Don't fucking touch me you filthy dog? Was that really what he just said?
Yes. It was.
Jou felt the need to throw up as the butterflies rammed into his stomach with sledge hammers. Seto really did hate him. The sneer on his face filled with disgust and hatred was proof enough of that. He thought he was a dog. A stupid useless disgusting dog meant to do nothing but obey. He always called him one.
Seto had used him. Made him clean his house for him. Made him think he loved him while bringing him into his bed for a good fuck! That's all he was though, wasn't he? Just something for people to hurt and touch without his permission. Nothing anyone would want at all because of how dirty he was. Hell, Kaiba didn't even want him touching him just now.
He was cruel enough to play with his body and mind with that last prank he pulled. Because he didn't care for him at all. Kaiba got a good laugh, a servant, and someone to fill his empty bed. He won. Again.
Jou felt his chest ache as his body shook uncontrollably, knowing that it was his heart pounding as he sobbed, his face soaked in tears as he walked. Yami and Yugi were right. Otogi was right. He needed to see them.
Ten minutes later he finally managed to pull his aching body into the doorway of room 102, the teacher didn't look up at him but she knew he was there. Yami and Yugi were in one corner of the room, and the shocked looks on their faces gave Jou an idea of how bad he looked. But what killed him the most was the sight of Kaiba in the other corner.
He was here!? He couldn't stay now! He had to get out of here.
Seto's eyes widened at the sight of him as he let out a small gasp, but Jou didn't see since he was no longer facing him. Why was he crying? What had happened to him? It couldn't have been what he said in the hallway. Or was Katsuya really crying because of him? But he didn't love him, or even care what he thought of him. Why would simply shouting at him make him cry? Whatever it was the very sight of the blonde's tear stained face made his heart squeeze, a part of him thinking it was his fault when he knew that it couldn't be possible.
"Katsuya Jounouchi, because this is the first day of school I'll let you off with a warning," The teacher said, not looking up from her papers just yet. "But the next time you'll get a dete–good God Katsuya, what's the matter?" She said in shock as she took in the sight of his tear stained face and swollen red eyes.
Jou turned his blurry amber eyes to where Seto was sitting again, a look of pain and longing in them as he started to shake again. Yami and Yugi just looked at where he was looking before glaring at Kaiba, knowing that whatever had happened was his fault.
Katsuya then let out a small sob before turning his soaked face back to the teacher, speaking in a small voice. "M-my stomach hurts, c-can I go to th-the nurse?" He choked before letting out a small sob, sickened with himself for acting so weak in front of Seto like that. He was probably having a hard time trying to not burst out in laughter at how pitiful he looked, and the thought only made him cry harder.
The teacher blinked at him. "Yes, of course you can go." She said, showing some compassion and sympathy for the obviously hurting boy. "If you're feeling that bad then perhaps you should go home and get some rest." She offered, thinking him to be in some true pain if he could cry like that. Was this really the same pain in the ass, tough guy joker that she had to deal with last year?
Katsuya didn't listen to that last part as he just slowly limped away. He didn't need to see the nurse for a stomach ache, he just didn't want to be in the same class as Seto. The very sight of the brunet made him want to roll over and die.
He'd talk to the others about this later, he just wanted to be alone right now. He slowly pushed his way into the bathroom, his eyes tightly shutting and quickening the flow of his tears as he broke down on the bathroom floor and sobbed against the door, dropping his book bag next to him on the floor. He just wanted to cry. That's all. Cry without being made fun of for it or without being seen.
He then crawled over to the corner the bathroom before leaning his head against the cold stone wall and hugging his empty bag, wishing that he had his puppy with him to give the comfort he needed instead of the uncomfortable bag. Even though it was ruined he'd still prefer it to be the thing he held and cried on.
How could he do that to him? Make him feel as if he finally had someone who would actually care for him before ripping it all away like that? He loved Seto! How could even he be so cruel?
But Seto didn't love him. It was all a game, he was nothing more to the brunet then a plaything. He was nothing to anybody but a simple plaything! Even to his own father!
Katsuya sobbed harder at the thought before pushing himself further into the corner and wishing he could just disappear into it, drawing his knees up to his chest. He ended up crushing his almost empty backpack closer to him, and when he did he felt the outline of something small and solid inside.
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'Katsuya is not crying because of me! He's not crying because of me, he's not!' Seto thought to himself stubbornly as he sat in his seat. His knee was shaking nervously as he ignored the death glare he was getting from Yami and the disapproving one from Yugi.
He came in saying that his stomach was hurting, and for a few minutes Seto tried to convince himself that, that was the real reason for his tears. But he knew that Katsuya wouldn't cry like that over a simple physical pain, so he was obviously lying.
'Seto, could I talk to--' Kaiba's eyes snapped wide open at that last thought. He was only going to ask to talk?! And then he called him a filthy dog! No wonder he was crying like that! The CEO let out an exasperated sigh at himself as he put his face in his hand at the realisation. The puppy didn't come to insult him or rub his face in anything at all.
But... even then, he didn't say anything to him that he didn't used to say! Katsuya never cried like that before! When he looked at him back in the classroom doorway, his face was so pained and tortured, as if he had been the one to put it there. Maybe there was still hope for them. This had to prove him wrong! Perhaps he could even be foolish enough to hope that the blonde still loved him?
That thought in mind, he quickly packed up his things in his briefcase, got up from his desk and quickly headed for the door.
"Where do you think you're going?" The teacher demanded as she saw him.
"I have to use the washroom." He replied, not waiting for her to give him any permission before he just walked out the door.
Yami didn't really like that one at all. He wasn't going to the washroom he was going to see Jou! Yami then quickly got up from his own desk, but before he could do anything the teacher stopped him. "If you need to use the bathroom as well then you're going to have to wait. No more than one person is allowed out of each class." She said, picking up a piece of chalk before turning her back on his to write on the black board.
"But both Jou and Kaiba are out!" He shouted, wanting to stop Kaiba from speaking to his friend before he could do anymore damage.
The woman then turned to glare at him through her small glasses. "Katsuya Jounouchi is ill and may not be here for the rest of the day! He doesn't count. If you want to leave then you must wait for Kaiba to return or else I'll have you suspended for disobedience!" She threatened before turning her back on him again.
Yami slowly sat back down in his seat, grumbling about how he could of had her imprisoned for that back in his day. And that was the end of that.
Seto however, was not going to the washroom but to the nurse's office to try and talk things out with his puppy. He knew that he must be setting himself up for more heartache, but if there was a chance that he was wrong then he wanted to take it.
Marching into the incompetent woman's office whom everybody around here referred to as the nurse, he demanded to see Katsuya right on the spot. The woman behind the desk simply told him that it was the first day of school and that so far she had no one come in to see her.
Kaiba couldn't help but blink at the older woman in confusion before turning around and leaving. Well, at least now he knew for sure that Katsuya wasn't crying over a stomach ache. Perhaps he went to the bathroom.
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Jou opened up his school bag and pulled out the shining silver gun. He'd forgotten all about it and so was a little surprised to see it. He just couldn't help but stare at it for a moment, thinking about what he should do with it. Could he use it on himself? End all of his pain? It wouldn't take much at all before he'd finally be free from his life and all the suffering that came with it.
Why should he stay? Why should he live? Nobody wanted him. No one cared for him. He was nothing but a plaything for people to hurt and use. A fuck toy. A stupid, dirty, gullible, fuck toy!
His father didn't love him, was always beating, molesting and trying to rape him. His best friend wasn't talking to him because of what he claimed that Otogi tried to do. Yami and Yugi never listened to him, he never saw his sister. His mother thought he was trash. everyone thought he was an idiot, not meant to be taken seriously. And Seto...
Seto didn't love him. Those few weeks he'd spent with the CEO were the best of his entire life. Because in that time, although he was working, he was still free. Free and safe. Before it would of been okay to be slapped around and made fun of while trying to ignore his fathers wandering hands, but only because he didn't know what anything else was. He didn't know that there was something better out there. And once he'd experienced it, Katsuya found that he just couldn't go back to the way things were before.
Jou just couldn't help it, he started to sob again, his hot and thick tears coming more fiercely this time as pointed the gun at himself and placed it in his mouth. Tasting the cold steel that made him shake all the more as his hot tears continued to flow.
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Seto opened the bathroom door and walked inside. The place appeared to be empty so he checked all the stalls. Finding them all empty as well he angrily slammed his fist against one of the stall doors before leaving. There was another boys bathroom down the hall, and if he wasn't in there then he'd just call his limo and see if he went home.
He then pulled out the REBD plushie from his trench coat pocket again before holding it in both of his hands with his briefcase as he walked, as if it was his courage and would help him through all of this.
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Katsuya sat so still. He was so afraid right now, but even the unknown had to be better than this. Right?
What did he have left to offer the world now? Or to offer anyone for that matter? He gave everything he had left to Seto. His heart, which had yet to shatter or break but was now broken. His soul, which his father couldn't break but which he had also broken. And his virginity, which he had protected from his father for so long and had given to Seto so willingly. But he thought that all these things were useless trash. Dirty, just like he was.
Dirty, weak, useless, broken, slut.
Katsuya pulled the trigger.
Just then, Seto walked in to have a look around and see if he was there, and when he looked in the corner, the sick sight that met his eyes forced all the blood from his face, and he dropped his briefcase and plushie on the floor in his stunned and fearful shock.
"Oh my God."
To Be Continued.....................
By: Freewater
Disclaimers: I do NOT own Yu-Gi-Oh! Please don't sue me, you won't get much at all
Warnings: Male/Male relationships, swearing
Pairings: Seto/Jou
Rating: R for swearing and later chapters
Archive: If you want this story for your website then just ask first
Feedback: Definitely! Please, yes!! I want to know if I did a good job or not writing this!
Notes: A bunch of these little stars Means a change in time or scenery. 'These things here indicate thoughts.
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Katsuya walked down the hall and made his way through the many groups of kids as best as he could with his small limp. If he tried hard enough it wasn't all that bad, but it continued to hurt like a bitch no matter what he did, and for once he was actually eager to get to geography class so he could sit down. But right now he had to find the others, and especially Tea so she could fix his puppy for him. So far he wasn't having too much luck in finding them.
He heaved a heavy sigh as he went, wishing that he just skipped school and headed for his usual spot in the park. The place where he went when he just wanted to sleep without worrying about his father coming after him. He'd usually go there once a week for a good rest, and right now he was wishing that he'd gone. It was the first day of school anyway, it wasn't like they were going to be given any big projects to do.
Just as Jou convinced himself to leave and give himself the time he needed at the park to heal, Yugi and Yami caught sight of him. "Hey, Jou!" The shorter of the two look alikes called as he ran over, a big grin on his face. Yami simply walked up, his arms crossed with a warm smile on his own face.
Katsuya forced a smile on his face before standing up straight to greet his friend. "Hey, Yug." He said as the shorter boy wrapped his arms around him affectionately. Jou forced back a small cry of pain at the act.
Well, he was seen by both Yugi and Yami, so cutting school was out of the question now.
"So what class do you have first?" Yugi asked. "Yami and I have geography together." The only reason why Yami attended school was to learn more about how the world now was, so Jou wouldn't be surprised if he also had history along with math and science.
"I have that class too." He said.
"Good, you can sit near me and my aibou." Yami said, obviously still trying to keep him away from Kaiba. And the suspicious looks he kept sending to anyone with short brown hair gave Katsuya the impression that he was still watching out for him.
"Hey, have you guys seen Honda?" The blonde asked, remembering that he wanted to talk with him and also trying to take their minds off of Seto for a minute. If the CEO wanted to talk to him then he was more than welcome in his opinion. Now, if only he could get his friends to see that.
Yugi let him go. "Not yet, but I was talking to Ryou and he said that he, Honda and Bakura have math together next period." He said.
"Okay, cool. But what about Tea? What classes does she have?" Jou asked, wanting to find her before she got into her sewing class and ask her to fix his puppy for him.
It was Yami who spoke this time. "She has a sewing class now and then history with me." He said, earning a small gasp from Jou. There was a good ten minutes left before the next class started! He needed to find her fast!
"Um, I'll be right back you guys!" He said, quickly running off to try and find Tea's locker. Maybe she had the same one this year.
Please, please, please, please, please....... YES!' He thought in triumph as he saw her packing away her books. Of course she'd want that same locker, it still had all the stickers she'd stuck on it from last year. "Hey, Tea!" He called as he ran up to her.
The girl with shoulder length brunet hair whipped her head at him just as he stopped in front of her, the blonde was panting slightly. "Hey Jou," She said with a smile as she dug out her box of sewing materials from the overstuffed locker and shoved it in her bag. Funny how she could get it messy like that on their first day of school and somehow manage to peg him as the slob of the group. "What's up?"
Jou then proceeded to pull out the ruined black puppy from his backpack and put on his saddest face for her. If he wanted her to do this for him then he'd most likely have to beg for it considering how busy she always was with her other little pet projects.
"Jou what happened to this?" She asked as she took in the condition of the thing. It looked so dirty, and the cotton looked rather useless too. The thing might as well be garbage.
Katsuya scratched the back of his head. "I was messing around outside and it got caught on something and ripped." He explained, hoping that she would buy his story so that he wouldn't have to explain things any further.
"And then what did you do with it, roll around with it in the trash?" She asked sarcastically while looking at all the ground in cigarette ashes. That was one comment in particular that he didn't like at all.
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Seto walked around the school calmly, his head darting back and forth as he looked for the familiar blonde head of his puppy through the many heads of hair in the school halls. His free hand was in his trench coat pocket while the other held onto his brief case, tightly holding onto the black handle while he squeezed the REBD plushie nervously. Praying that Katsuya would accept his apology.
Besides, if he told him how much he cared for him, then there was no way the blonde could turn him down! What they had couldn't mean that little to him, could it?
"Just take the damn thing, Tea!" He heard the familiar city accented voice of his puppy shout in anger through the many other voices in the hall.
Seto whipped his head in the direction of the sound, and was rather shocked to see his puppy and the girly twit he hung out with in a heated argument. But what really stabbed him in the chest was the fact that Katsuya was forcefully trying to make the girl take the stuffed puppy he gave to him from the fair. He didn't want it anymore?
On a closer look he could see how badly ruined it was as well, shredded, dirty and looking like complete garbage! The same stuffed animal that Katsuya seemed to cherish so much when they were together. The one he'd knocked him to the ground with in order to say his thank you's... he destroyed it?
"Fine, I'll take it already!" The little twit said angrily as she snatched the thing from Katsuya's hands and threw it rather unceremoniously into her locker before locking it. The puppy simply continued to glare at her.
Seto turned his back on them, but found that he couldn't walk away. Of course this was happening! What else did he expect?! That if he told the blonde that he wanted to take him back then he'd simply jump into his arms, take his measly little gift and all would be forgiven? No, that's not how things worked at all. The mutt had his memories back, and he remembered how much he hated him.
He went home and in a fit of rage destroyed the animal that he claimed to love so much back when he claimed to love him! And now he was trying to get rid of it for good! Though why he'd give it to the friendship girl instead of throwing it out or burning it himself, he didn't know. But he also didn't care. What he cared about was that his puppy hated him again.
Was what he did really all that terrible? Would Katsuya simply start making fun of his feelings for him now that he knew he had them? No, if Katsuya could go back to the way things were then he would too. He wasn't about to let his weakness get the better of him, and it's not like he'd told the blonde that he loved him or anything. Even though he did.
Kaiba simply couldn't take it as he practically shook with the hurt he was feeling in his heart. He wanted him back! Katsuya was supposed to want him back too! It wasn't fair! He then slowly pulled out the Red Eyes Black Dragon from his blue trench coat pocket before looking it over, and then sneering at it. As if it was the fault of the dragon that Jou was disgusted with him again. What good was this stupid thing to him now!? What would a simple stuffed animal do to help him?! Nothing! That's what!
Seto felt tears building in his eyes as his hands shook while he held the thing. His heart pounding beneath his chest at a speed that couldn't be healthy. Did everything he and Katsuya do together really mean so little that he'd just throw it all away like that? Their dancing, their kissing, playing around together at the fair, their lovemaking... it was all nothing to him.
The CEO forced back a sob as he pocketed the dragon, not knowing what else to do with it. 'Stop it already! He was just a dumb dog! You will not cry over something so stupid! You are Seto fucking Kaiba! You will not cry!' But while that stopped the tears from flowing down his face it didn't stop the shine he had in his eyes, or the feeling of being the one who was used and the unmistakable anger that went with it.
He never felt this way before. It wasn't even this bad when the pharaoh took him away those few weeks ago. The need to simply crawl into a hole and die with the idea that he and his puppy were rivals again shattered his soul and filled his eyes with a burning rage. This was all the fucking dogs fault! He was only playing a simple prank on him! If the fucking mutt hadn't seduced him then he wouldn't be feeling these things at all! He could give a shit if the dog hated him because at least he was used to it! How could he do that to him?! How could he claim to love him so much and then spit in his face like this?!
Jou saw Seto across the hall from where he still leaned against the lockers after Tea went away, and his face just lit up at the sight of him. But the CEO didn't see him as he got up and happily approached, his backpack still slung over his shoulder. He didn't care what Yami or Yugi said about him, he was actually here! He missed him so much and was happy just seeing him! Maybe they could cut first class and try to talk things over. Maybe this would prove everything to be one big mistake and they could get together again. Gods he hoped they could. Their separation was just unbearable.
When he made it over, Katsuya placed a gentle hand on his shoulder. "Seto, could I talk to--"
"DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME YOU FILTHY DOG!!" Seto loudly screamed at him before yanking his shoulder away, as if the blonde was dirty and he didn't want to be touched by him, before storming away and not looking back.
The whole hallway had gone quiet, but only for a moment before all the kids shrugged their shoulders and went on their way. It wasn't uncommon for Kaiba and Jou to act that way so why bother paying any attention to it?
But even after the sea of kids had disappeared and all gone to their respective classes, Jou was still standing in the quiet hall. A blank look in his dead eyes as tears poured freely down his face, but he didn't notice them. His heart was pounding furiously in his throat, making it hard for him to breathe and painful to swallow as his mind tried to process what just happened.
Don't fucking touch me you filthy dog? Was that really what he just said?
Yes. It was.
Jou felt the need to throw up as the butterflies rammed into his stomach with sledge hammers. Seto really did hate him. The sneer on his face filled with disgust and hatred was proof enough of that. He thought he was a dog. A stupid useless disgusting dog meant to do nothing but obey. He always called him one.
Seto had used him. Made him clean his house for him. Made him think he loved him while bringing him into his bed for a good fuck! That's all he was though, wasn't he? Just something for people to hurt and touch without his permission. Nothing anyone would want at all because of how dirty he was. Hell, Kaiba didn't even want him touching him just now.
He was cruel enough to play with his body and mind with that last prank he pulled. Because he didn't care for him at all. Kaiba got a good laugh, a servant, and someone to fill his empty bed. He won. Again.
Jou felt his chest ache as his body shook uncontrollably, knowing that it was his heart pounding as he sobbed, his face soaked in tears as he walked. Yami and Yugi were right. Otogi was right. He needed to see them.
Ten minutes later he finally managed to pull his aching body into the doorway of room 102, the teacher didn't look up at him but she knew he was there. Yami and Yugi were in one corner of the room, and the shocked looks on their faces gave Jou an idea of how bad he looked. But what killed him the most was the sight of Kaiba in the other corner.
He was here!? He couldn't stay now! He had to get out of here.
Seto's eyes widened at the sight of him as he let out a small gasp, but Jou didn't see since he was no longer facing him. Why was he crying? What had happened to him? It couldn't have been what he said in the hallway. Or was Katsuya really crying because of him? But he didn't love him, or even care what he thought of him. Why would simply shouting at him make him cry? Whatever it was the very sight of the blonde's tear stained face made his heart squeeze, a part of him thinking it was his fault when he knew that it couldn't be possible.
"Katsuya Jounouchi, because this is the first day of school I'll let you off with a warning," The teacher said, not looking up from her papers just yet. "But the next time you'll get a dete–good God Katsuya, what's the matter?" She said in shock as she took in the sight of his tear stained face and swollen red eyes.
Jou turned his blurry amber eyes to where Seto was sitting again, a look of pain and longing in them as he started to shake again. Yami and Yugi just looked at where he was looking before glaring at Kaiba, knowing that whatever had happened was his fault.
Katsuya then let out a small sob before turning his soaked face back to the teacher, speaking in a small voice. "M-my stomach hurts, c-can I go to th-the nurse?" He choked before letting out a small sob, sickened with himself for acting so weak in front of Seto like that. He was probably having a hard time trying to not burst out in laughter at how pitiful he looked, and the thought only made him cry harder.
The teacher blinked at him. "Yes, of course you can go." She said, showing some compassion and sympathy for the obviously hurting boy. "If you're feeling that bad then perhaps you should go home and get some rest." She offered, thinking him to be in some true pain if he could cry like that. Was this really the same pain in the ass, tough guy joker that she had to deal with last year?
Katsuya didn't listen to that last part as he just slowly limped away. He didn't need to see the nurse for a stomach ache, he just didn't want to be in the same class as Seto. The very sight of the brunet made him want to roll over and die.
He'd talk to the others about this later, he just wanted to be alone right now. He slowly pushed his way into the bathroom, his eyes tightly shutting and quickening the flow of his tears as he broke down on the bathroom floor and sobbed against the door, dropping his book bag next to him on the floor. He just wanted to cry. That's all. Cry without being made fun of for it or without being seen.
He then crawled over to the corner the bathroom before leaning his head against the cold stone wall and hugging his empty bag, wishing that he had his puppy with him to give the comfort he needed instead of the uncomfortable bag. Even though it was ruined he'd still prefer it to be the thing he held and cried on.
How could he do that to him? Make him feel as if he finally had someone who would actually care for him before ripping it all away like that? He loved Seto! How could even he be so cruel?
But Seto didn't love him. It was all a game, he was nothing more to the brunet then a plaything. He was nothing to anybody but a simple plaything! Even to his own father!
Katsuya sobbed harder at the thought before pushing himself further into the corner and wishing he could just disappear into it, drawing his knees up to his chest. He ended up crushing his almost empty backpack closer to him, and when he did he felt the outline of something small and solid inside.
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'Katsuya is not crying because of me! He's not crying because of me, he's not!' Seto thought to himself stubbornly as he sat in his seat. His knee was shaking nervously as he ignored the death glare he was getting from Yami and the disapproving one from Yugi.
He came in saying that his stomach was hurting, and for a few minutes Seto tried to convince himself that, that was the real reason for his tears. But he knew that Katsuya wouldn't cry like that over a simple physical pain, so he was obviously lying.
'Seto, could I talk to--' Kaiba's eyes snapped wide open at that last thought. He was only going to ask to talk?! And then he called him a filthy dog! No wonder he was crying like that! The CEO let out an exasperated sigh at himself as he put his face in his hand at the realisation. The puppy didn't come to insult him or rub his face in anything at all.
But... even then, he didn't say anything to him that he didn't used to say! Katsuya never cried like that before! When he looked at him back in the classroom doorway, his face was so pained and tortured, as if he had been the one to put it there. Maybe there was still hope for them. This had to prove him wrong! Perhaps he could even be foolish enough to hope that the blonde still loved him?
That thought in mind, he quickly packed up his things in his briefcase, got up from his desk and quickly headed for the door.
"Where do you think you're going?" The teacher demanded as she saw him.
"I have to use the washroom." He replied, not waiting for her to give him any permission before he just walked out the door.
Yami didn't really like that one at all. He wasn't going to the washroom he was going to see Jou! Yami then quickly got up from his own desk, but before he could do anything the teacher stopped him. "If you need to use the bathroom as well then you're going to have to wait. No more than one person is allowed out of each class." She said, picking up a piece of chalk before turning her back on his to write on the black board.
"But both Jou and Kaiba are out!" He shouted, wanting to stop Kaiba from speaking to his friend before he could do anymore damage.
The woman then turned to glare at him through her small glasses. "Katsuya Jounouchi is ill and may not be here for the rest of the day! He doesn't count. If you want to leave then you must wait for Kaiba to return or else I'll have you suspended for disobedience!" She threatened before turning her back on him again.
Yami slowly sat back down in his seat, grumbling about how he could of had her imprisoned for that back in his day. And that was the end of that.
Seto however, was not going to the washroom but to the nurse's office to try and talk things out with his puppy. He knew that he must be setting himself up for more heartache, but if there was a chance that he was wrong then he wanted to take it.
Marching into the incompetent woman's office whom everybody around here referred to as the nurse, he demanded to see Katsuya right on the spot. The woman behind the desk simply told him that it was the first day of school and that so far she had no one come in to see her.
Kaiba couldn't help but blink at the older woman in confusion before turning around and leaving. Well, at least now he knew for sure that Katsuya wasn't crying over a stomach ache. Perhaps he went to the bathroom.
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Jou opened up his school bag and pulled out the shining silver gun. He'd forgotten all about it and so was a little surprised to see it. He just couldn't help but stare at it for a moment, thinking about what he should do with it. Could he use it on himself? End all of his pain? It wouldn't take much at all before he'd finally be free from his life and all the suffering that came with it.
Why should he stay? Why should he live? Nobody wanted him. No one cared for him. He was nothing but a plaything for people to hurt and use. A fuck toy. A stupid, dirty, gullible, fuck toy!
His father didn't love him, was always beating, molesting and trying to rape him. His best friend wasn't talking to him because of what he claimed that Otogi tried to do. Yami and Yugi never listened to him, he never saw his sister. His mother thought he was trash. everyone thought he was an idiot, not meant to be taken seriously. And Seto...
Seto didn't love him. Those few weeks he'd spent with the CEO were the best of his entire life. Because in that time, although he was working, he was still free. Free and safe. Before it would of been okay to be slapped around and made fun of while trying to ignore his fathers wandering hands, but only because he didn't know what anything else was. He didn't know that there was something better out there. And once he'd experienced it, Katsuya found that he just couldn't go back to the way things were before.
Jou just couldn't help it, he started to sob again, his hot and thick tears coming more fiercely this time as pointed the gun at himself and placed it in his mouth. Tasting the cold steel that made him shake all the more as his hot tears continued to flow.
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Seto opened the bathroom door and walked inside. The place appeared to be empty so he checked all the stalls. Finding them all empty as well he angrily slammed his fist against one of the stall doors before leaving. There was another boys bathroom down the hall, and if he wasn't in there then he'd just call his limo and see if he went home.
He then pulled out the REBD plushie from his trench coat pocket again before holding it in both of his hands with his briefcase as he walked, as if it was his courage and would help him through all of this.
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Katsuya sat so still. He was so afraid right now, but even the unknown had to be better than this. Right?
What did he have left to offer the world now? Or to offer anyone for that matter? He gave everything he had left to Seto. His heart, which had yet to shatter or break but was now broken. His soul, which his father couldn't break but which he had also broken. And his virginity, which he had protected from his father for so long and had given to Seto so willingly. But he thought that all these things were useless trash. Dirty, just like he was.
Dirty, weak, useless, broken, slut.
Katsuya pulled the trigger.
Just then, Seto walked in to have a look around and see if he was there, and when he looked in the corner, the sick sight that met his eyes forced all the blood from his face, and he dropped his briefcase and plushie on the floor in his stunned and fearful shock.
"Oh my God."
To Be Continued.....................