Unwanted Feelings
By: Angelistical06
Fallenangelz06@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: I do not own any Kingdom Hearts characters and/or related characters... Not making a profit either so no calling any lawyers for you! HA!
'...' = thoughts "..." = dialogue *****************************************************
Chapter 7: Enigma
"Huh?..."
Riku stood there on the shore line, waiting for something he wasn't sure of. It was unusually chilly out, with an overcast. The wind blew harshly against his face, pulling his silver hair back. Even the waters looked stone gray, ice cold and unsettled. He crossed his arms, hoping to hold in some heat.
"Hey you."
A voice called out from behind him. Carefully turning around, an unexpected smile spread across his lips. "Sora." The brunette smiled warmly, his blue eyes sparkled with an forgotten warmth. "I see you dyed your hair back." Sora laughed. "Yeah, it was kind of freaking me out." he blushed a bit and looked at his shoes. Riku smiled once again. They stood in silence so Riku decided to break it. "Oh god, Sora. What has happened to us?" Sora felt himself being held by his strong arms. "Why can't we go back? Back in time...and start over." What was he saying? Didn't he remember what Sora did to him? He knew in some twisted way, he got what he deserved but still. What happened, happened. "Riku..." Sora return the hold. "Sora, I love you so much..." He smiled. "Then...wake up..." Riku pulled back and laughed with slight confusion. "What? I am awake aren't I?" Sora pulled back. "Riku. Just wake up." "I am-" His surroundings, the beach, the shore, even the sand started to fade into darkness. He stepped back. "Wait! What's happening?!" The ground beneath him vanished, he found himself falling. Falling into darkness. "Wake up...just wake..up".....
"Wha...?" His eyes slowly opened. Everything was still out of focus, so he re-closed them. 'Where am I?' Deciding there was only one way to find out, he opened them once more. There he lay in a bed, looking over to his left was some kind of stand. Full of get well soon cards. He grabbed one and read it. "Bear with it." A cute little bear wrapping his arm in bandages smiled at him. Opening it, he read on. "Get well soon, we all miss you. Hugs and kisses, Kairi." Riku smiled. He didn't feel bad at all. His memory was still a tad bit clouded though. Setting the card aside, he sat up. He had a room all to himself. It was quaint and quiet, only the steady beep of his heart monitor was cutting the silence. 'Why am I in the hospital?' Slightly fatigued, he laid back down, turning on the tv overhead. Why couldn't he remember what happened to him? The last thing he remembered was...He frowned. 'The last thing I remember is... Sora! He was after Kairi!' He sat up again, this time in fear. She HAD to be alright! Riku whipped the covers from around him and swung his feet out the bed. "Riku?" He looked up. "Kairi..." She dropped her bag and ran to him, tears threatening to fall. "You're awake! You're finally awake!" Keeping their threat, tears of joy and relief fell to his gown as she held him tight. "I'm...finally awake?" his voice no louder than a whisper. "Yes! You've been in a coma...for months." She sat on the bed next to him. "The doctors...they said you might never wake up." "Coma?" This all sounded strange to him. "There was even talk of..." she looked away for a brief second. "Talk of what?" "They even suggested letting you die. Stupid doctors, you'd have a peaceful death they said." She leaned over and kissed him. "But I never lost hope, I knew you would wake up and return to me." He was overcome with unanswered questions. This didn't make sense, how could he possibly be in a coma for months? What happened that night?
"What happened to me? I don't remember anything but Sora attacking you." His emerald eyes begged for understanding. "You don't remember anything? Even what Sora did to you?" ok, he DID remember that. "I mean the night at my house..." he frowned again at his total lack of recall. She became still. "Well, he...hit you, with a bat and he cried and ran away. Like the sick bastard he is-" "Where'd he go?" Riku cut her off. "I-I don't know. No one has seen him since. He has his mother really worried. I mean he couldn't have gotten off the island." She reached over and picked up her bag. "I brought you some clothes, for when you get better. I know you probably hate that hospital gown." He immediately threw his gown off and took the clothes. Kairi blushed furiously. "You do know I'm right here, right?" she pretended to look away. "Oh, sorry. But I gotta make up for lost time." He got dressed. "Where are you going? You JUST came out of a coma!" she said forgetting her shyness. "I feel fine, really. I mean, I had months to heal right?" She scrunched her eyebrows together. "But, still the doctors.." "Screw the doctors." He got his shoes from her and smiled. "Hey, still where are you going?" "To find him." he said while fastening his shoes. "What?! You're not?!" He fixed his shirt. "Yeah, I am." She jumped up, shaking him. "Are you crazy?!! He tried to kill you!" He grimaced in pain. "Please don't do that." "Sorry...sorry." she rubbed his head gently. "But, why would you want to find him? He's snapped." Sighing heavily, he sat back down. "Because, that wasn't Sora." that curbed her complaints. "What do you mean? That WAS him." "I know it was him physically, but mentally that wasn't."
Riku reached over and placed a hand on her shoulder, smiling vaguely. "How can you be for certain?" He sighed. What he had to say will hurt her. But it's the truth, he was still in love with Sora. Despite all the things he's done to him, the feeling will never pass. "Kairi, it's just the bond we share. I've known him all my life." She held a hand to his forehead. "Are you sure you're ok? I can't believe this, Riku." She looked at him hard. "You're still..." He got up and walked to the door. "I'm going now... Tell the rest I'll be alright." Kairi got up and ran to the door, trying to force some sense into him. "Riku, stop! He'll only hurt you again!" "Kairi-" "You can't go back to him! I won't let you!" He grabbed her and moved her against a wall. "Look, I know all you're trying to do is help, but this something I have to do!" "Says WHO?! I mean, aren't you happy with me?!" Her violet eyes teared up once more. "It's not- it's not like that." He eyed a nurse walking down the hall and decided to close the door for privacy. "I'm responsible for what he's turned into." She shook her head. "No, don't go blaming yourself. Sora let himself turn this way." Riku sighed in exasperation, running a hand through his hair. There was no way to get her to see it his way. He opened the door again and stepped into the bright hallways of the hospital. "Riku! Stop!" Without facing her, he continued down the hall and to the elevators. 'Sora, I'm coming.' She didn't bother to chase him down, mostly because she knew it would be pointless. So instead she picked up his room phone , trying desperately to think of someone to call. "Don't worry, I'll save you. Since you can't save yourself."
The elevator doors opened with a ding. The lights felt unusually bright to his fragile eyes. Half blinded he stepped into the cool machine, joining another person. "Damn it. What floor is this?" he whispered out loud. "8th." someone replied. Still squinting from the bright lights, he turned to the voice. "Are you going to the main floor?" "No." Riku made his way to the buttons. "Then, what floor do you want?" there was a pause. "Well? How about an answer?!" all patience had flown away. "I..." He fully opened his adjusted eyes. "You know wha-" The person he saw made him freeze mid sentence. "S-Sora?" The still blacked hair boy stood against the wall, looking at the floor. The elevator started going down on it's own, startling Riku. "How...have you been?" Sora asked quietly. "....I'm ok, I guess. But you're the one pulling disappearing acts." Sora had half expected getting jumped, or at least spat at again. Slowly, he'd settled down returning to the old him. But every so often, those feelings would return. Like they were doing now. "Sora," Riku stepped towards him. "Stay back, Riku." he pressed himself closer against the wall. The doors opened, allowing some people to board. He still stood closer to him, he couldn't help it. "Sora," he whispered under the other people's conversation, "Look, I'm not sure how to explain this but I know I helped cause the stuff that has happened between us. And I apologize for that." Sora closed his eyes. "Riku, I'm not well. You're not safe around me." He grabbed the younger one and gently pushed him further into the wall. "I don't care! Sora, I just want to be with you again!" he said softly. "B-Be with me?" the people stepped off at the main floor and Riku followed, motioning for Sora to come along.
They walked along side each other. Both scared to say anything. "Riku, are you ok? I mean...you should hate me by now...I could've KILLED you." He sighed, Sora was right. But why didn't he feel angry towards him? Any person would, but truthfully he couldn't. "Sora, I can never hate you...thought I told you that. Besides, I don't think that was you." They walked towards Riku house absent mindedly. "It wasn't." Sora murmured. "Hmm? Then who was it?" Just then, two police officers walked up to them. "Which one of you is Sora?" they questioned coolly. "Uh, that would be me." he spoke up. "We have an arrest warrant for you...uh, assault and attempted murder." the taller guy spoke, flipping through his notebook. "You're under arrest." The second guy grabbed for his handcuffs. "Bullshit!" Riku grabbed his arm and fled in the opposite direction. "Get back here!" They ran at full speed, with the cops hot on their trail. "over here, hurry!" Riku hopped a fence into someone's yard. Sora followed, panting heavily. Still hearing the cops behind them, they cut a corner that lead to an underground tunnel way. "C'mon Sora!" Riku bent back a screen leading into it. Sora paused. "What are ...you waiting...for?!" he gritted his teeth together as he endured the weight of the screen. "Get in!" "Why are you helping me?" he breathe heavily. "Ask! Questions! Later! Not get your ass in there!" he obeyed, squeezing through and helping Riku in. They continued to run down the tunnel and out near other end. Leaning against the wall of the tunnel, Riku smiled as he panted little clouds of vapor. It was a cold out, and seeing each other breath was quite easy now.
"Looks like we lost them. We make a great getaway." Riku laughed breathlessly. Sora didn't smile at all, if anything he was worried and confused. "I should turn myself in..." he concluded. "What? What for?" He sat on the cold ground, unable to look Riku in the eyes. "I'm a criminal." "No, your not." Sora shot back a look of bitterness. "Riku, stop overlooking the things that I've done!" He smiled dimly. "I'm not...I just know you, Sora." With that, his world turned black and he passed out.
Disclaimer: I do not own any Kingdom Hearts characters and/or related characters... Not making a profit either so no calling any lawyers for you! HA!
'...' = thoughts "..." = dialogue *****************************************************
Chapter 7: Enigma
"Huh?..."
Riku stood there on the shore line, waiting for something he wasn't sure of. It was unusually chilly out, with an overcast. The wind blew harshly against his face, pulling his silver hair back. Even the waters looked stone gray, ice cold and unsettled. He crossed his arms, hoping to hold in some heat.
"Hey you."
A voice called out from behind him. Carefully turning around, an unexpected smile spread across his lips. "Sora." The brunette smiled warmly, his blue eyes sparkled with an forgotten warmth. "I see you dyed your hair back." Sora laughed. "Yeah, it was kind of freaking me out." he blushed a bit and looked at his shoes. Riku smiled once again. They stood in silence so Riku decided to break it. "Oh god, Sora. What has happened to us?" Sora felt himself being held by his strong arms. "Why can't we go back? Back in time...and start over." What was he saying? Didn't he remember what Sora did to him? He knew in some twisted way, he got what he deserved but still. What happened, happened. "Riku..." Sora return the hold. "Sora, I love you so much..." He smiled. "Then...wake up..." Riku pulled back and laughed with slight confusion. "What? I am awake aren't I?" Sora pulled back. "Riku. Just wake up." "I am-" His surroundings, the beach, the shore, even the sand started to fade into darkness. He stepped back. "Wait! What's happening?!" The ground beneath him vanished, he found himself falling. Falling into darkness. "Wake up...just wake..up".....
"Wha...?" His eyes slowly opened. Everything was still out of focus, so he re-closed them. 'Where am I?' Deciding there was only one way to find out, he opened them once more. There he lay in a bed, looking over to his left was some kind of stand. Full of get well soon cards. He grabbed one and read it. "Bear with it." A cute little bear wrapping his arm in bandages smiled at him. Opening it, he read on. "Get well soon, we all miss you. Hugs and kisses, Kairi." Riku smiled. He didn't feel bad at all. His memory was still a tad bit clouded though. Setting the card aside, he sat up. He had a room all to himself. It was quaint and quiet, only the steady beep of his heart monitor was cutting the silence. 'Why am I in the hospital?' Slightly fatigued, he laid back down, turning on the tv overhead. Why couldn't he remember what happened to him? The last thing he remembered was...He frowned. 'The last thing I remember is... Sora! He was after Kairi!' He sat up again, this time in fear. She HAD to be alright! Riku whipped the covers from around him and swung his feet out the bed. "Riku?" He looked up. "Kairi..." She dropped her bag and ran to him, tears threatening to fall. "You're awake! You're finally awake!" Keeping their threat, tears of joy and relief fell to his gown as she held him tight. "I'm...finally awake?" his voice no louder than a whisper. "Yes! You've been in a coma...for months." She sat on the bed next to him. "The doctors...they said you might never wake up." "Coma?" This all sounded strange to him. "There was even talk of..." she looked away for a brief second. "Talk of what?" "They even suggested letting you die. Stupid doctors, you'd have a peaceful death they said." She leaned over and kissed him. "But I never lost hope, I knew you would wake up and return to me." He was overcome with unanswered questions. This didn't make sense, how could he possibly be in a coma for months? What happened that night?
"What happened to me? I don't remember anything but Sora attacking you." His emerald eyes begged for understanding. "You don't remember anything? Even what Sora did to you?" ok, he DID remember that. "I mean the night at my house..." he frowned again at his total lack of recall. She became still. "Well, he...hit you, with a bat and he cried and ran away. Like the sick bastard he is-" "Where'd he go?" Riku cut her off. "I-I don't know. No one has seen him since. He has his mother really worried. I mean he couldn't have gotten off the island." She reached over and picked up her bag. "I brought you some clothes, for when you get better. I know you probably hate that hospital gown." He immediately threw his gown off and took the clothes. Kairi blushed furiously. "You do know I'm right here, right?" she pretended to look away. "Oh, sorry. But I gotta make up for lost time." He got dressed. "Where are you going? You JUST came out of a coma!" she said forgetting her shyness. "I feel fine, really. I mean, I had months to heal right?" She scrunched her eyebrows together. "But, still the doctors.." "Screw the doctors." He got his shoes from her and smiled. "Hey, still where are you going?" "To find him." he said while fastening his shoes. "What?! You're not?!" He fixed his shirt. "Yeah, I am." She jumped up, shaking him. "Are you crazy?!! He tried to kill you!" He grimaced in pain. "Please don't do that." "Sorry...sorry." she rubbed his head gently. "But, why would you want to find him? He's snapped." Sighing heavily, he sat back down. "Because, that wasn't Sora." that curbed her complaints. "What do you mean? That WAS him." "I know it was him physically, but mentally that wasn't."
Riku reached over and placed a hand on her shoulder, smiling vaguely. "How can you be for certain?" He sighed. What he had to say will hurt her. But it's the truth, he was still in love with Sora. Despite all the things he's done to him, the feeling will never pass. "Kairi, it's just the bond we share. I've known him all my life." She held a hand to his forehead. "Are you sure you're ok? I can't believe this, Riku." She looked at him hard. "You're still..." He got up and walked to the door. "I'm going now... Tell the rest I'll be alright." Kairi got up and ran to the door, trying to force some sense into him. "Riku, stop! He'll only hurt you again!" "Kairi-" "You can't go back to him! I won't let you!" He grabbed her and moved her against a wall. "Look, I know all you're trying to do is help, but this something I have to do!" "Says WHO?! I mean, aren't you happy with me?!" Her violet eyes teared up once more. "It's not- it's not like that." He eyed a nurse walking down the hall and decided to close the door for privacy. "I'm responsible for what he's turned into." She shook her head. "No, don't go blaming yourself. Sora let himself turn this way." Riku sighed in exasperation, running a hand through his hair. There was no way to get her to see it his way. He opened the door again and stepped into the bright hallways of the hospital. "Riku! Stop!" Without facing her, he continued down the hall and to the elevators. 'Sora, I'm coming.' She didn't bother to chase him down, mostly because she knew it would be pointless. So instead she picked up his room phone , trying desperately to think of someone to call. "Don't worry, I'll save you. Since you can't save yourself."
The elevator doors opened with a ding. The lights felt unusually bright to his fragile eyes. Half blinded he stepped into the cool machine, joining another person. "Damn it. What floor is this?" he whispered out loud. "8th." someone replied. Still squinting from the bright lights, he turned to the voice. "Are you going to the main floor?" "No." Riku made his way to the buttons. "Then, what floor do you want?" there was a pause. "Well? How about an answer?!" all patience had flown away. "I..." He fully opened his adjusted eyes. "You know wha-" The person he saw made him freeze mid sentence. "S-Sora?" The still blacked hair boy stood against the wall, looking at the floor. The elevator started going down on it's own, startling Riku. "How...have you been?" Sora asked quietly. "....I'm ok, I guess. But you're the one pulling disappearing acts." Sora had half expected getting jumped, or at least spat at again. Slowly, he'd settled down returning to the old him. But every so often, those feelings would return. Like they were doing now. "Sora," Riku stepped towards him. "Stay back, Riku." he pressed himself closer against the wall. The doors opened, allowing some people to board. He still stood closer to him, he couldn't help it. "Sora," he whispered under the other people's conversation, "Look, I'm not sure how to explain this but I know I helped cause the stuff that has happened between us. And I apologize for that." Sora closed his eyes. "Riku, I'm not well. You're not safe around me." He grabbed the younger one and gently pushed him further into the wall. "I don't care! Sora, I just want to be with you again!" he said softly. "B-Be with me?" the people stepped off at the main floor and Riku followed, motioning for Sora to come along.
They walked along side each other. Both scared to say anything. "Riku, are you ok? I mean...you should hate me by now...I could've KILLED you." He sighed, Sora was right. But why didn't he feel angry towards him? Any person would, but truthfully he couldn't. "Sora, I can never hate you...thought I told you that. Besides, I don't think that was you." They walked towards Riku house absent mindedly. "It wasn't." Sora murmured. "Hmm? Then who was it?" Just then, two police officers walked up to them. "Which one of you is Sora?" they questioned coolly. "Uh, that would be me." he spoke up. "We have an arrest warrant for you...uh, assault and attempted murder." the taller guy spoke, flipping through his notebook. "You're under arrest." The second guy grabbed for his handcuffs. "Bullshit!" Riku grabbed his arm and fled in the opposite direction. "Get back here!" They ran at full speed, with the cops hot on their trail. "over here, hurry!" Riku hopped a fence into someone's yard. Sora followed, panting heavily. Still hearing the cops behind them, they cut a corner that lead to an underground tunnel way. "C'mon Sora!" Riku bent back a screen leading into it. Sora paused. "What are ...you waiting...for?!" he gritted his teeth together as he endured the weight of the screen. "Get in!" "Why are you helping me?" he breathe heavily. "Ask! Questions! Later! Not get your ass in there!" he obeyed, squeezing through and helping Riku in. They continued to run down the tunnel and out near other end. Leaning against the wall of the tunnel, Riku smiled as he panted little clouds of vapor. It was a cold out, and seeing each other breath was quite easy now.
"Looks like we lost them. We make a great getaway." Riku laughed breathlessly. Sora didn't smile at all, if anything he was worried and confused. "I should turn myself in..." he concluded. "What? What for?" He sat on the cold ground, unable to look Riku in the eyes. "I'm a criminal." "No, your not." Sora shot back a look of bitterness. "Riku, stop overlooking the things that I've done!" He smiled dimly. "I'm not...I just know you, Sora." With that, his world turned black and he passed out.