Author's Notes:-Thanks To Stonedtoad for betaing.
JACK
I now know this ceiling really well since I've been staring at it for the last few hours. God what a week. First that thing in Washington and then Abydos.
I managed to ignore what had happened in Washington as I focused all my attention on Daniel.
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Teal'c gave us a quick rundown of what happened as Janet checked Daniel out after Heru'Ur smacked him. I talked her once again into letting me take him home with me. He needed to be around people so he wouldn't wallow in his misery alone. At least with Sam and I here he had someone to vent his anger on.
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He saw Sha're and she was having Apophis's kid.
Then he delivered the kid.
Daniel never ceases to amaze me. I know it must have been agony to just sit there and let her go when he was so close to getting her back. When he was so close to getting the woman he loves more than anything back into his life.
As I dragged him up to the spare room he looked at me with dead eyes and whispered my name before he started to crumble.
I supported him as he finally asked for my help.
The one thing about Daniel is he finds it so hard to ask for help, I think it comes from losing his parents when he was so young. He's getting better at it though and right now I think that I'm going to have to just stick by him until he gets through this. I just hope he can.
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But now I'm not needed I can't help but think of another young man whose life was destroyed because of the Stargate.
At least Daniel is still alive.
Dammit, Armin why did you have to want this story? I mean there had to be something else out there that would have meant you would survive.
I can still feel his blood on my hands as he glared at me hatefully.
"You did this, son of a bitch."
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I might have well just have shot the guy myself.
There has to have been another way they could have stopped his story.
Couldn't they have shown him how important what we do is?
Anything but kill him.
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I know that Hammond would never do anything like this but I know a hell of a lot of people above him who would happily do it. And I led them right to him.
If he hadn't sought me out then we would have been none the wiser till he published it. What a stupid thing to do. You would think he would know better. But he didn't, he's dead and the programme is safe.
Now if I could just get some sleep.