A/N: I don't like Britney all that much but I love the song "Everytime". Listening to it I started thinking about Buffy and that this is the way I wanted her to feel after Riley left. So yeah. Another songfic.

Notice me

Take my hand

Why are we

Strangers when

Our love is strong

Why carry on without me?

The last time I saw you we were screaming at eachother. I said things I never wanted to say and you made me realize that maybe I had been doing things wrong just as you had. I tried to be so strong, tried to protect my sister and be the perfect girlfriend and help mom and in between I had to slay. I didn't have time to break down. So instead of being the perfect girlfriend I failed you. I wasn't able to show the love I felt for you. And you thought that I didn't care at all.

When I saw those vampires, needing you like I needed you I broke down. I did need you. So much. I just wasn't strong enough to show you. Didn't have the feeling that I could rely on anybody because if I did I would be caught off guard. The vampires and demons would be able to hurt me by taking away the people I love if I let them come too close. And in a way they did. The vampires caused us to break up. They caused you to leave. I made you leave.

Everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, it's haunting me

I guess I need you baby

And now I've finally realized that I am strongest when I'm with you. Now, when it's too late. Now that you're in Belize fighting evil I am fighting the demons in my head. I should have never let you go baby. Part of me wants to get you back, wants to fly to Belize and take you home. Because I need you. Because I want you. Because I love you Riley.

But I can't.

Because you no longer need me. Or maybe you do. But it would destroy you to come back. I know you would if I asked you to but you would be so scared that things would still be the same. I know you wouldn't be able to resist the vampires. And I know that I wouldn't be able to be what you wanted me to be. I am trying to change but it's really hard. Maybe someday I will be how you dreamt me to be, but by then you will have moved on.

I make believe

That you are here

It's the only way

I see clear

What have I done

You seem to move on easy

When I'm all alone in my room I talk to you, like I am doing now. I am telling you how alone I feel without you, and sometimes I break down and cry in your imaginary arms. What I wasn't able to give you when you were here is something I find solace in now. I show you my vulnerable side because I know you were worth it and because I owe it to you. It may be too late but I still feel the need to show you that I really loved you Riley. I did even if I didn't show it. I was just too scared that you would leave.

Isn't it ironic that that was the reason that you left?

I may have made it rain

Please forgive me

My weakness caused you pain

And this song is my sorry

I knew you were hurting, but back then I didn't have time for it. There was so much on my mind...I know it's not an excuse but I was so worried. I felt like I was responsible for the whole world. By being me I forced you to go to those vampires. Because they needed you. In a way that you thought I didn't. But I did. I just never showed you.

I won't be able to say sorry straight to your face. I don't even know where you are right now. Belize. That's all I know. That a chopper came and took you away from me before I could even explain. I am sorry Riley. For not being able to open up to you sooner. For making you go to those vampires. For being who I am and for being unable to change. For not being the person you wanted me to be. I am so sorry.

At night I pray

That soon your face

Will fade away

I hope that someday the guilt will wash away. That I will be able to forget you and move on. I know part of me will always wonder...what if? What if I had been there in time? What if we would have stayed together? Would we have been happy or would I have made you miserable in the end anyway? I know this is probably for the best, but I can't help my heart being broken, my tears falling down on my pillow at night when I see your face.

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you baby

But now it's too late. I've lost you and it hurts more than I can say. I just wanted to say goodbye before I let you go completely. I guess I've done that now.

Goodbye Riley.

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A/N: Weird ending...yeah I know...