I don't own Averman or the song. Everclear owns wonderful and Disney owns
Averman.
I woke up that Sunday morning to the sounds of my parents fighting. If I heard it then I knew my little sister heard it. She'll be in here any minute now. As if I were psychic she came in.
"Hey Lester." She says entering the room. I smile warmly at her still to tired to say anything. She comes and sits next to me on my bed. I protectively drape my arm around her shoulders.
"Its ok, Gaby." I tell her soothingly. She smiles at me, tears in her lovely eyes. I wipe the tears away. I pull her closer to me. I close my eyes to stop myself from crying at the sight of my frightened baby sister.
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I open the door. I notice my old poster missing off my door. It was a really cool star wars one with the short green dude on it.Yoda I think his name was. "The casualties of war..." I mumble to myself. Why can't my parents stop fighting? They don't even realize how much they are scaring Gaby.and me for that matter. I mean if they are willing to beat up a poster what will happen if Gaby or I is in the wrong place at the wrong time?
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
I hold Gaby's hand as we walk down the stairs toward the yelling knowing they won't stop until they see us. I stopped in the middle of the stairway when I heard something break. I listened intently. I heard my mother crying as my dad was shouting.
"Shut up!" My mother yelled.
"Well, Anne this is fuckin bullshit!" My dad told her. Why can't they just be normal? Gaby squeezed my hand harder as she heard this. I picked up the small 7-year-old. I'm used to this she's not. Tomorrow I'm going back to Eden Hall; we have been off for spring break. But I don't want to go. I know if I didn't though the other ducks would pluck my feathers and cook me for dinner. Who will take care of Gaby while I'm gone? My parents are to busy fighting to do it. I hope the get it together soon. Just for Gaby's sake. We walk down the stairs and into the living room. My mom looks ready to say something but decides against it as we enter the room.
Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
Say bad words that make me wanna cry
The whole day went as normal. Nobody mentioned the fight and nobody yelled. We acted like a normal family.the kind no one suspects of fighting. I went to work at the movie theater in the mall at 12:30. I had matte nay shift with to of my non-duck friends Wing Osborne and Alexandra Daily. Somehow the three of us always got put into the same shifts, usually afternoon ones. It was pretty boring, then again it always is. "I'm breaking." Wing said standing up and stretching. I nod. "Back in 15?" Alex always asked us. So that she could know when to expect him back. She is a human clock. She could tell you the time without looking at a clock. So, naturally Me and Wing being the two smart teenage boys we are put her in charge of keeping track of our breaks. Wing nodded and left our 3 seater booth. After about 15 minutes Wing came back and I declared it my turn to leave. "Hey Als, Since Wing is back I'm gonna go on break." I told her.
"Back in 15?" She asked.
"Yea, Then you can have your break." I reply. Alex grinned at the thought of her well deserved break. I gave grinned back and left. I started thinking what Gaby and the folks were doing. I was thinking so in-depth I didn't even realize I was being followed.
"Hey." I heard someone say in a familiar deep tone. Startled, I turned on my heels.
"Oh. Hey, Fulton." I said my down emotion appeared in my voice.
"What's up?" Fulton asked his voice ladled with concern.
"Nothing, just working." I reply innocently hoping we wouldn't pry farther into my mood.
"You know what I mean, Averman. What's wrong?" He snapped impatiently.
"Well. From the beginning of my younger Sisters life my parents have been fighting. I swear, I'm gonna cut my ears off just so I don't have to hear 'em." I blurt, my voice slightly uneven from raw emotion.
"How long is that?" he asked.
"A full 7 years." I tell him, realizing It's almost Gaby's birthday.
"Yea, It's stupid isn't it." He paused and I gave a sad nod. "How they'd rather fight then work things out. The problems never get fixed and it makes no sense." I tell him. I nod again. 'Hey' I thought to myself 'I may win the genius world record for the most amount of sad nods during a pity-fest'
"I see them everyday, because I don't live in dorms. And I get along with 'em both and so does Gaby, so why can't they get along with each other?" I tell him sadly. Here I am spilling my guts to a person I sadly barely know.
"A divorce might be best." He said quietly. I give him a frightened glance; I really didn't want it to come to that.
"That'll make things worse." I tell him. He nodded understandingly. "There's always that stinging question. If it's what he wants and it's what she wants" I start but, He cut me off. "Why is there so much pain?" Fulton says. I nodded trying to ignore the lump in my throat. Quickly I looked down at my watch and give him an awkward smile. "I gotta go relieve, Alexandra. It's time for her break." I say walking back to the ticket booth. That night after I changed for bed Gaby came into my room, followed by my parents. Gaby sat down on my bed and my parents stood in front of us. They look at us with concern.
"We know you two heard us this morning." My dad says in his usually stern voice. "But It will be ok, you'll see. Everything will be wonderful one day." My mom tells us sweetly. But that's a lie. She's been telling me that since Gaby was born.that's when the fighting started, 7 years ago. They left and I lay down and closed my eyes. I know I don't believe them but for some reason I felt better when they told me it was going to be better.
Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels that make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday
I heard mom put Gaby to bed. "It's going to be all wonderful soon." She tells her. "Promise?" Gaby asked innocently. "I promise." Mom tells her. I knew Gaby believe her. She's so young, so naive, and so. childishly innocent. I wanted a drink so I stood up and walk out into the Kitchen. My mom was sitting at the table eyes are filled to the rim with tears. "mom, are you ok?" I ask. She nodded and smiles. "Yea, everything will be wonderful someday." She tells me. I had it. Why does everyone keep lying to Gaby and me because we are kids? I mean you try and act happy when your crying and she who believes you. It doesn't bug me that they lied to me, but she promised Gaby and Gaby takes promises seriously. I want to know how can you lie to someone? I mean actually lie, lie. Like tell everyone your extremely happy and hopeful while bawling like a baby. I seriously hate it. I back up to my room with out my drink not wanting to be there any longer
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
(Na na na na na na na)
I don't want them to tell me everything will be ok. It's a lie. It always has been. I can't stand all their lies now. They are lying too much.every night for the passed 7 years. I mean it started out like once every 2 months then once a month then 1 a week and so on and so on. Now it's every night. Every night they fight. Every night they promise its all ok. Every night we believed them.every night that is until now.
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
That Monday Charlie and the rest of us ducks skated off to school kinda like the first day of school.except we didn't go in the wrong way and crash into the curtain therefore embarrassing ourselves. We did what we normally do, joke, laugh, catch up with the foreign ducks.not really foreign just outta state. but you get the point. I was extremely hyper to try and create the illusion that my summer was great. Instead of what it truly was, nothing but lies and fights.
"Averman, man, are you feeling ok?" Goldberg asks me.
"Couldn't be better." I lie with a huge grin. He just looks at me. Most of the ducks stay in dorms but I don't. I want to make sure Gaby knows not everyone in the world yells and fights with each other. When it was time to leave I dragged myself away from the rest of the ducks so I could catch the city bus home. As much as I love Gaby and as much as I want to protect her, I don't want to go home to the yelling of my mom and dad
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I like to laugh so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home
I get off the bus about a block away from my house. Knowing no one will be home for at least an hour I pull out my key and unlock the door. Immediately I walk up to my room and flop down on my bed. I close my eyes just for a while to try and imagine my life if my parents didn't lie and didn't fight.
"Pretty dull, huh?" I mumble out loud. The image of my mom pops into my head. I still can't believe she'd try to lie while she's crying. Sob sob.oh yea Hun everything's great. I mock mentally. I cant believe I used to believe that. I can't believe I was so naïve. What will happen when Gaby finds out they lied.
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday
It was months after that Monday I pretended everything was ok, when they told us. We were sitting at dinner when dad said:
"We know you don't like are fighting."
"And neither do we." Mom interjected.
"So we decide to divorce." Dad finally says. Gaby looks confused. I just stare tears making my vision blurry.
"W-w-what?" I manage to chock out.
"I know it seems upsetting at first but everything's wonderful now." Mom says smiling through her tears.
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
This shocks me. Wonderful? How is this wonderful?
"Mom this is not wonderful!" I yell. "Wonderful is me, you, Gaby and DAD living together with out fighting!" Gaby looks at me scared but I didn't care anymore. How could she just let this happen.then it hit me. She's only 7, she doesn't know what the hell is going on. I felt bad. I wish the would yell and fight and lie. If they did at least we'd all be together. I hear Gaby run up the stairs crying she runs right into my room.
"What's wrong Gaby?" I ask her. Knowing they probably just explained to her what was happening.
"Daddy's leaving!" She whined. I picked her up and hugged her. I don't want to hear it any more. I want them to start fighting again.I don't care as long as they don't tell me everything is wonderful now they are divorcing.
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
My parents have been divorced for two years. Gaby and I live with my mom. She keeps telling me that she just didn't love dad anymore. How can you stop loving someone? I mean if you love someone enough to Marry them and have two kids with him how can you stop loving him? I just doesn't seem possible.it's sorta funny because I used to think that divorce was natural and nothing was wrong with it at least I did until My parents divorced. She says that when I grow up I'll understand. Where does she live? I'm almost eighteen. I am almost a legalized adult of American society. The only thing worse is when she wants me to meet her 'friends'. In other words some guy that she's slept with a couple of times. I remember one guy.Jeff I think his name was. He was the first.
"Hey Champ, I'm you mommy's friend." He told me.
"You don't have to talk down to me." I tell him with out looking him. "Lester be nice. We can start over. He can be your dad." My mother told me. I stood up. "This man is not a will not be my dad!" I tell her standing up to glare at them. They both left my room and Gaby came in. "You don't like Jeff?" She asks. I shake my head. "Neither do I, I want Dad to come live with us again." She tells me. "Me too." I tell her smiling. I hate things the way they are. When ever I complain mom casts me a tearful forlorn glance and tells me: "Why? Everythings wonderful now." She plasters a fake smile on her face. Finally I broke. "Mom, incase you haven't noticed it's not wonderful! It never was! Me and Gaby don't want to hear it anymore!" I yelled storming up to my room. I didn't want to live in a life of 'wonderful new endeavors' .
I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just wanna my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
I woke up that Sunday morning to the sounds of my parents fighting. If I heard it then I knew my little sister heard it. She'll be in here any minute now. As if I were psychic she came in.
"Hey Lester." She says entering the room. I smile warmly at her still to tired to say anything. She comes and sits next to me on my bed. I protectively drape my arm around her shoulders.
"Its ok, Gaby." I tell her soothingly. She smiles at me, tears in her lovely eyes. I wipe the tears away. I pull her closer to me. I close my eyes to stop myself from crying at the sight of my frightened baby sister.
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I open the door. I notice my old poster missing off my door. It was a really cool star wars one with the short green dude on it.Yoda I think his name was. "The casualties of war..." I mumble to myself. Why can't my parents stop fighting? They don't even realize how much they are scaring Gaby.and me for that matter. I mean if they are willing to beat up a poster what will happen if Gaby or I is in the wrong place at the wrong time?
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
I hold Gaby's hand as we walk down the stairs toward the yelling knowing they won't stop until they see us. I stopped in the middle of the stairway when I heard something break. I listened intently. I heard my mother crying as my dad was shouting.
"Shut up!" My mother yelled.
"Well, Anne this is fuckin bullshit!" My dad told her. Why can't they just be normal? Gaby squeezed my hand harder as she heard this. I picked up the small 7-year-old. I'm used to this she's not. Tomorrow I'm going back to Eden Hall; we have been off for spring break. But I don't want to go. I know if I didn't though the other ducks would pluck my feathers and cook me for dinner. Who will take care of Gaby while I'm gone? My parents are to busy fighting to do it. I hope the get it together soon. Just for Gaby's sake. We walk down the stairs and into the living room. My mom looks ready to say something but decides against it as we enter the room.
Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
Say bad words that make me wanna cry
The whole day went as normal. Nobody mentioned the fight and nobody yelled. We acted like a normal family.the kind no one suspects of fighting. I went to work at the movie theater in the mall at 12:30. I had matte nay shift with to of my non-duck friends Wing Osborne and Alexandra Daily. Somehow the three of us always got put into the same shifts, usually afternoon ones. It was pretty boring, then again it always is. "I'm breaking." Wing said standing up and stretching. I nod. "Back in 15?" Alex always asked us. So that she could know when to expect him back. She is a human clock. She could tell you the time without looking at a clock. So, naturally Me and Wing being the two smart teenage boys we are put her in charge of keeping track of our breaks. Wing nodded and left our 3 seater booth. After about 15 minutes Wing came back and I declared it my turn to leave. "Hey Als, Since Wing is back I'm gonna go on break." I told her.
"Back in 15?" She asked.
"Yea, Then you can have your break." I reply. Alex grinned at the thought of her well deserved break. I gave grinned back and left. I started thinking what Gaby and the folks were doing. I was thinking so in-depth I didn't even realize I was being followed.
"Hey." I heard someone say in a familiar deep tone. Startled, I turned on my heels.
"Oh. Hey, Fulton." I said my down emotion appeared in my voice.
"What's up?" Fulton asked his voice ladled with concern.
"Nothing, just working." I reply innocently hoping we wouldn't pry farther into my mood.
"You know what I mean, Averman. What's wrong?" He snapped impatiently.
"Well. From the beginning of my younger Sisters life my parents have been fighting. I swear, I'm gonna cut my ears off just so I don't have to hear 'em." I blurt, my voice slightly uneven from raw emotion.
"How long is that?" he asked.
"A full 7 years." I tell him, realizing It's almost Gaby's birthday.
"Yea, It's stupid isn't it." He paused and I gave a sad nod. "How they'd rather fight then work things out. The problems never get fixed and it makes no sense." I tell him. I nod again. 'Hey' I thought to myself 'I may win the genius world record for the most amount of sad nods during a pity-fest'
"I see them everyday, because I don't live in dorms. And I get along with 'em both and so does Gaby, so why can't they get along with each other?" I tell him sadly. Here I am spilling my guts to a person I sadly barely know.
"A divorce might be best." He said quietly. I give him a frightened glance; I really didn't want it to come to that.
"That'll make things worse." I tell him. He nodded understandingly. "There's always that stinging question. If it's what he wants and it's what she wants" I start but, He cut me off. "Why is there so much pain?" Fulton says. I nodded trying to ignore the lump in my throat. Quickly I looked down at my watch and give him an awkward smile. "I gotta go relieve, Alexandra. It's time for her break." I say walking back to the ticket booth. That night after I changed for bed Gaby came into my room, followed by my parents. Gaby sat down on my bed and my parents stood in front of us. They look at us with concern.
"We know you two heard us this morning." My dad says in his usually stern voice. "But It will be ok, you'll see. Everything will be wonderful one day." My mom tells us sweetly. But that's a lie. She's been telling me that since Gaby was born.that's when the fighting started, 7 years ago. They left and I lay down and closed my eyes. I know I don't believe them but for some reason I felt better when they told me it was going to be better.
Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels that make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday
I heard mom put Gaby to bed. "It's going to be all wonderful soon." She tells her. "Promise?" Gaby asked innocently. "I promise." Mom tells her. I knew Gaby believe her. She's so young, so naive, and so. childishly innocent. I wanted a drink so I stood up and walk out into the Kitchen. My mom was sitting at the table eyes are filled to the rim with tears. "mom, are you ok?" I ask. She nodded and smiles. "Yea, everything will be wonderful someday." She tells me. I had it. Why does everyone keep lying to Gaby and me because we are kids? I mean you try and act happy when your crying and she who believes you. It doesn't bug me that they lied to me, but she promised Gaby and Gaby takes promises seriously. I want to know how can you lie to someone? I mean actually lie, lie. Like tell everyone your extremely happy and hopeful while bawling like a baby. I seriously hate it. I back up to my room with out my drink not wanting to be there any longer
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
(Na na na na na na na)
I don't want them to tell me everything will be ok. It's a lie. It always has been. I can't stand all their lies now. They are lying too much.every night for the passed 7 years. I mean it started out like once every 2 months then once a month then 1 a week and so on and so on. Now it's every night. Every night they fight. Every night they promise its all ok. Every night we believed them.every night that is until now.
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
That Monday Charlie and the rest of us ducks skated off to school kinda like the first day of school.except we didn't go in the wrong way and crash into the curtain therefore embarrassing ourselves. We did what we normally do, joke, laugh, catch up with the foreign ducks.not really foreign just outta state. but you get the point. I was extremely hyper to try and create the illusion that my summer was great. Instead of what it truly was, nothing but lies and fights.
"Averman, man, are you feeling ok?" Goldberg asks me.
"Couldn't be better." I lie with a huge grin. He just looks at me. Most of the ducks stay in dorms but I don't. I want to make sure Gaby knows not everyone in the world yells and fights with each other. When it was time to leave I dragged myself away from the rest of the ducks so I could catch the city bus home. As much as I love Gaby and as much as I want to protect her, I don't want to go home to the yelling of my mom and dad
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I like to laugh so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home
I get off the bus about a block away from my house. Knowing no one will be home for at least an hour I pull out my key and unlock the door. Immediately I walk up to my room and flop down on my bed. I close my eyes just for a while to try and imagine my life if my parents didn't lie and didn't fight.
"Pretty dull, huh?" I mumble out loud. The image of my mom pops into my head. I still can't believe she'd try to lie while she's crying. Sob sob.oh yea Hun everything's great. I mock mentally. I cant believe I used to believe that. I can't believe I was so naïve. What will happen when Gaby finds out they lied.
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday
It was months after that Monday I pretended everything was ok, when they told us. We were sitting at dinner when dad said:
"We know you don't like are fighting."
"And neither do we." Mom interjected.
"So we decide to divorce." Dad finally says. Gaby looks confused. I just stare tears making my vision blurry.
"W-w-what?" I manage to chock out.
"I know it seems upsetting at first but everything's wonderful now." Mom says smiling through her tears.
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
This shocks me. Wonderful? How is this wonderful?
"Mom this is not wonderful!" I yell. "Wonderful is me, you, Gaby and DAD living together with out fighting!" Gaby looks at me scared but I didn't care anymore. How could she just let this happen.then it hit me. She's only 7, she doesn't know what the hell is going on. I felt bad. I wish the would yell and fight and lie. If they did at least we'd all be together. I hear Gaby run up the stairs crying she runs right into my room.
"What's wrong Gaby?" I ask her. Knowing they probably just explained to her what was happening.
"Daddy's leaving!" She whined. I picked her up and hugged her. I don't want to hear it any more. I want them to start fighting again.I don't care as long as they don't tell me everything is wonderful now they are divorcing.
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
My parents have been divorced for two years. Gaby and I live with my mom. She keeps telling me that she just didn't love dad anymore. How can you stop loving someone? I mean if you love someone enough to Marry them and have two kids with him how can you stop loving him? I just doesn't seem possible.it's sorta funny because I used to think that divorce was natural and nothing was wrong with it at least I did until My parents divorced. She says that when I grow up I'll understand. Where does she live? I'm almost eighteen. I am almost a legalized adult of American society. The only thing worse is when she wants me to meet her 'friends'. In other words some guy that she's slept with a couple of times. I remember one guy.Jeff I think his name was. He was the first.
"Hey Champ, I'm you mommy's friend." He told me.
"You don't have to talk down to me." I tell him with out looking him. "Lester be nice. We can start over. He can be your dad." My mother told me. I stood up. "This man is not a will not be my dad!" I tell her standing up to glare at them. They both left my room and Gaby came in. "You don't like Jeff?" She asks. I shake my head. "Neither do I, I want Dad to come live with us again." She tells me. "Me too." I tell her smiling. I hate things the way they are. When ever I complain mom casts me a tearful forlorn glance and tells me: "Why? Everythings wonderful now." She plasters a fake smile on her face. Finally I broke. "Mom, incase you haven't noticed it's not wonderful! It never was! Me and Gaby don't want to hear it anymore!" I yelled storming up to my room. I didn't want to live in a life of 'wonderful new endeavors' .
I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just wanna my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now