Author's Notes:-Thanks To Stonedtoad for betaing.

Lying here on the couch at Daniel's apartment staring at the ceiling I know one thing.

It's over.

The looking, the searching it's all over.

Sha're is dead.

But for Daniel the agony is just beginning.

x

It wasn't exactly hard to work out what had happened. Staff blast wound to her chest, Teal'c looking guilty as hell. Sam's assessment of 'Oh God' was right.

I didn't want to make him move from there, that would be when the pain would really start but we had to go.

He softly asked me to take her back home; he didn't have the strength to carry her. I handed Teal'c my gun before gently picking up Sha're's body.

Sam helped Daniel to his feet and gave him support as we walked back towards the Stargate.

x

As we walked I took a look at the young woman who my friend has been searching for and just wanted to scream in fury at the Universe.

They didn't deserve this. Daniel and Sha're deserved better. I've never met someone as sweet and as strong as Sha're was and I wish I could change it.

They loved each other so much.

I knew it when we came out of the pyramid after we killed Ra; the way they were attached at the mouth gave it away.

Then that look of absolute adoration they gave each other on Abydos before she was taken told me they were fine and that last kiss. Daniel told me when we were talking one night it was all he could think about when she was taken.

Now she was gone for good.

We were almost there when I heard Sam call to Daniel. Turning I saw him fold to the ground as all his energy left him. Teal'c quickly picked him up and we headed home.

x

I took Sha're to the morgue myself unable to let anyone else take her. There I left strict instructions for them to get rid of all Ammonet's makeup, jewellery and clothing. I wanted everything the Gould wore, every trace of her gone so that when Daniel saw Sha're she looked like the woman he'd married. When Kasuf came to be with her I headed to check on Daniel.

x

I hoped he remembered what had happened for the purely selfish reason; I didn't want to have to tell him. I know I would have if I'd had to but I really didn't want to have to look in his eyes and tell him she was dead.

I didn't have to.

He opened his eyes and looked straight at me.

"She's gone, isn't she?"

When I nodded he just closed his eyes and sighed before he asked to see her. I went with him, just the two of us. Kasuf was waiting and he embraced Daniel in silence before the attendant pulled back the sheet.

She looked like she was sleeping; Daniel gently traced his fingers over her face before he leaned over and softly kissed her. I heard him whisper something but I couldn't understand what he said.

I left him as he tried to get some sleep worried at how much he was shutting down.

x

As I was heading back to the infirmary after the debriefing I could hear him arguing with Janet, begging her to let him go home.

I started to offer to take him back to his apartment and stay with him but that wasn't what he meant.

He meant Abydos.

His home, where his heart belonged and where he felt he belonged.

Sadly Janet refused, she wanted him to rest before the funeral so I brought him back here.

x

He had bought her things.

Clothes, shoes, and stuff she would need if she was staying on Earth.

Gifts too.

Little things he thought she would have liked.

Then I found the small jewellery box. I really wished I hadn't.

Inside were two gold bands, wedding rings.

"I bought them after I saw her on Abydos," he explained quietly, "So she knew when I got her back how much I love her."

He dropped his head before grabbing a small glass bird and hurling it at the wall in pure rage.

He started yelling how unfair it was, cursing everyone and everything from Apophis to me.

Then he crumpled to the floor.

I caught him as he wept for his lost love as all his rage, hate and pain from the past few years came flooding out. I let him cling to me as he grieved unable to do anything but be there for him.

Making him lie down I gave him the sedative Janet had supplied me with to help him sleep.

I just wish she'd added one for me.

The funeral is tomorrow and I just hope to hell he's calmer but I think most of it is out of his system. Now he just has to learn to live again without the hope.

Closing my eyes all I can do is silently promise Sha're I'll take care of him and I'll find Skaara. One of them will survive.

I just hope Daniel can.