I'm back. It's short, but short is sweet, right? I've taken a bit of a break from this as I started work on another fic but that isn't working out too great right at this very moment. School has been getting on top of me these last few weeks, I'm back and I have all weekend to get down to writing. Please review, I need to know that you guys are still all around! As always, enjoy!


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Chapter 28: Everything I've Always Wanted


Susan ran, bolting to the ladies toilets as quickly as she could. She sobbed, letting the tears fall quickly past her cheek and off the edge of her face. She threw up as soon as she reached the stall, heaving violently.

His face ran through her mind over and over. Replaying perfectly. She could smell him, taste him, feel his touch against her shivering skin. The night am back to her in a flash and all thoughts of happiness were destroyed.

This was the moment she had been dreading, the moment she had been putting off. The police would want to ask more questions now, make her do an identity parade or something. If he lived that was.

If he lived. The thought rattled through her brain like a mine train. If he lived. Surely he didn't deserve do? If he lived. Indeed. She threw up again, not able to control her furiously vomiting. Not that it was particular new to her. Over the last few days it had been getting worse. Every morning without fail the queasiness would come over her. She knew what it was she wasn't stupid- she was a doctor after all. She was just still hoping that it wasn't. Susan loved kids, it just didn't mean she wanted one of her own.

Abby's voice rang out loudly in the empty bathroom. Susan sniffled, trying to hold back the tears that were creating the only sound to be heard. Abby smiled lightly, walking over to the stall where Susan lay, crouched on the floor.

Oh, guess you found me. Abby smiled, gently crouching to Susan's level. She placed her hand on Susan's, leaving it gently resting on top.

I'm sorry that I haven't been there for you. Susan shook her head about to speak. No I haven't been there. It's just hard, y'know? Susan nodded gently.

I know exactly what you mean. She paused. I'm going to be sick again. Abby held back her hair as she wretched into the bowl once more.

You okay? She asked as Susan finally stopped, going back to her resting position on the floor. She nodded.

This has been going on for a while now, I'm kind of used to it. Abby furrowed her brows, slightly confused.

Are you ill again?' Susan smiled.

No Abby, I'm pregnant. Abby stepped backwards in shock. A gasp forming on her moist lips.

Susan smiled.

I think so. I'm not sure I haven't done a blood test yet. Or a sonogram for that matter. Abby smiled, giving Susan a hug.

Oh my god, you're going to be a mom! Susan pulled a face, wondering what had happened to her normally sombre friend. Abby, seeing her face, pulled one of her own. You're not happy about this? Susan frowned, rubbing her forehead with her fingertips.

Abby, how do I know. How do I know if the baby isn't his? Susan pointed to the door, letting the sobbing wash over her as she burst into tears once more. Abby sighed, gathering her up into her arms.

It's okay. It's Luka's , it's not going to be his. I promise, you hear me? I promise you. That creep is going to go to jail just as soon as the police get here and and then you, you and Luka are going to do that blood test and that sonogram... together. And you're going to see your baby Susan- okay? Susan nodded, the tears still falling, now onto Abby's hair. Abby tried to smile as that familiar feeling went off in her stomach. First the explosion then the fireworks and then... that boom of everything going completely numb. She missed him, se loved him. The past few weeks had been hell. She'd spent them ignoring both Luka and Susan as much as possible changing shifts, walking a different way to work and never visiting Doc Magoos. She's been cold and downright rude on some occasions. She'd been jealous, dangerously jealous. But now, sitting here with her best friend a crumpled mess in her arms, crying her heart out and soaking Abby's shoulder, she couldn't help but love her. And forgive her, not that she needed to be forgiven. Susan and Luka were happy, Abby couldn't believe she'd ever tried to mess that up.

Is Luka okay? Abby smiled as Susan pulled away to look at her. She nodded, laughing slightly.

I can't believe you're worried about him . Susan smiled.

You worried about the people you love. I'm always worried about Luka, I just, I don't want him to do anything stupid. Abby smiled, once again trying to stop a tear from falling down her cheek.

He wouldn't, he's too scared that him being rash will hurt you. Abby smiled again, pulling fully away from Susan and wrapped an arm protectively around her shoulder, she lead her gently toward the door. I've never seen him like this over a girl before. Susan smiled, stopping for a breather just in front of the door.

I don't know if I can do this. Abby nodded, gently putting an arm on her shoulder once again.

Sure you can, just remember once you get through this, remember what you're going to have. Everything I've always wanted. Abby sighed as Susan opened the door, heading into the ER once again.

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