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Chapter 2: Sirius asks, Lily answers
The
threesome had sat together on the train. Lily sat by the window, and
hadn't said or done anything more than look out it. James sat
across from her and Sirius next to her. James and Sirius had talk a
little bit but not much. Finally James said," I'll be right
back." giving Sirius a look, that he understood completely, he
also wanted to know why Lily was not being herself.
"Lily
can I ask you something?" he started.
"You
just did," she said, trying to smile, but failing horribly, "but
you can ask something else." While still looking out the
window.
"Lily,
do... do you, still... Lily, what's wrong? Why haven't we seen
you in forever? And do you still miss James?"
"Do
you know how long it's been since someone called me Lily?" she
replied, pretending she didn't hear the question.
"Lily,
please, answer the question." he said, wondering what the heck
people called her, if not Lily.
"What?
Why haven't I talked to you in so long? Maybe its because my family
is in a ROYAL mess, at least what is left of it. My parents were
murdered by Voldemort, Petunia blames the whole thing on me, so she's
practically disowned me. then Joe decided to leave the wizarding
world, leaving me here by my self. Then, track- my job has been very
stressful, since forever. And what is this about, you thinking that I
still miss James, me, Lillianja Evans, Miss, James Potter? Do you
think it's possible for someone to miss the person they were so
deeply in love with? To miss someone that hurt them so much, but you
cant forget the love you had for them, because your convinced that it
should have worked, that maybe some how he still loves you? Does
missing them include not being able to sleep at night, because your
haunted by what should have been. If I didn't miss him, do you
think I would have changed my name because he use to say he loved it?
Or does the fact that I changed my whole future so that I wouldn't
be upset that he wasn't in the one I had planed to take? Sirius OF
COURSE I MISS HIM! He was my true love! He was supposed to spend his
live with me! We were suppose to live happily ever after! But guess
what, were not, and I can't even do anything I use to in fear I'll
feel the hurt all over again! One would think I would be over him by
now, its been 7 YEARS! Sirius! 7 BLOODY YEARS! But he's still got
my heart under his foot! SO in short Sirius, yes I miss the heck out
of James, and there is not a thing in the world I can do about it."
she finished with silent tears rolling down her face.
'Wow,
I had no idea James meant that much to her,' Sirius thought taken
aback, 'And James asked me if he should break up with
her.'
Suddenly she
stood up and ran to the bath room. She ran past James, who was on his
way back
"Lily?" she heard James call, but she ignored him. She finally reached the bath room. James watched her shut the door and lock it. With a worried sigh, he went back to Sirius.
In the bathroom w/ Lily
She looked at herself in the mirror. 'I can't believe I just poured my heart out to Sirius! I am such a Dork. I just hope he doesn't tell James.' She thought. 'Here's my one chance, if James really loved me he'll try to get me back. Hopefully. Cheese, I look horrible.' "'inphexo'" she said out loud and It looked like nothing ever happened. After a couple of deep breaths she went back to James and Sirius.
Meanwhile…
James
hurried back to Sirius and asked, "What happened? What she
say?"
"She
said," he started to tell James everything, but decided not to,
if she wanted to tell him, she would," she just haveing a family
problem, and not her self." he half told him what she said,"
and James please, try not to get her mad at you. She already upset,
don't make it worse!"
"Okay,
I wont, but do you know anything about what happened to her family? I
remember her family being quite close, she use to Love to go home on
holidays. Her and Petunia were close? And what about Joe? How's he?
Wonder what happened."
There
was silence until Lily walked up, Sirius gave her a reassuring smile,
and she sat down, trying to forget everything that just happened and
tried to make conversation" So umm... How, why are you guys
taking the muggle train?" she asked using her chance to see
James again.
"Well
you see," James started," we were kind of harassing some poor
muggle and we got our aporating licenses suspended." Sirius
finished.
Lily
tried to laughed, it wasn't her real laugh, not just yet, but she
hoped it would come back soon. For the first time, in a long time,
things were looking up. "that sounds just like you guys, you'll
never change." after saying this, she got real quiet, she
realized that if they never changed, would that mean James would
still be the player he was, she hoped he did change, but the
possibility was still there.
After that everyone went into there own little world, Sirius thinking about Lily and James and if they were meant to be, and if so would James ruin it because he has no idea how much Lily still cared.
James was thinking about Lily and what was wrong with her family, Mr. and Mrs. Evans were really nice and loved her from what he could see, hopefully neither one of them were sick, or had a heart attack or something. Or maybe something happened to Patuina, they were really close, maybe she got hurt, that would be horrible, 'I wish Lily would tell me what's making her sad I hate to see her like this' James thought having no idea it was him, from all toughs years ago.
Lily
was thinking about, trying not thinking about James, and keeping her
mind on her own problems, and work. She worked for the daily prophet;
she edited the articles, made sure that there was nothing in there to
'hurt' the public. 'I hate this job, it pays enough, but still, I'd
rather spend all my time on-' Her thoughts got cut off by James who
told her that it was time to get off.
"Well
it was nice seeing you guys again, but umm I have to go to work,"
Lily said leaving as fast as she could.
"Bye,
Lily." James called, and they walked the other way.
At work
"Anja, we have two arrors in training coming, after
they work here for two months, they will have finished there
training, you have been assigned one, I heard he's charming."
her boss, Mr. Will tembugg
She
half smiled and went to her desk, she was usually the first person
there, including her boss, but today was different, she ran into
people she really hadn't wanted to. (A/N remember Lily goes by Anja
) 'And now I have to deal with an arror, James was going to be the
best arror there was this is begining to be too much' She thought as
she started to get the next days articles.
About
a half an hour later, it was time for her to go pick up her
'trainee'. She went up to the head desk, what she saw there was
something that she wish she hadn't. "Potter" she said
under her breath. This was her trainee James Potter. It wasn't him
that made her, right then and there, start to not just hate him but
loathe him, it was his actions. He was flirting with the blonde girl
who ran the front desk. She wrote her number on a piece of paper, and
before he left he kissed her! Can you believe that! Right in the
middle of work. Right then Lily decided she would never ever forgive
him, she was right, he hadn't changed, and never would, and that
was it. "Potter," she said, in a bitterly way, "if you
wouldn't mind I have to get to work and unfortunately with
you."
James
looked very confused,' Potter? Since when, I Thought I was James,
we settled that, the end of... 6th year.' He slowly came, towards
her, she swiftly turned around and walked quickly, James had to
practically jog to keep up.
"This
is what you need to correct, I want it at the end of the day, don't
talk to me, I'm busy, and I don't need to deal with you right now."
she sat down, and got back to the article she was working before she
was interrupted.
A/N I hope you like it! And Thanx to Angelzsweet90 and Amber, My only TWO reviewers, sorry for the long wait, hopefully I'll get the next chappie up soon!
