Chapter 7
AN: This chapter would probably be rated R because of all the cursing. Yeah...this story has a lot of cursing. I'm really sorry about that... I don't like to put up with a lot of cursing, but...well, it's Psymon so what do you expect? Also, this is set in SSX Tricky, so I did not intend for that to be Allegra. Sorry for that!!! ^_^;;
"We need to talk," Psymon said gruffly as he grabbed Mac's arm and turned him around.
Mac glared at him, but otherwise said nothing as he followed Psymon to his hotel room.
"Look," Psymon said as he closed the door behind him, "I know you love Kaori, and I know that you probably would like to rip my kidney out and smash it into oblivion, but let's look at the facts,"
"What facts? I left; you took the time to snuggle with my girl. End of story. Now I kick your ass and get my girl back,"
"Fraser..." Psymon said dangerously, "Don't fuck with me. This isn't the movies, understand? I...liked...I liked her too, okay? She came to my hotel room this morning and told me..." Psymon voice trailed off. He sighed and fell over one of the lounge chairs.
Mac raised an eyebrow, "What'd she tell you?"
"She...loves...me..." Psymon mumbled, "But look, that's not the point. The point is that she's completely insane right now. She doesn't know what she wants,"
"I know what she wants," Mac said heatedly, "She wants you."
"What do you want?" Psymon demanded, his voice level raising to a shout, "What do you want, Mac? What do you need from me?"
"I WANT KAORI!" Mac yelled as he hurled his fists into Psymon chest.
Psymon grunted and pushed Mac away. Both men were breathing heavily now, staring at each other in complete hatred. "You can't have everything you want," Psymon muttered darkly, "You can't have everything you want."
"What do you want?" Mac hissed, "You want Kaori?"
"No." Psymon knew he was lying, but continued nonetheless, "I toyed with her. I only messed with her. I never wanted her. I never loved her," he knew it was a lie…but he needed to sort everything out. He needed to push Kaori away, he needed to fix what he'd done…he needed to change again.
"This is bullshit...." Mac sighed and took of his beanie, running his hands through his hair and choking back his tears, "I come back to compete and I find out Kaori is fucking around with her rival,"
"It only got as far as a kiss,
Fraser," Psymon said angrily, "And what about you?
Did you take advantage of her? She's so fucking easy to manipulate, Mac. Did
you take advantage of her?"
"No." Mac said quickly, "Kaori
and I...never..."
Psymon rolled his eyes, "I thought you would have by now. She's so easy to play with. She immediately loves anyone who can just treat her right,"
"You..." Mac's voice trailed off, "You..."
"I was good to her, if that's what you mean."
Mac sighed, "What're we going to do?"
"I don't know," Psymon said, "I don't love her. You love her. She loves me.
I got that down."
"I want her..." Mac whispered, "I love her...I can't leave her..."
Psymon's eyes flew to the window.
"Why did you come onto her? Obviously you have feelings for her too, Stark." Mac muttered fiercely.
Psymon only shrugged, "I dunno. When...I walked her to her hotel room that night..."
"What?"
"I walked her to her hotel room one night, and I needed something to hold onto. I never actually liked her particularly, but she was the easiest thing to grab,"
Mac's face contorted slowly into a rage, "You...needed something? Anything? And you chose Kaori? Because she's so 'easy to manipulate'?"
Psymon grinned lazily, "Yep,"
"You bastard!" Mac hurled himself at Psymon. Psymon grabbed Mac's shoulders roughly and threw him aside.
"DO NOT EVER FUCK WITH ME, FRASER." Psymon whispered, his voice quivering with anger, "YOU CAN'T HURT ME. I don't feel the snow on my body when I board. I don't feel emotion when I fuck. I don't feel love when she's near me. I don't feel anything, Mac."
Mac was panting, his fists curled up into a ball. "Where is she?"
"She left."
"Where?"
"I don't know. Now get the hell out of my hotel room before I fucking kill you."
***
Zoe sighed and knocked on Psymon's door impatiently.
"Psy?" she shouted, "Psy? You there? We need to talk!"
Psymon opened the door slowly and rubbed his eyes.
Zoe took a step back, "Whoa, someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed,"
"Yeah, well, you know me," Psymon grinned.
"Looks like someone is back to their normal self," Zoe commented and returned the smile, "So did you hear? Mac is back,"
"Yeah." Psymon rolled his eyes, "The punk is bunkin' with me,"
"Really?" Zoe couldn't help but laugh, "That's interesting."
"You wanna come in, or are you gonna stand there all day?"
"So," Zoe said as she made herself comfortable on the sofa, "how are you and Mac faring out? Talk to him yet?"
Psymon laughed, "Yeah, Mac and I are real pals, let me tell you,"
"Okay, then, tell me," Zoe said, "Amuse me,"
"Zoe." Psymon said seriously, "I'm going to tell you something and oyu cannot interrupt me."
"Okay, shoot,"
"Kaori...and I..."
"Ohimgod..." Zoe whispered, "It's true..."
Psymon stopped immediately. "What?"
"It's true...."
"I said no interruptions," Psymon said sarcastically, "What're you talking about?"
"Brodi and I talked..."
"What?"
"I talked to Brodi, Psy. I thought I would come here and...see if the rumors were true,"
"Who knows?" Psymon muttered, his eyes glued to the floor.
"Eddie and Brodi and I. But," Zoe added hastily, "No one else knows and Eddie isn't even sure about it. It's no big deal but I just wanted to come over and confirm that. I mean...you changed a lot...you stopped talking to me,"
"I know, and I'm sorry," Psymon mumbled.
"How's tattoo boy?" Zoe dared herself to ask, "He still hates me?"
"No." Psymon said, "Tattoo boy thinks that he's been a jerk and wants to say he's sorry for being a jackass,"
"Well..." Zoe said playfully, "Tattoo boy is forgiven."
"Tattoo boy doesn't like Kaori..." Psymon was really talking to himself on that...and in someway, convincing himself. It was a lie. Psymon was lying to himself. He was pushing her away, and he knew that. He was trying to escape his actions.
Zoe smiled, "Psy, I missed you..."
Psymon didn't return the smile, "Well...you know..."
"Tell me everything. Please, tell me everything that's happened,"
***
Mac kicked the chair and sent it flying into the wall. He couldn't find her. He was taking his anger out on the chairs in the ballroom of the hotel, which was currently unoccupied. However, Mac didn't notice the door slowly open.
"Mac?"
Mac turned around and saw Eddie and Elise staring at him.
"When did you come back?" Elise asked cautiously.
"Yesterday..." he muttered darkly, "Have you guys seen Kaori?"
Eddie shook his head. "Nah, man. What's up?"
"You wanna know what's up?" Mac said furiously, his voice raising to a shout, "She's in love with Psymon and she doesn't even know I'm back. I have to find her,"
Elise let out a small gasp, "What're you talking about? Psymon? Are we talking about the same Psymon?"
Mac nodded.
"This ain't good..." Eddie said slowly, "Where do you think she could be?"
"I dunno. I talked to Psymon this morning and he said she came to him this morning but left..."
Elise sighed and exchanged glances with Eddie, "You don't think...she's at...?"
Eddie shook his head, "Nah, she can't be boarding. Razzle told us it wasn't stable. Speaking of, we should phone Razz and let him have the 4-1-1."
"No," Mac said hastily, "Rahzel would just get pissed,"
"We need Psymon." Elise said quietly, "Look, Mac. I know that this is really hard for you to take, and this is probably the worst day of your life so far, but we really need Psymon. Eddie," Elise said quickly, "call Zoe on her cell phone and tell her to meet us in the ballroom and I'll call Brodi. Mac, you need to get Psymon,"
Mac kept silent. He had been thinking of his life with Kaori...the time they spent together in the hotel.
He still loved her, after all that she had done.
***
Zoe glanced at her phone and silently cursed. She had finally gotten Psymon to open up to her, and now Eddie wanted something.
Psymon sighed, "I'm sorry,"
Zoe offered a weak smile, "It's not your fault, Psy. Kaori...just...well..." Zoe shrugged and answered her phone.
"Zo?"
"Ed?"
"Meet us down in the ballroom. Kaori's missing and we're gonna go on an all out search,"
"Ohmigod...where
is she?"
"We don't know, babe, that's why it's called a 'search', catch me?"
Zoe rolled her eyes, "Yeah, yeah, I'll be down in a minute," she snapped her cell shut and exchanged looks with Psymon.
"What?"
"Come with me. We have to go to the ballroom. Kaori's missing."
"Fuck."
***
Kaori grabbed her board and left the hotel as quickly as possible. She didn't care anymore. She didn't care...
Psymon had meant the world to her, as of last night, but...Mac...she had done this to Mac. She closed her eyes and let a tear fall down her cheek.
She made her way to the lifts (which was next to the hotel for the SSX circuit's convenience) after showing her ID.
She couldn't be kept inside a hotel room with her thoughts. She had to be out boarding. She knew she had just recently healed from her injuries, but she didn't care anymore. Her cell phone buzzed and flashed, but after looking at the number (it was Zoe) she chose to ignore the call. She was going to Aloha Ice Jam, even if Rahzel said there were potential dangers on the course.
***
Mac, Eddie, Brodi, and Elise were out in the lobby.
"We looked everywhere..." Mac mumbled. "Where could she go? She still hasn't fully healed from her shove,"
Elise sighed, "I dunno, kid. I think we're going to have to head down to the lifts to see if they saw any small Japanese girl,"
"I just hope she didn't do anything drastic." Brodi whispered, "She's just a little child. Barely eighteen,"
"Yeah, well, we gotta find her. I'm heading towards Ice Jam, okay?" Mac said heatedly, "I'm not going to let her go."
"After what has happened?" Elise asked.
"I still love her. With all my heart."
Elise smiled and put a comforting hand on Mac's shoulder, "You are amazing, Mac."
"Yeah, I know I am."
"Wait!" Zoe came running out of the elevators with Psymon right behind, "Wait!"
Elise glared at Psymon dangerously. As soon as he appeared, she marched right up to him and slapped him across the face. "Fuck you," she hissed.
"Yeah, I love you too,"
Elise rolled her eyes. "You have a lot of nerve, you know that?"
"Yeah. I love you too," Psymon repeated, "Now get out of my way." Psymon's board was hanging over his shoulder and he met Mac's eyes. "I'm going to check it out at the lifts. It's the only place she could be."
"I'm coming with you." Mac said quickly, "So don't try anything stupid."
Psymon grunted, "Get your board. I don't have all day,"