Disclaimer: I don't own Teen titans, but I do own Swift. (do I HAVE to keep
on saying this?!)
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Chapter six - Confusion
"What are you doing?"
Swift remained still, and though the tears were pouring down her cheeks she spoke calmly.
"I'm going to jump." she said quietly. Beastboy's face was one of fright, behind her.
'Why did I have to find her?' he groaned inwardly. 'Oh, man, I suck at this sort of thing. What do I say? What do I do? Okay, calm down BB, you can do this. Just be calm.'
He was panicking more than he had done in a while, but he managed to compose himself. Robins words echoed around his mind.
*"You guys, remember she could be very fragile in nature. Treat her carefully. BB - no jokes." *
BB sighed and spoke in his most gentle voice.
"Swift, why are you going to jump?" he managed eventually. The wind blew towards them, whipping her cloak and hair backwards, and making BB stumble. He noticed her hands were trembling by her sides.
"I..I...want to..." she sniffed, edging forwards slightly. BB's heart leapt into his throat.
"No..!" he said croakily, then cleard his throat awkwardly. "No, Swift, please don't."
"What do you care?" came the angry voice, the same as the one he had heard back at the tower. "You don't know me. You don't understand. Noone understands."
He heard the voice cracking at the end. There was no doubt about the fact that Swift was emotionly unstable. He started to walk towards her. He sensed her head move to the right.
"Don't come near me, Beastboy. I'm warning you..." The voice had changed dramatically. It now seemed edgy and somewhat scared. Beastboy stopped impulsively. He swallowed.
"Okay, I'm staying here. But can we please just talk? Please?" he begged, with all his might. Swifts head moved downwards, and then up again. Slowly, the suicidal girl turned around.
Her face was a contorted mess. Her hair was touseled terribly, and her face was red. The eyes had lost all their sparkle and looked dull, and red from crying. She was trembling all over. Beastboy tried to hide his shock. But it was really difficult. He managed it eventually, and lost for anything else to do, he smiled.
"Thank you. Now then...I'm just going to sit down, alright?" he motioned to the floor gently. Swift nodded, as a stray strand of hair flew across her face. She sniffed and looked at him expectantly.
Beastboy was now sitting casually on the floor. He looked calm and normal but inside he was in a state of frenzy. This girl was teetering on the edge of self destruction. Like a bomb, one wrong move and she could....
Beastboy shuddered. It didn't bear thinking about. So calmly, he talked to her with all the emotion he could muster, trying to think about how he felt when he was depressed.
"Whats the matter?" he asked her, trying to look as innocent as possible. She was still staring at him, eyes wide, mouth slightly open. She reached up, and pushed her hair out of her eyes.
"F...F...fed up..." Swift stuttered, in a scared voice. "..pain..too much."
Beastboy nodded. "Tell me about it. I've felt that too many times...."
The words rang in his head. He couldn't believe he had said that. He had sort of...opened up to her. It felt so right to tell her, and he couldn't understand why. He gulped nervously. Swift looked at him.
"You...are...in pain too?" came her strangulated voice. The melencholy sound drifted over the wind. Beastboy closed his eyes and nodded solemnly. Swift sank to her knees. They were still about 4 metres apart.
Beastboy ran a hand through his hair and sighed. "Sometimes it hurts so much, I just want to do what you were thinking, Swift."
He looked at her sad eyes. A connection ran between them. An understanding.
Swift broke it by sniffing. "What did you do, Beast boy?"
"Well at first I thought, to hell with it. I've tottered on the edge. But then I realised something, Swift. I realised that there is something in my life which I have to keep at all costs." Again, the understanding shot between the two people.
"R..Raven?" said Swift, knowing how much Beastboy loved her. He nodded, and carried on.
"I know that it seems strange, but there is so much love inside of me which I want to keep. Keep forever. Why should I throw it all away? Sometimes, the pain, it hurts to a point of unbelievable heights. But I fight it. I fight it as much as I can. And do you know why?"
Swift shook her head, mesmorised by Beastboys strong words, which were expressed with such emotion.
He looked straight at her. "Because some things are worth fighting for."
Swift gasped. She couldn't hold it in any longer. She errupted like a volcano, into sobs and wails, that sent the water shooting up behind her. Millions of droplets of water, rained down on them both, and mingled with Swifts tears.
She knew what Beastboy was saying was true. And she was just kidding herself by trying to give in. That was the easy way. But she was a fighter. She knew how to survive.
A spirit had been awakened inside of her, at his speech, and now, it repelled all the pain in the world. Something inside of her strived to keep up her strength.
Beastboy watched as the pain flew out of the girl, like a demon fleeing a possesed body. Her screams were not drowned out by the wind, but amplified by it. Suddenly, he felt stupid, sitting there not doing anything.
"Swift...dude...its okay." He said to her, trying his best to ease her screams.
As suddenly as they had started, they stopped. Swift fell forwards onto the grass, and pounded her fists onto the floor.
"She must hate me....."
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Raven couldn't concentrate. The tower had become eerily quiet, which meant either the titans had gone out or they were still in fright and shock downstairs, and being incredibly quiet.
Having calmed down considerably, she decided that it was probably time to go and seek out her cousin, and make the peace with her.
Raven stood up and stretched. She tidied the assortment of books and papers that were strewn over her bed. She had not managed to decipher much more of the riddle.
All she knew was that Trigon was coming after her, and that he would be here soon, having followed Swift to earth.
But the puzzlement of the last line was killing her. 'The two sisters stick together.'
However, she pushed it to the back of her mind, and set out to find her companions.
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A few minutes later, Raven stood puzzled downstairs. Not a sign of the titans, and not a note in sight.
Perhaps they had gone out somewhere...to stay out of the way. But they wouldn't have..? Would they?
She paced up and down the room, wondering what to do.
'Come on, Raven!' she told herself angrily. 'Do something!'
Making a consious decision, she set off to find her cousin. She figured that Swift was probably in need of some counsel more so than the other titans.
Little did she know...
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"She must hate me...."
'She must be talking about Raven!' thought Beastboy, watching in shock, as the girl beat the ground harshly with her fists. He spoke kindly as he coud.
"No, of course she doesn't, dude! She was just upset, thats all. We all get like that sometimes, right?"
But it was to no avail. Swift merely cried harder and pounded the ground more fiercely.
"Hey hey. C'mon now." Beastboy gingerly edged forwards towards the weeping figure. This time there was no anger in sight. Beast boy wasn't really sure how to approach her.
He sort of gently put his hand on her trembling shoulder. He felt her cease almost immediately. She began to sit up, looking worse in herself than before, but with a sign of relief on her face.
She wiped her cheeks softly, and sighed. "T-Thanks B-Beastboy."
He reached over so that his arm was around her shoulders properly now.
"It's okay. Now then, stop crying. Fight the pain right?" He said softly, as she calmed down, and giggled.
She looked at him slightly more happy now. "I can see why she loves you. You two were meant to be."
Beastboy blushed at this comment, but that only made Swift giggle. Then she sighed.
"You are so lucky. I wish I had someone who loved me." Swift said looking down.
Beastboy's eyes lit up almost immediately. He was going to be killed for saying this. But he said it anyway. "Heh, well you know....I think that there is SOMEONE..."
Swift looked up slowly. "Really? Who?"
But before Beastboy could answer, they were distracted.
There was an explosion above them.
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Raven had flown for ages, and she was now getting tired and more worried about Swift. She was flying around madly looking for her.
Then she sensed her nearby. She was having some sort of outburst. Raven flew in the direction as quickly as she could.
And then, she saw Swift. Her heart leapt with joy. Seeing her filled Raven with new hope.
As she approached, she noticed that there was someone else there with her. Who was it?
As she got closer, she saw it was Beastboy.
Sitting next to her.
With his arm round her shoulders.
After that, all she saw was red, as she exploded with anger.
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I'm real sorry you guys but I haven't got time to write replies, because I'm in a bit of a rush....
Just the one..to Invader Sam, quickly....check my profile for my AIM!
Okay, thats all for now! R/R
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Chapter six - Confusion
"What are you doing?"
Swift remained still, and though the tears were pouring down her cheeks she spoke calmly.
"I'm going to jump." she said quietly. Beastboy's face was one of fright, behind her.
'Why did I have to find her?' he groaned inwardly. 'Oh, man, I suck at this sort of thing. What do I say? What do I do? Okay, calm down BB, you can do this. Just be calm.'
He was panicking more than he had done in a while, but he managed to compose himself. Robins words echoed around his mind.
*"You guys, remember she could be very fragile in nature. Treat her carefully. BB - no jokes." *
BB sighed and spoke in his most gentle voice.
"Swift, why are you going to jump?" he managed eventually. The wind blew towards them, whipping her cloak and hair backwards, and making BB stumble. He noticed her hands were trembling by her sides.
"I..I...want to..." she sniffed, edging forwards slightly. BB's heart leapt into his throat.
"No..!" he said croakily, then cleard his throat awkwardly. "No, Swift, please don't."
"What do you care?" came the angry voice, the same as the one he had heard back at the tower. "You don't know me. You don't understand. Noone understands."
He heard the voice cracking at the end. There was no doubt about the fact that Swift was emotionly unstable. He started to walk towards her. He sensed her head move to the right.
"Don't come near me, Beastboy. I'm warning you..." The voice had changed dramatically. It now seemed edgy and somewhat scared. Beastboy stopped impulsively. He swallowed.
"Okay, I'm staying here. But can we please just talk? Please?" he begged, with all his might. Swifts head moved downwards, and then up again. Slowly, the suicidal girl turned around.
Her face was a contorted mess. Her hair was touseled terribly, and her face was red. The eyes had lost all their sparkle and looked dull, and red from crying. She was trembling all over. Beastboy tried to hide his shock. But it was really difficult. He managed it eventually, and lost for anything else to do, he smiled.
"Thank you. Now then...I'm just going to sit down, alright?" he motioned to the floor gently. Swift nodded, as a stray strand of hair flew across her face. She sniffed and looked at him expectantly.
Beastboy was now sitting casually on the floor. He looked calm and normal but inside he was in a state of frenzy. This girl was teetering on the edge of self destruction. Like a bomb, one wrong move and she could....
Beastboy shuddered. It didn't bear thinking about. So calmly, he talked to her with all the emotion he could muster, trying to think about how he felt when he was depressed.
"Whats the matter?" he asked her, trying to look as innocent as possible. She was still staring at him, eyes wide, mouth slightly open. She reached up, and pushed her hair out of her eyes.
"F...F...fed up..." Swift stuttered, in a scared voice. "..pain..too much."
Beastboy nodded. "Tell me about it. I've felt that too many times...."
The words rang in his head. He couldn't believe he had said that. He had sort of...opened up to her. It felt so right to tell her, and he couldn't understand why. He gulped nervously. Swift looked at him.
"You...are...in pain too?" came her strangulated voice. The melencholy sound drifted over the wind. Beastboy closed his eyes and nodded solemnly. Swift sank to her knees. They were still about 4 metres apart.
Beastboy ran a hand through his hair and sighed. "Sometimes it hurts so much, I just want to do what you were thinking, Swift."
He looked at her sad eyes. A connection ran between them. An understanding.
Swift broke it by sniffing. "What did you do, Beast boy?"
"Well at first I thought, to hell with it. I've tottered on the edge. But then I realised something, Swift. I realised that there is something in my life which I have to keep at all costs." Again, the understanding shot between the two people.
"R..Raven?" said Swift, knowing how much Beastboy loved her. He nodded, and carried on.
"I know that it seems strange, but there is so much love inside of me which I want to keep. Keep forever. Why should I throw it all away? Sometimes, the pain, it hurts to a point of unbelievable heights. But I fight it. I fight it as much as I can. And do you know why?"
Swift shook her head, mesmorised by Beastboys strong words, which were expressed with such emotion.
He looked straight at her. "Because some things are worth fighting for."
Swift gasped. She couldn't hold it in any longer. She errupted like a volcano, into sobs and wails, that sent the water shooting up behind her. Millions of droplets of water, rained down on them both, and mingled with Swifts tears.
She knew what Beastboy was saying was true. And she was just kidding herself by trying to give in. That was the easy way. But she was a fighter. She knew how to survive.
A spirit had been awakened inside of her, at his speech, and now, it repelled all the pain in the world. Something inside of her strived to keep up her strength.
Beastboy watched as the pain flew out of the girl, like a demon fleeing a possesed body. Her screams were not drowned out by the wind, but amplified by it. Suddenly, he felt stupid, sitting there not doing anything.
"Swift...dude...its okay." He said to her, trying his best to ease her screams.
As suddenly as they had started, they stopped. Swift fell forwards onto the grass, and pounded her fists onto the floor.
"She must hate me....."
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Raven couldn't concentrate. The tower had become eerily quiet, which meant either the titans had gone out or they were still in fright and shock downstairs, and being incredibly quiet.
Having calmed down considerably, she decided that it was probably time to go and seek out her cousin, and make the peace with her.
Raven stood up and stretched. She tidied the assortment of books and papers that were strewn over her bed. She had not managed to decipher much more of the riddle.
All she knew was that Trigon was coming after her, and that he would be here soon, having followed Swift to earth.
But the puzzlement of the last line was killing her. 'The two sisters stick together.'
However, she pushed it to the back of her mind, and set out to find her companions.
*
A few minutes later, Raven stood puzzled downstairs. Not a sign of the titans, and not a note in sight.
Perhaps they had gone out somewhere...to stay out of the way. But they wouldn't have..? Would they?
She paced up and down the room, wondering what to do.
'Come on, Raven!' she told herself angrily. 'Do something!'
Making a consious decision, she set off to find her cousin. She figured that Swift was probably in need of some counsel more so than the other titans.
Little did she know...
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"She must hate me...."
'She must be talking about Raven!' thought Beastboy, watching in shock, as the girl beat the ground harshly with her fists. He spoke kindly as he coud.
"No, of course she doesn't, dude! She was just upset, thats all. We all get like that sometimes, right?"
But it was to no avail. Swift merely cried harder and pounded the ground more fiercely.
"Hey hey. C'mon now." Beastboy gingerly edged forwards towards the weeping figure. This time there was no anger in sight. Beast boy wasn't really sure how to approach her.
He sort of gently put his hand on her trembling shoulder. He felt her cease almost immediately. She began to sit up, looking worse in herself than before, but with a sign of relief on her face.
She wiped her cheeks softly, and sighed. "T-Thanks B-Beastboy."
He reached over so that his arm was around her shoulders properly now.
"It's okay. Now then, stop crying. Fight the pain right?" He said softly, as she calmed down, and giggled.
She looked at him slightly more happy now. "I can see why she loves you. You two were meant to be."
Beastboy blushed at this comment, but that only made Swift giggle. Then she sighed.
"You are so lucky. I wish I had someone who loved me." Swift said looking down.
Beastboy's eyes lit up almost immediately. He was going to be killed for saying this. But he said it anyway. "Heh, well you know....I think that there is SOMEONE..."
Swift looked up slowly. "Really? Who?"
But before Beastboy could answer, they were distracted.
There was an explosion above them.
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Raven had flown for ages, and she was now getting tired and more worried about Swift. She was flying around madly looking for her.
Then she sensed her nearby. She was having some sort of outburst. Raven flew in the direction as quickly as she could.
And then, she saw Swift. Her heart leapt with joy. Seeing her filled Raven with new hope.
As she approached, she noticed that there was someone else there with her. Who was it?
As she got closer, she saw it was Beastboy.
Sitting next to her.
With his arm round her shoulders.
After that, all she saw was red, as she exploded with anger.
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Taadaaa! ^_^ Yeay!
I'm real sorry you guys but I haven't got time to write replies, because I'm in a bit of a rush....
Just the one..to Invader Sam, quickly....check my profile for my AIM!
Okay, thats all for now! R/R
Ja! ~*Chibi*~