The latest chapter! After much pressure from Maddie (love ya girl!) it's here pretty quickly. I like this chapter, Luka makes me smile in it, I can actually imagine Luka saying this. I always hated grey skies, always, it just seemed appropriate to me. I think everything Luka says here is kinda how I feel about them too, anyway enough from me, enjoy and REVIEW, I only got like one for the last chapter!

This is for everyone at forums4fans.com in the Lusan thread, I love all you guys and this is for you- for keeping me working at this thing! It is also for everyone, or anyone, who ever hated a grey sky.



Chapter 33: I Always Hated Grey Skies


Luka looked up as he watched Abby approach him quietly, her hands carefully linked together, her finger entwined closely together.

He couldn't muster a smile, as hard as he tried it wouldn't pass over his lips and so he instead looked up at the darkening sky, watching as the sun shrank away and clouds filled the empty spaces quickly, providing a complete blanket over the Earth.

He shivered as a single snowflake hit his hand, melting quickly into nothing but a single speck of water against his skin. He watched as a couple more fell softly, never making a sound. His daze was awoken my the touch of Abby's arm against his own as she sat next to him, her body warming his own.

It's not good is it. Abby sat silently for a moment, not entirely sure of Luka's meaning. She sat still as she waited for him to elaborate further. The weather I mean. She watched as he turned to look at her, blushing slightly. She smiled, letting out a tiny laugh as she watched his deep olive skinned cheeks turned a reddish colour. It was the first time she had ever seen Luka blush. He never showed her any emotion, not even when they were together.

No, it's not. Luka nodded, looking back up at the sky and murmuring as snowflakes fell against the bare skin on his face.

I always hated grey sky. Luka laughed slightly. It always reminded me of pain. Of sadness. Abby nodded, taking a cigarette from her pocket and lighting it up.

It reminds me of being lonely. Luka nodded before smelling the smoke and turning to face Abby once again. Shaking his head his moved a hand to her mouth, carefully removing the smoking cigarette from her mouth slowly. She watched as he through it into a nearby pile of smoke. She thought of protesting but instead simply sat in silence, watching as the cigarette smouldered in the pile of snow, a small train of smoke escaping into the grey air above.

Quit that shit. Luka said solemnly as he got to his feet, shaking his head. It will kill you Abby.

Abby's voice was loud but it was too late, he had already gone.

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Abby stood for a moment, shaking her head as she took another cigarette from her packet and lit it up quickly, ignoring the pang of guilt that ran through her. Luka had no authority over her life, she wasn't about to let him lecture her on the health risks involved with smoking.

She flinched, startled at the voice. She turned, sighing with relief to the pretty blonde doctor that stood in front of her. She smiled broadly at Susan visibly shaken figure, raising her eyebrows with concern as she inhaled the cigarette and blew out a fountain of smoke into the air.

You okay? Susan nodding, not convincing Abby in the slightest. Why don't I believe you.

I'm a bad liar. Abby smiled, letting out a small laugh as she signalled towards the empty spot next to her on the bench. I really have to find Luka. Abby shook her head.

Can't even spare a moment? She flashed her best puppy dog look, smiling as sweetly as she could muster.

Only if you dispose of that immediately. Abby sighed, throwing the cigarette into the pile of snow the other one had fallen pray to. I don't want to die of passive smoking Abby. Susan smiled, placing a hand on her stomach instinctively. Abby smiled broadly, reaching out and placing a hand on her friends stomach.

Isn't it amazing.

What- smoking? Susan said in mock-seriousness before letting out a laugh.

You know I mean the baby. Ab by smiled, her hand still firmly position against Susan's stomach. Was the scan okay? Susan nodded her head, taking a seat beside Abby.

Uh-huh all clear. She smiled, her eyes glazing over. It's Luka's baby, Abby, it's really his. Abby smiled, pulling her friend into a tight hug. Abby let out a small laugh, trying to to cry herself as she pulled away.

What did I tell you, huh? Abby smiled again. Oh my god, you're having a baby.

I know, it's freaking me out a little right now. Abby smiled politely as she took in a another deep breath of the cold air, wishing she was inhaling from a cigarette right at this very moment. She turned to face Susan who was at that very moment staring up into the sky, transfixed by the clouds. Abby smiled, remembering Luka's similar action from earlier. I miss the sun.

Thinking about moving back to Phoenix? Susan shrugged, continuing her gaze towards the sky.

I can't. Anyway when I'm there I miss this place too much, Chicago is my home- whether I enjoy the weather or not!

Luka would move for you. Susan shook her head, bringing her gaze back to Abby.

No he wouldn't and I wouldn't ever ask him too. Abby nodded, looking up towards the sky and sighing.

A bit of sun would be nice though. Susan smiled, nodding enthusiastically.

Maybe I can get him to take me on holiday somewhere hot, barbados was pretty great! Abby groaned.

Stop showing off! Anyway two ER doctors having a week off you must be kidding!

Ah I guess, it would be nice though. Susan smiled, sighing gently. I could do with a break. Abby nodding, reaching her arm around Susan's shoulder and hugging her softly.

How are things?

Things are fine, good actually. Susan smiled, resting her head lightly against Abby's arm and smiling. Dix is dead. Abby's face dropped as she processed what Susan had just said. She pulled away from her, looking down into her eyes.

Susan shook her head.

It's okay, I'm okay. She sighed loudly, slouching down on the bench. I just, I don't know how I feel right now if I'm being perfectly honest. It just doesn't make sense.

Oh god. Abby pulled her friend once again into a hug sighed softly as she felt another pang of guilt run through her body. She laughed at herself inwardly as she once again recalled her jealously towards Susan. How could she be jealous of this? Abby didn't want this kind of emotion turmoil, this kind of pain.

It's okay. Look I'm sorry but I really have to find Luka. Abby nodded, shooing Susan with her hands and watching her retreat. She waved briefly, before shaking her head and looking back up at the sky.

She must have done something really bad in a past life. Abby whispered quietly to herself reaching once more ito her coat pocket.

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