Relive and Regret

Declaimer: 'I own it! I own it! I own it!'
"Jenn! Wake up! You DO NOT own any thing"
"yeah well here's the story"

chapter one: this goodbye might be forever

"Plus, this year would have so sucked if it weren't for Lily, our head girl. She was the one that actually got me to work! It was amazing! In the begging of the year she came up with our motto which really worked for me, it was, 'James, you do the forgetting, I'll do the remembering.' Try to get me to remember anything, and we'll have the Christmas ball in June! Anyways, Professor McGonagall told me to tell the parents what I've learned this year, so for a whole week and a half I spent my time getting together all my essays, this is were I would have read them all, but when I rehearsed this talk for my friend, he so rudely told me that they weren't my essays, that they were Remuse's. I new there had to be something wrong, I didn't remember writing half of them! But one thing I have learned from Hogwarts is friendship can never be broken, something's were meant to be, and you can't get a detention on the last day of school! Suddenly a whole lot of fireworks went off of every house color. (Some how the silver and green turned to pink and purple)

Sometime between the fireworks and smoke, James had sat down and Professor Dumbledore stood up,

"Ladies and Gentlemen, and Marauders." Dumbledore started, getting mock glares from the marauders, "I'd like to introduce the newest members of the wizarding world!" every one was happy and cheered, it was graduation day, after today, every one would be more than a Hogwarts student, they were finally adults. Every one that is, except for a 17 year old Lily Evans.

Bringing herself out of her thoughts she, slowly she stood up and went to go say good bye to her best friends. To your surprise, all of her friends were guys; it was always like that for her, until, well one week before graduation, she was determined NEVER to trust a guy again. Since the beginning of the year, Lily and James had been going out and the talk of the school. They were voted the most likely to get married after Hogwarts, and Lily believed it too. Then BAM, James had broken up with her and that's when her life fell apart. She had really loved him, and she thought that he had the same feelings, but guess not. The jerk, believe it or not, could have been found an hour later, in a broom closet snogging Brooke Willmes, his NEW girlfriend.

Lily had not taken it as 'well' as James, she stuck to her solitude. She had hardly talked more than two sentences to any one, except Sirius and Remus. They would always be her best friends, no matter what. But she also knew that they would always stay with James no matter what, and that was exactly why she had to leave. She couldn't even look at James and not feel her heart break all over again, let alone with Brooke. James was the only person she had let her self really and completely trust. And he went around using it as if she was just another number, a tally to add to his charts.
Lily walk towards Sirius and Remus at the refreshment table, where else?

"Hey guys," she said with out her normal cheerful tone, "I came to say goodbye."

"Goodbye, Lily." Sirius said with his mouth full, and still shoving more in.

"No, Sirius, I mean a real goodbye. I'm going to Paris for school, and I won't be able to see you guys for a long while."

"BUT LILY!" Sirius whinnied," You CANT gooooo! Who's going to party with me all night now?" sounding like a two year old.

"Maybe someday we can party again, like we use to, but for now, I need to just leave and get through school." she said with a sad sigh. Sirius pulled her into a big bear hug," fine but we have to party soon! Other wise I might die!"

"Me too Sirius, me too. And anyway while I'm gone you have to make James life the most annoying thing ever for me, and don't stop until I tell you, okay?"

"My pleasure." he smiled, not realizing that she had no intention to see him again.

Then she gave Remus a hug, the last week, they had become close due to the fact that he was the only one who realized that James had hurt her more than a half of what she let people see.

She whispered to him, "I know you know how much he hurt me, and that I probably wont see you guys again, but please don't tell him, let him do what he wants, don't let my needs ruin, his life."
"Okay." he whispered back, thinking that Lily was a great girl. How many people do you know that would give up there dreams that were as strong as hers for the person they loved to live there own life?

Lily said in voice that would melt ice," And when HE," pointing and James and Brooke snogging, "comes up for air, tell him I said goodbye." She walked out of their lives, wishing things were different; hopping things would change, but knowing that they wouldn't.

7YEARS LATER!

Lily was standing in line to buy her train ticket for the day, "ugg," Lily thought," its not like I don't like the muggle way of life, but it would be so much easier to just appropriate! I wish I didn't even have to do this stupid job, but if I didn't people would start to wonder what I was doing to get all the money and then I might have to tell them I also work-" Suddenly a voice from the past shouted, "THREE POUNDS! WHAT THE HECK! ITS TWO TRAIN TICKITS! THAT'S WAAAAAY TO HEAVEY!"
Lily hurried to the front of the line," I'm sooo sorry sir!" she said

"A foreigner I presume?" he asked

"Uhh yes, this should pay for 3 tickets, my apologies." she said smiling.

"No prob. miss." Lily grabbed his sleeve and pulled him out of hearing range,

"Sirius! How many times to I have to tell you! POUNDS ARE MUGGLE MONEY!" she scowled him.

"I'm sorry Lily, I forgot, I jus... LILY! IS IT REALLY YOU!"

"In the flesh!" she said with a smile. He picked her up and spun it around. "Where've you been? What are you doing now, why didn't you find me when you got back from Paris?"

"Hold on one question at a time, first of all, I'm good and I've been a few places mostly here or there, once or twice and who is the other person you bought a ticket for?"

"Hey Sirius, who do you got here?" the answer to her question said. None other than James Potter was standing there him self. "LILY!" He yelled seeing her face for the first time. He dropped his hot dog on the ground and gave her a great big bear hug. "I've missed you my Lily Star." he whispered. He was the only person who has ever called her that, hearing it again made the pain that she hid so well, come again. Her eyes had become dull and unreadable once again. Her expression became solid once again, and she pulled away from him. Sirius seeing her sudden change took charge, and took James attention away from her, "So I heard on the news that the whales in china…."

They boarded the train and were off to London for work...

A/N Here is a REVISED version of my first chappie! I hope it's easier to follow, and sry it's taken so long for me to update!