DISCLAIMER: Well I don't own the Inuyasha characters they belong to Rumiko Takahashi well this is done so don't sue us.

AUTHOR: Melian and Luthien.

GENRE: Romance/Drama.

RAITING: R

SUMMARY: By this time you already know the summary so don't need to place it here again..

PAIRING: Sesshoumaru/Kikyou all the way

A/N: Sorry for taking so long to update but now is more difficult Melian left due to collage things so I'm alone with this fic...so the updates will be a bit...well you understand to now work alone in a fic but I promise you I will do everything I can to keep the good work.

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'Amour En La France'
Chap. IV: Explanations.

The dim sun rays were softly crepting through the window lightly illuminating it with the soft light, the soft and brilliant cherry wood of the piano beautifully bathed by the dim afternoon light. The room was in complete silence except for the soft and pained sobs that were filling the room, a young and mature man with auburn hair, very deep gray blue orbs and really handsome let the raven haired girl that was in his arms cry freely on his chest, one of his hands was currently caressing her soft silk hair as a reassuring way to let her know everything will be okay and that it was okay to cry.

It was almost like a tradition now, every time Kikyou needed advice, someone mature to talk to or a shoulder to cry her soul and heart out she always went to her professor and friend Michael Parker. In all the time she has been there Michael easily became a real close friend he was almost like an older brother to her, but even though he was such a good friend she still feel ashamed that he was seeing her cry so desperately and bitterly but she didn't have no else to run to cause it was obvious she couldn't go to Sesshoumaru...he was to busy anyway.

"Are you feeling better Kikyou?" Michael smooth and manly voice asked

"Yes...I'm a little better" Kikyou answered between sobs "Thank you"

"It's okay Kikyou" He replied as he watched the girl slowly moving away from his arms "Care to tell me what happened?"

"No...nothing" she lied as her hands tenderly wiped the last tears away "Nothing's wrong"

"Are you sure Kikyou?" He asked as he crossed his arms in front of his chest "Something must be really wrong to make you cry like that"

"It's nothing" She looked down at her hands not wanting to look at his eyes "It's nothing important"

"Okay Kikyou" He let a small sigh escape his mouth "I wont obligate you to tell me was wrong...but I wont be able to help you if I don't know was wrong"

"Is just that I...well..." She looked up at his calm and handsome face as he awaited for her to continue "Is just that I find Sesshoumaru and Elly together in his room and she was naked"

"Oh...so that was it" He softly said as he looked away from her "Did you wait for an explanation?"

"An explanation!!!!" Kikyou practically spat at him "It was pretty obvious...what will you have though if you saw Zara with other man in this same situation"

"Maybe like you did" Michael answered but looked back at her "But I wouldn't had run away I will had ordered for an explanation"

"Yeah...but I'm not as strong as you are Michael" She softly said as she looked away "When I saw them I felt heartbroken and empty"

"Look Kikyou I know how that feels" He said as he placed a hand on her shoulders "I went through that too...but maybe you must seek for an explanation don't you think? Because just maybe you misunderstood everything"

"Well...I...maybe..." She kept her stare on her hands "But what if I didn't misunderstood?"

"Well maybe you should seek the explanation before to get to that conclusion Kikyou" He wisely advised as he looked down at the pondering girl "Kikyou?"

"Maybe I should ask for an explanation...but what if he confirms my thoughts" She softly said as she looked up at him "I'm not ready...my heart's not ready to hear that"

"Okay Kikyou I understand...first put your thoughts and feelings in order and the you ask for that explanation" He said as he gently squeezed her shoulder in a reassuring way "And when you think you're ready to hear his explanation you will do it okay?"

"Yes...thank you Michael" She softly smiled at him "What will I do without you?"

"Well I think you will be totally lost" He softly replied but she glared at him "Yeah and I will also be lost without you"

She happily smiled now "That's better" she stood up "Thank you again Michael"

"Anytime" He replied as he also stood up "You know you can always count with me"

"Yeah I know thanks" She walked to the door "Well I should leave now or you will get late to your date"

"Okay see you later then" He said as he turned away from her

Kikyou exited Michael's classroom still pondering on his words maybe and just maybe she did misunderstood what happened...but could there be any reason for Elly to be naked in Sesshoumaru's room besides the one she had on mind but what other reason could it be, now her mind was really messed up maybe she will think better if she was well rested so she walked to her room. She opened the door of her bedroom, really not bothering in changing her clothes, she laid on her bed sank her head on the soft pillows as she let sleep brace her in such a comfortable and tender embrace that will made her forget her worries and pain for some hours.

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An entire week passed by an still Kikyou didn't find an answer for her problems, she had tried really hard to place her thought and feelings in order to speak with Sesshoumaru and heard his explanation but every time she thought she had just made it she would chicken out and back away from him. To her utter inner pain she has been avoiding him all that week every time she stepped in the same room or place where he was she would leave and she will run away from him wherever he wanted to talk with her...she couldn't bear to hear the true coming from his lips.

Strangely to her this experience hurt at least a thousand times more than the time she found out Naraku was cheating on her with her 'Best friend' but why did his betrayal hurt that much? Sesshoumaru had only been a friend and nothing more then why she felt so sad, so hurt, so played, so betrayed...it wasn't like if he had been her boyfriend. It was in that moment that realization hit her the truth that she didn't wanted to accept...she was in love with him but he wasn't in love with her, sometimes she thought he did felt something more than friendship for her but she was just foolish to believe that he will fell in love for someone like her...How could she be so foolish? Maybe Elly was right maybe she was just to little for him to notice her in that way.

After awhile she decided to stay in her room only going out to go to her classes and to eat something, of course that her friend Tali had tried to cheer her up and made her feel better even though Kikyou appreciated her efforts she didn't had wishes to do anything without him, she really missed to talk with him, to hang out with him, to laph with him, to do almost everything with him...slowly she forgot Michael's advice to hear his explanation, her sadness and pain buried it really deep in her mind.

It was almost lunch time and Kikyou was now starving she had been working in her assignment to Zara's class for almost four hours now, even though she was pained and depressed she didn't let that made her work lower, and now she needed something to eat, she walked out of her room and to the cafeteria to have lunch. She entered to the cafeteria and sighed when she didn't see neither Tali or Michael with Zara there, she went to get something to eat after finding a table she started to eat silently and only wishing for Sesshoumaru not to appear there while she was having lunch she still didn't wanted to see him, she finished her lunch and stood up to leave the cafeteria

"Why are you avoiding me Kikyou?" A real familiar voice said making her stop dead in her tracks.

"I don't know what you're talking about Sesshoumaru?" She lied to him but she didn't dare to turn around to see him

"Of course you know what I'm talking about?" He calmly said to her "Now tell me why?"

"I have been busy" She answered to him still not looking at him "I have been doing a lot of important things"

"Are those 'things' more important than me?" He asked still calm and serene

"Yes, they are" She answered a little sadly "I need to do these things to help me in my studies"

He sighed softly and looked at her back "Why are you lying to me Kikyou?"

"I'm not lying" She softly said "Now I need to go I have other things to do"

"Before you go I need to explain you something" He saw her half flinch when he said this "It's referring to the time when you find Elly in my room...it was..."

"Don't need to explain me anything" She said trying to prevent her tears from falling through her eyes "I perfectly understood...bye"

Before Sesshoumaru could say something more Kikyou left the cafeteria not wanting to know that piece of information that will either destroy or mend her heart that's why she didn't wanted to know...at least not yet. She went outside really not wanting to return to her room it was obvious Sesshoumaru will go look for her there and she really didn't wanted to see him at least not after what had just happened, she walked through the gardens till she finally got to a small pond with a small cherry wood bridge crossing over it, she walked to it and stopped to watch her reflection on the water in that little time she had changed she now looked more...weary and sad. Finally a pretty girl with shoulder length fire red hair and deep shiny black orbs was now standing besides her.

"Hello Tali" Kikyou softly said to the girl besides her "How are you?"

"I'm fine, but here the proper question should be...How are you?" Tali kindly asked but Kikyou didn't answer as she kept looking at her water reflection "I know how you feel towards him...why don't you hear his explanation?"

"I don't need too hear it" Kikyou calmly said as she threw a small pebble that was over the bridge as their reflection mixed "The explanation is obvious"

"Don't be such a stubborn woman...it was only a set up Elly made!!!" Tali angrily yelled at Kikyou that was now looking at her "She told to her friends to talk about her being in Sesshoumaru's room while you were around, it was all a plan to break you apart"

"Oh...really" Kikyou softly said still not believing her words "How do you explain that Elly was naked on his room?"

"Well you know all that stuff about this new flow of using naked women on paints and well Elly was his model for a paint he was supposed to present as a final semester exam" Tali said as Kikyou looked surprised as hell "Maybe he was arranging her head"

"Oh...I forgot about that...he told me his professor decided to insert that new art flow in his classes" Kikyou said and looked down "How could I forget that?...I just misunderstood"

"But that's not the worse part my friend" Tali looked at her friend that was currently looking at her "The worse part was is that Sesshoumaru decided to stop using Elly as a model, if he doesn't present that paint he will surely fail this semester and he will be a step away from his dream"

"Oh my God, why I'm such a fool?...I need to help him" Kikyou looked at Tali and smiled happily "Tali...can you be Sesshoumaru's new model?"

"WHAT!?" Tali practically chocked

"Oww...come on" Kikyou begged like a small girl "Please...and I promise I will never ask for another favor in my life"

"That's sounds tempting" Tali pondered as she placed her hands on Kikyou's shoulder "But I'm afraid I won't be able to...I'm Angel Mikhail model already"

"Oh...umm...so you're a model already...what should I do now?" Kikyou looked up at Tali that was currently smiling an small blush came to her cheeks "Oh...it's true it was my fault but...umm"

"Now you get it" Tali giggled when she saw her friend in such a state "Come on we still have time"

Sesshoumaru was laying on his bed thinking like he has been doing that entire week, he knew Kikyou was angry and hurt about the fact of finding Elly naked in his room and he had really wanted to explain her why she was there in the first place but she never let him do it, he knew something like that will happen if she found out that he was ordered to use Elly as a model for his final semester exam that's why he kept it as a secret from her but it was obvious Elly thought otherwise. Of course he knew Elly was a crazy bitch but not at that grade was she so desperate to tear them apart?.

He had been so angry that he decided to never end his paint and fail the exam so he wouldn't have to see her again, of course he had been disappointed that he will be a step behind but not as much a Kikyou's sadness and coldness. It was strange usually he wouldn't have bothered to restore a friendship with any other girl usually he would just find another one, but she was different because he did appreciated her, she had been really caring and when he needed some words of support or even advise she was always there to give it to him really it was to much for a simple friendship...what if he was in love with her? But that couldn't be he had promised to himself never to love again not after what happened with Rin, he didn't wanted that feeling to be taken away and suffer again.

A knock on his door brought him back to reality, a little reluctantly he raised from his bed really he didn't wanted to see no one in that moment so he would only had to tell whoever it was to go away really not caring who it was. Slowly he opened the door an the plan to tell whoever it was to go away when he saw who it was, outside his room was the person that plagued his thoughts with a shy smile on her face...

"Umm...Hi" Kikyou softly greeted him "Umm...may I come in?"

"Sure" He answered to the raven girl

"Umm...thanks" She walked inside and heard the door closing behind her "How are you?"

"I'm...fine" He looked over at Kikyou that was currently looking at a painting "Kikyou why..."

"Look I'm sorry okay" She abruptly interrupted him still looking over at the paint "I really am"

"Kikyou" He softly called her as she slowly turned to look at him "I really need to..."

"No, you don't need to I already know" She interrupted him again and looked at him sadly "Tali already told me and I'm sorry for my fault you don't have a model anymore and I know that to become a painter is really important to you just like for me is to become a pianist...I really didn't acted as a friend towards you...you were always giving me support and now I didn't gave it back to you"

"Kikyou it's not your fault, it's Elly's fault" He reassuringly said to her but she was still looking sadly at him "You don't need to apologize, besides if I put more dedication I will be able to pass it next year"

"No, it's not fair that you get a step behind your dream, that's why I..." She started to blush and looked away as she played nervously with a hair lock "I...I...I...well...umm...I will be your new model"

"What?" He couldn't believe her words was she really serious "Well thank you but I think the professor needs to authorize this"

"I know he needs to" She took out a paper and handed it out for him to take it "See"

"Umm" He took the paper from Kikyou hand, he saw the professor writing giving authorization to change Elly for Kikyou "Umm...I see"

"Umm...yeah" She said as she looked up at him "So if you want to present your paint on time we should start now"

"Kikyou well I..." He looked at her intently her decision and stubbornness present in her mahogany orbs "Fine let's start...go to the bathroom please"

Kikyou turned around "Okay I will be right back"

Kikyou walked to the bathroom she had been in his room a lot of times before so she perfectly knew where the bathroom was so she didn't need him to tell her where it was, she silently entered the bathroom she looked herself on the mirror she took a deep breath and turned around, a little bit nervous she started to strip from her clothes she really never imagined that the first time she will be seen naked will be to be immortalized on a paint that maybe a lot of persons will stare at, when she finished she slipped in a white bath robe she folded her clothes neatly and placed them on the counter before she stepped out.

'Umm....I'm kinda nervous but here goes nothing' Kikyou thought as she walked to him "So what should I do?"

"Nothing just relax" He said as he pointed her to go to a very antique couch "Just laid there"

"Umm...okay" she walked to it and sited on the soft cushions "So now I guess I only have to laid down, right?"

"Yes only lay down and relax" He instructed and looked strangely at her "But first take the robe off Kikyou"

"Oh...yeah I forgot about that" She nervously stood up she slowly slipped off the robe and hastily laid down "Like this"

"Yes like that" He said trying to hide his nervousness with a calm tone "Now just relax"

'Gosh I feel like that chick on Titanic' Kikyou thought as she relaxed a bit more "Umm...Sesshoumaru what was the name of the girl that acted on Titanic?"

He took a carbon pencil "Titanic?"

"Yeah you know the one where Leonardo di Caprio dies drown" She said trying to remember the movie "You know the red haired girl that was with him"

"Wasn't that Kate something?" He answered as he sharpened the pencil

"Oh yeah Kate Winslet...thank you" She softly said to him

"Umm...okay" He looked at her then at the linen "Now relax Kikyou and don't move to much" "Okay you're the artist here" She said

She took a deep breath and relaxed against the soft sofa cushions, how she wanted to leave running but she knew that was the only way she could help him to achieve his dream in the same way he had done with her in the past....

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Almost like a normal afternoon routine Kikyou laid on the couch relaxed and trying not to move to much as she watched him work on his paint, it was the first time she saw him work and it was quite an experience, it was obvious Sesshoumaru placed his heart and effort to his work she had never saw him so concentrated before, his intense gaze constantly changing from her to the linen was also new for her, he looked so handsome when he concentrated on his work and was then that she understood how the work of a artist was. After almost two weeks being his model she had lost all the nervousness of being naked in front of him but not quite assimilated the fact that the paint will be watched by other persons, she watched as the thin paintbrush seemed to float and gently move on his hands over the linen it was almost like the way her hands moved on the piano keys...she knew he will turn out to be an amazing artist.

"Well Kikyou, you can put the robe back on" He said as he took a deep breath as he admired the finally completed paint "Were done"

"Ohh...okay" She said as she stood up and slipped the robe back on "Umm...Sesshoumaru can I see it?"

"Of course you can Kikyou" He answered to her.

Kikyou timidly walked to him and she almost gasped when she saw the painting, it was really beautiful and perfect it almost looked like if she can easily touch her own skin on the linen she had never seen a paint that could cause that effect she almost seemed real like if she could easily walk away from the linen....

"Wow" She amazingly said as she examined the paint more "It's beautiful...even though I'm naked but still is really beautiful and perfect"

"Thank you" He said as he also looked over at the paint "You were a great model...so you will also deserve some recognition"

"Thanks and I'm glad I could help you over for a change" She said smiling and blushing as she placed a hand on his shoulder "Umm...by the way I'm returning to Japan"

"You're returning to Japan?" He looked over at her and she nodded slowly for a little instant he felt panic "You aren't giving up to your dream, right?" "No, I'm not leaving because I quit to my dream" She said as she smiled at him while he stood up "I'm returning because my mother is going to remarry and she wants me there for her wedding"

"So your mother is going to marry" He said strangely as he arranged his arts instruments on their respective places "In Japan" He turned around and she nodded slowly "Want some company?"

"So you're saying you want to come with me?" She happily asked and he nodded and she started to giggle softly "Okay I think it will do me good besides my sister wants to meet you plus you can take all the attention away from me"

"So I see my sweet friend will only use me for her own convenience" He said with a faked hurt voice but she only looked at him with a knowing expression "Damn you have been my friend to much time"

"Yes, I'm afraid so but maybe you can came out with something new next time" She turned around and started to walk to the bathroom "Well I will change back and then we can go to buy the tickets"

"Fine" He said as he resumed his work on his art tools

A little while later Kikyou came out of the bathroom fully clothed only to find him staring at the paint as if giving a last examination to it before finally gave it out to the professor, she walked to him and told him she was ready to leave he gave one last glance to the painting and turned around to leave with her.

Really deep inside her heart she was happy she will go to Japan with him and she was really looking forward for her family to meet him and she really hoped her family liked him especially Kagome...usually Kagome was the more exigent when it came to chose a boyfriend...but he wasn't her boyfriend even though she wanted to he wasn't, but who knows maybe in Japan something could happen between them.

And how right she was? That little trip to Japan will change their lives for either better or worse....

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Luthien: Well I hope you liked this I made some changes on this chap from the original and I hope you enjoyed this chapter as much as I did writing it and I hope I could make a good work without Melian here....well thanks to all the persons that took their time to review this chapter so this is dedicated to you...sorry for such a late update but is just that I have been busy in collage and watching 'Gravitation' but I will try to update every weekend well bye for now...oh and if someone wants to help me being my betta reader mail me...oh and I recomend you to read Miroku and Sango fics they are really good so well review and tell me what you think...no flames accepted.