Chapter 6
I was crying and washing the dishes. Repeating in my head for the millionth time the slap that broke my heart. I wiped my tears away as I heard Dom's car in the driveway. Oh God. What will he look like now. How can I look at him now. My hands were shaking. Waiting.
Dom walked in looking like "who did it and for got to shoot it". He had hickies everywhere possible. Lips were bruised and raw. Nail wounds, teeth marks. And a big ass black bruise on his neck. Damn. Whoever she was, she ate him alive. And he went along with it as if to say. "Fuck you Letty. Fuck you again."
I looked at him as if he was the scum of the Earth. Then I turned around.
"Letty, please. I'm sorry." My back was to him. How fuckin' dare he?
"I don't give a shit, Dom."
I turned off the water and ran upstairs to Mia's room and locked the door and wrote in my diary.
A few hours later I left.
* * *
I went to Vince's house since I didn't have anywhere else to go. I packed my clothes and took them with me. I got to his house and it was a fuckin' mess. Beer all over, girls' underwear in between the couch cushions. Popcorn kernels on the table. Ugh. Vince really needs a woman. I sure as hell ain't gonna be her, but he definitely needs a woman in the house.
"V, when was the last time you cleaned?" I asked with disgust.
He shrugged his shoulders. Ugh. Figures.
"V, why don't you hire a maid for one day every two weeks or somethin'?"
"What for? It's just gonna get dirty again, anyway." I rolled my eyes.
"Well, there you have it. The logic of man. Hear him roar." He laughed. I did too. About fuckin' time.
I went into the guest bedroom and it was about the only room that was semi-clean. Since no one else stays here. And whoever he sleeps with, he takes to his room. I was glad I brought my own sheets. I grabbed the other sheets from the bed and through them on a pile on the floor. I smelled the mattress in various places and after inspection, I sprayed some Fabreeze on it.
After I accommodated myself I laid on the bed and popped in my good old Evanescence CD. The beats and the lyrics moved me.
"Now, I will tell you what I've done for you/50 thousand tears I've cried/screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you/and you just won't hear me..."
I just began to cry. I picked up the phone and decided to call Leon. To let him know that I got there safely. After a while I passed the phone to Vince. I just sat there wondering if Dom missed me. I laughed cynically at myself. Yeah right.
Evanescence was getting too slow and tragic for me so I popped in Linkin Park. They get me good and pumped. That's what I need. To be pumped.
"Everything you say to me...takes me one step closer to the edge/and I'm about to break/I need a little room to breathe/cuz I'm one step closer to the edge/ and I'm about to....break."
I sat at the edge and I thought about every laugh, every argument, every fuckin' thing we've been through and for what? To break up. To break up right after I find out I'm pregnant. I still cannot fuckin' believe he slapped me. I started crying to God now. I got on my knees and cried.
"Why, God, why?!?! What have I done that's so bad? What have I done to deserve this? The only person I loved with all my heart fucks me over.
"You love the way/I look at you/while taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through/you take away/when I give in/my life/my pride/is broken..."
3 years ago. I remembered that night when I fucked Vince. I was pissed at Dom for another one of his late night escapades. I was in depressed mode and I was VERY drunk. I'd have to be. To fuck Vince, anyway. He was just trying to make me feel better I guess. I dunno. He was drunk too. It didn't mean anything and we swore not to tell anyone. It was only for like 2 minutes anyway and neither of us came and we used condoms. It wasn't exactly my best experience. After that we were kind of weird around each other, too. We considered each other family. It took awhile for us to get over it and forget about it and act normal again. It was not my intention to hurt anyone as opposed to Dom's encounters.
I was crying and washing the dishes. Repeating in my head for the millionth time the slap that broke my heart. I wiped my tears away as I heard Dom's car in the driveway. Oh God. What will he look like now. How can I look at him now. My hands were shaking. Waiting.
Dom walked in looking like "who did it and for got to shoot it". He had hickies everywhere possible. Lips were bruised and raw. Nail wounds, teeth marks. And a big ass black bruise on his neck. Damn. Whoever she was, she ate him alive. And he went along with it as if to say. "Fuck you Letty. Fuck you again."
I looked at him as if he was the scum of the Earth. Then I turned around.
"Letty, please. I'm sorry." My back was to him. How fuckin' dare he?
"I don't give a shit, Dom."
I turned off the water and ran upstairs to Mia's room and locked the door and wrote in my diary.
A few hours later I left.
* * *
I went to Vince's house since I didn't have anywhere else to go. I packed my clothes and took them with me. I got to his house and it was a fuckin' mess. Beer all over, girls' underwear in between the couch cushions. Popcorn kernels on the table. Ugh. Vince really needs a woman. I sure as hell ain't gonna be her, but he definitely needs a woman in the house.
"V, when was the last time you cleaned?" I asked with disgust.
He shrugged his shoulders. Ugh. Figures.
"V, why don't you hire a maid for one day every two weeks or somethin'?"
"What for? It's just gonna get dirty again, anyway." I rolled my eyes.
"Well, there you have it. The logic of man. Hear him roar." He laughed. I did too. About fuckin' time.
I went into the guest bedroom and it was about the only room that was semi-clean. Since no one else stays here. And whoever he sleeps with, he takes to his room. I was glad I brought my own sheets. I grabbed the other sheets from the bed and through them on a pile on the floor. I smelled the mattress in various places and after inspection, I sprayed some Fabreeze on it.
After I accommodated myself I laid on the bed and popped in my good old Evanescence CD. The beats and the lyrics moved me.
"Now, I will tell you what I've done for you/50 thousand tears I've cried/screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you/and you just won't hear me..."
I just began to cry. I picked up the phone and decided to call Leon. To let him know that I got there safely. After a while I passed the phone to Vince. I just sat there wondering if Dom missed me. I laughed cynically at myself. Yeah right.
Evanescence was getting too slow and tragic for me so I popped in Linkin Park. They get me good and pumped. That's what I need. To be pumped.
"Everything you say to me...takes me one step closer to the edge/and I'm about to break/I need a little room to breathe/cuz I'm one step closer to the edge/ and I'm about to....break."
I sat at the edge and I thought about every laugh, every argument, every fuckin' thing we've been through and for what? To break up. To break up right after I find out I'm pregnant. I still cannot fuckin' believe he slapped me. I started crying to God now. I got on my knees and cried.
"Why, God, why?!?! What have I done that's so bad? What have I done to deserve this? The only person I loved with all my heart fucks me over.
"You love the way/I look at you/while taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through/you take away/when I give in/my life/my pride/is broken..."
3 years ago. I remembered that night when I fucked Vince. I was pissed at Dom for another one of his late night escapades. I was in depressed mode and I was VERY drunk. I'd have to be. To fuck Vince, anyway. He was just trying to make me feel better I guess. I dunno. He was drunk too. It didn't mean anything and we swore not to tell anyone. It was only for like 2 minutes anyway and neither of us came and we used condoms. It wasn't exactly my best experience. After that we were kind of weird around each other, too. We considered each other family. It took awhile for us to get over it and forget about it and act normal again. It was not my intention to hurt anyone as opposed to Dom's encounters.