A/N: This is my first attempt at a FF3 (FF6) fanfic.  However, I have always loved the game, and Terra has always been my favorite character.  In fact, she's my favorite RPG female character of all time.  I hope I have done her some justice by writing this.  I was up late last night, and the idea for this just came to me.  It's just my little spin on Terra's thoughts.  So, you people know the drill, R&R.

Oh!  Before I forget, a minor note: This is all from Terra's POV and takes place on the boat trip before the World of Ruin and before her talk with Shadow.

Disclaimer: I do not own FF3 (FF6).  If I did, I would be a rich person.

Family

I cannot remember anything about my father…or my mother.  Or my past in general.  I do not remember any memories from my childhood.  The Emperor and Kefka stole my memories, my past, my…life away from me.

All I can remember is killing.

The Emperor and Kefka used me, manipulated me, trained me for killing and only for destruction. 

It all makes me sick.

I never have told the others, but deep down, I knew they were using me too.  But at least they gave me a choice, they did CARE about ME, not just my powers.  They did far more than the Empire ever did or could do for me.  They became my friends, my…family.  It's nice finally having people to talk to, to live with, but I still feel lonely.

At night, while I lay in my bed, I can hear the soldiers I killed screaming.  I can hear their last words, I can see their panicked faces, the terror in their eyes.  And it all came from me.

Edgar and Locke keep telling me that it wasn't my fault.  It was the Emperor's they explain.  But it still doesn't change the fact that it was ME that killed them. 

I feel so dirty, so tainted, so… I don't know what word to use.  All I know is that it's not a nice word.

The sound of the waves crashing against the boat is somewhat comforting, knowing that it has a steady rhythm.  Always constant.  Not too many things in life are as consistent.  I walked to the railing of the boat and leaned on it, taking in the nice sea air.  The sea is so beautiful, so soothing.  I now see why sailors love it so much.

I looked up at the dark night sky and saw the stars twinkle and sparkle brightly.  They shine as bright as my pendent.  Upon thinking that, I looked down at my father's heirloom and touched it gently.

Father said that he would always be with me… I guess he's right.  I have this pendent, proof that my father did exist and love me and my mother.  Even if I lost my pendent, no one can take away that fact.  He said that we were a family… Again, I guess he's right. 

Locke, Edgar, Celes, Gau, Cyan, Sabin, Setzer, General Leo, and even Shadow are my family now.  I'm going to stand by them until the end, because that's what a family does.

My family…