Oh My God. The unthinkable has happened and I have written a chapter that is a carby. I am so opposed to these two as a couple yet whilst writing this I have come to maybe, just maybe, like them together. I like this chapter but this is something completely different for me and I hope you enjoy it. I promise the next chapter will go back to the wonderful Luka and Susan but I just though you might, just maybe, enjoy something a bit different for a moment or two.

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Chapter 11: Anita Coffee

Doctor Carter! Carter sighed. It had been a long night and he didn't need another patient right now, he had already taken more than he could handle. He only had five minutes left of his shift but reluctantly he turned to face Haleh.



An Anita Coffee' left a message for you. She want's you to meet her in doc's when you're done here Carter smirked, thanking Haleh before heading towards Doc's.

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Abby sat alone, waiting for Carter to arrive. She watched as he walked in, spotting her immediately. He went over to join her, half smiling, half frowning as he sat down opposite her.

She smiled, desperately hoping her would mirror her broad smile and enthusiasm- he didn't.

He frowned, shaking his head.

She raised her eyebrows, gesturing broadly.

Don't make this fake, don't smile if you want to cry, don't be nice to me if you want to scream at me... don't tell me you love me if you don't...

He raised a hand to her mouth, once again beginning to shake his head.

No Abby, let me finish. I don't want this to be all we come to. Almost perfect strangers, always watching what we say to one another. I want to be completely open with you- I think I am. I want you to do the same. Abby dropped the fake smile immediately, staring down at her hands and sighing. She let her head fall into her hands, using her fingertips to rub at her eyes. She nodded.


Carter waited for a moment, not knowing whether she was going to continue or if he should speak. After another minute had passed he realised she was waiting for him.

He paused, lost for words. Look Abby- I don't know. I don't know what to say, or do, or who to be- not when I'm with you. You asked me here, I'm here. What do you want to say?

I want to say that, that I'm sorry. No, I'm not sorry. I'm, angry, confused, sad... I don't know what I am Carter. I'm complicated- I thought you understood that?

I do- I do understand that. He sat down, sliding onto the booth opposite her.

She shook her head. You don't. Not if you even thought for one second that I am still in love with Luka.

Abby, I'm sorry- okay? I'm confused too. You confuse me Abby. I never know where I am with you. One minute you make me happy, so very happy, and the next... I just don't know. One minute we are perfect, so completely perfect and the next minute everything is crazy again... I can't take it anymore. I want a relationship Abby- a grown up relationship.

Is that why you were with Susan? She looked up at him, staring into his puppy dog brown eyes intensely. He didn't respond.

He sighed. I was with Susan because, yes, because it was an adult relationship but not just that. She was balanced, normal, being with her wasn't like a constant roller coaster ride. He rubbed at his increasingly painful forehead. That's also why it didn't work.



Because I wanted the roller coaster, hell I wanted whatever you were. I still want you Abby, I've always wanted you.

You have? He smiled.

You know I have. You do something to me that no-one ever could. But Susan, I loved Susan, I love Susan, she's one of my best friends, that's why it didn't work. She didn't want just a friend either. He sighed, more heavily than before. Women only want me as their friends.

I don't want you as my friend Carter. She smiled, placing a hand on his face and tracing the outline of it slowly and softly with her hand. He smiled also, taking it from his face and kissing each of her fingers softly. She let out a giggle. It tickles! He laughed again before placing it down carefully on the table and becoming once again serious.

Tell me about Luka. He looked into her eyes, trying to gage her reaction. I won't get angry, I promise. But please, just tell me about him. She nodded.

Okay. Well, jesus- where do I start?

Where ever, the beginning I guess.

Well, I loved him. Me and Luka. We were, I don't know, It's hard to explain. His lips curving slightly into a smile and he nodded, urging her to go on. When we were together, there was this chemistry, from the start really, it was- explosive? He smiled once again, squeezing her hand a little more tightly. Anyway. It was good, so good, for a while at least. We had fun and we were in love I guess but he was never... what I was looking for. We couldn't talk. I just couldn't get him to open up- or I didn't try. We both just had so much baggage, even together it was too heavy. We had all these problems and no-one to offload them too, no-one outside of the relationship to talk to about it. Neither one of us had any friends and our families were the source of all our grief anyway.

You had me

I couldn't talk to you about it and you know it. He frowned, looking slightly hurt. I mean I could talk to you. ABout my mom and about the drinking, but not about Luka. He didn't like me and you, he never has. H e was jealous Carter, and that's why I can't take you being jealous. Eventually the jealously ripped us apart but that wasn't the reason, not really. We just weren't right. WE had all this chemistry, too much, way too much. She sat back into the booth, sighing loudly. We didn't click not really. The thing is he was never you. Carter smiled.
And Susan was never you. Abby's mouth curved slightly, not quite forming a smile. She sat forwards, taking Carter's head in her hands, keeping it hovering in front of her own face.

Tell me we are going to be okay. He smiled, leaning even closer towards her.

We are going to be okay. And with that he kissed her and sparks didn't fly, and the earth didn't move, because they did had chemistry, just the right amount.

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