a/n: All right sorry I have been so slow on the update, but I was
suffering huge writer's block and plus I was going through some shit.
Anyway here it is...and I don't really know if I like it...eh it's all
right...could have been better but oh well I tried. You'll probably
like it anyway. Here it is...Chapter 5....
Oh yeah this chapter is dedicated to one of my very good friends on here, and lately we got into this little fight that neither of us should have been in and I love her to death and she knows that so this chapter is dedicated to my most faithful reviewer and good friend, Bexi but her penname is Lil'Eowyn, and I recommend you check out her stories...they are very good, VERY!! I extremely enjoy them!!! She is a fantastic writer and a great person!! Check them out!!
The song used in this chapter is called "Still Frame" by Trapt. AND NO, I DO NOT OWN IT :P!!
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Chapter 5: Still Frame
"Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get out,
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get it out of here,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you."
----------------------------
Before I knew it, we had reached the train station in Hogsmeade. I hopped off the steps still thinking about my meeting with Potter. Why did he hold onto my hand like that? How could someone's hands be as soft as an angel's as his were? How come he cared so much as to convince me not to kill myself? And even more, what made me listen to the Gryffindor?
Pansy yelled to me, motioning that she had found an empty carriage that would take us to Hogwarts. I began making my way over to her when I suddenly felt the gaze if someone's eyes watching my every movement. I turned my head and met eyes with the very person that seemed to be taking complete control of my mind. He nodded slightly, and even though he was quite far down the line, I swear I saw him smile slightly. He turned and climbed up into his carriage following the shock of bright red hair.
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"And every time I think I've finally made it,
I learn I'm farther away than I've ever been before,
I see the clock and it's ticking away,
And the hourglass empty,
What the fuck do I have to say?"
----------------------------
"Draco, come on! God, what is your problem today?! First you left for almost a whole hour on the train—"Pansy began going off at me.
I heard nothing more, even if her mouth was still going. I climbed into the carriage and peered out the window. My mind was clouded once again by The-Boy-Who-Lived. I sighed softly, laying my head against the side of the carriage and closed my eyes.
----------------------------
"Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get out,
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get it out of here,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you."
----------------------------
We started moving by now and I was deep in my pool of thoughts. Harry Potter was starting to become a big part of my emotions. But who was I kidding? Harry Potter had always been a big part of my emotions. He angered and attracted me as no one ever had before. Our meeting on the train showed me a part of him I had never seen before. He cared for me; there was no doubt about that. I mean but think about that: Harry Potter cares for Draco Malfoy? Sounds like something out of some kind of fairytale dream miracle with those cheesy "they lived happily ever after" endings. Well, with the way my life was going I doubted I could ever even come close to one of these endings.
----------------------------
"Keep it inside,
The image portrayed as if I couldn't stand losing,
As if I couldn't be saved, no way.
A small confession, I think I'm starting to lose it.
I think I'm drifting away from the people I really need.
A small reflection on when we were younger,
We had it all figured out,
'cause we had everything covered.
Now we're older it's getting harder to see
what this future will hold for us,
what the fuck are we going to be?"
----------------------------
Harry Potter had to be one of the most perfect human being I have ever come in contact with. To start, he had the messiest jet-black hair I had ever seen, but it fit him exactly in every single hair that stuck out of place. His black locks ran into his gorgeous emerald eyes, and I know that sound cheesy, but damn you gotta see these eyes to believe it: they are drop-dead gorgeous, that made his face bright and striking to look at. He had this flawless creamy skin that looked as soft as a baby's bottom (a/n: lol you know it's true), which was lightly tanned no doubt from the sun this past summer. And to top his beautiful face of are those lips he possessed. His pink lips looked like soft pillows waiting for another to lie atop them and kiss him softly. How many times had I wished I could crawl into his arms and kiss those perfect lips and force our tongues together in a kind of battle of wills and of pleasure. Heh I was really starting to creep myself out. I sounded like some chick going all dreamy over some hot guy, yech! But, damn, Harry Potter could earn the likings of anyone he pleased, being women or men, for that matter. And he sure caught me somewhere down the line, and I'm not really sure when he did so. All I knew now is that he had me, and he had me good.
----------------------------
"Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get out,
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get it out of here,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you."
----------------------------
Oh yeah, I was describing him for you. Yeah, back to that. Ok. His bloody perfect body, which of course had lately become toned quite nicely, always was wearing the perfectly fitting clothes that clung to his body revealing every line on his toned stomach and just about every damn toned muscle he possessed. I could just imagine running my hands over his bare chest and lightly sucking on his neck, bringing him completely under my control. Ok seriously stop! Since when did I fantasize doing unspoken things to a guy, and Harry Potter nonetheless? Was I gay?! 'Oh God, that's just wrong.' But as I told myself this, I couldn't help but think of how much my attraction to girls had decreased over the years. Girls with all their makeup, flirty giggles, and annoying drama shows were enough of a turn off for anyone. Potter, on the other hand, well, he was different. He was different than everyone else. And I felt so different with him. I could be myself and remove the mask from my face, and he wouldn't even shudder. I found all this a bit overwhelming and decided that I had to see him again, and that it would have to be soon. I just hoped Potter was having the same clinging thoughts I was, back in his own carriage.
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"Lost, lost, lost, lost, lost, lost, lost, lost,
I'm just as lost as you,
What am I going to do?
I'm afraid I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther than I wanna be,
I'm afraid I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther away!"
----------------------------
We pulled up at Hogwarts and soon I was walking up the stairs to the school. I was ready to put my plan in action as soon as possible, but little did I know, that this idea was the first of a year I wouldn't soon forget.
----------------------------
"Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get out,
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get it out of here,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you.
Am I breaking you down?
I'm just as lost as you.
Am I breaking you down?"
----------------------------
a/n: alright ok I reread it and I guess it's not that bad...lol...just to let you know, the next chapter is going to be written in Harry's POV because I started writing it as Draco's with a whole different idea, but I like this one tons better!! And I don't know if that makes sense because well Draco is telling the story...but some of the songs I want to use need to be in Harry's POV and especially the next chapter so I hope you think that's ok!! Let me know in a review ;)!!
Good news about the art thing!!! I have the links!! (although you might have to copy and paste them into your web browser) The first picture is just a picture of Harry and Draco with Draco kissing Harry's cheek in a kind of "Precious Moments" type of the second is of Chapter 1 where Draco takes Harry's hand in his...Draco's hand is on top and is wearing the TO THERESA VO FOR HER ART!!! SHE'S DRAWING MORE AS WE SPEAK!! LOL!
Thanks to all my reviewers!! (Had a lot for chapter 4!! ) and I hope you enjoyed chapter 5!! Go ahead and read chapter 6!! :D got it all done...double post you lucky people!! Lol...
Here's the Thank yous:
Lil' Eowyn: Alright I know we have been through a lot of shit lately and I'm glad that we're all good again...I really didn't like fighting with you...it's not worth losing you over a stupid story that's why I said I'd get rid of it completely!! And yeah I want to be your beta reader so go ahead and send me your chapters!!! :D Hope you liked chapter 5 and that you'll like Chapter 6!! Worked hard on them so I hope you enjoy them!!! Next time we talk I'll have to send you those fics I recommend...Luv ya lots!! Thanks for the review and I hope I see ya soon!!
Emily Potter (my evil twin!! :P just kidding!! Luv ya!!): Thanks for the review even if you didn't get to put it on the site yet!! Hopefully some time you will :P but the fact is you read it and you liked it so thanks a lot!! Talk to you soon!! Love you always!!
InnocentXiles: Theresa Vo, thanks for all your editing (although you didn't have to do ANY for chapter 5 and 6...I must be improving!! and your art is fantastic!! Lol your review is funny and no you didn't have to join the site to review :P lol...Thanks for reviewing!!
BlackStar: The "Best damn slash ever"...???!!! aww thanks Amanda blushes and I updated so yay be happy!! dances with her!
Amanda Flint: lol your review made me laugh so hard!! Thanks a lot and glad your enjoying it!! I'll be sure to mail you the chapters this summer!!
Sasette: lol I know what you mean about thinking like that about Draco. But, don't worry Harry came along and it was all good!! Hope you keep enjoying the story and that you liked these chapters I just posted!!! Thanks for the review!!
Ilovejosh: Thanks for the review!! Hope you keep enjoying it!!
THANKS TO EVERYONE!!!! GO READ CHAPTER 6!!!
Love, Pat
Oh yeah this chapter is dedicated to one of my very good friends on here, and lately we got into this little fight that neither of us should have been in and I love her to death and she knows that so this chapter is dedicated to my most faithful reviewer and good friend, Bexi but her penname is Lil'Eowyn, and I recommend you check out her stories...they are very good, VERY!! I extremely enjoy them!!! She is a fantastic writer and a great person!! Check them out!!
The song used in this chapter is called "Still Frame" by Trapt. AND NO, I DO NOT OWN IT :P!!
----------------------------
Chapter 5: Still Frame
"Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get out,
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get it out of here,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you."
----------------------------
Before I knew it, we had reached the train station in Hogsmeade. I hopped off the steps still thinking about my meeting with Potter. Why did he hold onto my hand like that? How could someone's hands be as soft as an angel's as his were? How come he cared so much as to convince me not to kill myself? And even more, what made me listen to the Gryffindor?
Pansy yelled to me, motioning that she had found an empty carriage that would take us to Hogwarts. I began making my way over to her when I suddenly felt the gaze if someone's eyes watching my every movement. I turned my head and met eyes with the very person that seemed to be taking complete control of my mind. He nodded slightly, and even though he was quite far down the line, I swear I saw him smile slightly. He turned and climbed up into his carriage following the shock of bright red hair.
----------------------------
"And every time I think I've finally made it,
I learn I'm farther away than I've ever been before,
I see the clock and it's ticking away,
And the hourglass empty,
What the fuck do I have to say?"
----------------------------
"Draco, come on! God, what is your problem today?! First you left for almost a whole hour on the train—"Pansy began going off at me.
I heard nothing more, even if her mouth was still going. I climbed into the carriage and peered out the window. My mind was clouded once again by The-Boy-Who-Lived. I sighed softly, laying my head against the side of the carriage and closed my eyes.
----------------------------
"Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get out,
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get it out of here,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you."
----------------------------
We started moving by now and I was deep in my pool of thoughts. Harry Potter was starting to become a big part of my emotions. But who was I kidding? Harry Potter had always been a big part of my emotions. He angered and attracted me as no one ever had before. Our meeting on the train showed me a part of him I had never seen before. He cared for me; there was no doubt about that. I mean but think about that: Harry Potter cares for Draco Malfoy? Sounds like something out of some kind of fairytale dream miracle with those cheesy "they lived happily ever after" endings. Well, with the way my life was going I doubted I could ever even come close to one of these endings.
----------------------------
"Keep it inside,
The image portrayed as if I couldn't stand losing,
As if I couldn't be saved, no way.
A small confession, I think I'm starting to lose it.
I think I'm drifting away from the people I really need.
A small reflection on when we were younger,
We had it all figured out,
'cause we had everything covered.
Now we're older it's getting harder to see
what this future will hold for us,
what the fuck are we going to be?"
----------------------------
Harry Potter had to be one of the most perfect human being I have ever come in contact with. To start, he had the messiest jet-black hair I had ever seen, but it fit him exactly in every single hair that stuck out of place. His black locks ran into his gorgeous emerald eyes, and I know that sound cheesy, but damn you gotta see these eyes to believe it: they are drop-dead gorgeous, that made his face bright and striking to look at. He had this flawless creamy skin that looked as soft as a baby's bottom (a/n: lol you know it's true), which was lightly tanned no doubt from the sun this past summer. And to top his beautiful face of are those lips he possessed. His pink lips looked like soft pillows waiting for another to lie atop them and kiss him softly. How many times had I wished I could crawl into his arms and kiss those perfect lips and force our tongues together in a kind of battle of wills and of pleasure. Heh I was really starting to creep myself out. I sounded like some chick going all dreamy over some hot guy, yech! But, damn, Harry Potter could earn the likings of anyone he pleased, being women or men, for that matter. And he sure caught me somewhere down the line, and I'm not really sure when he did so. All I knew now is that he had me, and he had me good.
----------------------------
"Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get out,
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get it out of here,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you."
----------------------------
Oh yeah, I was describing him for you. Yeah, back to that. Ok. His bloody perfect body, which of course had lately become toned quite nicely, always was wearing the perfectly fitting clothes that clung to his body revealing every line on his toned stomach and just about every damn toned muscle he possessed. I could just imagine running my hands over his bare chest and lightly sucking on his neck, bringing him completely under my control. Ok seriously stop! Since when did I fantasize doing unspoken things to a guy, and Harry Potter nonetheless? Was I gay?! 'Oh God, that's just wrong.' But as I told myself this, I couldn't help but think of how much my attraction to girls had decreased over the years. Girls with all their makeup, flirty giggles, and annoying drama shows were enough of a turn off for anyone. Potter, on the other hand, well, he was different. He was different than everyone else. And I felt so different with him. I could be myself and remove the mask from my face, and he wouldn't even shudder. I found all this a bit overwhelming and decided that I had to see him again, and that it would have to be soon. I just hoped Potter was having the same clinging thoughts I was, back in his own carriage.
----------------------------
"Lost, lost, lost, lost, lost, lost, lost, lost,
I'm just as lost as you,
What am I going to do?
I'm afraid I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther than I wanna be,
I'm afraid I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther away,
I'm falling farther away!"
----------------------------
We pulled up at Hogwarts and soon I was walking up the stairs to the school. I was ready to put my plan in action as soon as possible, but little did I know, that this idea was the first of a year I wouldn't soon forget.
----------------------------
"Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get out,
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
This picture's frozen and I can't get it out of here,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you,
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you.
Am I breaking you down?
I'm just as lost as you.
Am I breaking you down?"
----------------------------
a/n: alright ok I reread it and I guess it's not that bad...lol...just to let you know, the next chapter is going to be written in Harry's POV because I started writing it as Draco's with a whole different idea, but I like this one tons better!! And I don't know if that makes sense because well Draco is telling the story...but some of the songs I want to use need to be in Harry's POV and especially the next chapter so I hope you think that's ok!! Let me know in a review ;)!!
Good news about the art thing!!! I have the links!! (although you might have to copy and paste them into your web browser) The first picture is just a picture of Harry and Draco with Draco kissing Harry's cheek in a kind of "Precious Moments" type of the second is of Chapter 1 where Draco takes Harry's hand in his...Draco's hand is on top and is wearing the TO THERESA VO FOR HER ART!!! SHE'S DRAWING MORE AS WE SPEAK!! LOL!
Thanks to all my reviewers!! (Had a lot for chapter 4!! ) and I hope you enjoyed chapter 5!! Go ahead and read chapter 6!! :D got it all done...double post you lucky people!! Lol...
Here's the Thank yous:
Lil' Eowyn: Alright I know we have been through a lot of shit lately and I'm glad that we're all good again...I really didn't like fighting with you...it's not worth losing you over a stupid story that's why I said I'd get rid of it completely!! And yeah I want to be your beta reader so go ahead and send me your chapters!!! :D Hope you liked chapter 5 and that you'll like Chapter 6!! Worked hard on them so I hope you enjoy them!!! Next time we talk I'll have to send you those fics I recommend...Luv ya lots!! Thanks for the review and I hope I see ya soon!!
Emily Potter (my evil twin!! :P just kidding!! Luv ya!!): Thanks for the review even if you didn't get to put it on the site yet!! Hopefully some time you will :P but the fact is you read it and you liked it so thanks a lot!! Talk to you soon!! Love you always!!
InnocentXiles: Theresa Vo, thanks for all your editing (although you didn't have to do ANY for chapter 5 and 6...I must be improving!! and your art is fantastic!! Lol your review is funny and no you didn't have to join the site to review :P lol...Thanks for reviewing!!
BlackStar: The "Best damn slash ever"...???!!! aww thanks Amanda blushes and I updated so yay be happy!! dances with her!
Amanda Flint: lol your review made me laugh so hard!! Thanks a lot and glad your enjoying it!! I'll be sure to mail you the chapters this summer!!
Sasette: lol I know what you mean about thinking like that about Draco. But, don't worry Harry came along and it was all good!! Hope you keep enjoying the story and that you liked these chapters I just posted!!! Thanks for the review!!
Ilovejosh: Thanks for the review!! Hope you keep enjoying it!!
THANKS TO EVERYONE!!!! GO READ CHAPTER 6!!!
Love, Pat