[Ok, back to normal time now! Yay! And also back to that kiss! Splendid!

I've been trying to figure out what to do for my next story, seeing as I have almost finished writing this one now. I might concentrate on my fan fiction stuff for a while, because I like where that's all going. I'm not too sure. What do you guys think? Oh yeh and while I'm on the subject, please check out my fan fiction story, a simple life, its in a kind of a PD/Meg Cabot style, or so I have been told!

But, yes, yes, the kiss…. ]

Michael pulled away quickly.

'Mia, I'm so sorry,' he said in a slightly strangled voice, turning slightly red as he turned away from me. I was still trying to process the information when Michael got up to answer the phone. Had we, Michael and I, just…kissed? After all these years. And had I enjoyed it?

My runaway train o thoughts was brought to a sudden halt as Michael told me that Lilly was back and she was coming over in a few minutes to get me. I just nodded and got up to get my stuff.

Lilly turned up about ten minutes later, and Michael and I said out shy goodbyes before Lilly had pulled me onto the subway muttering 'We are going to talk about this when we get home.' Apart from saying that though, she pretty much kept quiet. I was obviously in complete mental turmoil, and pretty much reliving my first few months of torment I endured 'for the good of my country' in Genovia, without Michael. And now he had been snatched away from me again? Not that I had really ever had him this time, but still. All the time I was thinking that I was also desperately asking myself why? Why did it feel so bad now, when it had felt so good before?

Sadly I couldn't answer that question, and all too soon we were back at Lilly's apartment and she had a whole lot of questions I couldn't answer either. Like what the hell did I think I was doing.

'Lilly you don't know how hard it is though,' I cried, 'I don't know what's going on in my head. It so confusing. First of all we were al weird, and then we got talking and then everything was great, you know, how it used to before, and then we kissed.'

'Good one,' she commented as she paced agitatedly up and down the room.

'You understand though Lilly, I've got to explain it to him, you don't know what it was like. I couldn't call him or write to him or anything. It was horrible. I was stuck in Genovia with no friends, and Grandmere always telling me to smile and use the right knife and I had to wear these awful clothes and I couldn't be myself. That's why I had to come back here. I couldn't take it anymore.'

'You, you think that you had it bad? You have no idea what you did when you left. Michael was devastated.' I looked up at Lilly. She looked like she had the night she found out I'd got a make over again. She was angry. 'You go swanning off to Genovia, and leave him here. He was beside himself. And then when you didn't write, or call, or anything, he couldn't take it.'

'I just told you I couldn't!'

'Well you could have at least tried. But you didn't did you?'

'Well neither did Michael. There was nothing I could do, I had people watching me 24/7, reading all my mail, listening to all my phone calls, searching my room every morning. Michael could have done something though. Pretended to be my mom, written to me, if he was that desperate he could have come and seen me. But no, he didn't did he.'

'Yes, yes he did. He tried all that stuff. But still he got nothing in reply. He loved you Mia, and you just left him. You broke him. But he was getting his life back together. He has Judith for God's sake. They're getting married.' I cringed at that point. 'And now you just come waltzing in and ruin everything for him again.'

'But Lil, I didn't mean to, I really didn't, I mean I never thought I wouldn't be able to write to him in Genovia, I always thought he would come and visit, and I could show him around, and then when he finished college he would move to Genovia permanently and the we'd get married and everything would be perfect. But it never was. What I came back here I never planned on seeing him again, and when I did I never thought anything like this would happen. I mean it's kind of your fault it did, even after I saw him in the pancake place and when he came round here. I didn't intend to spend the night in his apartment.'

'Yes, yes I know, but I had nothing else to do. No one else knew you were here, and I needed someone to keep an eye on you. I didn't want anything to happen to you.'

'I know,' I sighed heavily.

'You need to talk to him. It's the only way to sort things out. You cant just leave him like you did least time.'

'I know,' I sighed again.

'I suppose I had better take you back then had I?'

'No, it's ok, I can take myself. Anyways, I need some time to think about what I'm going to say.'

'Fair enough, but Mia, don't, whatever you do, break his heart again. Please?'

'Lilly, I promise on pain of death, I will try my up most not to break his heart.' I smiled at her more bravely than I felt, before walking out the door, and on my back into Michael Moscovitz's life.

[righto I know, a bit of a shorter chapter than the last two, but I didn't want to pull this one out too much because it might just get boring. Plus I just want to get on and write what happens when she gets to Michael's again! I cant wait!

And before I tell you review and go, I think you should be aware that I'm wearing a motorcycle helmet. Why you ask? Quite frankly I am not too sure, but I can tell you it is very warm and stuffy. And the little window thingy at the front seems to be misting up at the front….

So yes, obviously review and tell me in crazy, and also what you think I should do about the whole new PD story, as mentioned in the first note at the top. Cheers! :o)]