Chapter 2! A Great big than you to everyone who reviewed. Tina, you don't
have to cry. (
Travis sat in the small office that Lily had taken him to earlier that morning. Lily sat in one chair, Travis in another. They held hands across their chairs. He looked at her with a look that plainly stated: "I'm terrified".
She gave his hand a reassuring squeeze. Truth be told, she was a little afraid, too. But not because they were here. She was terribly afraid for Travis. What if they didn't get through to him? He needed this help, before he did something they'd all regret.
Out of nowhere, the door opened, and a tall women entered, looking not a day older than 20, but promising.
"Hello. My name is Dr. Julian, and I'm going to be your counselor." She said. She had a calm voice and a smile on. Travis didn't look comforted.
"Now, which one of you has the problem with self-mutilation?" She said.
Travis, for the first time since we'd gotten here, spoke with a very shaky voice.
"M-Me."
"Okay. Well, ugh, I'm so sorry, but I don't have enough time right now to do a whole session. So how about we set one up for Saturday, 8:00, okay?" She said.
He appeared not to be able to say anything else, so he just nodded.
"Okay, great. By the way, what's your name? I haven't got my files with me." She asked.
Seeing that Travis had probably had enough, Lily spoke for him.
"His name's Travis. Strong." She said and stole a glance at him. His look said "Thank You". She nodded.
"You can exit the way you entered." She said.
Once they got outside, Travis breathed a sigh of relief.
"That was horrible. I don't know how I'm supposed to survive on Saturday!" He said.
"Travis, It'll be fine. You're gonna be okay. I'll be right there with you. I promise. Okay, right now, you need this more than anything. You need help."
He stared at her for a moment, then sighed.
"You're right." He said. "But it doesn't make me any less terrified." She could tell he was holding back tears.
"You know that's about the dumbest thing you could ever do, right? You could've gotten seriously hurt or worse! Why were you doing it anyway?" She said.
He looked away from then, and remained silent.
"Travis! Why were you doing it? Please, give me something!"
No more holding back. Tears were flowing down his face now.
"I won't laugh. Or, I won't think it's stupid. I just want to help. You know that." She said.
"It's just-it's not the kind of reason that you would think." He said.
"Well, so what? It doesn't matter! Just tell me! Why?" She said.
"Because I couldn't have you! Okay? I couldn't have you! I knew I couldn't do that to Ray! He loves you! And I couldn't take you! But...but, I loved you, too." He said. "And the pressure was just, to enormous and it took all my willpower not to ask you out, to touch your hand, your shoulder, anything. So, to release, I started to cut. There, are you happy? You got it out of me."
"Oh, God. Travis, I never knew-"She started.
"Of course you never knew! I couldn't tell you! Ray would've never spoken to me again! You guys—you're the only real friends I've ever had, and I wanted to keep it that way. But no matter what, I'm still going to Love you." He said.
She looked at him. The longest time before she gave u and collapsed in his arms and started to sob uncontrollably. He held to her fast. They stood there for hours and when Lily stopped crying, he still held on to her. When it started raining, he still held her, until she held her head up to look at him.
"I guess we should go in now, huh?" She said and laughed a little.
He smiled down at her, the rain had him soaked. He laughed and kissed her, deeply, with the rain falling in sheets all around them. They didn't mind. Just as long as they were in each others arms, they were completely safe.
Travis sat in the small office that Lily had taken him to earlier that morning. Lily sat in one chair, Travis in another. They held hands across their chairs. He looked at her with a look that plainly stated: "I'm terrified".
She gave his hand a reassuring squeeze. Truth be told, she was a little afraid, too. But not because they were here. She was terribly afraid for Travis. What if they didn't get through to him? He needed this help, before he did something they'd all regret.
Out of nowhere, the door opened, and a tall women entered, looking not a day older than 20, but promising.
"Hello. My name is Dr. Julian, and I'm going to be your counselor." She said. She had a calm voice and a smile on. Travis didn't look comforted.
"Now, which one of you has the problem with self-mutilation?" She said.
Travis, for the first time since we'd gotten here, spoke with a very shaky voice.
"M-Me."
"Okay. Well, ugh, I'm so sorry, but I don't have enough time right now to do a whole session. So how about we set one up for Saturday, 8:00, okay?" She said.
He appeared not to be able to say anything else, so he just nodded.
"Okay, great. By the way, what's your name? I haven't got my files with me." She asked.
Seeing that Travis had probably had enough, Lily spoke for him.
"His name's Travis. Strong." She said and stole a glance at him. His look said "Thank You". She nodded.
"You can exit the way you entered." She said.
Once they got outside, Travis breathed a sigh of relief.
"That was horrible. I don't know how I'm supposed to survive on Saturday!" He said.
"Travis, It'll be fine. You're gonna be okay. I'll be right there with you. I promise. Okay, right now, you need this more than anything. You need help."
He stared at her for a moment, then sighed.
"You're right." He said. "But it doesn't make me any less terrified." She could tell he was holding back tears.
"You know that's about the dumbest thing you could ever do, right? You could've gotten seriously hurt or worse! Why were you doing it anyway?" She said.
He looked away from then, and remained silent.
"Travis! Why were you doing it? Please, give me something!"
No more holding back. Tears were flowing down his face now.
"I won't laugh. Or, I won't think it's stupid. I just want to help. You know that." She said.
"It's just-it's not the kind of reason that you would think." He said.
"Well, so what? It doesn't matter! Just tell me! Why?" She said.
"Because I couldn't have you! Okay? I couldn't have you! I knew I couldn't do that to Ray! He loves you! And I couldn't take you! But...but, I loved you, too." He said. "And the pressure was just, to enormous and it took all my willpower not to ask you out, to touch your hand, your shoulder, anything. So, to release, I started to cut. There, are you happy? You got it out of me."
"Oh, God. Travis, I never knew-"She started.
"Of course you never knew! I couldn't tell you! Ray would've never spoken to me again! You guys—you're the only real friends I've ever had, and I wanted to keep it that way. But no matter what, I'm still going to Love you." He said.
She looked at him. The longest time before she gave u and collapsed in his arms and started to sob uncontrollably. He held to her fast. They stood there for hours and when Lily stopped crying, he still held on to her. When it started raining, he still held her, until she held her head up to look at him.
"I guess we should go in now, huh?" She said and laughed a little.
He smiled down at her, the rain had him soaked. He laughed and kissed her, deeply, with the rain falling in sheets all around them. They didn't mind. Just as long as they were in each others arms, they were completely safe.